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So Martha Stewart says she needs a man for sex. You would figure with the MILLIONS she has, that a man should be her last worry. Well, if she is looking, it isn't too hard to find me. Some people should listen more often. When I tell you, cause you ask me, when I tell you that people in general care less than a fuck about you, me, anyone other than their selves. Take it as gospel. Why are women so...why do they care about what a man has to offer them. They should ask themselves what do they have to offer to themselves. Movies & going to the movies. Yeah sure it create jobs, but is it my fault that studios pay the actors MILLIONS and the picture has a low turn out and the studio loses money? Solutions. Cut off rate of 5 to 10 million for primary stars, then make the movie avaiable for download at $2 a shot. Do the math...worldwide. Here in NYC, if you bring your child on the subways and they are below the age of... if they can't walk, carry them. That baby stroller you l...

...not to really give a flying fuck about anything but SELF. ...and I don't mean that in a bad way either. Its funny, your coworkers treat you different from say... our Supervisor. I mean he is a cool guy. He puts his pants on the same I do, breathe the same air I do and also bleed red blood as I do. But you wanna know what, if you as an employee has to kiss his ass every time he walks in the room, it one of 2 things. One, you have been at that job way too fuckin' long, and 2, you like kissing ass. I'm quick to tell, well just about any one this. Of course this is after I am hired and my 90 day probation s over with and or I have 6 months on the job. 'Your worst nightmare was hiring me'. I work with and around food. Anything that has to do with food, be it reservations, catering, ordering, cooking, resupplying...I KNOW THAT SHIT like I know the back of my hand. I've been told, no ask, why I am not a Manager? Fuck telling people what to do, fuck supervision PER...

I have this thing for information. Its like I have to know. No, its not that, its I want to know. I want to know everything there is to know. Its not to boast or anything like that. Just that you never know when the topic of..lets say anything might just come up. The Huntington Post, I get their emails. I like reading the ones that pertain to dating. Strange though, their perspective is only relate to the female side of things. Just read one last night about online dating. This woman said that she hadn't date in a long time, so she tried one of the online dating sites. Filled out a profile, and low and behold, she started getting messages from guys. She said that she looked at the pictures and she saw cute guys...cute guys with beards...that lived in Brooklyn. She did the instant messaging thing with them, and with one that she decided to go out and meet with. Guess what happened? She never met the guy, came up with some excuse with that she had way too much stuff on her plate ...

Yep, 53 years on the face of this earth and I've come to appreciate a few things. One thing recently...be willing to listen and or hold a conversation with some one older than me. One, its always some good information and 2, you're suppose to. Since I asked yesterday for today off, why did I wake up at 4am. 4am on a day that I'm off is sleeping late, so why am I complaining. My ex had called me and asked me to spend my birthday night with her. Mind you to get to her house upstate NY is a 2 hour bus ride. So in the morning I will wake up at 5am, catcch the 6:11am Metro North trai to the city, a hour ride. Then catch the subway train uptown to 68th street. Probably get there a 2 hours early. Usually there an hour early. I have no problem doing this for her. I'm that type of guy. Besides she says she has a birthday present for me and wants pizza for dinner. Half the pie of what she wants. My half..bacon, pineapples, ham extra cheese and ranch dressing. My ex, Lisa purcha...

I honestly feel that all the world's problems can be solved with & by water. First, you have to uderstand water. Scientist have long said that where there is water, there is Life. I believe this to be true. Countries in Africa, people are dying for the lack of food, but mostly its water. Water to grow their own food. How do I tie water in with praying? Every morning I take a shower. While under the shower head, water streaming over my body, I clear up my thoughts. Thoughts come to me, so fast in fact, that I have to stand back and gather my thoughts. While I'm back under the water, I talk to God. I don't really like calling it praying, cause all I'm really doing is talking to God. I also find myself planning out what I'm going to do for the day. Plans don't always go accordly too, hey shit happens. But I really believe that id people take showers eery morning, most of the world's problems can be solved. I dilike shit like that. I can be having a good ...

Listen, I don't have all the answers, just some. I know what works for me, but I will let you in on it, but you can't judge me either. Oh, I know you will, so that's why I call you a piece of shit behind your back. You prefer it that way, keeps the shit we have between going on and on...its healthy. But, when I walk in the room on you, and your eyes are redder than a freakin' stop sign, something isn't right. And no matter how much or how many sexual jokes I tell you, it and you won't feel any better. But I can tell you what I do and say. What I say is..hell, they can't take me out behind the barn and shoot me, well not any more they can't.

...when you can't even see the hand in front of your face...and you're outside at night in the open. Now that's dark. Most people are Very afraid of the dark, not me. I've learned to embrace it. I've learned to see it as a long lost friend, happy as all fuck for it to make its presence. Most people, when confronted with total darkness make so much noise to frighten off what they can't see. Not me. I know you're out there, I can't see you, but I can smell you. I smell...your fear. Don't hear, see or smell me do you? Of course not, I am one with Darkness. It lives in all of us, mines is my friend. Some Funny Shit... Range Control, this is Unit 4 1 Alpha, Papa Alpha 3 7, Firing Point 3214, Officer's initals Juliet Charlie, Safty's Officer's initals Mike Charlie will advise when first round is down range and observed safe. Firing Point 3214 Out !! Range Control, Range Control over. Range Control, Range Control over. This is Range Contro...

I swear to FUCKING GOD !! I love me some BIG BUTT women, but I have to draw the line some where. If this woman who has to sit next to me every morning... Cute face, nice smile AND a nice JUICY ASS. She doesn't have a butt, she GOT ASS. ....if she sits next to me 2morrow and eats no one but 2 FREAKIN' bagels with crean cheese AND EXTRA BACON again. I'm gonna say something. I saw her eating it in the reflection of the window across from. TWICE I almost threw up in my mouth. Why does she wait until she is on the train to eat that mess. Cream cheese all over her mouth gave me the hardest of all hardest erections this morning.

I was stationed at Ft. Jackson SC, assigned to a Transportation Company. 10th Transportation Company, and the later 342nd Transportation Company. At Ft Jackson, know as Ft. Joke, I saw Tax Payers money being wasted all kinds of way out of the ass. Here are a few. As a truck driver, I was given a 2. And a half ton truck. Know as a Deuce and a Half. An All Purpose Truck. I hauled soldiers, laundry and when I had an Off Post Commintment, Mortars. Those shits are fucking heavy. Good thing about hauling Mortars was, while traveling of the Post, you had to be armed. 45 across my chest and a M16 hanging in the cab of the truck. 8 clips, 4 banana and 2 regular for the M16. For the 45, 5 clips. You just wished some one would make a move on your cargo, Mortars. No luck, no one did. It was a weekend, Saturday night about 8pm, I had no plans. The CQ, Charge of Quarters knocked on my door. He knew I was in there cause I was watching TV, I opened. He said he had an Off Post run, Shaw Air Force Bas...

So, whatever didn't get passed last night, yesterday into law, and some powers that be are upset about it too. I really don't understand why they are so upset. If you make it harder for people to get and own guns, you make it easier for them to do it illegally, simple as that. I admit, guns are VERY dangerous, but you need them. If everyone was allowed to carry, no matter what, I think there would be less robberies. I don't know about there being less killings though. But if the bad guys knew that EVERY person was allowed to carry a gun, some of them would have second thoughts about doing the shit that they do. Got a text yesterday from a female friend. She said that she was able to pay her rent, but her cell phone bill was due today or they will turn off her phone. You know I called her right away and I was totally honest with her. I told her... why are you asking me to pay your phone bill and you haven't even though about fucking me. She said 'WHAT??!!" S...

I don't know what it is, but it feels like that I am just stuck. Its like the movie GroundHog's Day. The same shit over and over. I know what I need to do too. I thought this over and the firwst thing I have to do is changed the way I dress. Yep, I dress for riding public transportation cause the trains and buses are filthy. I mean that they are so nasty that at times after I get off a train or bus, I have this constant smell of shit in my nose. It has become personal cause I think if I smell it, others smell it too. I think that I probably sat in some shit, so when I get to where I'm going I run to the bathroom and check myself ALL over. Doesn't happen that often to warrant a slight case of OCD...yet. Some people LIKE the idea of being in a relationship for the simple matter of... just 'knowing' that some one wants them. I was told from a female that no man has ever left her, that she always break up with them first. So, I told her it was over. She got this l...

Sometimes..mainly most of the time, things come to me in my head in spurts. When those times happen, I may not be in the...let's say, I might not be able to just..'express' my views. This is one of those times..some things that came to mind again. Immigration....simple solution. Every swinging dick & closed Sally, who is in the country illegaly, register with The Armed Forces. Aged Scale. Over the age of 50, you work in a Non Combact job or field. Under the age of 50, you TRAIN MOTHERFUCKER!! You wanna be here, fight for your right to be here. Give this country 3r full years, we will give you FULL citizenship. Case closed. Websites.....I think they should pay taxes on having a website. What, how many websites are on the web....like a gazillion? Fuck em, tax those fuckers too. Relationships....now this is a biggie for me. I could write a book on this subject alone. Okay...fuck looking for Mr or Miss Right, focus on Mr or Miss RIGHT NOW!! If you're a female and 35 ...

I've come to understand that I can't have what I always want and what I want...sometimes it takes time to achieve. I am well aware of this so when shit doesn't go as I plan, I don't get my drawers all bunched up in my ass. I move on, and wait for the next given chance. But... I'm gonna rant and rave now. STUPID MOTHERFUCKERS !! Yeah ya know em. They may be sitting right next to you at this moment. Chances are...one is about to make its presence to you at any freakin' moment. Do all you can 'try' to do to avoid them...nope, they sneak up on you. Better yet, you can see them and the bullshit that trails behind them as they approach. I know, I know. You just want to call them on it, right?  But you ask yourself in that split nano second, is it all worth it. Cause 9 times out of 10, after all is said and done, you're the one who feels like shit for calling THEM on their bullshit!! So you suffer..and suffer, and.... the strange thing is if you give it a ...

Love Thursdays for some strange reason. I broke it down like this... Most people only work about 3 days a week. Oh they show up 5 days, but actually doing some work amounts to only 3 days. Who does any work on Monday & Friday..No ONE !! Me and my wisdom, trying to figure out a situation and I've come to the conclusion that I might be a dumb fuck. I doubt it, but.. Okay, she is a beautiful woman with a child, young boy about 5 or 6. I've been told that she is unobtainable..whatever the fuck that means. Everyone is/was trying to get with her. I had small convo with her, the last being a couple of days before Easter. Something was mentioned about going to church and I said I would probably burst into flames once I crossed the threshold. I thought it was a funny ass joke...should've seen the look on her face though. Anyways... oh, I have to be somewhat careful about what I say here. Internet Police in full control. Just read the newspapers. Fuck that, speaking my mind. I ...

Seriously, I don't have enough time in a 24 hour period.. you would figure I would, but nope. Hey, I can't help it that as we get older, I think we require more sleep. I don't know, I keep hearing different versions of it, but I'm sticking with at least 7 hours. That's 7 hours if 'I' can help it. Sometimes you have to...get by on 4 hours. She will be worth it. I always wanted to do my own Podcast...mainy music, that will be once a week. Thinking also of doing just a commentary once week also. Gonna look into how to do this. Should be easy with Google and all. Just finding the time to do so. I dislike getting text that state one thing and the person does another. I use to be that way, but I changed. I make plans and stick to them. This was after a fcertain woman chewed me out in public when she saw me and she held back nothing. I mean she was VERY graphic about what we had set up to do, she shuffled around certain plans she made and I cancelled at that last...

Okay, is it safe, safe now to pack away the long underwear & wool socks. Can I stop wearing double pairs of socks too? Pack away the winter coats too maybe. I really don't know, weather out in the mid west is STILL acting crazy. Now they are talking about tornados and such..hail too. One thing for such though, with the caots getting short, I, and along with the male species can see what some of you women have been doing and hiding all winter long. Those butts...no, asses are looking great!! That Birthday party, some things I saw and will piont out and address. I have been the 'Long Lost Cousin', that actually LIVES in New York City. I haven't seen some cousins since 1977, prior to me going into the Army. When I was discharged, I had to catch up on ways & life in NYC, I've been good for a while. ...and family, well they willalways be there, I wasn't worried about that. Its like, 'Lead, Follow or Get The Hell Out of The Way', that was and still is...

Sometimes you have to pick your battles...try and pick the ones you know you can win, right? The game is coming on TV tonight and I WAS all prepared for it too. Told my ex girlfriend that I wouldn't be able to come and see her this weekend. Mind you, she purchased tickets for a Jazz concert. I was only going cause she wanted to go, now I'm not going, but she still is. I really forgot that my Aunt is having her 80th Birthday party. I COULD'VE got out of that too, but... One, its about 3 blocks from where I live at. She lives all the way across The Bronx, but her children decided that they wanted to have it in CoOp City's family rooms. And, since I live with my mother...picture me NOT going and TRYING to stay home to watch the game. I could take one of my many electronic devices where I could strem the game...I'm good like that, but I KNOW I would get strange looks, The Evil Eye from Moms. But I must see this game. I will see what's what later on.

I'm gonna say that I love me some women. I mean, I love making love to a woman. Its a good feeling when a woman calls you and tell you come on over, she doesn't feel like being alone. And then you woke up from the FUCKIN' DREAM YOU WERE HAVIN'. Ain't life a Bitch. I have the bullet, just don't have the gun. I get a gun, I'm blowing my fuckin' head off. Is it just me, but the reason why we/I get angry at some women is because I can fore see the BULLSHIT they try to run on me and the fellas. Calls, no texts me on Monday about 11am, told me that her son has to go see his Parole Officer at 5:15. So I am to be there by 5pm. In fact I think I passed him when I left the train station. I get there she is cooking dinner?! We haveny exchanged sweat, spit and other body fluids in over 8 months...I think. Hell it feels like a year to me. No one in the aprtment and you want to cook food? Oh se 1was prepared though, long t-shirt with NOTHING underneath, but all she ...

I'm gonna say that I love me some women. I mean, API love making love to a woman. Its a good feeling when a woman calls you and tell you come on over, she doesn't feel like being alone. AT~hen you woke up from the FUCKIN' DREAM YOU WERE HAVIN'. Ain't life a Bitch. I have the bullet, just don't have the gun. I get a gun, I'm bowing my fuckin' head off. Is it just me, but the reason why we/I ge2t angry at some women is because I can fore see the BULLSHIT they try to run on me and the2 fellas. Calls, no texts me on Monday about 11am, told me that her son has to go see his Parole Officer at 5:15. So I am to be there by 5pm. In fact I think I passed him when I left the train station. I get there she is cooking dinner?! We haveny exchanged sweat, spit and other body fluids in over 8 months...I think. Hell it feels like a year to me. No one in the aprtment and you want to cook food? Oh se 1was prepared though, long t-shirt with NOTHING underneath, but all she...

You know the feeling... after a very bad storm and then you go out look at your property to look at the damage. To see how much money you have to spend in repairs. How do you do that with feeling? PLEASE tell me!! Well my 'friend' showed up 10 minutes later than she said she would...and I said something about it. I had to. See, she told me that she doesn't understand how anyone could ride public transportation. She has a car. I asked her how could she be 10 minutes late when she DOES have a car, that makes no sense. From there, shit went down hill. Movies $12.50 for one fuckin' ticket. That's why I download. We go to the theater that showing the movie we both wanted to see, its 10 minutes before the coming attractions. The theater is completely dark except for the runway Christnas lights down the isle. I get a little vertigo thingy going on..I'm enjoying it. We both think there isn't anyone in the place...there is a man sitting in the back...freaks her da ...