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First...my body is changing, has changed. I mean the stuff that I take in, food. Okay, I like coffee, but it seems like my body has a mind of its own and it tells me that it doesn't like coffee any more. Besides upsetting my stomach every so often, its the taste. Gone are the days of a good cup of Joe. At home...nasty, at work..even nastier. The only coffee I think that will still taste GREAT is the coffee from the food trucks that scatter the city each morning. I'm putting off going to one right outside the train station on my way to work because...THAT might just taste nasty also. I don't know. Another thing is...candy. I eat it cause of the energy boost. Won't ever take those package energy boost thingies. I tried a Red Bull, just a sip mind you. I thought my heart was gonna beat out of my chest. I actually saw it beating rapidly while looking in the mirror, so NONE of that for me. I will stick to candy. Just read in the newspaper that Andy Dick will be on dancin...

I've been thinking about this for a long time, say a month. At first I thought it was just me, and I was seeing things within a box. Come to find out that my thoughts all along have been correct. I have been meeting women, talking with them, getting to know them so to speak. Most as only as just friends cause you can never have too many friends, these just happen to be women. Guys are a whole different matter. I don't go looking for friendship from a certain class of woman, that she has to fit a criteria. Just friends is all and I let it go from there. But what I come to understand, and bear with me on this one, cause maybe I am not the only one who see things this way, but... There are a lot of hurt women, women who have been wronged by men. They are walking out there, walking on the streets with the impression that everything is all okay. Thats good for them; walking with their heads up, going about life everyday as if nothing has happened to them. But if a guy, such as m...

Stephanie...she is only a friend, text me about 3am. If it wasn't that I had to go to the bathroom, I would have never heard it. I wouldn't have heard it anyway cause I always keep my ringer, alert turned off, but I always check. Well, she text that she was out on a date in Manhattan, she is from the outer city area; she was out on a date and the guy is being ass holiest. Would I please come and get her & her car and drive her home. Mind you that time of night it will take me about 1 and a half hours to get there...I went. I had to see what state she was in. Where she was at was down in The Village and the trains running down there are crazy sort of. Not to mention, the bars were closing and ALL the drunks were on the streets. Had to talk the guy into letting me in cause there was someone I was there to pick up and take home. Hearing that, he quickly unlocked the door. The female bartender says that she wish she had friends like me. Steph was in a bad state. Sloppy drunk ...

Everyone has their own opinions, I may agree and I may disagree with them/it, but I would never get to the point ofcursing you out. Even if you comment on what I say online, and then you reply by cursing me out. The issue; and there are many, one you don't know me. And 2, is it really that serious...'Fanboy'. Okay, I can understand that some women want the man they date or marry to have certain things in life. Things like their own car, their own place and goals, long term goals. A plan for at the end of their life's, their golden years. Issues again. 1, I will always refuse to own a car when I live in a city that never sleeps. If I need to go some where out of the city and a bus doeant get me there, other modes of transportation. 2, so what if I rent a room, its cost as much as 2/3 of your rent and its my space not yours. 3, my golden years will be MY golden years. Why you want to know my plans, you're not involved in them, you put nothing into them...and who the ...

Its taken almost 53 years to get to the point that I am at now. I didn't do this all by myself, but I played a major part in it. Friday after work, I headed out to Long Island. At almost this time last year I met her. The year went by, and she reachedout to me again. But this time she understood where I was coming from and she said she didn't understand why last year she didn't. I told her cause she had already in her head had made up how she wanted us to be and she didn't or wouldn't stand for less. I guess being lonely and having so much love to offer, changes your way of thinking. She is till working 2 jobs, so I was left by myself I thought in her home...no. she said she wanted me to drive her to work, take the car and she would text me to come pick her up after work. So, what was I to do for 8 hours. I drove around and found a couple of places I could hang out. I enjoy being some place I know nothing about and the people can tell that I wasn't from aroun...

I just want this day to start, and then be over with. You know how you kind of worked hard all week, Friday comes, and you just want it to be over with? That's how I am feeling...anxious. (think I spelled that right). Went for an early morning walk around 2:30am and thought of something. Like, what is the difference between power & strength? Figured it out too. People can have power, but lack strength. You can have all the money in the world and people won't, can't respect you. Also, you can have all that same money and people WILL respect you. Strength? To fight and endure...accomplishment. You can say the same thing about power too. I aslo thought about the people I take pride in, and only one person comes to mind. My sister Donna. In a forwarded email from her job Citi Group, a tear welled up in my eye. Here this woman... She met a guy, whom became her boyfriend. This guy's mother worked for Citi Banks a teller, she offered my sister a job as a teller and she...

I actually went to this concert Saarbrucken, West Germany

This is the email I got in return from my Old Army Buddy Wow so many memories man where do I start. First of all I did get an Article 15 for fighting because I,m the one who built the wooden fence in front of Bravo Battery, they gave me some old tent poles and some 4" x 4"s and I built a kick ass fence then ,when the post commander saw how good a job I did they put me in charge of extra duty for three more months so that I could supervise the building of fences in front of Alpha, Charlie and Headquarters Batteries. I was the battery commander driver for the black one Captain Reeves who had the 442. Used to fuck with him on the way to Graf and tell him shit like " I have 80 grams of good green hash in the oil bath cooler for the jeep and could he please not get in any trouble so I don't get busted". He would laugh his ass off and tell me to shut the fuck up. Sergeant Sexton(First Sergeant)  caught me smoking one day in my room - we had just go...

I just emailed an old Army buddy, this is what I said.... You mentioned 29 inches of snow that one time in Germany. To be honest with you, it seemed like quite a bit of snow EVERY winter while I was there. This little 'dusting' was nothing compared to what I have seen, right? Another thing. We play the radio in the kitchen where I work at. The Head Chef always has it turned to Classic Rock...no problem. I like it cause it brings back memories. Today Boston came on the radio, Don't Look Back. I remember going to that concert in Germany, sooooo.... I googled it. here is the link: http://www.bandboston.com/ Tour%20Pages/tour7879.htm Scroll all the way down to the bottom of the page to The Euro Tour. I think it was...Rhein-Neckar-Halle Heidelberg. I don't remember who I went with, but I do know I was on restriction, cause I had received an Article 15, remember those, probably not, you might never had recieved one. I remember walking into a Baskin Robbins o...

It's funny...I laugh at it though. Some people may get the wrong impression of me, they refuse to ask. Ask what I am really about. Its simple, one word....FUN !! Some may say how can a almost 53 year old man even have that word in his vocabulary. To me its the most important word in the human language. Others may say the word responsibility is more important, I don't think so. After responsibility...FUN !! Nope, fun first then responsibility. My concept is that life, everyday life isn't all that complicated. Its like this, you live..then you die. All that space, and all that time between the two...that's what is important. Are you that type of person who wants to leave their mark on the world? It has already happened, it was when you applied for your Social Security Card, thats your mark, it's all tied backed to you. Impressions. All the confusion I have already worked out in my head, and I know what I have to do..need to do. I will do them when I see fit too. I...

We are about to get hit again. I don't mind it at all though. Snow doesn't hurt anyone...not unless you're buried in it, then, snow kind of sucks. What most people look forward to...I don't. What I look forward to is getting ha seat on the 2 trains and the bus I take home from work. Being I'm on my feet once I stand up...no, after I stand up from the bench in the locker room from changing into my uniform, then, I'm on my feet 8, 9 hours. So that seat, seats...sure does feel good. Like I said before. Your leg has to be nearly off your. Body before I give you my seat. Yesterday on the train was a strange one. This attractive young women was staring at me. I gave her the look of, 'what, I owe you money?' She sat besides me and told me something that rock my world. She said that she has pictures of me in her mother's livingroom of her and her mother AND me taken together...AND, was I her father. Mind you she wasn't whispering this and the train jus...

Sweetheart...What I am about to tell you...lets just say, they could and will take away my 'Man Card', and barr me for LIFE. But I'm gonna take a chance and tell you the Man Code. Okay, first off you women THINK you know us men...ha ha ha, yeah right!! Us men, we are complicated creatures, but we are creatures of habit. We like the same thing over and over again, we are comfortable with that. Okay, did you write that down, I will wait until you do. It is rare that you will find a man who will and would get upset if he sees you out with another man. What a REAL MAN will do, he will check out you first from head to toe...THEN he will give the man that you are with a certain look. Not a look of 'I'm gonna kick ya ass', no, a look of 'alright, she sure is looking good, right?' type look. Um, but don't get it confused with the look of,' yeah, I'm tappin' that too', not saying that people are tappin you all over Nashville, I'm just sayi...

You know when we sometimes get in situations...and our 'Spidey Senses', they like tingle all hover the place, well that has been happening with me lately. Got a text last night..but I was asleep when it came. This woman, she is 60 years old, but has a body of a 30 year old woman, well we meet med last year. She told me straight up that she would sleep with me, but wants to waith 2, 3 weeks before she does. So we kept on seeing one another and we did sleep together. We both enjoyed each other. Then she hit me with she wanted to marry me. I told her I couldn't cause I didn't want to. Nothing to do with her personally, I just didn't want to be married. Like I said, or maybe I didn't state so, she got back in touch with me. She is a lonely woman from what I can tell and from what she has told me. She works 2 jobs, that's all she does is work and come home. In the text last night she stated again that she likes me well enough to marry me. I text back and a long...

Watched the first half and the commericals, they were fun. Then came the Half Time Show...and I have thoughts on it. Listen, Beyounce looks great, and this is coming off of just having a baby too. But, but there was something in her eyes. It was something of a look of...'been here do this already'. I think she is bored with the whole performing thing, but she loves the money. Who wouldn't, I guess she demands top dollar. I read just to sit front row at a runway, she demands 100K !! I should have continued watching the game, missed the who 'blackout' thing...miss whatturned out to be a great game too. Congrats Ravens. Lately...I ahvent been giving a fuck. I mean...I don't know what I mean really. Like I said, I get bored easy. Seems that people, women are boring me. Or, it could be the idea of the chase. I think that's what it is. Work comes first, that's what I'm in control of and the only thing I wish to control. My getting up jand going to work is...