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It's the last day of the year, and I've learned that eventually everything on your body will and can begin to hurt. Okay, I can understand my back, and my arms... But my balls, hold on a minute. Are my balls suppose to hurt? Yeah sure, if I'm I kicked or punched there, yeah okay.. But to hurt for no reason at all? Some may say that this issue needs to be looked further into by paid professional medical people, but I'll be damned if I walk my ass into any damn hospital right about now. Okay speaking of..this new virus.. Like I'm not really getting any info.. for the simple fact there are no newspapers in this areas. And, since this place doesn't have cable, no news channel to see it on tv. I visited some of my friends homes and they don't have cable, so I'm not seeing any news. Sure the internet. But can you really believe what you read and see on the internet? That one is up for debate. As this year closes out... I think for the last 2, 3 months or this ...

I did something this Christmas that I have never in my entire life had done. I GAVE money as a Christmas gift. Ain't that some shit. Well, I gave money in total $250 to three different people/persons. One who I am sleeping with, and to her child. And the other who I want to sleep with..who I have never met in person..who I have already sent in total $300 here and there for pictures and videos. Don't EVEN ask, okay. Like right now I am at the one whom I am sleeping with apartment. She spent the night with her child at her mother's home. I've been here alone since 11:17pm last night...hoping she could get out of spending the night at her mom's house. She couldn't and I was sort of disappointed because two days ago she got a powerful vibrator in the mail and I used it on her. Right now I have :Buddy's, it's the name I'm calling it..I have it plugged in and charging up. This thing is amazing and you women have it good when it comes to..to.. How I I call ...

...I was sane, I had my wits about me. I also knew right from wrong. I wasn't stressed out and I kept to myself. Then I woke the fuck up. I'm going to try and get thru this post.. Meaning I will hit 'Send' instead of leaving it for later and getting back to..which I never do. So for now on I'm just going to hit 'Send, Publish' or what the fuck ever. It's not that I don't care, no not that. It's just there isn't enough hours in my FUCKING DAY! I should have never gave her any penis. For real though, I should have listen to that little voice. But I thought being that she is 53 years old..she would have some kind, type of sense about herself. But noooo, I gave it to her two times and that second time sealed my fate. I have to admit, both encounters were enjoyable, surprised the hell out of me too. But when you don't have any friends, no family..kids don't want to have anything to do with you.. When a person shows you some attention and t...

The very first job I had when I came to Virginia was at a Bakery. One of my coworkers told me that I had a problem with dating women with children, little kids. That at some time in my past, a relationship with a women with children gave me a bad experience. No!! It wasn't that, it's this... I can understand w relationship with a man who some women say is a man of their dreams. But having children with that man is a whole different story. Gone are those nights together alone, peaceful and quiet. Gone are those days when if you have a disagreement, the two of you work it out. The woman is left raising that child mostly. Where as thean is suppose to be out earning to support his kid and the mother of his child. Somewhere along the line the woman, in my opinion thinks the man is out there living it up..doing what the fuck he wants to, and then comes home to her screaming and raising hell because she has spent the major part if her day taking care of OUR child. Men, you lose in thi...

A little over 4 months here in this burg..and 90 days on THIS job. I HAD every intention of going to work today, Sunday. But last night I ate leftover Thanksgiving food from two different people, two different households. My bubbling stomach woke me up at 3:17am. Went to the bathroom and..OMG!! No, the food wasn't spoiled or anything. It's just that my stomach isn't use to such foods with seasoning. I think it was the collard greens that did me in. I don't normally eat them, I do but they have to be cooked a certain way. They were very good, it ws sjust the seasoning I wasn't use to. I was standing outside waiting for my ride to come and pick me up. I already made up my mind in telling her before I got in the car that I wasn't going in today. So..when I THOUGHT WAS A FART, TURNED OUT TO BE.. Yep, a wet one.  I penquin walked back up the stairs and asked staff fir a plastic bag. What I feel bad about is leaving her with just one other guy who has 5 years on the j...

First... I feel like shit. Fir the last almost three weeks, my nose has been running it's own marathon. It's so bad that I don't use tissues any more, I've moved on to paper towels. Yesterday afternoon I thought I was getting over what ever the fuck I have, but no. I went to stand up and I felt dizzy. No, I was dizzy. So much so that I was walking sideways. I was bumping into furmi6 and people. And to make matters even more worst than they are, my lady friend died r even give a Fuck on how I'm feeling. She still expects a ND demand I have an erection. What the fuckz right? So, Thanksgiving came and went. I did t feel like..I don't know what I was not feeling like. I was surrounded by some people who weren't in the holiday spirit, no not at all. The day started off with me sleeping late, I go up at 6:30am...that considered early ass afternoon to me. My normal wake up time IS 2am. No work, though I volunteered to do so but my Manager said that I would get to s...

 

I know one thing for sure. ALL men should pamper themselves. It doesn't have to be no man Spa type of thing. I don't even know I'd they even have a Man Spa, if they do..it's probably ncalles The Gym. Anyways... It doesn't have to be once a week, but it should at least be once a month if anything. Could be that special soap that you always wanted to get, but couldn't afford. Well splurge ba little and get it..get it for YOU!! It's could also be that Grooming Kit for down below, clean things up a bit. Hell, while you're at it, get a decent Hair Clipper Set for yourself also. Have that in you Me Bag. Take at least one day a month, your day off and treat yourself to your own personal grooming. Don't so it for your girl/wife..do it for you. Also, while you're at it... Invest in some decent razors for your face. Companies like Dollar Shave Club & Harry's have, and I most say the most decent razors to try out. I have both of their subscriptions....

Rules are not made to be broken... But you know what, rules are sometimes made to be changed. Though rules are set in place for a reason, there are others and ways..that those rules can be changed to adapt to what is happening right now. You just have to be firm with your decision to break those rules and stand by your decisions if you choose to break them for what is going on right then and there. But that doesn't mean that you have the power to say, today like I'm making a decision to break said rule. No, it has to be a decision that once in a lifetime that you have to make. Another thing is..you have to admit and face whatever is thrown at you for making that decision to break that rule. There are rules to go by, and them there are rules that people make... The own rules.

How many times can you join up and then cancel Amazon's Prime..and then rejoin, then cancel again before they really and actually bill you?

So much has been happening to me, some good some not so good. Work: in the last week and a half, 3 Shift Managers have either quit or moved in to bigger and better things. That leaves two Shift Managers. One is highly well trained and know her shit..the other, I don't know about her. I caught her with that '1000 Yard Stare' A look of what the fuck am I doing here. Will I be stuck in this nowhere job for the rest of my life? And, God I'm only 19 for Christ sake. What I say... 'Ah, the look of young and fresh Food Service Worker, still wet behind the ears. Not know what lays ahead in their future.' The job took 7.5 hours away from me two weeks ago..only to have me work the past week 40 hours in 6 days straight. I haven't done 6 days in a row in more than 3, 4 years. My body was use to it, it needed rest and sleep. I was woke up at 2am..and than again at 3:30am..I have to be at work at 4am and it's a 22 minute walk to work. Thank God a Shift Manager was pic...

I have a doctor's appointment on the 9th of December. Since there are not any Greyhound buses leaving from this town... The only option is rent a car. And me with no license either. So this woman who I will call Ms. M, said she would rent a car for me..if only I take her along with me. My plan was to drive there and back, but since she never been to New York City... Then she hit me a little while ago with something earth shattering. She said that she never ever slept with a Black man and she wants me to be her first and only. She's 55 years old and has a decent body, pretty face..long blonde hair and her voice makes me think of exotic things. I've told her that. I'll pay for the car rental but everything else we go half on. I asked can she afford it and she show me her bank account on her cell phone. She says for the short time we are to be there in New York City, she wants me to create memories for her. I told her I would and will. Of course like a little kid she wants...

 I think I know what MY problem is. I try..no, I push myself to damn hard.  My main priority is work, my job. Everything after that is just...I don't know what to call it. My job or my career means everything to me. I know my stuff when it comes to being in a kitchen. Like I said, I enjoy cooking for others. So when I say something about THE WAY things..no fuck that. The way shit is suppose to be ran, I mean that fucking shit. I don't give a flying fuck what culinary school your ass went to. IF I SEE your culinary school graduate ass doing something fucked up in the kitchen. I'm working in, and we ARE a team, ALL of us are fucked. I don't care if youve been there 2 years. If you didn't say something and knew it was wrong..fuck am I going to listen or even let your dumb ass even lead me. Believe me when I say I am stepping over you. Another thing... My job helps me do the things 8 like to do... Have fucking money in my pocket and have money in my account(s). If you...

When I see my 'Friend', I'm gonna..

Have yiu ever been SO surprised that...you're lost for words. And, you question your Own exsitance.  So this 53 year old White woman who accent is SO country that you hear banjos playing when she speaks... She has fir almost two weeks been sending me 'PP', Pussy Pics..with captions like..'Growllll', I want to sit on your face' and 'Theres no place like home'. I have to admit, very artistically well done pictures..lighting was top notch too. Just looking at them I said wow! Well, I did more than just look at them yesterday afternoon after work.  I went to the address she text me, a hotel. Knocked in the door and she answered fully clothed. What happened next... I  will not describe because...well, I would be too turned in all over again. But I will say this... 'Hey, Boys & Girls... Don't be a douche and just limit yourself to your own people. Example, I only date Black, I only date White. You do t want the same flavored ice cream a he time, ri...

In every state/city I've been to in the last 7 or 8 years, I stayed in a Shelter first and then got my place. Staying in Shelter reminds me of my Army days and I had some fun in those days while seeing the world. Being in a shelter...you either have to be strong minded or crazy as fuck. It helps a lot if you can combine the two. For real though, it wears out yiur mental state of mind too. Every shelter shouldn't be like that, but that what happens. First Timers, it's a shock to your system. It's out of the elements, you get a bed, shower and something to eat. You can relax and some do..I did, when I was given my bed. Though you think no one, meaning other residents..though you think they are looking, they are. They are seeing what youre unpacking, what you got..so they can steal it. Again, not all shelters are like this. Instead of talking about the bad parts, I'm going to talk about the Good. First thing I look at are the bulletin boards. Jobs, free clothing, and m...

A 53 year old White woman has taken to liking me so damn much that she gave me her number and told me to text her, I did. Since I've texted her I am getting.. Let's say I know all of her body from head to toe. It's like I've  slept with her already. But the latest text just threw me. It was a room number followed by the hotel and..'Be there at 12 noon on Wednesday'.  Am I going..Fuck YEAH!!  Is anything going to happen..it's all up to her. If she makes the first move, I'll do the rest.

See... She's Bi and... From what I'm feeling sbout her, she wants to introduce me to her other her.  We have been seeing each other every damn day for 3 weeks now. And she wants me to move in but.. I don't know... It's her place and I like peace and quiet all the time. I mean who doesn't. She's exci5 to have me around. She knows my living situation, I'm in a shelter. She is amazed by how it doesn't bother me.it does, when... I'll mention that later. I've seen her other her too. She is also bi but doesn't have a boyfriend or anything. Doesn't seem bothered by it either. I don't want to 'speak/tell her what to do if she wants all three of us together but she keeps mentioning 'you have to meet her'. I'll let her figure it out all on her own. 

It started off with not being able to get the Sunday local newspaper like I wanted to. The lady behind the counter told me she don't know 2hy they stopped delivering the paper, they just did. So that was that. Then..against everything i stand for, I decided to go shopping JUST for food for that day. I wasn't hungry or anything but I wanted a meal, lunch and dinner that I could cook. See, I haven't been eating the food at the shelter because most of not all the food is donated. And do ared food is either expired or something that's meant to be thrown out and the end of the day. I've been to two of the main, well these two supermarkets, Food Lion and Krogers...to me they are and seem ghetto. Overpriced and from what I say some if not all off brand names that I haven't seen before. Besides, I don't trust a supermarket that doesn't have a fresh seafood department. I went to a supermarket that some.people told me that I was more accustomed to..' Martins...

I know right? This fucking guy, he post and then..WTF?!! I kept telling myself in the part that having sex with a woman who is nearly half my age isn't it wasn't good for me. I had my health to think about..so I thought. Kept telling myself that and young woman would have far too much energy and would probably put me in the hospital. Or, that I wouldn't live up to her or even my own expectations. Cough, cough BULLSHIT. FELLAS, get yourself a nice young woman who hasn't been out there and who has a decent head in her shoulders. Yeah, some mornings after may be rough in you/me..but it's worth those sore and aching bones. Some if the things that's been going on the past couple of days, maybe a week and a half. Work..my job. I Love it! It's fast paced, always something to do and it's different every single day. But what throws me off is..the different 'things' and what people go thru when they are not at work but bring that shit to the job. Work is s...

I remember lugging mines on the 4 or the 5 train to go to High School, High School of Art & Design. 59th Street train station... Walking past the McDonald's and seeing that 'Fab Five' grafitt ''Throw Up', small but powerful, it made a statement.

See... I never thought about her in that way until he mentioned it. Put that thought in my head, and I could see already that he was at the end of whatever he thought was the beginning. And it wasn't me who made the first move either. Like I said, there was a thought...but the move she made towards me...well, I couldn't back away from.  Don't believe that shit that men don't think and if they do think, they think with their other head. I thought..and I thought some more...and I asked her does she know what she's doing. The language on her, straight to the point. Told me what he wanted and expected of me. When I got back home, she started texting me, telling me her true feelings. I guess it's easier for her to express herself when not face to face with me. All that crap about women not asking for penis pics is just that, crap. Because she wanted 'some', but I couldn't send any, wasn't in the mood. Wants me over for dinner next week. Told her don...

I think my cell phone is alive and is listening in on me on the down low. Laugh if you want to, but some star he things have been happening and it affects my day starting early in the morning. I check Google News every morning around 5, 5:30. Well this morning...it said 'Somethings Not Working'. Okay, it wasn't my fault, not in my end. I didn't want to dig through my backpack and find my other phone that doesn't have a data plan AND my portable wifi hotspot...bullshit Google, you're suppose to BE working. I shouldn't have to do anything.

The other night one if the guys here left his phone in his 'cousin' car. He use my phone to call his girl who lives next door to tell her to come back with his phone. This guy last night told me that his cousin 1ho is a female is throwing her boyfriend out of the house, and she lives with her brother. I asked why and he told me he can't speak on it. I let it go. I'm sitting in my bed and my phone rings. I don't know the number so I don't answer. I get a text... It's from this guy here who used my phone, it's his girl. In the text he asked was her boyfriend around, texted back he's right here. I told the dude that his girl is texting me. He told me to block her because he did the same thing. Something isn't right, I don't block a damn thing. Her next text..was explosive. That he, slept with his cousin, she walked in in them and stood there for a couple of seconds watching. I don't relay to this dude what she text to me but he gets angry be...

When I first arrived here in Virginia a friend introduced me to this woman... This woman from what my friend told me, was and is his girlfriend. She told me that he was her side piece. I thought she was joking, but it was true. Weeks go by, he does something fucked up and she cuts him off. I see her every now and then and then one day she honks her car horn and tells me to get in. We talk as friends for a while and then she drops a bomb. She wants something with me. I tell her I have to think about it. We continue every now and then to chat face to face, but text more and more. Yesterday we go to this park, we gwt out and walk around, then we sit in these benches and she tells me details of  what she wants with me. I told her okay I'm in. It's been three weeks and still THAT hasn't happen. I think she Friend Zone me. No biggie, she fun to be around.

Since I consider Friday the start of the weekend, I told myself on Thursday night that I was going to have a GREAT weekend. I did. Yes!! The weekend was a weekend that I'm so use to having. Almost..almost everything went the way I had planned it. I just wish that people if they say that hey are going to do something, they do it or.. Or they let you know that they won't be able to. What most people do is not even both to text and let you know they changed their minds. Then they call you and act like nothing happened, like..didn't we plan something a couple of days ago for a few hours ago? What the fuck happened? What I thought was this person was5 even interested in me..when it turns out that she was and is and that she just didn't know how I felt. Though I had her number for a while and she did text me, it was for something else. So when I asked her 'whata up', she took it for THAT.  She tried to get away for a couple of hours to just see me and.. whatever. But ...

What?!! Have I grown feelings as I got older? No I don't think so. To me sex is just sex. I don't consider or relate Love with Sex. That's why I can't see holding off from having sex until you're married. That makes no sense to me. There's another thing too... Because I have sex with her, doesn't mean I want to be in a relationship with her. Take this woman now that I'm talking to, not fir a relationship, but to just for sex.  From what I've been told, she is a Racist. To me I don't see it, nor feel it. I just all of a sudden started talking with her in a min verbal way. It's the kind of way Grown Folks do. Then one day she took out her notebook while we were talking, wrote something in it and teared it out and handed it to me. She said text me any and all the time. So I did. Things started getting hit and heavy on her part sexual wise. But she told me that it's been o long since she was or has been held in a mans5 arms that she wants to ...

...ever felt sorry for myself. I really thought about this. I did the best I could from memory, thinking back...way back. And I can honestly say, I never felt sorry for myself. The reason why I never did was because out if all the situation that didn't go my way, or didn't go as planned.. It all fell on me. It was my decision, my choice to make and sometimes, not all the time, it was a bad decision. When people tell me about the things their about to do, I place myself in their shoes in my head.  I would think about what I know of that person, and figure out in my head what I would do. These people tell me what they are about to do and the issue with that is that they are going by what someone else in a better situation would do. They figure well if they can do, so can I. No you can't. Like there are two young women I know who are opposite sides of a coin so to speak. One thinks she is 'all of that's in a sense that she's putting herself out there in a way...tha...

Where the fuck do I start. From the. Beginning I guess. So, I out in for a weekend pass, and I was going to stay at a friend's house. Well, I got the return request and was given an extra day. Meaning I didn't have to be back until Monday 11pm Curfew. Then came the bullshit in some peop7 lives. Friday after work I came back to the shelter. Relaxed and took it easy. When I went to leave at 8pm, I was told there was a note for me. It said that I couldn't leave out on my pass until Saturday. WTF right. I didn't get angry, I follow rules.  So... So after work on Saturday, I came back, took a shower and headed out. While I was sitting in my bunk, the guy two bunks over called me on my cell phone. He said get up the block now. I asked 2hats going on, he said just get here. I finished dressing, gathered my things and headed out. I walked to where he told me and he was standing  there with his girlfriend. She turned around and asked me did I want something. Strange. I asked my ...

There is one thing about me that I know.. I don't do anything for anyone if I don't want to. If I don't want to do something, and I mean anything..I won't do it. I will not go back and forth with anyone once my mind is made up. Same thing holds true for anything I want to do. If I have it set in my head I'm going to do something..just try and stop me from doing it. This 2omq. I met online about 10 years ago we have sort of a relationship. I mean I like her and she likes me. She wants me to move out to long Island and in with her. The thing is I don't know if I can or could find a job there. I probably can, but I would need a car, no buses like in New York City. She sent me a text saying that I've changed.nthat I'm not into her as I was before. I still am..it's just..  Listen, she doesn't drive in the highway which means it's a 3 hour ride by public transportation to go and see her. Sex with her is great for the better part.bits just that didn...

I can't believe what some if the people who are working are doing. They are quitting their jobs for these jobs that are $21 to $23 dollars an hour. I tried to tell them what the deal is, but they won't listen. These jobs that are now offering this good pay are only doing it for 90 days, The Christmas Season. Though it's good money..don't be expected to be with that company come the first of the year. In fact, around the 15th if December they are going to start cutting loose all those people they hired. Like I said, I tried to tell them, but they won't listen. I also told them that finding a job after New Years..well, you might not get anything until maybe around the 15th of April. It's a pattern, and if you have worked like you're suppose to be working damn near all your life you would see it. Another thing is with these jobs, those Seasonal Workers are thinking they are going to work 40 hour weeks. It's more or less 3, maybe 4 days a week. Or even 3 day...

I don't take advice from just anyone. I know youre not suppose to bw weary of the messenger, it's the message that counts. But no, I look at the messenger first then listen to what they have to say..and then process everything. See... I want to tell this Messenger what I think he should hear coming from me, since he thinks that he has a message for me. I keep trying to tell people who think they know me..you don't know me. You only see what I allow you to see. But I don't hide anything though. I don't pretend to be anything or anyone I'm not. People think they get their stripes because they are 'Street' and people 'respect' them. It's not respect, it's fear, they fear you. Like I said, I'm going to be me. I enjoy listening to music, that's onw thing that keeps me going and motivated. I also enjoy surfing the internet and reading  Although I haven't been doing too much reading lately. In New York City, Pre Pandemic, I would rid...

I had installed it a while ago..and now I know why I took it off my phone. If anyone who uses SnapChat, let's say in their phone because I don't even know if you use it on your PC or laptop but..  SnapChat is like Selfies...it makes you too self esorbed. It focuses or .ays you focus only in yourself. I tried the second time around, and there are too many bells and whistles for me. I only tried it because this pretty young lady told me that I was 'dumb' and not smart enough to figure it out. Okay, she's right. But for now, it will stay installed on my phone.

Even here in VA... Everyone lives fir Friday, The Weekend. I dislike the weekends. I rather work Saturdays and Sundays and be off two week days. In New York City...everyone parties, go shopping for food and handle their business in the weekends, which makes doing things harder because if the crowds. During the week, when I'm off and everyone is at work, I get to do my business. Wash clothes, food shopping...or just do nothing. Met this woman online. Became friends and then she hit me with the..click here to see my... But there was and is something different about her and I can't place my finger on it. She's from Norfolk, VA...34 years old. I didn't ask her about her status because I can guess..at least one kid, no man, child's father not in their lives. Typical and basic but I understand. But something happened with us communicating. She is becoming..she wants to actually know more about me, the things I like in a woman. ..and no, she isn't 'playing' me....

I've always said that if you can't make up your own mind and have to depend on someone else to do it for you.. It started with her getting a phone call, I was sitting right besides her. Only heard the conversation on my end, and I knew it was not going to be a good one. She said hold up, I'm putting you on speakerphone. I know she had no control over who she said was her best friend on the other side. But really, I think she should really REALLY choose who she calls her best friend more wisely. The woman on the line came straight out and asked me what was my contentions concerning her friend. I told her that is none of your business and how dare you ask me something like that. She then said..'See, those other motherfuckers took advantage of her and I'm not going to let that happen again to her.' Instead of me going back and forth with her, I gathered my things and left this woman's apartment. I get back to where I'm staying at and see my cell had 4 calls...

So people think just because they are allowed to do certain things that other aren't allowed to do...they think they are special. But.. Today, I spoke with the person who deals with me. I asked him when I get off from work and come back there, take a shower..why can't I take a nap. He said he has to ask his supervisor..who approved of me just doing that, take a nap.  So this guy who works at night, he gets off in the morning he can come and go as he pleases doing the day time, lay up, get rest and sleep all day. After I took my shower, while sitting on my bed...he tells me that he will talk with me later. He thought I was leaving, I laid down and went to sleep. This fucker walks by and bumps my bed hard and it woke me up. What happened next...all I can say was the last thing I said to him was fuck you. But this is what I wanted to say... Motherfucker we are the same age and in a shelter and all you have yin your head a dreams. While you making pennies selling so called weed...a...

Like I have about 5 post that are just laying up in the 'draft' section.  Shit has been weird as fuck around here lately. Working long hours and not getting any sleep, plus... I met a 34 year old Bi sexual woman..I don't know why I pointed that out. Suppose to only be FB, Fuck Buddies but she caught feelings. But I'm not taking away from my goals to satisfy her..let's say cravings. Then.. Then an 18 year old, girg5 from head to toe..tall, built kind of Butchy...showing her interest in me like pushing up strong too. What messing with my head though is that she is a virgin and doesn't want to be any more. Introduces me to her MOTHER who I am OLDER than. I was jammin out to some Breatbeat in the isle of a Walmart and she was standing behind me dancing to and with me but she..I know she could have heard the music coming out if my Beats Wireless headphones or could she. Just started kicking it with me. Talked for about an hour standing right there in the isle. Sorry ...

Over the years...they we 'date' has changed, but.. I don't bet around the bush nor hold back my words. If you as a woman seem attractive to me and you are somewhat interested in me..sure, I'm pushing up on you.  It I'm coming at you in the nicest possible way there is, but you will KNOW what I mean and what my plans are concerning you. Take into consideration, I'm single with no women and excuse my French..I'm not fucking anyone or any woman at the time. But what I've seen in the past 2, 3 years..some of these women have it all twisted. They are a ring like they are the ones with the balls in their pants. Dictating what a man should and it how they should be approached by him. I just can't be that way, it's not in my nature.  She gave me her number when I asked for it. We talked for about half an hour but she was in her way someplace and told me to call her, so I did later on. What fucked me up was 1hat she said next. She asked fir my password to...

Now... Now I know. My best friend is on some real bullshit. Yesterday as I was at my female's friends house, my cellphone rang, it was a 646 number and I figured it was a span call so I didn't answer. My phone stays on silent all the time. It's aet fie vibrate only. It was my friends brother calling from New York City. When I left her place I saw it was a text from him also. My friend has been calling his brothers in NYC asking for money. From what his brother(s) told me, it's been now for the last 4, 5 days. So they asked me if he's working like he said he was, why is he asking for money. I had no answer for them. We are considered like family because we go way back..as far back as the mid 1960's. His family was dating someone in my family, shit like that. From what I got from his brothers.. I've been getting my ass kicked and handed to me ever since I've arrived here in this part of Virginia. And that as of yesterday, my friend had to smack the shit ou...

 I don't consider myself special in no way fashion or form... But I DO KNOW what works for me and ME ONLY. I can not feel sorry for a motherfucker who doesn't even try and do something with their own lives. I don't care if they are male or female, I don't feel sorry for your ass. You can walk around like you're an old ass man all the fuck you want. When just the other day your ass was popping around here talking all that mad ass shit. Now look at you. And what the sad part is, you're like 5 years younger than me.

Sunday morning..my day off...and this ONE asshole here...man!! I remember when I was very young that not only did my school teacher but also my mother told me that I can BE anything I wanted to be. Not only that, that I can go almost where we unwanted to go too. Going places she said...she said you have to be prepared for whatever might cross your path. Keeping all that my parents told me, mostly my mother...I've sent out in journeys that took me to places where people dreamed of. I've been to quite a bit of places on this planet of ours. I e experienced quite of bit if things also.  It what messes with my head...with all these places I've been to...it's the mentality if the way some people think. I've come to understand that it's not that other people hold you back from doing something, anything..it's the person, they hold their selves back. Each place you go to have rules, rules that you have to go by. Go against those rules and sometimes you're breaki...

For Mature Minds ONLY...I warned you, don't say I didn't. It was strange.. I mean once we both saw that we were interested in each other.. It took like maybe 30 seconds, and we both came to the conclusion that we need to get together...and fast. I planned for a Sunday, but that look in her eye said 'Oh man, why not within the next couple.of hours.' So I did. The hard part was waiting for her mother to come and get her son. But I have a serious issue now. Not an issue, more or less a question. I don't consider myself having the biggest penis, though I've been told it was way more than they expected. What is bother me with the last 3 women I've slept with is...me being inside of her and I don't fit. Let me explain. Foreplay on both parts is great. But when it comes to insertion... I know where the entry point is, it's just that I don't fit in like I want it/me to fit in.  I don't know if it's the lack of the woman not having sex, all three ...

If you want to know how quiet it gets here... You know how in the movies, you have a person out in the middle of nowhere and they hear a car or truck approaching from at least a quarter mile away... And you ask yourself, if that's true. Well, it's true alright. I can hear a truck bir car coming at least a quarter mile away. Not only that... But if the wind is blowing just right, I can also smell a person coming without seeing them too. It's that damn quiet and lonely here. I'm not complaining but old age and it getting old is real. Last night every hour or two this elderly guy coming to the bed besides me and wakes up his son. The son says..'Daddy it's too early, go back to sleep.' This is the same man who a couple of weeks ago try to get in my bed with me. I informed staff back then and I informed them this morning before I headed out to work this morning. Something has to be done about this because I understand, but someone else here just might not. I don...

All these guys here, to me they are full of shit. Here they are giving the opportunity to do something with their lives, to start over again. But no, they want to continue to do the same old shit that they have been doing thru all of their adult life. Like his dude was suppose to go on an interview with a major store chain. This store chain is hiring for the holidays. For the past 2 weeks he's been telling me how he is going to do this, going to do that... Telling me I should get down 2ith what he is getting down with and 'make this money'. I told him, the money is trying to make you. Well that job is out of the window. All this time too, he's been talking about them checking his urine. He's taking some stuff that's suppose to clear his urine up. That stuff somehow or another messed with his body. Now he can barley walk. Hegells me he wants some Chinese Food, but doesn't have the money..askes me to get him some. I told him what do I look like giving you, a g...

I'm in my lunch break, minding my business. A woman comes up to me and introduced herself. It seems her daughter, who is 25 years old saw me earlier today and wanted  to ask me to their home for dinner. I ask this woman is she sure it's me her daughter is talking about. She says yes and will I be able to come. I tell her no because I don't even know who her daughter is.  She then tells me tomorrow her daughter will meet me.  Virginia is a strange place. Where I'm at..Mountain Lions, Bobcats and bears. There are deers everywhere you look. And now, some woman wants me to date her damn daughter.

Yesterday my day started at 2:15am when I opened my eyes. I have to be at work at 4am, Biscuit Maker for the day. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, my day I'm talking about. Doing 'The Dough Thing's as I call it. I made 276 biscuts or 31 trays of 12 biscuits. All were sold except for 31 biscuts. All I said to myself was wow. But what throws me off is.. All my job is fir those 7 hours is to bake and wash the dishes when they switch over from breakfast to lunch, which there isn't much of anything to wash up. I wanted to help in the line but I was told to fall back, don't worry about it. At one time things were crazy, getting orders mixed up. As I stood there I saw what the issue was but said nothing because I was told to fall back. Shift ended quickly and I was in my way out the door. When I got back to the shelter, tired, sleepy...I was told that I couldn't wash up or even lay down. I had to wait from 11:35am to 6pm until the dorms opened back up. Wh...

Oh my God... Waking up at 1:45am to be at work at 4am. Right now my eyes are so damn heavy. Ever feel so damn tired AND sleepy that you get dizzy. One hour and 24 more minutes. The sad thing about it... I can't even crawl back into bed. I'm going to go down in the dayroom and kick back in a recliner. I told him so. That young kid... He said that even though he didn't get the vaccine, he isn't going to catch the virus. Well how come they have your ass quarantine in a hotel now. Blowing up my cellphone asking ME to bring him something to eat. Yeah right.

That shit sounds good until... Until your ass is out there in the cold and then what? Tried telling my friend that he shit is all out there and that certain people are aware of what you're doing. That they couldn't actually confirm it but.. But going by how you've been looking lately, it's not hard for them to tell.  I've been calling and texting his ass for the last 3, 4 days..calls go straight to voicemail and he doesn't answer my texts. Then all if a sundden I get a 'wya' and telling me he is at the hospital getting his second shot. Like I give a Fuck. Tells me he will be by at 3pm and he needs a shirt and a pair of pants. Who's shirt and pants are you asking about? Not what I own and wear, you're not getting none of that from me. Then he comes by and asked me about some 8 man tent that he claims he slid up under my bed before the Police arrested his ass. Knowing damn well he didn't, he knows where it's at. The staff collected his shit...

This new job I started last week..  My start times vary from day to day. Not only that, their work week ends on. Monday.  Two days a week I start at 4am. That's not a typo either. It's a fast food place Hardee's. Reason why I start at 4am is I have to make the biscuits. This morning was the first time I made them on my own, not hard at all. Just time consuming. 14 trays of 12 biscuits each..or something like that. The 'par' varies from day to day. The only thing is.. I don't get to go back on the line when I doing the biscut station. I have to clean up and wash the station and when breakfast switches over to lunch, I have to wash the breakfast items that were used. The other issue I see I'm going to have is getting my proper sleep. Where my bed is at is very close to the TV...where the young ones are always playing Xbox. When I say young ones, they are under the age of 22. I'm requesting to change my bed to the other side of the dorm where it's dark ...

I know, like what happened and shit right?. Well.... Shit started happening all at once after the 31st of August. I should have seen it coming but I didn't. And even if I did, I would have left it ALL played out any damn way. I started working at a fast food Hamburger Joint. I am The New Guy. Co workers don't or didn't know I was coming. The District Manager has been trying to get me to work there for thee last 2, 3 weeks. I didn't get the email which was the application to fill out before the interview. I thinking I mentioned this before in one of my past post. She asked me about 5 basic questions and then she left her Windows laptop and told me to fill out of the 'stuff' and watch the videos. Interview was at 4pm so she basically knew I could do the job, so why did she have to hang around, she bounced. See that's where the issues came about. The first full day on the job I got to see the crew I'm working with. I'm The Cook. I'm not the person w...