Dreams

Was having this dream that I was falling off the bed and into the floor. Tried calling out.. Tried moving my legs, but I couldn't. Some how the dream went into repeat, and this time I was able to move my right arm to wave. I guess that was the answer because I woke up and realized that the reason I couldn't move my legs was because the left leg with the cast on it was in top of my right leg. I couldn't lift my right leg because of the cast.

I think something else was going on though. I slept with a lamp on covered with a dish cloth because the light was too bright to fall back asleep.

MAN!!

So, I installed this program on my laptop so I could give it a good cleaning out. Oh I did that alrighty. 

Found out that the program didn't do what I wanted it to do, so I uninstalled it... But the program folder .exe remained in my desktop. Tried everything to deleted it, but no go. Asked Google for help and tried everything, still there. Tried this one way and...

All of a sudden all of the OTHER folders started disappearing. Abort ABORT!! About 5 to 6 folders gone. Did a reboot and then laptop ran into major, and I mean MAJOR ISSUES. Had to do a system restore. Glad I set a Restore point earlier. Lost those fders though. Trying now to recover them with another program, but I think they are gone for good. FUUUUUUUCK!!

2153

What does the number 2153 mean? Okay, what does... When you see or hear the number 2153, what does it mean to you. I'll let you thing about it for a moment and get back at it, to you.

#NowPlaying... 'Summer Madness (Extended Version), Kool & The Gang

It's been a while since I've last heard from this person. I do know what's going to happen though. 'At The End', they will pop right up, still stuck on the same bullshit they were in before they decided. To now out. It's just that I catch them on the tail end, which isn't fair to them. I know because the eyes don't lie.

I called a friend if mines and asked him to do me a favor. But before I could ask him, I had said what's up and are you heading out anywhere some time soon. He said he was going to another town, death in the family, and he asked why. I told him could she get me a pack of smokes and I'll hit him off when he gets here. He said he was leaving in a few minutes...that was 4 hours ago. I'm not going to call him. 

Reason why I'm not calling him back. Another friend if mines texted me out of nowhere and asked did I have any cigarettes. I told her no. She said do t worry I got you. 19 minutes later, she texted when I get 5 minutes away I'll text you. Bigger than shit, she text me. Dropped off 3 packs of cigarettes. This woman lives 29 miles away from me and she doesn have a car. She likes me, she Loves me. But I don't...it's not that I don't have the time for a relationship. I don't want to make the time for a relationship. Like her home, mines is always open to her and she knows that.

Okay, 2153...what does it mean to you? For me... For me it means for almost 10 days I've been stuck on board 2153 of Candy Crush Saga.

September 15 2022 9:28am

I'm going to try something different today. (Yeah right). No, seriously I am.

In the past year I've been telling myself that I have to be constant with...well, almost every damn thing. But this, I have to stick to. I mean I have no other plans that I know of in the morning, so...

Morning, most mornings will be deticated to...to whatever and I will leave it at that.

Now that feels better. Should I start now? I gotta get in the shower. I don't take showers every day now because I have this cast on my leg. I'm going with every 2 to 3 days now. But I strip down and wash up at the sink though.

I'm out of cigarettes too. I could hobble to the store which is about 2 and a half blocks away... But coming back is up hill.

I text a friend last night and asked her if she was coming to town, could she stop and get me some.

Oh good, she read it last night. So I'll wait and see. I'll give her a text right after this and before I get in the shower.

Let me get in there now, while I still have the energy.

It6 Just Crazy.

This woman who I met when I first arrived in the state of Virginia.. The very first Black woman I laid eyes on.. Yeah I admit it, I fell in Love with her almost a year later. But I'm not stupid.

Her life before I met her must have been Hell. Couldn't have been that much because one of the fathers of her children talks with her with respect and kindness. Yeah, he still feels the same way as I do for her now. But just like him, you have to break away because...you have to. Because you know with the Power she holds over you. There's no telling what you might do or where I will end up.

Saw her last night as I hopped to empty the garbage. Her eyes lit up and I said hey, and she replied hey also. Guess she saw in my eyes too, and said I'll be back. She is t coming back. We both knew that.