Okay name the band...without Googling it. Yeah I thought so. Well well well. Not all of us are well. 4ake the last couple of years, I'm surprised that I'm holding on.. barely.
From the outside she look great and smells great also. That is what gets me, it's there scent. Each woman has one or wants one. Some need one, and others don't. But hers got to me.
She knew it when 10 minutes into our conversation I asked. And smile..borderlining on a smirk formed on her lips. We both knew what was going to happen and had to happen next.
Fastforward to after. She asked me why her and I asked why let me. She said it was my eyes and I said it was her presence and then her eyes. I sort of knew her scent before I was close enough to smell her, take her in. And when I did.. She smells of warmth, coziness and something else I still to this day don't know what it is and was.
First time... I think I was more nervous than she was I'd anything. Too much of a good 'thing', 5h3 senses go into overflow and turn off. Can't perform, don't even try..relax and take it easy. None of that..it was perfect. She knows her body as well as I know mines. Arkward parting, didn't know what to say. 2 days later, I walked up to her when I seen her with friends, whispered in her ear..'Can I have again now?' She looked at me and said okay. Told her friends I'll talk with you later.
Afterwards we talked about everything and nothing. Are some point I saw something in her right eye and thought nothing of it. Went and got something to eat and walked her home. Next day went to call her, straight to voicemail. Next 4, 5 and then 18 days same thing. Saw one of her friends and she told me. Something snapped inside her head.
Something that made her hear voices and see dead relatives. Something that made her say my last name over and over I heard. You know I asked where is she, home I was told with her best friend. Can I see her? Let's go.
I saw something in both of her eyes, she knew who I was for a split second and then it was gone. Her scent still there, her voice still there but.. But that walk gone, more of a shuffle. Her body movements and expressions gone. Nothing there any more.
I heard of it happening to some and hearing it come from their Loved ones..I can feel the pain. I know what that feels like now. But you wanna know what's really messed up.
I saw a meme on FB that pertains to when a man it's that spot in a woman and it flips a switch. Did I flip that switch. Not boasting or anything like that but did or was I too much for her. I'm for real asking this question. Was it that much pleasure ndir her that it was over whelming and she snapped. I don't know and will never find out what happened.
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