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...feelings I had on that day will stay with me for a little bit. Perhaps another 5 days or so. Here is what happened... I should have known back in November of last year... But me and myself giving people second chances... She had moved to another city, but within NC and reached out to me. Yeah, I got good vibes the first time and wondered what happened to her. She told me something about...it's not too important now. But I met her at the bus station, ticket I paid for, one way here. She was suppose to stay with me the whole weekend...that never happened. All I know is this... People can TALK a very good 'game'. Game as in meaning... The life they WANT to live and supposedly are living...is different from the actions you SEE they live in real time, real life. How can you tell a person...how you want them to dress when you go out with them...and the person, me....dresses the way you SAY you want them to...but, when you show up, you look like you just pulled your clothes o...

What? What do you do when there is a woman whom you have had a past with.. Wants you back in her life...but plays on the 'other team'... Is battling with her feelings. Oh..and Wtf? Exactly, fits right on in. I gave her what I thought, my opinion...which she really didn't want to hear. I guess she thought I was going to sugar coat shit. Nope. So, you got those feelings of yesteryear, me down there...treating you right...down there. But you switched up and now you're having these feelings of... Cause you 'Came Out', let the world know... But you thought and contacted me after what, more than 10 years and thought of those times... You should have NOT reached out and contacted me. What you expect me to say, act. What? Oh, I have a way with words, my voice took you back to when... Wait, you don't like penis anymore...or do you? Keep conforming to how you think you should be because the world says this or that...just be you. Why can't you have the best of ...

I'm NO expert, but I know what I like and HOW I like it though. Remember in the 80's with the Aids thingy going on...makes you wonder why...no, that's a whole different story but... In the 80's with the outbreak of Aids, it seems that there was STILL a lot of fucking going on. You took your chances, protected or unprotected, who the fucks knows if you were going to wake up with The Monster. I was...I was acting like a hamster, but I was producing any offspring(s)..'Ya gotta keep them separated', The Offspring. Sorry, that song popped in my head. Don't judge me, I have sex without protection. To me and ONLY me, it's...would you take a shower with your clothes on? NO!! Check ups 3 times a year, test every 90 days...THANK YOU VA!! I'm not picky, but I know what I like. Anywho..a lot of fucking was going on. Then, I got older. There are a lot of women who were born in my year and are around my age out there. All have qualities about them that are out...

'...ones we can depend on,' It started a LONG time ago...when I parents instilled in us..'say thank you', 'please'. It's suppose to stay with you all thru your life too...but somewhere along the way, some people have lost their manners. But as a young adult, 18-25...let's just say I don't blame it on the parents, I blame it on the person. But then again, you CAN blame it on the parents. I always will and continue to say, your kids are a reflection of you. Though you may have some decent parents and their kids are lost... Doesn't take away from the parent(s) though. Maybe they, the parents have just given up...maybe the parents want to teach their children a lesson and let them learn the hard way. But some of these young adults have a sense of entitlement about themselves...thinking that they have it like that...thinking that they can do and say and act any old kind of way they want to. I cringe now...thinking, did I act that way as a young ad...

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Burning Man 2016, where you let loose your Soul...and any other body art you care to also. Ah, my brother is attending again this year. Copped his tickets...took him all of 8 whole minutes to and he is STOKED!! I checked out the prices online myself. OMG, you have to take out a bank loan to attend. Mind you... Attending does NOT guarantee that you will LIVE thru this event. But the memories are priceless. Oh yeah, it's on my Bucket List and I DO plan on attending for my 60th year of Living on Planet Earth. An event like this NEEDS a well THOUGHT plan...needs a year, I think, to plan out. August 28th to September 5th...add 2 days before and 2 days after and... about a week to recover...2 weeks time off from work. THEN..when I go back to work, will I ever be the same? Probably see the world, life in a whole different meaning too. Yep, 60th year...I'M THERE!! A couple of months ago...I met her online. About 3 days later, I met her in person at her place. When she answered the...

It's nothing like getting that phone call...when you're about to turn in for the night. ...then, 2 hours later... Hold up, I have to work in the morning. Okaybye. I actually met her a few months back...went to her home. Planned something for the holiday, but I didn't hear back from her until last night. I saw shit happens, don't worry about it, but you did call me now. LONG conversation....talked about a lot of things.... One thing I don't understand and it seems to be a trend...well sort of. How can a woman be shy, still shy..after having children who are of adult age. I thought about it...nope, isn't anyway possible. Is it just a 'thing' to prove to a man that she is a certain type of woman, or... Is it proving that she isn't a certain type of woman that acts a certain type of way. Either way I say 'shy' isn't the word you should use. I had another conversation earlier in the day with a 25 year old mother of 2. We meet up at the s...

....making a reference of 'used cows' and 'getting the milk for free. It was all about a man paying for the date when it's going out to dinner. I released the Kraken. First of all a first date should NEVER be a a date where you out to eat...formal that is. But I told her that she knows nothing about going out to eat formal any old ways, more or less its fast food for you lady. It's like this, and this is how I see it. You see her every day at the bus stop or the same place that the 2 of you are always at. Starts off with a greeting and eventually just talking about anything. You ask her does she want to go out and do something, nothing in particular, just something. I stay away from formal getting something to eat because it requires way too much 'getting ready' time. But her being her, she wants to get something to eat. She suggest it, so i will let her name the place. More likely she has been there before..which is a Red Flag. How come she can't pi...