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I am not angry, but then again I just might be. So he was released from jail after 3 days. Comes back with the same old bullshit. Explained to him he have to not do he things he's been doing before he was arrested. He can't figure out that the court system is designed most of the times to trap you. But what else has he got to loose. Not working and can't go back to his old job. Gets upset... Wait, he called me from a friend's phone and the only way he was able to was because I gave them my number. When he called I asked where was he at and he answered 'around'. When he asked for a cigarette this morning, I told him that I have some, and gave him one. He walked at the one I just gave him and asked what's the problem. He says it's only one. Well, that's all you get from me. Wonder why I didn't go and get his paycheck.. What, am I your bitch or something I asked. Told him why even bother, its for one day because you rather run these since streets an...

I read an article this morning about a company who called a person offering them a job. The caller was..it seemed like he had his feelings hurt when the person they were calling was being straight up forward with them about the job offer. The caller said that the person they were offering the job to was rude. They said that the person who the offer was being made to said, 'Ill get back with you ' about the offer. The caller, felt that that wasn't right. Wasn't right?!! From the time a company post a job on any website on hiring...there must be hundreds of resumes that flow into that companies email. The person who job it is to go through all those emails, I know isn't an easy one. So what the person you called gave you a response that hurt your feelings. Maybe that person you called accepted another job offer from a company they really didn't want to work for, but wanted to work for yours but.. Bit you have a orocess5 and it took some time to get to her resume a...

This past Thursday I interviewed for a position in a fast food place, I was hired but... She asked me a question and I responded but...my eyes started welling up and I was beginning to start crying. I said to myself oh fuck, NOOOO! Luckily I had some napkins on the table we were sitting at. I now know he reason why that happened. They was asking something pertaining to my time working within the food service industry. I can't remember the exact question, but I know it surely hit a nerve with me. I'm passionate about my work. And the field I work in. I take it very seriously and maybe just too seriously. I look at it this way. I prepare food that people, customers put in their mouths, in their bodies. The steps I have to make and do in order for that item to come out the way the company wants it..well, I have to follow guide.lines and rules. Who am I to take a short cut or to be d those rules. They are place there for a reason. No matter how I've learned in the past to cook ...

 The past 12 to 16 hours have been pure Hell. Lt me say first..it was nothing I creates nor did. That term Guilty by association, that shit is true. Just because I know someone, they placed me in the same situation as that person is and was doing. Oh yeah, a huge shit storm followed that person and continued to follow that person. A far as it rolled to my front door. The strange thing about it is that I told people that I am not and was not part of his problems or situations. But as usual, they never took my world for it. It got so bad that another man rolled up and wanted to fight me. Again the funny thing was, and it was mentioned to that person, why are you starting shit with him(me), when I had nothing to do with it. True, although he came back and apologized... No my man, you are on my radar now. Another situation... This guy comes to me, and as far as I'm concerned we are cool and shit. He gets it all twisted because I won't go into business with him in opening up a resta...

 You can do almost any and everything you want to do...the only thing is you have to be qualified to do so. I over heard a conversation yesterday. This guy, 42 years old was on the phone with from what I can tell a woman. The woman, again from what I can tell cares a great deal about him. His conversation was along the lines of him feeling sorry for himself. That he didn't know getting and staying clean was and is so damn hard to do. He mentioned that he lost everything, then went to a 30 day Rehab and got clean and then ventured out into the world. He had no place to go, so he went into a Shelter. Once in the Shelter he had to live among people who in his eyes he was better than. To me, he had the 'Whoa Is Me' bullshit. I sat there listening and saying to myself, this motherfucker. The woman on the other end of the phone just doesn't know what this fucker is really doing. Like it's none of my business but... I'm not the one who will put people's business al...

The only reason why I'm not in the relationships I've been in is because... That's right. They all tried to change me from being me. Ladies... That's one thing I don't understand. The relationship were we in was based off of what you saw if me. You liked or even Loved what you saw.. Wanted more or be around me, and the relationship formed. Nothing changed about me. But somehow you got it in y'alls head..'Niw let me see if I can transform him into what I want him to be and want him to do with me.' That's how I took it. Y'all want me to change and I wasn't willing to change I to what you want me to be. Oh, but I have and did change. It's that none of y'all stood around long enough to see it. So when you see me again years later, y'all like what you seen if me right then and there. Then you ask the silliest of questions. The ones I won't mention here. How do you think I will respond to those questions. It's not a standard ans...

I honestly think some women have lost their minds. But I guess..no, I know what it is. I'm too direct and to the point about things. And I read too damn much. And.. I just say what I feel, my opinion about things and issues. If you ask me or hold a conversation with me and I have a different view of the subject, I'm going to let you know. But this time is deeper than that, and I should have 'Aborted The Mission' when I knew.. But I didn't. When a person is so use to being treated a certain way for damn near their whole life, and someone comes along who is different.. Who doesn't go for that bullshit.. and who speaks their mind, I guess he's fucked up in that person's mind. There is a person for everyone on this planet, all you have to do is find that person or that person funds you. I didn't want to do not start anything with her, but I listened when she approached me. I should have said thank you but no thank you. Now it's all fucked. But undern...

When you become the only source of income for someone, shouldn't they listen to what you have to say. I really think so. I mean if it was switched around, I would. Honestly I think I would have to. I remember when that show was on my foot. I depended on a person to just give me .I ey whenever I asked for it. It didn't matter that I always paid it back either. Sometimes it would be a couple of days late, but I did. Then I wised up, I took a good look at what I was doing. I imagined what it felt like if I was the lender and saw me approaching me...knowing what I was only coming for.i can't describe what that feeling felt like, it's hard to but it wasn't a good welcoming feeling though. First of all I was trying to tell this person how to run his life. All I was saying was that should just take a look at what he was doing and how it was effecting his life and our friendship. But he didn't see it how I saw it. He didn't see it as how another person came to me an...

Short answer: FUCK NO!! Long answer: My first real job after being discharged from The Army was working in a neighborhood supermarket as a Deli Clerk. Three Jewish men, Adam, Author and Rubi owned the supermarket called Rosemart. It was there where my passion for working with food first started.  'When you learn to make a good cucumber salad, then and only then will you know you are good.'  Learn the old fashion way too, handling people's order with my bare hands, no gloves. So, when this Pandemic was at the night of it's bullshit, people were saying just take any job in order to have money in your pocket. In order to pay bills and some other stupid shit. One woman told me that she wouldn't sleep with me because I didn't have a job, a hustle. Bitch I work, I don't hustle. I wasn't taking any job that didn't involved me working with or around food pwriod5. I don't give a Fuck what they said. It's either food related or I fucking starve.  I...

 A few weeks ago, I had the then pleasure to meet a decent woman. I mean she wasn't explosive, nasty...nothing like that at all. Then... Then the other night, I went over to her house. Of course I was invited. I told her I couldn't stay long because I have a curfew, 11pm. I should have known..and I'm somewhat kicking myself in the ass STILL, I should have known it wasn't going to be a good evening when she drank from a 40oz bottle of beer which I say had about 5 cigarettes' butts in it I don't know how the conversation started, but it started like all other conversations I have with women. I asked her bout herself. It would be 5, 7 minutes later...why for all that is Holy did I ask her to tell me about herself. The conversation went from zero to 2,000mph in like half a second. She told me that she thinks and knows for sure that I am a weak minded person and that I couldn't handle a women like her. That I couldn't and can't deal with the pain that she...

Yesterday when I woke up... Let's just say things did not go as planned. My plans were to go to another town and go to their Library, but it was close because of Delta. So... I ran into a somewhat of a 'friend' and we got to talking. I asked him did he have a female friend who lives close by and is single. I'll buy her some groceries $50 if she let me cook up something. I'll even make dinner which she can and would get half. He said yes, and she lives like a 5 minute walk away. I should have known something was up when he walked up to her front door and out his hear against it. The voice inside my head was screaming ABORT MISSION!!!, but it was too late, he knocked. She opened the door half asleep, nevermind it was after 12 noon. She invited us in. I sat in the living room while he talked with her in the kitchen. They both walked out and he introduced me to her, and then asked me did I want him to go shopping for me while I sat and talked to her. I took out a pad an...

Some would say to be broken, not me. Rules are made to be amended. There has been so many times that people have 'beoken the rules' for me. Mostly females. I know what you're thinking...I put on my charm to get what I want, no...not exactly. I ask for what I want to do and get. I'm so use to hearing no that it doesn't upset me when I hear no. Five minutes before I started this post, someone broke a rule for me. I guess it depends on who is asking and the person you're asking. One rule I'm trying to..I don't know, but to understand. An older man and a younger woman. What are these rules. I heard... Half the man's age and then add 6. That means the youngest a woman can be for me is 36 and a half years old. Online that's easy to do, but what about face to face. I mean I can guess. I also can ask. It's been said you should never ask a woman's age and weight. That's the Golden Rule, but I ask anyways because I want to know. I was 55 years ...

It's funny as all Hell.  Let me say first I am NOT mad, pissed off nor angry at anyone but.. I like how people half my age both male and females use the term..Pops, Old Timer, Old Head. As far as I remember, I never called anyone older than me out their name. Wait.. There was a 'Wino' who lived in the area, he name was JB. All the kids called him JB, even made up a rhyme about him. But back then and maybe as now, young ones...well their names for old people..Fuck!! Some other shit just came in my head too. Can't get into now though. I want to say this, in fact I'm am go to repeat myself...again. I Thank Who Ever, Whom Ever that gave me the, the want ever, to make it and Live this fucking long. The things I've LEARNED! Some people, males don't even get to Live this long. I can't say I've listen to my Elders and I can't say I didn't listen to them even. It was that we admired them first, wanted to be like them. So, yeah I listened. Not only I l...

The General Manager at my job lives in my area and every workday he picks me up. He also takes me home after work. The only thing about riding with him is..he doesn't want anyone talking while he's driving. At first I thought it was because of the color of my skin, he's White. But no, it isn't that. It's quite a few things I've found out on my third day working there. First, it's the people who he has to manage. They are drug addicts, Meth. They are also either on Parole or Probation. I spoke of this before. They don't listen to him, follow his directions, they do what they want to do. Also, they come in when they want to come in to work and he doesn't question them at all. In the middle of a shift, they will go on a break and leave...come in thr next day like nothing even happened. And again he doesn't question them. Yesterday...that straw broke THIS Camel's back. I was moving 150 empty boxes of bread and he approached me. Told me that he wa...

Fabio Said it Right.. 'When you truly Love someone, you Love them forever.' He said this in a recent interview. He was referring the woman who got away. She wanted to settle down, but he said he was too wild back then to do so. Now after all these years he regrets letting her slip through his hands, got away. I feel the same way also. I'm not going to mention her name, but Thai woman was and still is my True Love. But I fucked up. No matter how I try to sugar coat it, it was ALL MY fault. I know it was my fault because when I sometimes speak of her not only to others but to myself, I feel like kicking my own ass if that was possible. I have always said and believe that for me and others that you only have one true Love. Most people will disagree with me, but I stand my grounds on this one. I believe it only happens at a certain age, in your early 20's, no olser than 25, 26 year of age. My friends who I've seen over the years have said to me they thought that the two...

Yesterday at work... All of a sudden I was tired and sleepy as all Hell so.. I empty all the the garbage cans by myself. Mind you these garbage cans are large. The weight of each one was that if a 12 year old fat kid. Each one required me to empty by hand first, and then lift up and into a dumpster I swear is and was higher than any I've ever seen. But that shit woke me up. Since it's Hump Day... I don't know how this woman I know here got my cell number, but she sent me some pictures that had me wide open. I mean yeah, she attractive... And yeah, we both were checking each other out.. I just want to know how she got my number. Secondly... She doesn't know who she is about to deal with too. But I'm not going to go all in just yet. I have to do some more 'background' investigation. I heard she is married. My friend is losing it. Whenev5 he speaks to me, I don't understand what he is saying. Others are coming to me and asking what is wrong with him. When I...

It's so da.n green here. It rain off and in for two days, which made the grass even greener. It's been so damn hot this past week too. Today temps only going to hit 77°...which means the shop probably hit 90° I can deal with that. ...and here I thought that dude was he man. Well, she made it perfectly clear that he wasn't. She also made it clear to me that she was waiting for me to open my mouth a ND talk with her. From what I gathered..she already has made her mind up on the plans she has for me. I laughed when she told me too. I hand around these two White kids, kids because one is 18 and the other is 19. The reason being because these two MOTHERFUCKERS are smart as shit. What ever comes out of their mouths is fascinating to me, no for real. One of them when I'm around him...he just gives me info on some strange shit. Info like.. I can't even tell you about because what he says you would think you have no use for. A handful of Black men here questioned me on why I...

I kind of felt sorry as fuck for him too. One of the guys here approached me after dinner and asked me do I have SNAP, told him I did. He then asked could I give him a couple of dollars so he can go across the street and buy some food. Believe me I know what it feels like to be hungry. Even though he spent his monthly allowance on what ever, he came to me of all people and ask for help. I couldn't say no. Took him across the street and told him to get 2hwt he wanted. $30 worth of food. And I asked him was he sure that was all he wanted. He said yes. I'm only at the Shelter all day on weekends. Saturday I go to the library to download stuff. But I just found out that the library lens's out Hotspot Devices like they do books but for a week at a time. A guy has one of the devices and he let me borrow it the whole day. I downloaded 44 GB of movies, TV shows and music. Next Saturday I'm stopping at the library first to take out one and then I'm going by bus to another to...

One of my MAJOR faults when it comes to women is remembering their names... It's like this. With no more than five women and myself working in a room together, I can remember their names within 15 minutes but... But with any number greater than that, and throw in some males... I won't remember shit. I will start to make up names for them to help me remember though. Now get this..I've spent an entire weekend starting on a Friday at 11pm...met in a club, talked, danced..left the club to get a room...spent up to Sunday around 6pm with a woman..and I didn't know her name until she said..'You don't even know my name, do you?' I told her no I didn't, and I didn't know how to because THIS happened really fast. She knew my name because I told her. I told her that I thought she was going to tell me her name, but I thought it was a thing she was into. We laughed. Gave me her number, but still didn't tell me her name. When I called to make sure she got home...

So Tony Lanez shit Megan Thee Stallion in the foot and he is out on bail pending his trial. She got a reatra6 order. But both were performing at a fiction and now The Law wants to revoke his bail or increase for APPEARING at the same fiction as her!!? Cough, cough BULLSHIT! He said he didn't see her or even came close to her. He's required to stay at least 100 feet from her or some bullshit like that but.. But they want to go all batshit on him for I guess, JUST being there. Why can't a Black man earn a living. Is she claiming the whole fucking fiction as her OWN? I don't know why he shot her in the foot... Probably had a good enough reason to do so too. I mean I wouldn't go as far as to shoot her or anyone but that's the life you lead in the music industry.

A you g lady about 25, 30 years old was in the Chinese Store ordering too. She works across the lot at a Howard Johnson Express Inn. I started talking to her for the sole purpose of getting a room at a very discounted price..the price she would pay because she works there. Told her where I'm staying and I saw the look of pity in her eyes for only a second or two. The look was..oh, he's staying in a shelter but I'll fuck him. She called her order in so I had to act fast. Gave me her name and cell ny5 and told me to call her and to let her know when I want the room. She said that she has to 'Play it off', go up to the room with me so that it wouldn't look like she is getting the room for someone else. I was Very surprised when she said that and in her way out told me not to forget to call her 'tonight' Well damn!!

It's name is called China House.  Okay, just came from library and I've been hearing all about this Chinese restaurant here that everyone is going crazy over. So I order lunch from the menu. First... The Duck Sauce, Soy Sauce and Hit Mustard along with spoons and forks PLUS napkins are in a table. I guess you can take as many as you like. The people/customers have manners, they don't Jorge. Looking at the menu, you know I'm looking for 3 words...'Spare Rib Tips'. And would you know it, they don't serve it. Okay minus 9 points out of 10. I'm sorry, THIS New Yorker from The Bronx bases his reviews of Chinese Restaurants on the quality AND quality of their portions of Spare Rib Tips. You don't serve them..wells expect a not so shiny review from me on Yelp. I ordered.. Vegetable Egg Foo Young, a quart of Sweet & Sour Pork and an order of Steamed Dumplings. We will see what is what in about 45 minutes. I just missed the bus and it runs every half hour...

I was having a conversation with a guy here at this shelter. He's Jamaican. The conversation got around to talking about being vaccinated. He told me that he isn't getting it because if he does he does and that he's ready to go.  Wing that he's in a Shelter for the Homeless, he feels that he has hit rock bottom and let the chips fall where ever. I don't understand his reasoning, but that's on him.  He works in a Deli somewhere around this area. Told me that he works with 3 to 4 White women and all they do is gossip and talk about people all during the shift. He also told me that he stays to himself and he doesn't talk to anyone and that he is only there to do his job and get a paycheck. I explained to him that he should be more friendly with his co-workers and that he doesn't want to get that title of being the one who has a stuck up their ass. But he won't listen, so I let it be until... I went on an interview for a position as a Deli Manager...and ...

....please excuse me on that one. I was called away, my friend got caught up in that bullshit again. This time he asked me to come alog and I turned him down. I'm not getting involved. I get slightly pissed off when people speak on their cell phones on speakerphone. No further explanation is needed.  But if you hand me your phone to speak with someone who wants totslk with me... I'm turning that request down. For one, I don't need everyone within hearing distance to know my business. This is t anyone I know but... If you decide to sell drugs, please be able to afford your own cigarette habits. Howiu selling drugs and can't afford cigarettes is way beyond me. Maybe I have this Baby Momma thing all wrong... But if you classify your child's mother as a Baby Momma, are you in a relationship with her? This guy was telling me all about the women, young women he is sleeping with. I asked him was he going for quantity or quality, there is a big difference. Then he tells me ...

 So a friend was telling me to day about an incident that happened between him and 3, 4 people.... I don't even know why I bothered to listen. I should have told him, that I don't want to know about the problems he was having with these people. But I listen anyway and this is what I gathered from the conversation. A female friend of his was having problems with her brother. Apparently the brother spit in her face, but he didn't do it on purpose. The woman ran out of the house she was staying out which is her brother who has a daughter who he has custody of, but the daughter chooses to live with her mother who remarried her ex husband's best friend.  The sister of the brother takes care of her niece AND her brother...cleaning, shopping and cooking. Without her being in the house the father and daughter would be lost, so she is a BIG help. The brother KNOWS this. So my friend talked to the brother and this isn't the first time with him doing so. My friend tends to get...

No matter how hot it is, it's always hotter. It's about work and working really. Yesterday it was 93° outside and inside where I work at my station it was 105°. Did it bother me? Nope! The reason being I'm accustomed to working in such environments, hot ass kitchens.  What you have to be able to do is pace yourself and stay on top of what you're doing. That means prepping your area so that you don't have to be running back and forth. Not everyone can do this. Some of my co workers list their shit yesterday because if the heat. What I find really fucking amazing is that they were born here and know or should know what the weather can and will be like where we work. Many times tried to talk some of them down. Take it easy I said, pace yourself. But with them getting agitated only made matters worse. Today is going to be even hotter outside which is going to make being inside for real a living Hell. I old them the key is to wear loose fitting clothes with light colors....

I know one thing for certain that I wasn't. At 18 years old I didn't act like I had all the answers or knew it all. It's funny when I hear these young people today. They talk like hey have life all figured out. And some talk at the age of 18, 19 and even 20 that where they are at in their stage of life, it's goi g to be like that the rest of their lives. They just don't know. They don't know that they have their 2hole life ahead of them. They don't know that they will be able to make mistakes and then correct them. They don't know that it's a toss up..your good days and your bad days. They don't know that if they want something out of life that they have their whole lives ahead of them to go for it. They will learn though.

I don't know what you call it or them, but I call it fucked up. I was told nothing in this world is free. Someone somewhere is paying the price for it. At first I didn't think this was true, but it certainly most is. I had mentioned before that we didn't have hot water at the place I sleep at, eat at and WASH UP at. A teenager wasn't complaining, he was just asking how come it takes four days to fix the problem and this is a Shelter with men, woman and kids in it. This guy, a Veteran who is on his second time coming back said that.. Well he went into all this bullshit about 'ya'll' should be greatful for what we have here and that people are donating their time and out of the generosity of their heart are helping us. (cough, cough) Bullshit!! It took everything that is in me that is Holy to MOT bark back at his ass, but I did throw up on him...a tiny little bit. (This is just my opinion....) ANY Shelter that is within the confines of The United States, the p...

These young men at work call me 'Old Head', that doesn't bother me. What bothers me is that they say hey have all this money and bum cigarettes off of me. I don't give them shit though...with all that money you have.

There is a downside to living in a small town... You need your own transportation to get around basically. New York City has Public Transportation that runs 24 hours a day. When it says it's a City That Never Sleeps, it's true. For example, Rihanna was seen getting $1 slices of pizza at 4am. Four o'clock IN THE MORNING!! ONLY in NYC!! You can get what you crave at any time you want AND take a train or bus to get it. Here, where I'm at right now... Get this... From the town I'm in, to get to the town I work in which is 17 FUCKING MILES AWAY, I can take a bus but it doesn't and it won't get me there AT my 8am starting time. In fact, it's not even called a bus, it's called a trolley. AND, I would have to take a transfer which would take 90 minutes. Public transportation starts at 8am and the cost is 25 and 50 cents. I have yet to ride on it. There was a slight problem at work which caused the team I work on to stay later. My Manager picks me up to take ...

Hey, here's a trend people can start.  How about filling all those empty work positions that are out there. I will tell you this though.. I employment bennies are about to end, what..in September? But then again this Delta Variant.. it's gaining momentum and it looks like it has legs too. I think 'They' are going to extend those benefits until the end of the last quarter of this year. If they do, they will also have to give something to the 'Woeking Joes' too. Another round of Stimulus Checks. I don't see why not. Those Child Tax Credits are going to mainly single parents, but what about others? Can't leave them hanging in the wind.

Governor Cuomo of NY State... Can you say...' He is fucked' boys & girls. He is so fucked up right now that he doesn't even know it. But I have to give him credit though. He is t going down without a fight.

When I woke up Friday morning at 4:30am, there was hot water. Came home at 4:45pm, NO hot water. This whole weekend..NO HOT WATER!! I'm semi hard core, or I was totally hardcore when I was in the Army and up to 3 years after I left. I don't give a Fuck what anyone says, I'm not taking a cold shower. I will wash head to toe in the bathroom sink, but that cold shower bullshit isn't me. I told my friend here that I want to meet some women here. Like he told me he has female friends who have female friends. My sole purpose other than sex was to have a place I can fall back on like in times when there is no hot water. I could have stress this to him today any more than I already did. I think it was about 6, 7,..8 times. I told him a need to find a place close by where I can chill. I hope the hot water comes back tomorrow after work.

Sometimes I will start a post and then...I get called away for something to only TRY and pick up from where I left off at. What I'm going to try to do for now on is just end the post and pick it back up later in another post. I think this will work for me.

So this guy I know here is turning out to be a good friend. But there are something's that I don't understand. This guy tells me the night before, almost every night before that he is going to hook me up with some woman. And what the  dumbest shit is that I believe him. The other day he introduces me to this woman and then the three of us went for a walk. I'm walking about a half a cars length behind her. Yes I checked out her body from head to heel because I was behind her. My friend went inside the store and left me alone with her. I could tell she was going they something so I asked. He r daughter is with her mother out West and she misses her daughter. But she wasn't living right here with her daught so her mother took her from her out of Love for the both of them. This woman wants to stay clean. Not drugs, alcohol. So what she does is stay indoors and only comes out four times a day to go for walks. It the stay away or avoid 'people, places and things' rout...

I was just going thru almost all of my FB pictures and you know what... They actually say something about me. First thing I noticed isthat I aheva shit load of pictures. In High School my major was Photography, I just liked taken pictures. Then comes the internet..memes and other people's pictures.  City and States I've been to you can see the timeline and the pictures take me back, thr memories. The pictures I have on FB... See, I don't know who is reading this. Though this App/program/website leaves a count whenever someone views/reads it. Though I'm not going for a high so to speak readership, I want people to read it, then I don't want people to know who I am. That's where the sort of...problem(?) comes in. No I'm not running from anyone like The Law, I'm a litter Shakey about.. My Facebook is my Government name. I think I'm thinking way too much into this. I will make a decision by Monday.

Out out those three I mentioned before, one is crossed off my list. I saw the main one today and I said someth5 to her and she handed me her number and told me to text only. But we had a decent conversation. Thing is around here...almost everyone knows everybody, so word will get around she said. I told her to let me handle it. She said she will and will.lwave everything up to me.

I'm on my ' A Hard Days Work' bullshit. Listen, people don't want to work here. The place I work at is great to me. You work hard, I work hard I get satisfaction out of it. I accomplished something. I clock out I KNOW I earned my pay for the day/week. THESE motherfuckers though. Most of the people I work with and around are either in Parole or Probation..BOTH male and females. The company I work for has a steady record of hiring Felons which in my book is GREAT. Everyone deserves to work, but... If we're a drug dealer, did your time and started working where I work at and say to me you're trying to change your ways... Standing around and looking at your cell phone and being on Snap Chat..like who the fuck uses Snap Chat anym5 in the first damn place. I almost walked out today. It would have matter though. People quit when they get their first check and this company hired them back the fillow5 Wednesday. In fact, one guy quit 3 times since I've been there.  W...

Some people aren't cut out or even made for the job positions they fill. I work from the age of 14 years old to this present year. From 1974 to 2021. There were only two years I didn't work and no it wasn't because I was in jail or prison. How I know this is because of my Social Security number, the website told me so. When I say I am TIRES OF WORKING, believe me I am tired. Getting up early in the morning. I have the Army to thank for that...waking up early, being prepared in case something goes wrong. I have a Working Spirit, something I am grateful for. Sometimes this Spirit is a real pain in the ass. It's like... It's like 95 percent of me...though I try to sleep in, I can't. Sometimes I force myself to take time off and when I do it messes with me. When I'm not at the job site it's like I'm missing something. I don't want to be the one who doesn't know what's going on, I don't want to say 'well, I wasn't there.' I bel...

A friend of mines asked me to take a walk with him. If course I asked him where the duck we are walking to. He tells me there is someone he wants me to meet. So I go. 15 minutes later he says, here she comes. As she gets closer and closer...I noticed that she is looking at me. She hugs my friend, they are friends for the longest time, and then he introduces me. Well, he began to do so but she cut him off by asking me my name. She told me hers but it's different, different sounding and I won't even try to spell it here. she stands just a little shorter than me, with the brightest blue eyes I've ever seen other than in a print add. We had a nice little 25 minute conversation up until 9pm when she said she's tired and wants to go home. She tells me she would invite me in, bit I might stay longer than I want to and not make my curfew. She gave me her number, address, email and told me on Saturday she wants to cook breakfast and lunch for me. I told her I will be there a lit...

It's a damn shame...but then again... I use to mess around with this woman back in 2005, but we lost contact until about a month ago. She accepted my Friend Request on Facebook..nd then nothing. I know she saw my my messages I sent her too. Today she was all chatty with me on Messenger, and then sends me her cell number AND address to stop by TONIGHT!! Told her I moved to VA, sorry I can't make it That is what happens when you are afraid to really reach out.

Yesterday, work...work was crazy.  First damn near everyone was late coming to work. That meant pulling people from other departments to come and work in mines. That also meant that they didn't and don't give a Fuck about the end product. As far as they knew and what most said was that they couldn't work this department, it's too damn busy. I found something out which blew my mind. About 98% of the people there are on Parole or Probation. 85% of them are women. I did the math, I dislike math. The job is well known for hiring felons..which means you can leave any time you want and they will hire you back. Also means you get arrested do you time..they will take you back. Which also means no one gives a Fuck about the job. I was working with three people. One woman and two guys. Between the three of them, they have 14 kids. All of them are under the age of 30. WTF?!! I was asked did I have any kids, told them no. They wonders what's wrong with me. This town is..how do ...

Have you ever had so much to say, and very little time to say it in? I know it sounds cliche... Welcome to my world. I start putting together a post early in the morning only to find out that I save it as a draft...and 9, 10 hours later I just get around to it. Well NOT any fucking more will I do this. Okay, it may sound 'Basic' and I'm sure it has probably been done far too many times before. But I haven't heard of a Male doing it. I... How do I put this so that it doesn't sound cheap, creepy as fuck and even desperate. You know how a young woman offers up her Womanhood for the very first time.. How about an Experience Male, me...offer up HIS 'Its Been A VERY LONG TIME. Yep. Let's say since...well around the middle of August of LAST YEAR! I stopped doing the 'One on One's thingy about 37 days ago, and believe me last night...I almost gave in, but I didn't. I drank some water of all things and it helped. I have three women I am going to approach....

Another start of a new week. This place I'm staying at is a Shelter, but it's not like any Shelter I've been in. Let me try to explain a few things. Keep in mind this is my opinion and this is what works for me. A Shelter is a place where your suppose to regroup yourself, talk a little time and adjust your strategy. First...rest your body and then your mind, get your game plan in order. There are rules, first rule is The Curfew. Usually it's 10pm. You have to handle all your business by 5pm because around that time it's dinner time, don't miss dinner. After a few days, usually two, start looking for work. But at most Shelters, in any State you go to, people need work done and will come to Shelters paying decent good money for a days work. But if you have a resume, a laptop, your best bet is to go to the library. Okay, you have your job search in motion, now all you have to do is just wait for calls and emails to flow in. I moved from New York City to Virginia. I...

I started a post..wonder where it went, anyhow. How can I put this.. What people do and are use to doing here in this city and great state..I would never do in NYC. I try not to compare but I can't help it. Like... Like I made a statement that I would never date a woman with children, infant, toddler, teen, tough adult..nope, I will never do that and I have my reason. Dude said as long as you don't put your hands in my mother we are good. I tried as hard as I could to grasp that statement, couldn't. But I told him..why would you as a 28 year old man get involved in your mother's relationship. That's her doing and she knows how to handle situations better than you and it doesn't involved violence. Besides, your mother will tell you anything to make the guy look bad, i.e, he hit me...which most likely he didn't.But you will believe your mother and step to the guy too. AND, what will for sure happen...the two of them will be back together again. Correction..I w...