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Every morning, I jump on my mountainbike and I take a 5 mile ride. I feel a lot better through out the rest of the day too. Yesterday after I took a shower, found out I didn't have anything to throw on under my arms. No deorderant in the freaking house. None whatssoever. So I went without and you know something...I don't stink. Other than smellinglike the kitchen I work in, no problem. I dohave acess to showers at work, but... I have a wash cloth that I use, and the next day I come in in the morning, it smells like a rusty pipe. Being that my locker is made of metal, guess that why. But I saw inside one co workers locker and he has a deorderizer hanging up. Good idea. If I had children, daughters...I would allow them to make their mistakes up to a certain point and THEN I would draw the line. I think my daughter(s) of child bearing age and dating would be terrors. I would have THAT talk with them. Being a man, I would tell them the real deal. I'm sure fathers of the world...

...my wallet says Eddie Bauer. Serious, I like the style of clothing, but can not afford the prices, sooooo.... My mother, she gets all kinds of sale books from almost everyone in the mail. This one, Sportman's Guide, I went off on. Ordered like $300 worth of clothes. Mostly Carhartt, which I didn't know made shirts, jeans and slacks. I want to get the old timers Army Field Jacket, but not until I can find the Field Jacket Liner. Last week ordered something from Eddie Bauer too. Waiting for it to come in. I'm giving it my all with the dating scene, but its not working out. One reason is...people, don't know how just to be themselves when meeting people for the first time. Fuck that, 'first impression' bs. Just be yourself. Because sooner or later it WILL all come out. Take the woman who says she has no children, she hides them. That's just so wrong and there is no explanation that she can give when you find out that she does have kids. Why hide? Or, the wo...

Its more than strange that certain things that happen in my life just keep on happening over & over again. First, what was I thinking this morning. I was suppose to be on my train about 45 minutes ago. I won't be late, just not at work a hour ahead of time. When I was stationed at Ft Jackson, SC, I was living in the barracks. This was before cell phones, (imagine that). We had 2 pay phones on our floor, 20 rooms, 4 men to a room. So, if you received a call, either the phone would ring and no one answered it, or some one did cause they were tired of hearing it. One evening it rang and I answered it. When hany one did, you when and hunted the person down who it was for. The call I answered set off the first of what would always happen to me. I went to his door and told him phone, he answered, room was dark, he had a female already in his room. The one on the phone already told me she knew he was there, 'get him'. I told him, in a whisper, that she knows you're in, ...

You know how people say that we are part of a team? And, how all employers want that in their workers. The help wanted ads say it, 'must be a team player'. We all adhere to it, and even put it in our resumes. But are we, are we team players? Okay, I'm a Cook, and some. Would say I'm a Professional Cook. I don't give myself that title. Even though I can cover every station in a kitchen, I consider myself a Team Player. What the industry calls me ia a Chef Tournant...a fancy name. That means if a person doesn't show up for work for any given reason, that means I can cover that station. Depends on how close my orignal station is to the station I'm covering. If its on the other side of the kitchen, The Chef rearranges the kitchen, the workers so that that one station is covered. Sone kitchen workers have a problem with this, but not I. Here's what I have a problem with and I don't care who doesn't agree with me. I have a prolem with a kitchen worke...

...and, I had a conversation with some people yesterday. Some old timers, Veterans and some young men. Its like this... Let's say this shooter DID have problems. Some real mental issues that didn't occur until AFTER he was discharged from the Navy. But let's start with hsi Navy Service first. People are asking how could he still be holding on to a Secret Clearance after being 'Honorably' discharge from service with all the charges he was bought up on whime in the Navy. Some people really don't undersatnd how discharges work. Of course if he had killed some one while in the Navy, he would have been sent to jail. But what he did, didn't warrant anything like that. So, he kept his Clearance. After hsi Term of Service was met, the Military Honorably Discharged him, did not allow him to re enlist. As far as a cilvian job was concerned and in employment that has positions for cilvians working on militray posts, he qualifies for employment. I'm quite sure they...

...September of 2014 !! I've been telling people that I am taking a vacation next year, month and day, to and from. They look at me like I done lost all of my mind. But I see it this way... You have to have short term & long term goals. This vacation is a long term goal. We all have short term goals and we make them everyday..well at least I do. Mine come and span over a 3 to one week goal. I meet it, I move on to the next short term one. It works for me. Really it does. They are sunject to change right up to the last couple of hours. Like...I plan to spend a weekend with some one, and at the last minute 'they' come up with something else. I guess what I had plan...well it wasn't that inticing enough for them. No, it wasn't to be spent just being plain nude and having sex. It was something that was planned for Friday night, Saturday afternoon and Sunday morning. And yes, sex was involved for each day. My longterm goal, this vacation, its all planned. I told 3...

...to talk about how things in my life, I wish they could be different. Better. But hey, its my one just life, and no matter what I do, how it turns out...it was all layed out 2,000 or more years ago. ...I go with the flow. Yesterday...I'm not crazy, but yesterday something accured to me. Things that I think about...they happen. Imhnot crazy, nor can I see into the future. I told some one that I ccouldnt meet up with them because I was called back to work, pipe burst in the kitchen. Next day when I went into work, the engineers were working on the pipes in the kitchen. Its not the first time that shit like that has happened to me. So, I got to thinking. I have to watch what I say, AND, what I think. Okay, try NOT TO think about anything...its like you have to have a blank mind. I tried it, but things just pop into my head. What if everything we as humans thought about, happened. This world would be...different. I guess some mad scentist would come up with some drug..a drug that...

'If you expect some one to get you what you want, the only thing, maybe, they will give you, is what you need.' ...and then some times, they might not give you shit. I like holding conversations with people, women mostly. What I get when holding these convos is, 'where am I from?' I tell them New York City, you damn fool. For real, I say that. I say that with conviction, you have to have confiction when you speak. Mean what you say, and say what ONLY you know. If you know yourself..need I say more. Found out that most women what a man to take care of them. That's all they want a man to do. Since a man is 'suppose' to be able to take care of himself, where does it say that a man 'has' to take care of a woman. I hear some saying the Bible, notice the capital B. If a man can take care of himself, he is sure to be able to do that for the woman in his life. When and after a while a man refuses to do this with the woman he is with, it is for a reason. Th...

Election today in New York City for Mayor. I'm not voting, because I don't want to. Yeah I know, don't complain if you're not going to vote. I was though for one person, but his commercial was and is confusing. He talks of 5th Avenue, of nannies and such, Wall Street too, but... then in the next sound bite he talks of the Middle Class and Lower Income people. Whay can't some one just address the Lower Income people and run on that ticket? I know why, cause we don't really matter no matter what THEY say. I saw in the newspaper this morning an article of a woman who was/is a Super Model. Her age is 50, and. Showed a couple of pictures of her. One picture showed her backside, her ass...which she BARELY had one. What they said was she looked great at age of 50, quite sure she does...but. looking great involves the TOTAL package. Front, sideways, up, down...AND BACK. Me for one, you don't have to be all that great looking in the face. Who are we to say who has a...