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...feelings I had on that day will stay with me for a little bit. Perhaps another 5 days or so. Here is what happened... I should have known back in November of last year... But me and myself giving people second chances... She had moved to another city, but within NC and reached out to me. Yeah, I got good vibes the first time and wondered what happened to her. She told me something about...it's not too important now. But I met her at the bus station, ticket I paid for, one way here. She was suppose to stay with me the whole weekend...that never happened. All I know is this... People can TALK a very good 'game'. Game as in meaning... The life they WANT to live and supposedly are living...is different from the actions you SEE they live in real time, real life. How can you tell a person...how you want them to dress when you go out with them...and the person, me....dresses the way you SAY you want them to...but, when you show up, you look like you just pulled your clothes o...

What? What do you do when there is a woman whom you have had a past with.. Wants you back in her life...but plays on the 'other team'... Is battling with her feelings. Oh..and Wtf? Exactly, fits right on in. I gave her what I thought, my opinion...which she really didn't want to hear. I guess she thought I was going to sugar coat shit. Nope. So, you got those feelings of yesteryear, me down there...treating you right...down there. But you switched up and now you're having these feelings of... Cause you 'Came Out', let the world know... But you thought and contacted me after what, more than 10 years and thought of those times... You should have NOT reached out and contacted me. What you expect me to say, act. What? Oh, I have a way with words, my voice took you back to when... Wait, you don't like penis anymore...or do you? Keep conforming to how you think you should be because the world says this or that...just be you. Why can't you have the best of ...

I'm NO expert, but I know what I like and HOW I like it though. Remember in the 80's with the Aids thingy going on...makes you wonder why...no, that's a whole different story but... In the 80's with the outbreak of Aids, it seems that there was STILL a lot of fucking going on. You took your chances, protected or unprotected, who the fucks knows if you were going to wake up with The Monster. I was...I was acting like a hamster, but I was producing any offspring(s)..'Ya gotta keep them separated', The Offspring. Sorry, that song popped in my head. Don't judge me, I have sex without protection. To me and ONLY me, it's...would you take a shower with your clothes on? NO!! Check ups 3 times a year, test every 90 days...THANK YOU VA!! I'm not picky, but I know what I like. Anywho..a lot of fucking was going on. Then, I got older. There are a lot of women who were born in my year and are around my age out there. All have qualities about them that are out...

'...ones we can depend on,' It started a LONG time ago...when I parents instilled in us..'say thank you', 'please'. It's suppose to stay with you all thru your life too...but somewhere along the way, some people have lost their manners. But as a young adult, 18-25...let's just say I don't blame it on the parents, I blame it on the person. But then again, you CAN blame it on the parents. I always will and continue to say, your kids are a reflection of you. Though you may have some decent parents and their kids are lost... Doesn't take away from the parent(s) though. Maybe they, the parents have just given up...maybe the parents want to teach their children a lesson and let them learn the hard way. But some of these young adults have a sense of entitlement about themselves...thinking that they have it like that...thinking that they can do and say and act any old kind of way they want to. I cringe now...thinking, did I act that way as a young ad...

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Burning Man 2016, where you let loose your Soul...and any other body art you care to also. Ah, my brother is attending again this year. Copped his tickets...took him all of 8 whole minutes to and he is STOKED!! I checked out the prices online myself. OMG, you have to take out a bank loan to attend. Mind you... Attending does NOT guarantee that you will LIVE thru this event. But the memories are priceless. Oh yeah, it's on my Bucket List and I DO plan on attending for my 60th year of Living on Planet Earth. An event like this NEEDS a well THOUGHT plan...needs a year, I think, to plan out. August 28th to September 5th...add 2 days before and 2 days after and... about a week to recover...2 weeks time off from work. THEN..when I go back to work, will I ever be the same? Probably see the world, life in a whole different meaning too. Yep, 60th year...I'M THERE!! A couple of months ago...I met her online. About 3 days later, I met her in person at her place. When she answered the...

It's nothing like getting that phone call...when you're about to turn in for the night. ...then, 2 hours later... Hold up, I have to work in the morning. Okaybye. I actually met her a few months back...went to her home. Planned something for the holiday, but I didn't hear back from her until last night. I saw shit happens, don't worry about it, but you did call me now. LONG conversation....talked about a lot of things.... One thing I don't understand and it seems to be a trend...well sort of. How can a woman be shy, still shy..after having children who are of adult age. I thought about it...nope, isn't anyway possible. Is it just a 'thing' to prove to a man that she is a certain type of woman, or... Is it proving that she isn't a certain type of woman that acts a certain type of way. Either way I say 'shy' isn't the word you should use. I had another conversation earlier in the day with a 25 year old mother of 2. We meet up at the s...

....making a reference of 'used cows' and 'getting the milk for free. It was all about a man paying for the date when it's going out to dinner. I released the Kraken. First of all a first date should NEVER be a a date where you out to eat...formal that is. But I told her that she knows nothing about going out to eat formal any old ways, more or less its fast food for you lady. It's like this, and this is how I see it. You see her every day at the bus stop or the same place that the 2 of you are always at. Starts off with a greeting and eventually just talking about anything. You ask her does she want to go out and do something, nothing in particular, just something. I stay away from formal getting something to eat because it requires way too much 'getting ready' time. But her being her, she wants to get something to eat. She suggest it, so i will let her name the place. More likely she has been there before..which is a Red Flag. How come she can't pi...

I LOVE Monday's... New week, start over new, forget about last week. I have a lot to do this week and one of the main things I have to do is pay rent. You would figure that THAT would be the easiest thing to do, right? But it isn't. Some how they, the people I pay rent to, aren't with 'the times'. STILL on that old fashion way of a person going to and making payment at their place. You would figure in this day and age everything could be done with a click of a mouse. CIAA..which I never heard of before was in town. College Basketball. I didn't get to enjoy the festivities, nope..none at all. The only reason for that is because I know nothing about it and I guess I was too lazy to even find out. But best believe next year I will be right at it. Was is it that when a woman is trying to get to know a man...that she, all of a sudden just changes gears. Is it the mans fault..the way he comes across to her and at her. This happened to me. I guess the woman has a...

I know I have heard that there are 2 things that you JUST don't talk about. Politics and religion. Could care less about people views on politics, but religion... Hold on folks...either ya gonna love me or want to punch me right in my face after this. The Bible as far as I know and from what I've been told was and has been written by man, men.  The different books in the Bible were written over periods of time and they were handed down, interpreted by different men, So, some where along the way someone said, 'Hey, let's write this all down and pass it along.' It's like the childhood game called 'Telephone'. First person says one thing, They are The Control', example... 'I went to the store and purchased a banana and an apple.' The control tells the next person in line. That person tells the next and..etc. Okay, got it. So, after 20 people playing this game, the last person goes to the first person and tells them what the message he got at t...

Her first contact to me was about a year ago...states apart. Then, the other day, she reached out to me again. Told me I seemed interesting all over again and that some changes...BIG changes have been in my life. Duh?!, ya think so. She gave me her number and told me to text her. Funny thing is/was, I had her number already. I told her this and then she screamed, 'what are you, some type of stalker?' Tried to put the blame all on me, but I told her something that made her think. See, that is what I am talking about. Women have their pick and choices of men who and when they seem fit to date, get in touch with. You notice it on their FB page, all those people as friends...aren't really friends. They can sometimes what I call..'Fall Backs' Fallbacks are men, people you can fall back on, look for support, look for help when times are going hard on you. Just my opinion. You know me...I want to meet as soon as possible. It's like when detectives are trying to s...

Online Dating...either it's going to kill me or...drive me crazy! ..it's better, FAR better than Facebook...which I WILL say something about that later. But online dating is simple, fun and sometimes makes you wanna pull what's left of your hair out. Let me explain. From the comfort of your home, your bathroom, tub or even toilet..you can meet male or females from all over the world. It doesn't get any simpler than that, right. 'Simple'..ah, such an easy carefree word...which gets more abused than your grandfather's 1962 Penthouse magazine, (don't ask).  Www...ya at the website. Sign up, enter some info..what you're looking for, and nowadays if ya a male, you can find you another male..nothing wrong with that, but lets stick with finding us a female. Some sites have you enter a zip code..10, 20 miles radius of your zip code...ENTER.  ....a Candy Store, look at ALL the sweets. Ah, but some of them might not be that good for you...and some of them ...

..thought I was dreaming, but the knock woke me up. I opened the door. Next door neighbor standing there with 37 cents and asking me for a cigarette. This has got to stop!! Hey, I understand what it feels like when you NEED a cigarette and will do almost anything to have one. Though it never has got that bad for me, but I do know what it feels like. But when you knock on your neighbors apartment door..expect for all hell to be released upon thee. I told building management about this situation in the past. They asked me his name, and I said, you're management, you KNOW his name already. They told me that they will handle it. Apparently not, or they did say something and this neighbor just doesn't care. He isn't the only one either. I catch the 5:41 am bus to work. Guy comes 5 minutes before the bus arrives and always ask me for a smoke. Tells me on a Tuesday that he can't wait until Friday, payday so he can buy a pack. One time he actually said to me..when he aske...

Man evolves..okay and so do women. Jesus, I would never hear the end of THAT one. And, so does ones taste of wine, women AND music too. Somehow I manage to bring all 3 together in this post. Music..in general. I don't know what the heck people are putting out these days and expect grown people who work hard for their money, expects us to PAY for. To me, Napster showed be listed as one of the Wonders of The World...I think 9th Wonder, I lost count. If it wasn't for Napster, my CD collection would be HUGE...wait, small. Because I would have surely returned music of today BACK to the store. Yeah I know...I'm old and just like my parents, they thought the music I listened to then was something strange and out of this world. I guess I have turned into my parents then. But The Nappie bought along something great to MY generation...we didn't have to carry around cassettes or CDs any more.. (Ta Da!!} The MP3 File. Sony wasn't too happy with this so called MP3 file busin...

Don't know what it is really... I mean I catch myself at times..ALL times not saying what I feel. It's like when you are about to throw up, but I can control what I say. A simple NO will do. Touchy subject..just gonna throw it out there. ...Employment. I've been around long enough and have worked long enough to see it all. From the Manager who KNOWS what he is doing..and but little to work with, to.. Wosah, wosah... To those who are hired in any field who sell themselves to get the job, but once hired take a whole completely different turn. It sucks when you work with people who are like that. But you're suppose to maintain a professional outlook on the whole thing.. Have the attitude of doing 'what it takes to get the job done' type attitude. Problem with that...you sometimes become the 'go to guy, person' and that isn't rewarding at all. Because...you have to DO what needs to be done and watch those who don't do..just skate along on the job...

I don't know what this means, but... I got an email from USC, the college. Said that it's been looking at my blog, this and they want me to answer some questions..a survey. One of the things they FIRST asked for was my birth date....DELETE!! Why would you need that? I smell Student Loan for some one. Different State...different time and a WHOLE lot of shit has happened too. Not going to get into it..well, not right now but... I just want to try and put that whole madness behind me. So far things have been moving in the right direction. STILL looking for HER..my ME..who thinks, acts just like ME. It's not an all out search. It's..eh, whatever. Ask a couple of questions, look at her reaction... If she acts like she has a stick up her ass... If she acts like she is God's gift t Mankind... I move on. Refusing to accept BS basically. I mean...my life is my life. If she wants to be a part of it, fine. Not gonna twist your arm either. Until next time...which I am R...

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