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Am I wrong for wanting, now mind you, I am a full blooded man. Am I wrong for wanting the duaghter also? No, not at the same time, but yes, in the same night. I mean her daughter... Not shabby at all. Nice shape, meaning not skinny and has curves. Those crazy color contacts in her eyes. Her Blondish red hair, which is a weave, a lace weave? Tats in the small of her lower back...looks like it was down on some one's back porch on a dare. But, sure as long as Red Fire Engines and dogs that pee on Fire Hydrants...I would do her until she started babbling like an idot. Strange shit too, she knows I will. Asked ne did I have any guys friends that wouldn't mind having her hang out at their crib for about a week and likes to have sex & smoke weed. I have no guy friends...wait, let me make a call.

...just don't think. THINK!! I too, some times at times don't just take a nano second to think before I react. I hear that voice, you know that voice that tells you sometimes...NO, DON'T !! Yeah, that one. I ignore it too, but not ALL the time. Listen, if any female and I do me ALL females. If you're going to meet a man you met online for the first time, there are warning signs. Some say, 'if he doesn't have a job...', no not that warning sign. The sign..he doesn't have a girlfriend or wife, no kids, or has this and that. Those freakin' signs. No, not the ones..he doesn't have a car. Hell a female wants a man to have a car so that she can always have a way to get from point A to Point B. I say this because my friend who I went to visit for the weekend, she is coming to visit me for a week. She is also bringing her daughter who met a man from the same website. But the day before, no 2 days before, they couldn't get a hold of him on his cell...

...I was fired from my job. To say I didn't see it coming, well that's not true. In the past, as with this job, I was having fun. Showing up to work an hour before time. being happy to be working with the people I was working with and doing my job. But all of that changed during the summer months. I started seeing things for the way there are. So, when the weather started turning cold, I was no longer having fun at work. This is what changed. I asked during the summer time that I wanted to be one of the Line Cooks. I was told by the Chef that the only way was if some one quit, got fired or left. # months later, some one got fired, a Line Cook. I was told to put in for the position when The Chef, by The Chef, when he came off of vacation. The day he returned< I told him I wanted to apply for the position. He told me that 'they' are going a different way to fill the spot. One, a graduate from a culinary school, and you have to speak Spanish & French. I thought ...

Clicked on her online, said I would come and see her, even though she was 7 hours away by bus. Okay, her profile picture...she is a big woman. Her profime picture...let's just say, the front...okay, layers. The back..oMFG!! Ass tight as all hell!! Should I get all graphic and turn this post into a Penthouse Letter to The Editor, make it hot and steamy, I should, but...no, not gonna do it. But I will say this to any woman who is reading this. Men, if you have a woman that you know who SHOULD read the following...please feel free to print it out and hand it to those woman, so that they should know. I'm gonna be honest. First let me say, 'I'm not afraid of no ghost'. Takes a lot to frighten me. The bigger they are, more of a challenge. See, she tried to scare me, ask me in a text, do I know how to 'stand up in it'. Stand up my ass, I ran a marathon on, around and in her ass. Average size woman and woman who are rail thin, take heed to what I am about to say....

...I clicked on her picture and read her profile. Then I clicked on her pictures...to see who she really is. Pictures say and tell a lot about a person. First let me say this, I'm quite sure I am not the only man alive that looks at a woman's ass, butt. You women know we do and so of you take a lot of pride on showing us men what a great looking ass you've got. Womenshow it off by the clothes they wear. Sure, some say that that's not the reason they wear such shape revealing clothes...BULLSHIT!! Which leads me to... I'm sorry, I was..I think I was born at night, but not last night. Some of you women...that shape of your ass, that defintion of YOUR ass, did not come from you working out and waching what you eat. How I know? Us men, well just look at your stomach, you enjoy eating and there is nothing wrong with that. True, in some women, its passed down from generation to generation in the women in their bloodline just to have, to e born with as they get older and ...

I don't even know why Cyber Monday still exsits. I mean during the year you find and can get eals online at any time of the year. I guess if you find something, order it, maybe...just maybe you will get it by Christmas time. I honestly think that some women get off on having 'virtual' friends, friends online. Not only men, but women too can be anything they want online. Its when the two personalities cross, meet in real life. Some think that NYC issuch a big place, when in fact its really small. Ya never know when some one knows. Do you sit back and watch it, them implode? Or, do you step up and say something. Me, I distance myself from the situation to save embarassment.

...yeah I know, it was yesterday. How come I asked people today did they eat enough turkey... Theyhall claimed they don't eat turkey.

...a lot of things and they are nuch clearer now. Dating...why do I even bother sometimes. Maybbe because I'm searching for something, some one who isn't really out there that is my match. I compromise. But it seems I'm not the only one. Found out what 'complicated' means for the most part. Only occurs in women, me don't state as their status 'complicated'. Found out this. Complicated to some, not most women is that they want a certain man, but he is with some one else. 3 women online, I peeled them back like an onion, and found out. Seems the man is their 'best friend' also, but with another woman. All 3 women says the feeling are mutal, the man wants them too, but they are with these woman. You know what I say. Get OUT of that man's life, don't even have him as a friend more or less a best friend. Are these woman fucking nuts!! You knwo what they say...you hang out ina barbershop, sooner or later ya gonna get a haircut. You know he i...

I served, not during War Time, 1977 to 1982. And what I've learned, every able adult from the age of 18 to 35 should serve. Make it mandatory!! I got 25 brand new $1 bills to hand out homeless Vets. None in my area, so I handed it out Vets from Desert Storm & Shield, then worked my way to the last present War. I really felt honored to have those men AND women who fought for real, to protect me and my family. THANK YOU. These young ass punk kids nowadays, talking about these young adults...now they don't know..how I wish one of them would fuck with me. Young adults went overseas and came back in pieces, and these punks, want to wild out on the streets and trains of NYC. They should thank God that none of them stepped my way. I already have made up my mind that I have lived a good..GREAT as life. I'm not crazy, but...taking one these stupid fucks with guys or even a knife..I'm going all the way out!! People don't understand, these punks. Life is so fucking hard...

I'm talking about some MTA workers...that asshole inside that safe and secured booth he is in. The reson why I tapped on the glass because you're the same MOTHERFUCKER who doesn't understand when I say put on the 2 cards I slide underneath the glass WEEKLY TRANSACTION !! How fuckin hrad is it to understand? But no, you get your pink panties in a bunch when I tapped on the glass. As I explained it to you.and the people behind me in line agrees, you don't have this customer service thingy down pat yet AFTER 15 years working for MTA. But that's okay. You see that machine across from your booth, it will phase your sorry ass out. Yep, technology will do away with your job cause right now you are no service to yourself or others. You worried about me tapping on that glass, but what about that guy hustling $2 rides to people. Oh, you won't report that, will you. Don't worry, your time will come. I'm not ina bad mood, nope its Friday. And Fridays are always a ...

Okay, this woman I met online....we are meeting for the first time come December. She choosed to tell me a little about herself. She us a God Fearing. Church Going Woman. To each his or her own. She told me in her own words, that she use to smoke that 'shit', crack. So? I could care less if you're smoking it, have smoked it and want to still smoke it, that's your choosing, really. But I have issues with what she said. Its along the lines of people who sue to smoke cigarettes, and now when theywalk into a cloud of cigarette smoke, the complain or cough. To me that act is stupid. It only goes to prove that you miss smoking cigarettes. Why complain when some one else is smoking and you use to? You miss it that bad huh? Reguardless you quit because of health reasons, I'm not watching where I smoke if its legal, cause you feel its bad for YOU!! As for smoking crack. You tried it, liked it,hbut found out now that its not right for you to do. What cause you to quit? Me, ...

..sooner or later, you will catch a cold. Some people don't care. They use mass public transportation as their...bathroom, livingroom and bedroom. I'm not talking about the homeless, they don't have any choice of the matter. Talking about people who have a place to live and can and SHOULD do all of the above in the privacy of where they live. I mean, that's what you pay rent for. The other day, I stood up to get off the train at the next stop. Woman, lady...really a piece of shit, just out right sneezed right in my face. Oh she said excuse me and sorry, but damn. Did nt you feel the sneeze coming on? People just don't care. It rare that I catch a cold or get sick, but this cold I have...its a MONSTER !! This station cleaner, a female, she has the greatest looking ass in her work pants. She knows it too. Complimented her on ti too, said that you. Speaking of...instead of meeting my future wife face to face, I took to using Skype. I figure it like this, if you don...

,,,do away with some other things too. But be patient with me, God isn't finish with me yet. The two words, 'hate' & 'nigger'. Hate is such a strong word and I have found out that I really don't hate anything. Its more or less a 'dislike', so that what I exchange the word for. Think about it. When you 'hate' something, along with the word 'dislike', it changes your whole way of thinking, the way you see a thing and even a person. True people hate other people for a number of reasons. The main reason is because of their skin color. So, when I say I 'dislike' people that 'hate' people because of their skin color, people look at me strangely. I don't care, that how I am, that's how I will live my life. The word 'nigger' is something to itself entirely different. There is too much of a nasty background even to use it in a friendly term as I see people do today. And, its not just use to a certain 'ty...

...I was doing it all wrong, my bad. Crazy ass times we are living in. If its not for school kids destroying the..hell, you can't go to school any more. Well, grade school that is. Kids are shooting in schoolslike its part of the learning process. See, shit like that won't or hasn't happened, not that I know of in NYC's schools. Reason why? Kid pulls out a gun, if not the teacher, other kids would pull out too. That's new and different. She told me that she doesn't understand why I am single and why I want to be with her. Also, how come I don't have any children, am I that selfish? Asked her can I just come out and be straight up with her. I like the whole process of having sex. Why would I want to mess it up with having children. Picture what your life would be like if you had no children, it was just you. You would be able to come and go and do as you pleased. Only worry about one mouth to feed. Don't have to stay up late at night wondering where and...

It was a major motion picture..its actually a painting. Hasn't been in New York City in 29 years...and its back!! Its at my work place. Google it. Expecting HUGE crowds today and all the way up to January 19th 20114. Painting worth I think 53 MILLION dollars. I asked can I take a picture besides it..NO !! But they let the press in and they took pictures. Its a once in a life time thing for me. Went on a 'meet' yesterday after work. Some one I met online. I know I said I would stop doing this, but I had to see her in person. 47 years oldand from her pictures a looker too. Listen, I know time hasn't been great to some of us, even me included, but... There should bean online law saying that pictures posted should be within the last 90 days. I understand that we all want to show and post what we looked like back then, but...  She looked nothing like her pictures. Don't get me wrong, still VERY much interested in seeing what happens with us. Has 4 kids,youngest 6, oldes...

So, this woman, who is my age want s to get to know me better. And she figures, what better place than going to church, which she does every Sunday. I told her, that that isn't the best place because you will find out just how the people in your churchh really are. I know this from past times when a 'date' was church on Sunday. Being that this was the first time I was going to her church, I told her that I would meet her there and that she can approach me after the service. But, keep an eye and an ear open to what you hear and see. I was approached by quite a few people before the service started. The basic, my name and what I do for a living. Then it got really weird. Some people approached me and told me that they have seen me somewhere before, but can't place where. I told them that if over the years you ate in a resturant down in Manhattan, rode the 5 train, or even rode the Bronx 28 or 38 bus and even Westchester Conty's 60 bus...you probably have seen me. 7 ...

I just finished reading this book by Daniel H. Wilson, Roboapalasype. It had me thinking about a lot of shit through out the whole book. Thoughts on how almost everything we depend on today has a computer chip embedded in it. So what happens when a computer designed by man, gets tired, and decides to learn. Not only learn, but gets all those computer chips world wide into thinking how 'he' does. Some scary shit, really think about that. I can't begin on how to feel what it feels like to lose some one because of death. To me death is a release, a time to let go and move on. Moving on to what, I don't know. But, it has to be better than the world we live in now. I'm not saying that I can't wait to die, but I am not afraidof death. But for those who have faced death of a loved one, all I can say is that that person is in a much better place. But what becomes of that perosn who is still walking around, say the oppiste sex, a female. If their relationship was of mar...

That's what I saw on the news early this morning. A woman who to me seems like she had back to back children, 3, but... ...looked GREAT as all hell!! So, that's what I'm asking of some women, what is your excuse? I know it can be hard, bringing up children. But where along the line, some of you decided just to give up with looking good for...who ever if not your own self. I have heard..there is no time to excersise, you just don't know how it is. Well, there are a lot of women who do know how it is and that hasn't stopped them from looking good for themselves, if not for the men or that future man to be in their life. Hey, its not only women, some of us men too. Me for example. I fall in that...I'm 'skinny-fat'. I'm slim, but I have a stomach. I do know what I have to do to get rid of it too, cut of sugar. But sugar is SO good!! It use to be salt that I was madly in love with. Has to cut back on it cauwe of issues with 'maybe' blood pressu...

I met her in Piney Point Maryland, Seamanship School when I worked for Norwegian Cruise Lines. I went outside to smoke a cigarette, but didn't have a match. Walked up to her and introduced myself. She was from New York City, I knew the area. She knew my cousin. Pulled out her cell phone and called him and put me on the phone with him. The training we went through at this school was for all positions on a cruise ship. I was an Assistant Cook and she was a Cabin Stewardess. The rules were...well basically, you weren't allowed to get shit faced drunk. You could sleep in any room and with anyone you wanted to. The rooms were male, male, female, female. But if the occupants didn't mind you sleeping over, no biggie. We talk a couple of times and she always hanged out in my room with me and my roommates. One of my roommates got about 3 half gallons of liquor in the mail one day, the party was on. She got so drunk that I helped her back to her room and we became really good fri...

This is how I think it is. For some strange reason, I find myself talking with some women who...have NO intentions of becoming emotionally involved not only with me, but with any man who has a BRAIN. Okay, stop me if I'm wromg, but... whyis it the first thing or the first sign that women put out there, that they have not intentions of sleeping..fucking, having sex with ANY man for the rest of their lives. Oh, hey ladies, you wanna know why us older guys date and have younger women as our girlfriends and even as a wife? Gonna tell you. This isn't just coming off the top of my head either. Its from experience. Seems that these single parent women with 3 kids from different fathers..no 'sperm donors', are just after one thing. MONEY!! No some women can say, 'its not like that', but it is. They can also say,' it isn't about sex all the time' too. Well, what OTHER fuckin' hreason does a human being has to live for then? Tell me, please tell me. Ok...

Another person goes crazy...in Washington, DC. Why is it that when a person goes off on the 'deep end', its like a shock to some people. There is no one to blame except for the person buggin' tha fuck out, they are to blame. But certain rules in and of society are to blame too. One thing about me, I'm the same way no matter what. Even in any place I may be working. I joke, play around, tell jokes and play music, my kind of music if its allowed. When ever I clock in, you're gonna get the same me no matter what happens. And, if I am having ANY type of problems or issues that gather away from work, I don't hold that shit in AT work. I talk about it with any one who is willing to hear. I mean, I work with my co workers 5 days a week 8 hours a day, and I want them to KNOW about me up to a certain point. My emotional well being is what they SHOULD care about. In most work places they have a counselor you can go and talk to about shit that you're going through. ...

I got off from work at my mormal time, 2pm. I work on 70th Street, between 5th Ave & Madison Ave. After I crossed Madison Ave, half way up the block was a crowd. This crowdwas in front of The Explorers Club. Regular people and photgraphers. I know...photographers, they are normal people too, right? Inside this club, Sandra Bullock & George Clooney. I have yet to see either of them in person, so I hung out for a while to take their pictures. There were others in Hollywood Business, but, I just didn't know who some most of them were. That show, The Big C. The guy that plays the husband he came out. Stopped, had his picture taken and then just walked up the block. Like, this guy is a great actor on that show, funny. But I didn't move fast enough to get his picture. After about 45 minutes, Ms. Bullock came out. Short, very thein looking, but cute. If she needed a place to crash for the night, I wouldn't turn her away. George Clooney then came out half an hour later. ...

...you continue to pay your taxes, nothing changes. Saw on news that its costing 300 Million a day. Its funny though...those in Washington are continuing to get a paycheck...while 800K are told, sorry no work today. I had a chance, once I left the military to work for the government, but... Too many rules restrictions, and I wanted to do what I wanted to do. I kind of feel sorry for those 800K though. They thought of job secruity, never having to worry about being out of a job. Guess all of that has changed. Neither sides of this 'cluster fuck' will be willing to give in. We just have to wait and see. Also what's so funny...some people don't even know what this is all about. I express my views to those who don't know. I also tell them, that since you vote and pay taxes, you should be more aware of whatsgoing on. ObamaCare...its crazy and both scary at the same time too. I lostmy wallet on the streets of Manhattan on Monday..at 6 o'clock in the morning. For so...

Every morning, I jump on my mountainbike and I take a 5 mile ride. I feel a lot better through out the rest of the day too. Yesterday after I took a shower, found out I didn't have anything to throw on under my arms. No deorderant in the freaking house. None whatssoever. So I went without and you know something...I don't stink. Other than smellinglike the kitchen I work in, no problem. I dohave acess to showers at work, but... I have a wash cloth that I use, and the next day I come in in the morning, it smells like a rusty pipe. Being that my locker is made of metal, guess that why. But I saw inside one co workers locker and he has a deorderizer hanging up. Good idea. If I had children, daughters...I would allow them to make their mistakes up to a certain point and THEN I would draw the line. I think my daughter(s) of child bearing age and dating would be terrors. I would have THAT talk with them. Being a man, I would tell them the real deal. I'm sure fathers of the world...

...my wallet says Eddie Bauer. Serious, I like the style of clothing, but can not afford the prices, sooooo.... My mother, she gets all kinds of sale books from almost everyone in the mail. This one, Sportman's Guide, I went off on. Ordered like $300 worth of clothes. Mostly Carhartt, which I didn't know made shirts, jeans and slacks. I want to get the old timers Army Field Jacket, but not until I can find the Field Jacket Liner. Last week ordered something from Eddie Bauer too. Waiting for it to come in. I'm giving it my all with the dating scene, but its not working out. One reason is...people, don't know how just to be themselves when meeting people for the first time. Fuck that, 'first impression' bs. Just be yourself. Because sooner or later it WILL all come out. Take the woman who says she has no children, she hides them. That's just so wrong and there is no explanation that she can give when you find out that she does have kids. Why hide? Or, the wo...

Its more than strange that certain things that happen in my life just keep on happening over & over again. First, what was I thinking this morning. I was suppose to be on my train about 45 minutes ago. I won't be late, just not at work a hour ahead of time. When I was stationed at Ft Jackson, SC, I was living in the barracks. This was before cell phones, (imagine that). We had 2 pay phones on our floor, 20 rooms, 4 men to a room. So, if you received a call, either the phone would ring and no one answered it, or some one did cause they were tired of hearing it. One evening it rang and I answered it. When hany one did, you when and hunted the person down who it was for. The call I answered set off the first of what would always happen to me. I went to his door and told him phone, he answered, room was dark, he had a female already in his room. The one on the phone already told me she knew he was there, 'get him'. I told him, in a whisper, that she knows you're in, ...

You know how people say that we are part of a team? And, how all employers want that in their workers. The help wanted ads say it, 'must be a team player'. We all adhere to it, and even put it in our resumes. But are we, are we team players? Okay, I'm a Cook, and some. Would say I'm a Professional Cook. I don't give myself that title. Even though I can cover every station in a kitchen, I consider myself a Team Player. What the industry calls me ia a Chef Tournant...a fancy name. That means if a person doesn't show up for work for any given reason, that means I can cover that station. Depends on how close my orignal station is to the station I'm covering. If its on the other side of the kitchen, The Chef rearranges the kitchen, the workers so that that one station is covered. Sone kitchen workers have a problem with this, but not I. Here's what I have a problem with and I don't care who doesn't agree with me. I have a prolem with a kitchen worke...

...and, I had a conversation with some people yesterday. Some old timers, Veterans and some young men. Its like this... Let's say this shooter DID have problems. Some real mental issues that didn't occur until AFTER he was discharged from the Navy. But let's start with hsi Navy Service first. People are asking how could he still be holding on to a Secret Clearance after being 'Honorably' discharge from service with all the charges he was bought up on whime in the Navy. Some people really don't undersatnd how discharges work. Of course if he had killed some one while in the Navy, he would have been sent to jail. But what he did, didn't warrant anything like that. So, he kept his Clearance. After hsi Term of Service was met, the Military Honorably Discharged him, did not allow him to re enlist. As far as a cilvian job was concerned and in employment that has positions for cilvians working on militray posts, he qualifies for employment. I'm quite sure they...

...September of 2014 !! I've been telling people that I am taking a vacation next year, month and day, to and from. They look at me like I done lost all of my mind. But I see it this way... You have to have short term & long term goals. This vacation is a long term goal. We all have short term goals and we make them everyday..well at least I do. Mine come and span over a 3 to one week goal. I meet it, I move on to the next short term one. It works for me. Really it does. They are sunject to change right up to the last couple of hours. Like...I plan to spend a weekend with some one, and at the last minute 'they' come up with something else. I guess what I had plan...well it wasn't that inticing enough for them. No, it wasn't to be spent just being plain nude and having sex. It was something that was planned for Friday night, Saturday afternoon and Sunday morning. And yes, sex was involved for each day. My longterm goal, this vacation, its all planned. I told 3...

...to talk about how things in my life, I wish they could be different. Better. But hey, its my one just life, and no matter what I do, how it turns out...it was all layed out 2,000 or more years ago. ...I go with the flow. Yesterday...I'm not crazy, but yesterday something accured to me. Things that I think about...they happen. Imhnot crazy, nor can I see into the future. I told some one that I ccouldnt meet up with them because I was called back to work, pipe burst in the kitchen. Next day when I went into work, the engineers were working on the pipes in the kitchen. Its not the first time that shit like that has happened to me. So, I got to thinking. I have to watch what I say, AND, what I think. Okay, try NOT TO think about anything...its like you have to have a blank mind. I tried it, but things just pop into my head. What if everything we as humans thought about, happened. This world would be...different. I guess some mad scentist would come up with some drug..a drug that...

'If you expect some one to get you what you want, the only thing, maybe, they will give you, is what you need.' ...and then some times, they might not give you shit. I like holding conversations with people, women mostly. What I get when holding these convos is, 'where am I from?' I tell them New York City, you damn fool. For real, I say that. I say that with conviction, you have to have confiction when you speak. Mean what you say, and say what ONLY you know. If you know yourself..need I say more. Found out that most women what a man to take care of them. That's all they want a man to do. Since a man is 'suppose' to be able to take care of himself, where does it say that a man 'has' to take care of a woman. I hear some saying the Bible, notice the capital B. If a man can take care of himself, he is sure to be able to do that for the woman in his life. When and after a while a man refuses to do this with the woman he is with, it is for a reason. Th...

Election today in New York City for Mayor. I'm not voting, because I don't want to. Yeah I know, don't complain if you're not going to vote. I was though for one person, but his commercial was and is confusing. He talks of 5th Avenue, of nannies and such, Wall Street too, but... then in the next sound bite he talks of the Middle Class and Lower Income people. Whay can't some one just address the Lower Income people and run on that ticket? I know why, cause we don't really matter no matter what THEY say. I saw in the newspaper this morning an article of a woman who was/is a Super Model. Her age is 50, and. Showed a couple of pictures of her. One picture showed her backside, her ass...which she BARELY had one. What they said was she looked great at age of 50, quite sure she does...but. looking great involves the TOTAL package. Front, sideways, up, down...AND BACK. Me for one, you don't have to be all that great looking in the face. Who are we to say who has a...

...pickles on a seame seed bun. We want $15 an hour. Sounds fair,well listen to my take on it. Okay, say they give those workers what they ask for, no really. Do you honestly think that the workers that are now there, do you think they will still be around...let's say after 30, no, 90 days? And, what hours they have now and are getting, will be cut so badly, it would be like they are working at $9 an hour. Not to mention, what about the Manager, Assistant Manager and let's not leave out the General Manager too. I don't know what they, the 3 of them are paid, but one thing for sure, you will see a lot of them working the registers & the grill more. From what I've heard, prices would go up a little. So what, people will always eat at McDonalds no matter what. No moe Dollar Menu you say, so what. Charge $1.08 for a burger, want cheese, add 50 cent more.

First. I don't know who really reads my Blog. 2nd,I didn't much really care, but... I'm not too much worried what the NSA knows or continues to find out about me. Since I do have a Social Security Number, with a few key strokes...I'm an open book. But I have began, beginning to wonder, worry about that OTHER agency..WORK. I use the computers in the Break Room, and you know they have all types of restrictions placed on them. So I access a friends computer through a program and search, download from there. The Job has servers, duh! In the back of my mind which its been recently pulling to the front, which to me is VERY dangerous... Can they see what I am doing? Do they know my passwords? Got an email from my Twitter account, unusal activity. So I change my passwords.  But what has been really chewing my ass is here, this blog. I might know, maybe..one, two people who reads this, but... yesterday my 'view count' was at 53. Refreshed it, it went to 58. Trying to f...

...yesh I get ALL their postings, sent straight to my email. Hey, I can tell that the owner must, has to be a female. Isn't too hard to tell. Yesterdays email...and this IS a first, had me smoking HOT as HELL MAD!! I'm not quoting word for word. The headline, can't remember what or how it went, but it was degrading this man who, had posted a post on Craigslist. He was looking for that 'special' woman. But he set certain rules, bulleted rules, HIS RULES!! Yep, he was taking charge of what HE wanted. But it seems that at H.P., us guys, we should FEEL lucky with what woman would put up with our beer guzzling asses. But this guy went and stated what he expected of any woman that were to answer his post. At H.P., they felt that it was all wrong of this guy to do this. Like a woman have never made..a woman have never POSTED, TOLD, TYPED...what she wanted in her man in ANY posting anywhere on the web. I have read some posting, yes on Craigslist and othe dating sites, not...

...first I worked with her 2 times, she was my manager both times. I've seen her...well, what she looked like before her change. She went away for surgery enhancement, butt and breast. She really didn't need it, but her daily workouts at the gym wasn't giving her the results she wanted. She knew from the start that I wanted her, but we both said to ourselfs, let's keep it professional, friends. What's funny, I say what she was to look like before she did the surgery. I told her let Mother Nature do 'her' thing. Be frosty, chill. What you want takes time, and going under the knife will only let you know that it wasn't some you did, you earned. You PAID for it. Now she is having issues, not with her surgery, but with men. I told her...your surgery only gives men what they dream of, and if you don't act they way men what you to be, like in their dreams, you will have problems. Dislike telling you, but I told you so. She still reaches out to me every ...

... 'I, Lucifer', by Glen Duncan. Yeah I know, some title. But get this, its an account from Lucifer's side of the whole story. I'm only on page 47 and...THIS book is so FUCKIN' GOOD!! Without going into full details, page 41 to 46 talks about Adam & Eve. A story told like no other...mind you, this was and is told from Lucifer's thoughts. So far this is the BEST book I have ever read. So when people ask me for a book to read, this one will come to mind. Bye, back to reading.

Some people do shit just for the sake of doing shit. Some people, say shit, just for the sake of saying shit. Not this weekend, but next, the beach I go to will be closed for the season. So, to end it with a 'bang'... my ex and I purchased a beach tent, made by Coleman. We usually leave the after 4 hours, but this time we are staying until closing which is 6:30pm. Then, we are going on the boardwalk to this restaurant, a Tiki Bar, and have dinner. Since I don't have to work that Monday, we won't get back to her place until a little before 11pm. Its like that we both parties refuse to own or rent car. She is excited about the whole weekend. Me, I'm kind of too, but I'm dreading what this last weekend of sun and beach means.....cold weather soon to follow. Oh well. I have a text relationship with an older woman. We have met before, a total of 4 times. She text me and told me that it was time that she took our relationship to the next level. I dreaded asking her ...

Today, these 2 falls in the same. Ahhh.... I just love the beach. The sun, water and the women. Not gonna lie about that. I think the beach is the only place where men, ALL men are allowed to look. Some of us, if we are with another woman, have to sneak glances at that well tone body. Some bodies aren't that well toned, but with cute faces, but we look any ways. For any man, who goes to the beach and NOT look...well they have issues. Deep issues. With only 2 more weeks with the beaches being officially open for swimming, ya gotta get your 'look on' before the long long loooong coats come into season. I go to one beach with my ex girlfriend. We both enjoy the water. With me and my floatation vest, approved by The United States Coast Guard, I have no problem with going as far out in the water as I am allowed. Her, my ex, she only gets in up to her breast. Yesterday a cuople came and actual set up a beach tent in front of us, and it got us thinking. Yep, amazon, type, click ...

Dreams...we all have them and its said that what ever you dream, its all you. I can understand that part, but my dreams are strange and I didn't know what they meant until last night. Then, it became all clear to me. When I go to sleep at night I have to have something to listen to. Its not music, talk radio. Mostly I listen to Art Bell, George Noory and that othe guy on Coast To Coast AM. I don't listen in on regular radio, TuneIn.com, mostly rebroadcast, commericals are taken out, and they are back to back 3 hour broadcasts. Its helps me not only sleep, but I learn 'stuff'. Last night..I don't know if it was a past broadcast, but it explained all about dreams. Its kind of hard for me to explain it word for word, but most of my dreams have been about flying and some what being in the past, but my being in the dream was of the future. I do know one thing though, some of my dreams have been OBE, Out of Body Experineces. Now you can laught, go ahead. What was said ...