Decisions.....& Choices

One is 39 years old and I have know her for almost 20 years. We have been in a relationship for almost 3/4's of that time. Been through hell with her and she has been there for me when I was in my times of need. She's a quiet person, doesn't hang out at night except with me on those rare occasions when she wants to go out. She isn't excalty a Jehovah Witness, but she walks in their steps. She drew the line when she was part of the Church when the Elders stated that she had to date within her Religion. Every New Years Eve for the last 6 years I have brought in The New Year with her. I've grown to her style and way of cooking which is healthy. Even though she sleeps in her own bed when I spend the night or weekends with her, our sex life is great. She has told me 'no' a total of 2 times in the whole time that I've known her. She is perfect in my eyes.

The other one is 47 years old. I've knew her when I was in 8th grade in Jr HS. She lived in my building one floor below me. Her brother was my best friend, he pasted away about 10 years ago. Back then, even though I was seeing another young lady, we both always had a thing for each other. About 5 months ago, she found me through Facebook, so we got together. This led to that and end of sleeping together. She has 2 grown boys, 25 & 27 years old. The later is in jail and due to be released in April. There are other issues that concern her and he boys, but I won't go into it. To me its a little uncomfortable. When we were reliving our past, hers to me, seems as if she always has to prove herself. Fights, police and arguements are nothibg new to her. She just moved into a new apartment and her 25 year old is there with her, he sleeps in the livingroom. She says she has love in her heart for me and I care for her a great deal, but there is a difference between the two of us. A difference that I have a hard time explaining to her. I guess she is at that age where sex doesn't mean to her as much as it means to me, which is a very big problem for me. 

Today I was suppsoe to meet her at her new place when she got off from work. I just started a new job and my hours are from 3am to 12pm. Its easier for me to leave from her place, trainstation one block away. She texts me at 5pm tells me she stayibg late to 9pm, so I go to my other friends house which is an hour and a half away and I have to take Metro North and then the train to work, no problem.

Like I said I have to make a decision...hard to do. Two different type of woman. One makes me totally happy, but lives a great distance away. The other is less than 1/2 hr away, but there are issues...main one is the lack of sex.

A New Place

This is the view from her new place, her apartment. Was there for about 3 hours, went shoppibg with her for curtains for all the rooms. Tried talkibg her into 'breaking' the apartment in, but she said that there was no bed. I told her that's why us older men love younger women, cause they know how to get down even if there isn't a bed avaiable. Now she's a littlw bit worried cause that's what I want and she doesn't feel comfortable doing that. Oh well.

Soh I went into the livibg room and sat down, took out my Kindle and started to read. She comes in and says that's what she likes most about me, that I'm always reading something. I told her to turn around, she did. I told her that from what I read on her ass, its says that its all mine.

Just a Rant, Less a Rave

Yesterday, I went to a childhood sweethearts apartment in which she is living with a friend. The friend and her husband were out of state, but the daughter, boyhfrind and their child were there. My friend was babysitting. First off, her reaction to haven't seen me in 3 weeks was cold. Hey, some things came up and I had to take time to even them out. My business is none of her business.

I went to kiss her, but she turn her cheek, told me that I was under punishment or something like that. She wanted to know where I've been at, told her nowhere just somethings I had to straighten out with family. So for 2 hours I sat there makibg small talk and she was really cold towards me...no problem. The kid parents came back home. Intorductions were made and they started having they're own conversations with out me. Me, I went online with her laptop.

I think inlformation is a key to everythibg that I do, I want to know about everything. I logged in to a news feed and they said that Whitney Houston had just died, I mentioned it to them. They didn't believe me. An hour later it camw on TV, now they believed. So I'm still going to websites, logged on to a magazine website to read what articles they had. One was of STD's, they had a registry or somethibg so I clicked on it. That's when all hell broke loose.

'What are you trying to say, checking to see if I'm clean?' No really, I was checking to see if my name was there. Of course she didn't believe that. I don't and didn't know what to say.