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...be it County, City, and State...even Federal. No one FORCED you to work in this field you miserable FUCK !! This isn't going out to those who ENJOY doing what they do. Like the ones who pour your coffee, who slice your deli meats & cheeses, even those who just ring up & bag your groceries. They, we, me...well some of us really like doing it. We enjoy it so much that we are happy to see you and worry when we don't see you on your weekly shopping or picking up your coffee. No, this goes out to those.... ungreatful fucks who think its a burden to serve us. I went to the beach last week and was waiting for the bus to go home. A bus witch wasn't the one I had to catch pulled up. First, since there is a fenced off area for those waiting for the bus..well he pulled up to that and there were no place for the people exiting the bus to go. A lady said something, so he backed the bus up, it seemed like it was a problem for him doing this. After everyone got off, then he w...

...ya just can't have it. Nope, not even one little bit of it. Wanna know why? Cause it never ends...the wanting that it. Its always something else. You get that and this happens. So you take care that, and this happens. Shit never ends. I want a meaningful relationship, I really do. Something always comes up or in between. Its either she is so focus on..as she says it, making that money, stacking her stacks. Working long hours and wants me to cater to HER hours. No mutal agreement, its either this way or no way. Okay its no way cause you don't want to meet me half way. Then the insults come. Hell, you gave me a choice, let me make a decision, and I did. I'm not gonna stand in the way of you making yours. Or, the one who claims that they have their shit all together...but don't. Wants to keep living on that 'front'. They don't have a pot to piss in..as they say. ...and want to control how you see them, when and where. First of all you have little ones to t...

I don't claim that I entirely know how a woman or women think, nobody does. But I ask the women that I know and sleep with, what is it about me they like besides sex. And the answer is weak. My ex is the ONLY one who gave me the answer that I was looking for...for the matter, the only answer. She told me that even though she loves me and knows for a fact that I am sleeping with other women, that when I spend the weekend with her, I am there with her. She enjoys my company, my conversation and sex is only 2nd or 3rd what she loves about our time together. NICE !! These other woman that I see...its only a sexual relationship on my part. See, they want that extra paycheck that I bring along with our sexual romps. They don't like or love me for me, its what I can do for them. I admit, these womanmake more money than me, and my earnings are extra that they think they can spend. Another thing is...my ex doesn't have any children. Not saying that a woman with children is a prob...

I don't claim that I entirely know how a woman or women think, nobody does. But I ask the women that I know and sleep with, what is it about me they like besides sex. And the answer is weak. My ex is the ONLY one who gave me the answer that I was looking for...for the matter, the only answer. She told me that even though she loves me and knows for a fact that I am sleeping with other women, that when I spend the weekend with her, I am there with her. She enjoys my company, my conversation and sex is only 2nd or 3rd what she loves about our time together. NICE !! These other woman that I see...its only a sexual relationship on my part. See, they want that extra paycheck that I bring along with our sexual romps. They don't like or love me for me, its what I can do for them. I admit, these womanmake more money than me, and my earnings are extra that they think they can spend. Another thing is...my ex doesn't have any children. Not saying that a woman with children is a prob...

Friday, the first day of Summer. I read somewhere about a month ago that everyone should take that day off from work, it was 'National Take a Day Off From Work Day'. I swear, I read it somewhere, so the next day I asked The Chef could I have that day off and he gave it to me. I Googled it, but I couldn't find it anywhere on line. Thats what I get for always reading something at one time or another. I had a good day reguardless. I made plans with my ex girlfriend, well she made the plans. She wanted to see Man of Steel, but we were going to go and see it on Friday night. During the day, cause she also took the day off, we were going to the beach. But when we woke up Friday morning, it was chilly and we BOTH had 2nd thoughts about it being a beach weather day. Decided to catch the 12pm show instead. Didn't feel like a Friday cause when we went into the theater a total of 6 people were inside. We both fell asleep at the boring parts and was waken up with all the loud...

Why is it when Man gets use to do the same thing every day, and when things or and people throw a Monkey Wrench into our every day doings, we get all FUCKED UP !!! There is only one person that I change my plans for, and that is for my mother. Its not because presently I am living in her home, nope that's not it. It is for her, without her going thru with her pregancy of me, I wouldn't even be here. I know at times I wish or have wished that I have never been born, but that was when shit was hitting the fan. Now, I imagine myself not even being born, not often, but I do. I imagine not being able to see what all there is I have seen so far in my life. Like when times sometime get hard, I think to myself that I'm lucky to even be present to see these hard times. I admit, I have had some good times more than bad and times where I don't even know what to call it. Good, bad...border line, what the fuck, I'm living them. Some times...I can get stuck. Most times its all ...

100 pages in a book I started reading on my Kindle; mind you THE FIRST KINDLE, the screen went bad on me. My fault really. I stuck it inmy back pocket, got on the train AND SAT THE FUCK DOWN!!  I could shoot myself with an uzi if I had the balls. Now I'm forced to use my 10 inch Tablet. Wait, that last sentence sounded like a line from a bad porn movie, but that what I am force to do. No longer will I be different and have a device that's old school. Gonna go on Amazon and see if they have 2nd hand ones, I know they do. I have over 300 books I plan on reading and adding new ones everyday too. Book I was reading? The Kill Room by Jeffery Deaver. Its freakin' good too!!

When the trailers for Superman first appeared many months ago, my ex gf TOLD me that we ARE going to go see this movie. She didn't ask me, she TOLD me. Like if I had any say so in it at all. But I love her in my own special way... I really do. I've known her since 1997, and at one time we both lived together. But that didn't work out to well. I work with food, on my feet all day and on my day off, she wants to go out and be seen. Doing things as couples do. Me, I rather stay home and chill, she wasn't having it though. So we went out ways, but remained close friends. Out of a month, I would spend 2 weekends with her if not all my weekends. So when Superman came out, she being so damn happy...just can't wait to go see it. Was suppose to have went on Saturday that past, but we both were too tired and lazy to get up and go, so this Saturday we are...but wait. As I type this, I am remotely accessing her computer 2 hours away, and downloading a copy of the movie to h...

...let's see if I have that's right. If you are in this country illegaly, you will be able to apply for citizenship, but its a 10 year proccess. You will be allowed to work, but you won't be able to collect any Public Assistance if you don't work. Sounds fair... I think. So IRS will collect taxes on you while you're working PENDING your citizenship. Hell, anything can happen to you in 10 years. I guess this is a way to keep track of people. I think that the police should stop any one they 'think' is an illegal. If so, arrested and deport. Simple as that. A female friend of mine; who I think really has some mental issues contacted me. Sje said she wants to cheat on her bf. 'Can I get a hot tub!!' With me I asked? With who ever she responded. She said she isn't doing this cause she caught him or anything, its just her life is too 'vanilla'. I can understand that, plus she has a pretty face, long hair AND a body that stops time. On her body...

...and, do you REALLY want to know what I think, more or less, answers to your questions. Started at...let's say, some place else. I say this cause you know 'Big Brother' is listening in & watching. She asked me a questions and I knew the answer right off. You see most women know how to play the 'numbers game', that's having more than one 'friend'. Nothing sexual so they say, but you know, aquiring certain gifts and getting their bills paid. Hey more power to them. But sweethearts, ya have to KNOW how to play the game. One thing, if the men you are 'seeing' have cars, you have to go with that at any time, day or night, they can just drive by. Your house, your job..any place. So, when one screams on you while you're standing on a corner, late at night, dress like a hooker and talking to another one of your 'friends'...you earned that tongue lashing. Yep its yours, claim it. Its not that he said that you're dress like a whore,...

Yesterday was my ex's birthday, so I took her out to eat. One of those places where they cook your food right in front of you. I'm not all about going out to eat and stuff. I work with food, around it way too much and for such a long time. I don't understand the whole concept about goibg out to eat anyway, its over priced and you can make the same product at home and even cheaper. Who am I to complain where as I make my living..earn my $$ by people going out to eat. First time I have ever ate in a place like this. The table was set for 8 people, but since we were the only ones at the table, the Chef prepared it entirely just for us. He even threw in some extra food. I had the surloin steak...GREAT!! For now on if I want steak, I will travel the 2 hours by public transportation to this place. There is nothing like seeing your steak go from raw to the way you want it cooked and STRAIGHT to your plate. I don't understand why all food in ALL restaurants aren't prepared...

I wonder why people are surprised by our government listening in on our phone calls and reading our emails. Doesn't surprise me at all, plus I could care less. Put it to you this way. Times are hard right now, right? All they can do is send me to jail, can't kill me. I'm doing okay taking care of myself, not getting into any trouble or anything. So I just thought of some things. Arrested me rightabout now, I don't care. I will cop to it. You wanna know why? I probably will do better..well not so better, but I would be okay with being locked up. It also depends on were I will be doing my time, and that would depend on where and what state I get arrested in. I'm walking on tissue paper here in New York City. Here, you can get arrested, locked up just for looking at the Police wrong. So I'm careful when I'm out & about. But any other state, sure, I would be okay, here's why. I would be more healthy cause they are serving food like that. Some prisons, ...

Dislike this type of shit when it happens to me, and it happens a lot too. 2 weeks ago, I mentioned to the Chef that watch, things are going to get so bad that the government is gonna have us eating dead people. Like in that movie Solvent Green. That man is destroying the land so much and so often that we aren't going to be able to grow any food, and the animals we eat with not be because there won't be any natrual land for them to feed on. The rest of the kitchen staff laughed at me. Then in one of the free newspapers an article... Its called 'Soylent', an innovation from U.S. Biohacker Rob Rhinehart. Soylent combines every nutruent the human body needs each day according to the FDA in a SINGLE dose od a super-charged PASTE. Google his name and the name 'Soylent' After you read what's said, then think about this. No refrigeration is needed. No feed waste and no litter. Is this what's in store for the future of food for man?

...but shit is always subject to change. That's one thing I can say for myself, I can adapt to change. Being patient is what I have to work on. I'm not saying that some people don't know how to do their jobs, I don't work in that field, but... if I have been 'dabbling' in that field when you were a...teenager? Yeah, I do know the precautions. I say this because my old reliable Notebook got 'sick' on me, lost Network Adapters. Did everything I could, but wasn't able to make it feel better. So, I handed it off to Tech Support at the job, the day after Memorial Day. Just got it back yesterday and its still not working. But they had a solution, back up everything and they will wipe it clean. To me that's the easy way out. I'm gonna take it to a shop which charges ONLY $85 dollars for a re install of OS, will upgrade to Win 7 Pro, but its a Notebook so I might be only be able to go to basic...whatever. Patricia lives about 5 blocks from me, and ...

First to let off some steam. Monday's...people dislike them a whole lot. Me, I just love me some Monday's. Its the time to start the week all new, forget about all the bad things that happened the week before. For me, Monday morning train ride is a breeze...except this past FUCKING MONDAY !!!!!! A female friend of mine who claims we are in a relationship, but haven't slept with each other over a FUCKIN' YEAR, asked me to meet her on the train. Mind you, I have to get up extra early and transfer for the train that she is going to be on and that means either a 10 to 15 minute wait. No biggie, I have my Kindle, reading this great ass book too. Her train pulls in and something told me as I looked through the window that shit was gonna hit the fan. She is sitting close to this pole and on the other side of the pole is a little space, but this guy is like taking up 3 seats. I 'asked' him, could he please move over. He starts going off on me. Telling me out of all th...