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I received a email from my 1st GF this morning. She's in Georgia, and has ben there for the last 7 years. I'm relieved that she is okay and such, cause I thought she was one of the victims of 9/11 cause she worked in one of the towers, on the 61st floor she said. Her company had moved out when the first bombing happened in the garage. I'm happy about that cause all this time I thought she had died. It bothered the hell out of me because the attacks had hit me personally because of her. Now that she's ok, I feel some type of comfort, hard to explain. But now she is in the south and I want to reach out to her, see her in person, to confirm that she is alive. I know she is cause she wrote, er, emailed me. But this is just to confirm. Sitting outside of the store at 6:05am using a wireless connection on my laptop. Its getting cooler, so I won't be doing this much more. I detest cold weather !!! Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®

This guy comes in the store last week, his wife is having a Baby Shower. She comes to the deli, and she has tasted my cooking. She tells her husband that she wants her Shower catered by me. My deli manager spoke with the guy this week. He wants to know how much it cost, its for this Saturday. My deli manager calls me on my day off to tell me that on Thursday he wants to talk to me. HELLO, you're the manager, find out what he wants cooked, how mnay people and then give him a price. But noooo, he wants to talk with me. Ok So its on a Saturday. Take in mind that I have to set up the deli, cook some chickens, cook food for the steam table...and then cook food for this Shower. When I say I'm not being paid well enough for this position I hold, I'm telling the truth. Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®

It was 9th grade, Walter J. Damrosh JHS 136. My FIRST girlfriend. You never forget your first, right? That year was 1974, or 75 ? Fast forward. I'm living in Westchester County, Mount Vernon. I walk to the Number 2 train station. I worked on 75th street and Broadway, Citeralla's. On the train she asks me my name and tells me who she is. Very pretty looking, its her, my first GF !! She's married with children, we make plans to see each other, but I can't remeber if we exchanged numbers. Me, I'm cooking everywhere, Westchester County, Philly, NYC and CT, all over the place. So we got out of touch. Fast forward a little more. Me working and living in New Rochelle, working for Stop & Shop. The year 2001. And then the untinkable happens, 9/11. I think she said she worked there. I'm heart broken. Every year after that I think of her and the last time I saw her on the train, always pretty, braids in her hair. I search all data bases for her name, but remembered she...

I kind of like that I have Tuesdays off instead of Thursdays. My manager cchanged my day of a couple of months ago. At ffirst I fought for my Thursdays, but now, I find out it better for me accross the board. Not gonna get into why and all, its just is. It never fails, my Fridays, it seems that some customer trys to give me a hard time. This time the store manager was in the deli. Customer says she wants some cheese. Ia sk herw what kind of cheese and she points to the cheese diaplay. There are about 10 different cheeses displayed. I know it nothing to point to each cheese and ask her, but come on people, help me out here. After the fourth pointing, which was swiis cheese, I told swiss cheese, and ask her how much? She has the nerve to tell me to slow down and take it easy. Note... some people shouldn't leave their house after the just have taken their medication. When they are out in the street, medications always kick in. You're not in the confines of your home, and some peop...

Since football season has started, and I have to close the deli on Sunday nights... I a little off about working on Sundays period. But Sunday's are a time and a half day, and I can use the money. Its not like I want to work for free. Now if I had a dvr, there would be no problem. Ah, but there is. One of my housemates, she also works where I work at, she a cashier, she was transfered to another store today. Well today is her last day at my location. I wish I had a picture of her, but I had to formatted my external hard drive, and everything on it was wiped clean. I just wanted to show you what she looks like. She REALLY pretty. Another thing is that she's young, 21 years old. Some may say that old enough. But if you have a consious, you would think otherwise like I do. She knows and my othe housemate know, that I'm really into the both of them. The way things are now, like I said, are nice. I can put up with just looking..and wishing...and HOPING that one night they will B...

See, that's why I love my job and love waiting on the customers that I serve. Woman approached me this morning, ans aked me did I know of anyone wanting to rent an aprtment. In a private house, basement aprtment, private entrance, full use of the backyard, washer & dryer, and get this FREE wireless internet. All for 600 a month, or 150 a week. I might jump on it. But I have a phobia about living in a basement though, guess I can get over it Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®

Three's Company Too. I had lived in Queens before, Kew Gardens. Then I was renting an attic aprtment, back in the early 80's, for 1150 dollars a month. Then about 7 years later, in Kew Gardens again, rented out a room with 2 female housemates. That was interesting cause they were beautiful, breathtaking, and they picked me as a housemate. Problems arised when they took me as in house security. Figuring they can act a nut in the clubs, lead a guy on and take them home, and then attempt to throw them out. The guys were there for one reason only...sex, and these 2 girls led them into thinking that was going to happen. Me, being in my room would hear all this noise, them trying to get these guys out and me, I could only take so much. First time I said nothing. But by the 4th time, I would come out of my room and help throw these guys out. The 10th time, I moved out, they had issues. Now I live in a nice private house, with my own room. The 2 females that are single sleeping in the ...

Since there aren't any coffee trucks by the library I'm at, or at least I don't know where they are at, I went searching. I walked by a DayTop which USE TO BE located at. And yes, I'm a graduate, Springwood House, Rhienbeck, NY. Don't ask, long story. It was when I 'continued' to think I could do what I wanted to do. The good thing about employment, constant employment, is that the courts take into consideration that not all people are bad, they just tend to do bad things...sometimes. You know something, I'm trying to figure out the closing of this location. Has drug use really fallen that below, that facilites are closing. Or is it cause the rent is too high, and they can't afford the rent? DayTop is known world wide, I can't see it being the latter, rent problems. Out on Long Island, Suffolk County. They are having problems with herion use, so maybe a facility opened there. But you would figure they would keep all their city ficilies open, gues...

...my MONEY !!! You can mess with my girlfriend, and even sleep with my wife or girlfriend. You can talk about my family memebers, curse them out and shit. But one thing you don't do..DON'T FUCK WITH MY MONEY !!! Straight cheese people.. I work way too hard for the lousy pay I get. I work long and hard hours too. On my feet from 8 to 9 hours a day, 6 days a week. I know, I know. Well why don't I get a better job you may ask. HELLO !!! We are in a reccession, and 2 years ago a guy like me would apply online for jobs, get interviews and NOT go. I was being lazy. At the time of applying it seemed like a good idea, but when interview day came around..... So, right now jobs are a little bit hard to come by, soooo, I stay where I'm at. But, there's the feeling of one day, just one day, the strings will be cut and I will be out of a job. But I continue to look at the market though. The market is beginning to pick up again, slowly. If I come to work everyday and do what I...

I like the Fall for many reasons. Its not too hot, and its not too cold. The best of both seasons. I mentioned to a customer about her car that I saw her get into, it was a small convertable, a two seater. Driving thru upstate NY, leaves changing their colors and the wind against your face. I can see why dogs hang their faces out of car windows. Its a great, wonderful feeling. Along with the changing of the weather, brings on the changing of Fall tv shows. These networks have it all wrong though. Right when you get used to the story line, they cancel the show because Nelso. Ratings says not that many viewers are viewing it. Ok, make another network and place all the cancel shows on it, and give the viewers what they want I say. Another issue to me is that the two shows I want to watch come on at the sme time, but different channels, so I have to choose one or the other. What I do is watch one, and download the other. But there's an issue with that too, my 'borrowed' interne...

That's how much time is left in my day. Its not bad working the counter, but early in the morning, most people tend to just wake up in front of my counter. They tell me they want a pound of this, when they really are saying to themselves they want a half a pound of that. What wakes the up is the price. Oh yeah, they blame me cause they say I didn't hear what they said in tghe first place. Since school is back, all the teachers from the school are dropping by. This one teacher, we got a thing for each other, but we both love our own alone time. So we went into detail a little about what we both want. Seems we are on the same page. She also wants to know why I don't have a girlfriend. I have friends who are females. Gave her my email address, she asked for it, so I will see where it goes. Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®

WATER !! We, I need it to survive, right? Not only for drinking, but for washing our asses. So why is it my landlord has a problem with supplying it? I mean for taking showers. She said that he water bill each month is too high. This is coming from a woman who washes the front sidewalk and waters her garden every fucking' day !!1 I NEED to take a shower twice a day cause I work with food. This shit really pisses me off. Gonna say something to her today, fuck this. Its about to get cold soon, and if she does this with water, I wonder what the heating will be like. Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®

I haven't been making entries lately. Its not like I have nothing to say, just been tired, lazy. All that's gonna change boys & girls. Starting 2morrow, and every other dy afterwards, I will force myself to make my say. Like stuff, things, issues come up every day with me. Nothing that's gonna make me lose it. But there have been times when I thought I was gonna starting killing again. Some people look inside the box while standing on the outside. They have never been IN the box, but looking on the outside in, makes them think they know what's going on. But, they haveno idea, oh well. Monday, Wednesday and Friday....with more pictures too. Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®

Put this image in your head, its a broad one. Try and figure out where I'm, this is all going. The mid west, open counrty. All of a sudden hundreds, well not hundreds, but a lot of communties spring up from no where. Brand new homes, 2 and 3 bedroom homes with back yards. The back yards measure 7 car lengthd long and 3 car lengths wide. For one community there are about 100 to 250 homes, with in the center of all of this, is a community club house. This club house can hold about 300 to 400 people, that's seated, at ONE feeding. This means the kitchen is large enough to handle this many people, thismany meals per day. But get this, its 4 club houses that look like one. So that's 1600 people that can be fed. This place is in the middle of nowhere, and its just not one community, there are about 100 to 200 of them just sitting there. The homes are your typical family homes, but if you look closer at them, tey aren't what they seem. NONE of the homes have kitchens, but ther...

So, I left Germany, and I had an 8 hour flight back to The US of A. As we were approaching NY, the Captain said that the plane was being re routed to Newart Airport, we were suppose to land at McQuire Air Force Base. I haven't been in The States in 3 years, what did I know. I started thinking, shit now I have to lug my baggage to McQuire AFB, and leave from there. But wait, they had a shuttle bus that would take us there for free, no charge. Got on the bus and started talking with the driver. Told him I was from NY. He asked me why was I going in the other direction. FUCK !! The driver told me he had to reurn to Newart airport, so I could ride back. Once I got back there, it was like everyone had left, it was empty. This guy approached me and pulled out a knife. I carried a Buck knife on my belt, this was way before 9/11, so it was legal. I pulled mine out and he ran. Great, first day back and some one tries to stick me up. Fuck this, I took a cab from the airport to The Bronx, cos...

I left Germany on March 15th, 1980. Mind you now, I spent from September 3, 1977 to March 15th, 1980, all overseas. I never got the chance to come home stateside to see my family. That was due to something I said. Since my unit was an Artillery unit, and a Self Propelled Howizter Unit and we were Nuclear Capable, we had a Special Weapons Team. I was on that team. I had a Top Secret Nuc Clearenace. My job function on this team started out as a Guard. About 3 manuals, 100 to 200 pages thick, plus all the basic Army stuff, I had to memorize. Training was around the clock, this meaning that at any given time, most likely when I'm in bed at 2am, the would assemble the team for training. Me and my teammates would have to be ready to pull out in about 30 minutes from the time we were notified. That didn't help if you just got into bed at 1am or so. But what cause me not to see The United States, was my fault. It was during one of those 2am musters and another instance, that cuased me ...

Lately, I have been watching some good tv. Some of it regular bradcast tv, most of it of what I have been downlaoding. I noticed something though, American broadcasting is different form Acroos the Pond. Meaning, The BBC. I have been downloading some BBC stuff that talking about some interesting topis. Honey bees, world food shortage. I notice about the honey bees a couple of months ago, but what I watched is really scary. Not to mentioned, the food crisis that we are about to be involved in. That's even scairer. We, as Americans don't really see the issue about food. Because, all we do is go to the supermarkets, grocery stores and pick what we want off the shelves. But what if we aren't able to do that any more. What if it became like some of these third world countries, here in The United States. Who would eat better, only the rich? I don't even want to think like that because it becomes frightening all over again. Here, in the good old US of A, broadcasting tv, and c...

I wondered what happened. Was it me? Of course it was, had to be. I don't really know what to say, but this..... I miss you, the special moments, the closeness. The feelings I knew what you were looking for, and it was me if couldn't give you what you wanted. I could say I can change that, but that wouldn't be honest, that's not me. All I can say is that I'm sorry for that, wished it could've been different. But, I still miss you, all of you. Making love to you is different, was different. All that you included. Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®

Because my job brings me in contact with the public, I get to meet all types of people. The one gtoup of people that I'm always happy to hold converstions with are veterans. They come from all branches of the Armed Forces, but mostly I've been running across Army Vets. This one guy yesterday came to my counter and held a nice little conversation with me. It started off with his son, who is only 15 years old and weighs he said, 330 pounds. He told me that its all muscle, and that he in training for next year games. How I found out that he was a Vet was that he led me through the tough times that he's going through. Its not money tough times, its not being able to do things with his son like he wants to. This guy is 59 years old but looks like he is in his early 30's, no shit. He told me he was stationed in Germany and we compared units, he was a MP, Military Police. After what has happened to him, because of his Military choice, I consider him a great person to have met....

I used to read a whole lot. When I mean a whole lot, I'm mean a WHOLE LOT. I always had a couple of books and magazines in my bakpack. That was when I was living in Brooklyn and working in Queens. Now that I live about 10 and a half minutes from work, all I ever read are the newspapers, about 3 to 4 of them a day. Well I started reading this one book. 'Loving Women', by Pete Hamil. Won't tell you what's its about until I get to the end of it, but I read the auther before, I think. One of his books is named, 'Forever'. If you come across this title, pick it up, you won't be able to place it down. The story is about a young kid who joines The Navy, and he's from Brooklyn, NY. Sounds fimilar, huh? He gets stationed in Flordia after coming off of leave staright out of Basic Training. This book in some ways is mocking my life. But one thing its doing is jumping ahead, to his adult years at the beginning of each chapter, then it jumps back to when he was i...

I was putting off seeing this young lady for a good while now, almost a whole year. No, it hasn't been a whole year yet. The last time I saw her it was still cold, so it had to be around January or Febuary, I think. That last time it cost me 100 dollars of my HARD earned money. I said that I would turn her loose, never call her or go to see her. I should've listen to myself. Me and my dumb ass self, went to The Bronx to see her. I mean, I left work, it was slow, and I took 3 buses to go see her. Should've went and stayed home. Without going into detail, she totaly changed. Her looks, and the way she carries herself, all different. I know she doesn't use drugs or drink. But some people who don't do neither of the 2, still can and will have the same motive as a person who does. 10 minutes after seeing her, I went about my business. Didn't make up anexcuse or anything, just cold jumped on the tran. I know she will call, and leave a message on my cell phone. I at le...