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Where was I, oh yeah, freetime when not serving Uncle Sam. Its like this from 6am to 5pm Monday thru Friday, you work for the Government. But there are some exceptions, see if I can get them right. 6am to 5pm Government time, not unless you have Guard Duty which is at 5pm and last til 6 or 7am the next morning. You check the duty rooster to see if you're on, if so, you get cut loose at 1pm to prepare for Sargent of The Guard Post. That's a Sargent and about 6 to 8 enlisted memebers stand inspection. Shiney spit shine boots, creased uniforms and haircuts in order. The Lt., who is in charge, inspects us and ask some questions, and then the Lt picks a Supernumerary. This person gets a reward big time. They don't have to pull Guard Duty, but have to stay in the Guard Shack in case one of the guys gets sick and can't perform. Also the Super gets a 3 day pass. Sounds good right. But the pass is when you can get one, IF you can get one. That's the joke. Other than that dut...

Being that its hotter than hell, not that I know how hot hell is... Anyway, I found a way to keep really chilled. A number of ways really. First only go to places, public places that have kickin ac. Libraries, department stores and supermarkets. Well, I work in a supermarker, and the ac is really unbeleieveable, cold !!! Another place is City owned agencies. Public Assistance Offices. I found out where one is close by, walking distance. I had to meet a friend there, we have a history together..professionally that is. No, not me, her, she was my case manager. The ac is really turned up there also. Last place, but this will cost some money, the trains. AC is kickin' there too. As I type this, heading towards The Bronx now. Was gonna take the bus, 2 of them, but ac is better here. There, said and done. Words. We all use them, part of the human language, whatever language you speak, words are words. Some words are nice. Love, flowers, beatuiful, sunshine, well you know. Then there are...

Why? Why do I want to.... why do I think..... what is it that you want that I..... Me being me, is me.Tx, Ok, Fla, and SC. I really need a vacation, fast. Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®

Being a Short Timer meant that I had about less than 100 days left in Germany. A lot of decisons were to be made, re up, ot get out. I re uped for a different job classification, more of that later. But now, I was on SD, Special Duty. My Post was so small that we didn't have Militray Police, we had our own Police Squad, 5 soldiers. Like I said so many days on, and so many off. I still slept in my room, in the same bed and everything. But whatever the unit sis, I was not a part of it. We they went to the field for 3 days, and twice a year for 30 days each... oh, I forgot all about that part, man !! Promise to mention that next entry. So when they went to the field, me and my crew stayed back on post. Now you have to understand something here, when the husbands are off making like war, the wifes are left behind to PARRTY !!! And they did. I don't want to hear any of that BS about, oh we woman don't cheat...EVERY wife cheated on their husbands. I know, I saw, I particpated. Ye...

I wish there was a way possible that there could be added another day to the week. I need another day added, make that happen. I enjoy being with you. Holding you, seeing how your body responds to mine, I enjoy that. Thought I would say that and get it out. Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®

A co worker said to me, 'man, you had a lot of jobs'. Meaning that I worked in a number of places. Well, I have. I can't see working at someplace for a long time. The longest job I ever held in one place was n The Army. Second job, Manhattan Psyc Center, as a MHTA for 4 and half years. That almost drove me crazy, and that's another story in itself. Yes, I've had a lot of jobs, but all of them are in the same field, food service. I like working in a field that everyday is different. All jobs are like this, but food service is in a class by itself. Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®

Get some Brown N Serve bags. Load them up with 1000 grams of Turkish Green Hash, and even it all out. Grab a handful of towels, lay two of them on the table and soak them with water. Place the Brown n Serve bag with 100 grams on top, then place 2 more saok towels with water on top of them. Oh yeah, you will need at least 3 irons full with water, settings set to steam.. Then you begin to 'press' the Brown n Serve bag. The staem forms the hash., after that place the Brown n Serve bag in the freezer for 20 minutes. While this is cooling off, take 3 butter knifes and place them under a flame and make sure you have a ruler handy. Take bag out of freezer, and take the hash out of the bag. With a hot knife, using the rule score the hash and cut into little cubes. There done. Each piece is worth, well back then 20 dollars. But, if its 2 days before payday, they go for 40 dollars, 'payday stakes' is what they called it. Ok, 2 shipments a week makes for a tidy profit. I never kne...

This place where I go to download my music, videos and movies kept having this Torchwood show. So, I downloaded day one and now I'm hooked. Its a five day mini series, but there are other seasons to it. Its from the BBC network, London or whatever, but its a good show. Tonight I'm going to watch day five. Question. Some one tells you to make a decision. One person in your family has to die, you pick the person. If you don't pick one person within 24 hours, they will kill your whole family. Could you make that decision ? I don't know if I could. Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®

First, you would think that being in The Army, you would lead a productive life. Learn some new things..check. Meet new people...check. But keep on the, lets say, the straight and narrow? I don't think so. Its just like anywhere else in the world really. You have your goody 2 shoes, and then you have the dark side. The dark side is ALWAYS much more fun, take for instance... Weed, its hard to find in Germany, but it can be found, and at a price. But when your in Rome you do as the Romans do, and this was hashish, hash. 20 dollars a gram on military installions, that's is if you can find it. Since Baumholder was only 11 kilometers away by bus, it was easy to get to. But the problem with that was that they just didn't sell to just anyone. CID, criminal investagation division, was always busting some one ALL the time. But that didn't stop any one, not even me. I didn't see The Army as the way most people did, I was 17 years old, what the fuck did I know. Then one day th...

Every military installation is located next to or in a town. My post was located on a mountain, next to a town. But below the mountain was a lso a town called Idar-Oberstien, its actually 2 towns in one, Idar and then Oberstien. My post was located above the town of Oberstien. Everything that you find ina a small city or town outside a Military Post usually is low budget, meaning they base the businesses on what they thing the soldiers wanted. I just found this out, like 3 years after I did... we will get to that later on. No, wait. Fort Sill Oklahoma, the town of Lawton, very cheesy. Nothing but bars and strip clubs, very dangerous. But not Idar-Oberstein. But let me tell you about the Germans first. They, for the most part are very clean. The towns are clean, and their cars are ultra clean. There was a parade in the town one day, and there were houses shitting everywhere in the parade. There was nothing BUT horses, I think the parade was for horses. I stayed and watched for a while, ...

I have something to get off my shoulders, mind, head what tha fuck ever. Okay, I know I said that I wouldn't piss on him even if he was on fire. At that time I was heated, and kind of still am. But, I'm not that type of person. We could argue and yell at each other for whatever time it takes. After its over, it back to business. Its a sin to go to sleep, to bed at night, still mad and angry at your spose. I take it a step further. Within a week, I cnt no longer hold that hate and anger inside of me no matter how hard I try. That wasn't something that ibwas taught by anyone, taught myself this. Life is way too fuckin' short to let something like that hold me back from getting what I deserve. I mean we are a team. I said I could work with him, and not say a word to him. Tried it too, ask the store manager to ask him to do the chickens. Store manager ask him too, and he was doing it. Somewhere along the line, he said something to me, and I answered him back and from there ...

When you arrive at a new duty station, you have to in proccess, that's going around sign a shit load of paperwork, become part of the big happy family. My unit, company, battalion, 2nd Bn/81st Field Artillery, consist of....this is the breakdown. Its consist of 6 Batteries, or companies, we called them Batteries. Headquarter, Headquarters & Headquarters, Alpha Battery, Bravo Battery, Charlie Battery and Service Battery. Alpha, Bravo and Charlie Battery are Firing Batteries, each of those Batteries have 6 M109a1 Self Propelled Howiters. On those 6 guns in each Battery, there are called Platoons, in each Platoon there 8 to 9 crew memebers. Now in each Battery, there is an Armor, Communications, Fire Direction (FDC), and Messhall Platoons also. Sooooo, you're looking at about 40 to 50 people in each Battery. You have a Captain, he is charge, a First Sargent, a Gunnery Sargent, and an XO (Safety Officer). Each M109a1 has a support tracked vechile also, its called a M548. So you...

I went to elemtry school, and graduated. I learn the basics, reading, writing and math. Graduated from Jr. HS also, same thing, your basic studies. Ran into problems in HS, but would have graduated if I had stayed in. What I did was join the Army, a higher Learning, a Real Life Education. My mind at the time was still young, not yet formed in a way. Basic Training was like all the of my schools rolled into one, and better. Since I was so young, 17, I grasped stuff really easily. I was asked, when I was in the Army, did it effect me in any way when I got out. No, it didn't. My mother talks of times when I did something when I was younger, I don't remember any of it. But those 6 years I spent in The Army, and what I learned, is still right there in my memory like it was yesterday. I was trained to be come a fighting machine. I learned things back then, that even now I still use. I know of rules, specifications, and procedures and can read them off if the 'right' people we...

The day I left 21st Replacement Detachment Company, and was headingtowards my new unit, was a dark and very cold morning. This was in September, and it was freezing. To me September weather is suppose to be chillym not cold. But look where I was at, Germany. Thought it would be a ride to my unit on one of those nice tour buses that I was seeing a lot of lately, nope. My transport was a 2 and a half ton Army truck. Picture riding in a car that's a convertible, with the top down, on the Long Island Expressway, no traffice at 3am in the morning, 90 miles an hour. Frooze my ass off. After 2 hours of this I was an ice cube. I was wearing my dress uniform. Was VERY glad when I made to where I was suppose to be. The unit had 5 big buildings. 4 were for housing, and the other one was the messhall. Being that it was dark outside, I couldn't see what else there was, would have to wait until the sun came out. Jumped off the truck in front of Bravo Battery 2 81. Went inside, and handed my ...

The mailing address: 2nd Bn 81st F.A., Straussburg Kasern, APO NY 09322. For the life of me, I don't know how or why I can remember that. (}wilight Zone music plays). My unit was a one unit Battalion, but we did have a ASA company on post too. They were high level security, secret squirrel decoder ring type of a unit. So hush hush that they had MP's at there front door to their barracks. You coukdnt visit, not unless you had clearance and was screened, in that order. Later on I would be paying a lot of visit to this building. You won't believe the shit I got into, but you're gonna hear and read all about it. Disclaimer... I could care less than a fuck if ya don't believe any of what I'm about to say. Its been many years ago, but the memories are so fresh in my head like it was yesterday. So fuck you and the banana boat you came in on if you don't believe me. Oh yeah, and fuck you too. Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®

Personally, I'm not against it, and I'm not for it. Maybe its because of the way things are right now. Naw, that's not it. Or, maybe I haven't found my 'soulmate'. No, that's not it either. Its because people change. Notice I didn't single out neither male or female. People change. Nothing wrong living together either, well I don't think so. But with that too, people change. Think about it. Tell me one thing besides breathing that you think you can do for the rst of your adult life, and like it. The only thing that comes close to that is worshipping your God. Now that's something I 'could' do for the rest of my life if I was that type of person. Marriage is something completelt different though. Wanna know what would happen if I was to be married or get married. The following are the steps, and not in any special order. Okay I love you and want to spend the rest of my life with you, but something major has to happen first. You first have ...

Basic training ended for me on August 18th 1977. This date in time, says in memory. I think it was the time that this 17 year old became a man. I look at it this way now, and back then too. Who knows what the numbers are for all of those that joined our Armed Forces, entered Basic Training, survived the 3 months of training and graduated. I know I wasn't the only one, can't be, if feels and felt like we all were part of some special group of men and women that stood out among the millions of people in the United States. To me I felt special cause not too many people could or did complete what I just did. Even though I was only 17 years old, I felt special. I really felt proud to wear this uniform. The looks I got on my way back to NYC were starnge. I was asked about a gazillion times how old was I, and how was Basic Training. Most said that if I completed it, that they could too. I told them you have to push your body to limits that you didn't know that you had. You had to ...

Last night I was watching...wait, tryin' to remember what I was watching. It will come to me, hold on. Oh, yeah, I was watching Penn & Teller's Bullshit, I downloaded it. They were talking about violent video games. Well while I was watching it, laying in my bed, I started coughing. It was one of those coughs that was scratchy, itchy and annoying. Then my eyes started watering. Then my nose started to run, get where this is going? I rarley get sick mind you, but when I do, it throws me all off. For about an hour I was coughing, blowing my nose, wiping my eyes, shit was crazy. So, I decide to log off, close my system down so to speak. Went to bed. Had no problem going to sleep either, no coughing or anything. Then I woke up this morning. Right now, at this moment, I feel like SHIT. Not you ordinary everyday shit. The shit you feel like 3 days in that you know you're gonna feel like shit for the next 4 days type shit. But the human body and the mind are, are, like to me, ...

A friend stopped by yesterday, and dropped off a iphone they had found. Being the good person that they are, they asked me to contact people in the address book to return it. Problem is all I got was voice mail and one person who didn't speak english. I left messages on the voicemail, contact info about me where I work and stuff. Maybe they will get in touch with me. Gonna give it a week. After that ist mine to do with as I please I guess. We will see. Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®

What the fuck am I doing here. One, its freezin ass cold outside. No one told me that @WEst Germany would be this freakin cold. I was just taken off the guns, off the firing line. They said FDC, Fire Direction Center was authorized to have a 13B, cannon crewman, in their section. All I was was the FDC driver, and generator operator. So what am I doing now? They made me the radio man. What do I know about radios? Ok, listen up Chappell, you have 2 radios. Our call sign is Whiskey25, so listen up for that. Now this landline is in direct contact with all 6 guns on the guh line. You also have to send the guns their info inorder to get a round out of the tube down range. You got that ? Oh yeah, this is a CEOI, like a secret squirrel decoder password book, you will need this. You're all set, not just wait for a fire mission. Wait for what? Oh shit, the shit is gonna hit the fan, and I don't know what the fuck I'm doing. Just then the one of the 2 radios came to life.. Whiskey25, ...

Sometimes you have to do what ya gotta do. Oh really? Last night I received a text message, this was after I commented on a picture I received. It was a nice picture, really nice. I think so. It was sent to me, but I had to retrieve it form my phone carriers website. Like I said, it was a nice picture, so I commented back to the sender. This sender told me to call them. See where this is going. I wasn't forced to call them, its just that I felt weird talking on the phone, but not with them. It could have been anyone, and I would've felt the same way. Even though we are all our own seperate person, we all somehow at one time go through the same feelings. I don't know if I said that right. I'm me, I will always be me. I will not and can not change for anyone. I will do what I want to do no matter what. Some say that dangerous, not to me it isn't. I don't want to be stuck in a rut. I'm kind of in one right now, cause what I do for a living is the same thing eve...

Yeah, I get out a LOT!!! Went to The Bronx, CoOp City to visit my mother. Its a little time consumming, but I get a chance to read, listen to my music, and people watch. I try to go at least once a week. If she ddoesnt hear from me in a couple of days, she blows up my voicemail. Sometimes I just plain old tired, but not from her. I have to get out more, like going to the beach. What I could do is go to Orchid Beach which is very closer to her house. Go early in the morning, lay in the sun and maybe go in the water. Then off to her house to EAT !! I want to get a mountain bike, but there is no room where I live. I could and might ask her, can I keep it at her house. That way I can go there first, then the beach and then back to her house for some time spent with her. I will see. One of my friends went out of town for the weekend, and I'm getting this strange feeling. I don't know what it is, its like I miss them or something. Its not like me, and I don't want to give them th...

For real. All I do is work and sleep. I watch tv, but its what I download, shows that I don't get to watch because I'm sleeping. That's bad right? To me sleep is the most important thing there is. Well, not sleep excatly, getting well rested. I find myself going to sleep at 8pm most nights. If I get off from work at 4pm and don't have to be at work until 3pm the next day, I watch a little tv until 9, 10pm. Like I said, they changed my day off now. Its Tuesday. Don't know how I will adjust, but adjust I will. Hey you, yeah you. Have a safe trip. Don't start any trouble, be nice and have fun. Enjoy, let your hair down. If this is like any other weddings that I have been a part of, things just might get crazy. All I can say is, deny all and everything. What happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas. Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®

WHAT THE FUCK, MAN !!! Maybe its me, but what the fuck is going on. I was told today Mr. Asshole, no, no Mister involved here. Asshole is coming back to work. Was it me just hearing what the owner said, or was I imagining it all, a daydream ? He said that he wouldn't be coming back. On a kinder note, in a way, I'm glad he is working. But BACK here ? Its established that he's prejudice against black people, but you let him back knowing this ? Here's what I'm going to do, and I told them I will do this. With him and the store manager, I'm questioning why he called the cops, why is says I was stealing and throwing, wasting food. But then again, I just might not say a thing. All I know if he was on fire, I wouldn't even piss on him to put the flames out. I'm just saying though. People, well some people, me included, can't help but be assholes at times. What seperates the good ones from the bad ones is the fact that you know you have crossed over the line...

Yesterday, I came across an incident that almost drove me out of my mind. A new co worker was hired for my department. I know everyone should have the chance to earn a living, but not everyone can work in the field that I work in. This guy says he had 3 store, delis in Manhattan. He said that he won awards from the James Beard Foundation, that I wouldn't doubt, you'll never know. But when you come onto a crew like the one I work with, there are certain rules that apply, you start at the bottom and you work your way up. In my field, I always worked my way up, and continue to do so. I don't want the managers position cause it doesn't allow me to mingle with my customers, its all about paperwork, and the bottom line. So this guy, who closed the deli the night before, left it for this morning looking like shit. I called the deli manager, he was off, and he told me to let him knows when he comes in at 10am. I waited until he was settled in, and explained to him about certain...

Like I always said, NYC isn't all that big when you really take a look at it. In the past, I can't tell you how many times people have approached me on the street, called me by my 'whole name'. And for the life of me, if my life depended on it, I couldn't remember their names. Oh yeah, the face seems familar, but can't remember their names. But then there are times I remember the face and the name, like.... I sayits been about maybe, 2 years since I actually say her face last. The internet is a great tool, that is if you use it correctly, for good. Emails also are a good way to keep in touch, reach out to people. But not everyone answers all their emails. They should, but they don't. Well I received an email saying that they thought they saw me. Quickly sent one back, letting them know where I'm at etc, etc. I was at work and I was walking to the back storage room, and I heard this voice call my name. I backed tracked, and what I saw, made my heart flut...

One of my co workers came to me with a problem that he is having. I'm not going to mention names here, never have and never will. He is the problem. His girlfriend, and he loves her, is a virgin, and wants to wait until marriage until she has sex. See the problem? Don't ? Ok, ready? She said she wants to wait until she is married. She didn't say, when 'he' marries her, its when she gets married. I said break up with her now, or stay together and convince her to do the do with ya. I'm sorry, but having sex is like 75% of the relationship. Excuse me, if we aint fucking, I don't want to have anytning to do with you. I'm not into just hanging out with a female. A little while ago, another co worker, this time female, just clocked in. Last week, I asked her what will it cost me for 15 to 20 minutes of her time. Today she told me that she wants a pair of Jordans. Now I'm not going to go out and buy them for her, just gonna give her the money. She's a c...

I wake up early EVERY morning, regardless if I work or not. It gives me a chance to get my thoughts together, plus, there's something about having to pay for coffee. It taste better. I had a few thoughts this morning. With the way computers and getting content online for about almost anything, how the coast has come down a little. Why is it that cable companies are not offering broadband access at a reasonable price ? I can never figure that out. Offer broadband with cable TV access, at a low coast. But, you have to make purchases every month or so to keep your access at such a low price. I would but into a plan like that, since I purchase almost all my electronics online. I met a decent, nice, independent woman. She is like me exactly so far. Strange thing to me is this. I'm afraid to ask her what she wants. She somewhat told me what she wants though. I can deal with that and just about anything really. I find myself thinking about her a lot too. Oh, my thoughts. Spent my four...

All I'm gonna do is run this thru a spell check that's all. Where did I leave of at... Oh yeah, Ft. Sill Oklahoma. Basic Training, May 31 to August 18th. Ft. Sill is, was, and still is, hell on earth. My training, 13 Bravo, Cannon Crewman on a M109A1, 155mm Self Propelled Howitzer. I have never been to such a hot as place as Oklahoma before. Not even The South Bronx in August ever got that hot. And sand storms, what the fuck ?1! A freaking sand storm, storms, turn the bright of day orange. I think I was the only one from NYC in my training cycle, but I found out really fast though. The bathrooms, latrines were battleship grey, and being that I was an artist, graffiti artist at that, I saw the untouched bathroom walls and stalls as a untouched canvas. I had a marker, oh yeah, fat black Pilot marker, and I went to work. A Company formation was called bout 2 hours later. The3y wanted everyone from NYC to stand to the side, I was the only one. Yep, cleaning the latrines for a wee...

I've been putting this off for far too long. I must indulge in my darkest, dark past. Some, you won't believe , I couldn't and still can't believe it myself. Some are funny, crazy and just plain stupid. But, (sighing), life is one BIG experience. No experiences, no life I say. I joined the Army in May 1977, the 31st of May, delayed entry program. 17 years old, a drop out of HS. I wasn't stupid in HS, just bored. Through out Jr HS, starting from the 7 th grade all my subjects were advanced by 2 years, the whole 7 th grade class stayed together through the 9 th year, graduation. I went to HS of Art & Design, had to take an art test to get in. They couldn't believe my reading and math scores cause they were 2 nd and third year college. All my classes in HS were art, no science, Spanish , math, history, none of that. Oh yeah I failed gym, so in HS, I had 2 periods of gym. Since I had no academic classes, just art, to me art was boring. But I could draw. So ...