TLDR...I've Been Seeing That a Lot Lately

Oh, it hasn't been applied to me, not that I know of, but probably has. Ask me if I give a fuck. Go ahead, ask me.

I'm talking with this group I meet online between 2am and 4:30am. One of the woman says she enjoys talking in the phone. By the way it's a Zoom meeting. No more than 10 people and sometimes it's 50/50 even amount of me. And women. Most of the time the guys get the invite to come in and if the guy is handsome they start lying. And the men that are regulars...we call them on their shit.

So I say hold up, why do you enjoy talking in the phone. And she just starts at the screen. I ask again and she says I don't know why. Then she said that if she is at home and she isn't doing anything, she doesn't like talking on the phone. Only when she is out and about. ...like shopping for clothes, going out to eat for dinner or when me and my girlfriends are just out walking around in the mall. I shake my head. I say, those are the times your are t suppose to be in thr phone.

I say I don't like talking on the phone because most women do t have any manners, don't know how to keep a conversation going and... Don't know what most of the things I'm talkinga about. They me ntion their friends like I know them. Chew food, chewing gum... Lying at there kids. Most women don't have manners when it comes to talking in the phone. But us men understand this.

With each passing day we as humans are staying away from each other. Like I like to text more than talk on the phone. I always said, you talk on the phone all the time, what is there to talk about face to face. I was also told by many women that they. An find something to talk about. Insaid, y'all find something to complain about what y'all really mean.

Tagged has a Live Stream, I mentioned it before. I think it's a great idea for people who are older..say 50 plus. But these young ones, all they do is light up weed. Some just sit there. Lately, they have the camera pointed at them while they are sleeping. It's crazy because the reward in streaming are Diamonds and animated digital things. A lot of the women have tens of millions of Diamonds. I asked, well how do you get Diamonds and those digital contents. You buy them. Who? The guys. So you mean to tell me that you take your money and buy and then give it away to women who are streaming. Yep! They have boys to make sure everything is strwing cleanly,  I nude streaming. Also, the women have 2 bodyguards. It's all online content. You can send messages, but the women are so fixated on Diamond, most say their inbox is broken, get my attention by giving me gifts. WtF?!!

Then you have those who in the bio's, out their Only Fans page, Linktree page.  Some say they want to hookup, but their meanings of hooking up is video face to face and she'll do whatever. She could be right upstairs in the same building and wouldn't want to meet. It's all online. Then you wonder why no one knows how to act out in the street because they talk mad shit online and when you run into each other, shit pops off. It's like that with everything online. It's like they don't think that actually meeting face to face isn't any good. Can't blame it on the women, it's the men who are spending their money on their content.

Last year I gave this woman over $400 here and there.She send me videos, pictures...but I never heard her voice over the phone. Everytime I say I'm coming to see her, she would say for what? Then she would say she doesn't P2P...doesn't do Pay to Play. That's why I stopped sending her money and she has a problem with that. I told her I can get better pictures and videos off the net for free. I wasn't the only one who felt this way. So her following has fallen off and she emails me asking me do I want to come to her city. I told her, you're driving, you come to me. She acts like she didn't hear me.

I don't know about the guys, but the women online, they don't like reading anything. Won't even bother. Tell guys..well, just tell me. No, read what I sent you, then tell me what you think. Too late.. she deleted it. Okay, your lost, I'm not writing it again. So just tell me. No, stop being lazy.

What I heard next made me fearful for how the world will be ran.

She said, I can't get no one to support me online. I sleep, how about in person. She said, I don't have time for that. You hear that fellas, she doesn't have time to meet face to face, but you can keep on sending her money and gifts.

I Was Raking Leaves Yesterday

The thing about living in a town instead of a city... When you need something from the store, you better have a car if you live in a town. NO corner bodegas that's for sure 

So lucky for me there is a gas station that has the basics on their shelf too. Bread... He only gets no more then 2 loaves in, and when I come there, no bread. You can beat believer if I'm ever in the store when the guy dies deliver the bread, I'm taking both loafs.

I walk the same way every time I go. Down the same block. Almost all the time I see this woman either leaving her car, or going into her car. The first time we crossed paths she said hello and then her name, which I stopped and I don't know why I said it's a pleasure to meet you. Maybe that is what opened the door.

She went in to tell me that I moved into the grey house in the corner... And that from my accent she could tell I wasn't from Virginia..which started a half hour conversation about her wanting to travel to New York City but.. But she is single and she heard that a single woman should never go there for the first time by herself. I told her you can, you just have to an ahead and know where you want to go and act like you have been living there all your life. Basically don't act like you're lost. She laughed at that part and said that maybe when the weather is nice that her and I could take a day trip there. I told that would be a great idea, just let me know.

So almost everytime I go to the store I see her. I don't jniw if she is waiting by the window and when she sees me coming she comes outside. I know it isn't that, but that what it seems like. Even she said something..we have to stop meeting like this. And I said, yeah people are starting to talk.Well yesterday I saw her and ahw asked me to bring her a ginger ale, just ring the door bell.

Coming back I have to admit I was neverous. Reason being a person standing in the side could tell we were flirting with each other. As I approached her steps she came out in the porch and said I want to see what your place is like. Okay by me. When I got to the back door she then said she hopes I didn't have a girlfriend...inside. Just like that, a pause after girlfriend then the word inside. I said no and no again and she laughed.

It's one big room, bed over in the corner, a 3 seater sofa and a dressers. She said it's cozy and she like the colors. She notices my 3 laptops and asked me what was I doing. I told her that I finally found this movie that I saw on YouTube coming attraction video clip, but it's in French and that I'm a out to add English subtitles to it. She asked me can I do that, us t it hard. Told her. I, but if it's in a language other then English, there will be English subtitles. Just 5 to 7 clicks of the mouse and the. I have to split the movie file in 3's because I have to put it in a Flash Drive to plug it into my TV to watch. She was amazed that I know something like this to do.

She sat down, out her leg underneath her and began to tell me about herself, while asking me about myself also. She has a 5 bedroom house that was left to her by he rHrwat Aunt.all furnished and the only thing she said she has to pay for is utilities. 47 years old, no children. I asked her does she work and she said no. Another Uncle left her a lot of money, she doesn't have to work. I asked her what she does all day and she said nothing. I told her the same thing for me, but there sti is r enough time in the day to do nothing. Then my cell phone rang.

Strange thing too. Usually my phone is on vibrate and  I one ever calls me. It was a guy I know and I told her excuse me and she stood up. I told my friend in the phone that I would call him right back I'm in the middle of something and hung up. She was laughing. I asked what was funny and she said that when I said I was in the middle of something, she said to herself yeah me, he is in the middle of me. I said that sounds good to me. She grab my hands and said I was hoping that would be alright too, but ive made plans for this afternoon and I can't change them, though I wish I could, but I can't. Insaid another time.

I walked her down to her house half a block away. I had a pen and paper in my coat. Write my name and number on it. I told her that I'm not going to wait for her to ca me, I'm just going to come and knock on you door because I'm interested in you a d your middle, it needs checking out. She kissed me in my cheek and said she was finally glad to meet me.

About 3 hours later while I was taking a shower she called and left a voice message. It said that in Wednesday she wants to go out and purchase a laptop and would I come with her and then help her install it. She  will make dinner and we can finish talking or whatever. I texted her back and said, day or night text and call, leave message. Just tell me what time to meet you in Wednesday. She said she will let me know on Tuesday.

I can't wait until Wednesday.

Niw I Know Why When I Was Young..

Now I see why when I was young, people my age now 62, didn't care too much about what we had to say. Though I wasn't one of them that didn't listen to their elders.

I was online in a social media site, and this guy said something, and if he was sitting right next to me... An elbow first to his temple and then one to his throat. 

He said what would a 62 year old man know about Only Fans, it's disgusting.  I asked him how old is he he said 25. I told him to look at it 5his way. You could be my grandson. Or, would you rather have a little brother or sister. He couldn't grasp what I'm saying. So I asked him... At what age do you think your grandmother has stop having sex? And how old is she? He said she is 61 years old. I told him to do the math now. That fucked him up.

These..YA'LL young ones can't picture your grandmother having sex, huh? What really would fuck ya heads up is that your grandmother having sex with one of your friends on the Down Low. And what can you do about it, not a God damn thing 

I ask him does your grandmother take about her male friends, he said yes. Does she say my 'Friend' he comes over sometimes and keeps me company. Now I ask you, what do you think that means? Your grandmother isn't say he comes over and taps that ass. Or, my boyfriend comes over and we chill. Her Stud Muffin comes over and 'Keeps her Company'. Same thing, different wording. I told him I can have you looking sideways at your grandmother and she will ask you what are you looking at. 60 isn't old, to you it is, but not to us.

Take this 20 year old girl..and the way she is typing..ya can tell she is White and probably fine as fuck too. She said this guy has a multi room Bread and Breakfast,and she has been going there alone and by herself since she was 18 years old. This guy is 62 years old. Last weekend they were talking like they have been doing every time she comes there, he mentioned that if she wanted to pick up some extra cash, she can always do Only Fans. She said they both laughed. The. She said, I mean this guy is in his 60's, why would he talk to me about Only Fans, I felt some creepy and I wanted to tell him not to discuss anything like that with me. The she asked for people opinions. Me being me, I asked her what she looked like and she DM me a picture. OMG!! She is Playboy model FINE!!

So in a DM, I asked her does sheknow what Only Fans is, and would she be interested in it. She said she thinks she is too fat. I asked let's see. In just your panties take a picture holding up an okay sign...and she did. Yep, she wants to do Only Fans and she is looking for validation and I was the lucky one who got a picture of her in just her panties. She told me she is going to do it. And asked me my name and email address. She starts in Saturday and she will send me all the pictures and wants me to tell her which ones I like.

I asked her was she attracted to him, she said just a little bit. If he makes a move on you to have sex, it's up to you a d no one else's. But if you tell him no, he won't right then and there, but he still is going to ask you. She said I know.

It fucking amazes me that these young ones can say something to the general public, but speak with them on the side, they will confide in you their real thoughts.  I can't wait until Sunday morning when those pictures drop in my email. I mean she is very very attractive, but she is young and not experience and no real man would take advantage of her, but will look at her naked all damn day long.

This what a person wrote...

And this is what I said..

Notice how I got a minus 7. I checked, everyone who gave me a minus point is White, but the guy who wrote it is White, but he didn't give me a negative vote. Hmmm? 

I went and private Message him, a young kid, I wanted to ask him questions... But only if there was one of his parents around to read what I was typing, but he was ti answer it all on his own. He had his mother looking over his shoulder. 

Some where along the way, he said my mother said to call me, and he typed out his number and I called. She answered, she said this way is much better. I asked does he get harassed in his neighborhood since it's almost all Black, he said no. Do Black people harass you in school, since you go to school in the hood, again he said no. I asked so where is your statement..what made you say that. He said...

When. My friends come to visit me, the Black people bother them and call them.names. His friends told him about it. And they say some 'stupid stuff's about Black people. He said they use to say it all the time when he lives in his old neighborhood and would be hanging out with them.

I said, so what's the difference between your friends saying it about Black people and Black people saying it about your White friends..to their face. He said..'Well the Black people don't hear it from them, we say it around each other.' His mother yelled what?!! 

I asked, do you consider some of those Black people to be your friends? With no hesitation he said yeah, we cool. I told him...you just don't know how cool you're about to become over some years in the future.I also told him to ask some of the Black guys who say things about  White people, why do they say that and listen to what they say. Ask because you want to know for your own good.

He told me his mother wanted to talk to me. She is a single parent, husband left her. She had to live somewhere that is affordable. She told me it's nice, quiet and clean and that her son calls it a ghetto because mostly Black people live here.Her son has had no problems or issues living here from day one, and they have been living there for two years.

I told her I had to go and she asked can she call me from time to time to just talk. Sure why not. They live in Indiana. 

This Channel on YouTube... Interviewing Women Who Are Homeless

First let me say this. I might hurt some people's feeling, but you know what... FUCK YOUR FEELINGS!!

 Years ago it was said that people were 2 paychecks from being homeless. Today.. You could be homeless living in your own place and don't even know it yet. You say that isn't possible. Well look at it this way.

You working, taking care of your family, food on the table and every thing is going just great. You're not even thinking about ever being homeless, but you see the homeless in your. Commute to and from work. In fact, you're so use to seeing them that you don't even see them any more. That you actually talk with a couple of them, give them a couple of dollars because..hell, you just want to.

On you way home, you are glad it's Friday, next two days off. As you head towards your building on your block, you see police cars and a large crowd. All you want to do is just get inside your building and in your apartment. Then you hear something that makes you stop. Some one says, 'well that isn't right, what are we going to do?' So you ask what's going on.

The owner of the building has sold the property to someone else and that someone else has placed a posting that 6 months from now everyone has to be moved out. Everyone in the building as of now does not have to pay any rent going forward. Use that money to save and look for a place. That all deposits are being given back to the tenant if the the apartment when they have a lease they have signed for their new place. Either cash or a check will be given. You just stand there shocked and all kinds of madness is going thru your head.

Though it's only 6 months away, half a year.. You aren't even thinking about that. Its the searching and then the moving..and putting kids, if you have any.. Transferring them to a new school isn't the problem, it's them going thru the change that might throw off their momentom. All of these thoughts and others are going thru your head. You're going to have to do all of this on your own while still working and hilding things down. The only thing that sheds light on it all..is that you don't have to pay rent going forward and you are getting back your deposit. You tell yourself you have a lot to do, and you know you can do it. So you think.

The way housing is going... You'll be lucky to get in a place even though you're working. It's not about having money in the bank, anyone can put money in the bank. It's about how much you make. Some places want you to make sometimes 4 times the rent in one month..and then just maybe they will think about letting you just fill out an application. And if you find a place, most likely it will be out of the way, not close to any transport, schools, shopping and laundry facilities.

So you give yourself the day you are suppose to pay rent, on that day you open another account and place that money in there. The next day, you start a soft look, looking for a place to live next. After about 20 minutes if searching online, you decide to call one place and find out on how to fill out an application. You get a voicemail, leave info and they will call you back. 10 minutes later they do, and you're in for a surprise.

To Be Continued...

Help Get My Feet Back...

 I decided to invite an ex Lover to my home during the week leading up to my birthday. This will be in April.

I texted her my ideas and she said she could really use a getaway right about now. I had to mention to her that I want her in a Sundress with nothing on underneath. Oh, and barefooted. She texted back that if she really likes it here, she just might stay. She can stay all she wants, but she won't be living with me.