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I can't believe what some if the people who are working are doing. They are quitting their jobs for these jobs that are $21 to $23 dollars an hour. I tried to tell them what the deal is, but they won't listen. These jobs that are now offering this good pay are only doing it for 90 days, The Christmas Season. Though it's good money..don't be expected to be with that company come the first of the year. In fact, around the 15th if December they are going to start cutting loose all those people they hired. Like I said, I tried to tell them, but they won't listen. I also told them that finding a job after New Years..well, you might not get anything until maybe around the 15th of April. It's a pattern, and if you have worked like you're suppose to be working damn near all your life you would see it. Another thing is with these jobs, those Seasonal Workers are thinking they are going to work 40 hour weeks. It's more or less 3, maybe 4 days a week. Or even 3 day...

I don't take advice from just anyone. I know youre not suppose to bw weary of the messenger, it's the message that counts. But no, I look at the messenger first then listen to what they have to say..and then process everything. See... I want to tell this Messenger what I think he should hear coming from me, since he thinks that he has a message for me. I keep trying to tell people who think they know me..you don't know me. You only see what I allow you to see. But I don't hide anything though. I don't pretend to be anything or anyone I'm not. People think they get their stripes because they are 'Street' and people 'respect' them. It's not respect, it's fear, they fear you. Like I said, I'm going to be me. I enjoy listening to music, that's onw thing that keeps me going and motivated. I also enjoy surfing the internet and reading  Although I haven't been doing too much reading lately. In New York City, Pre Pandemic, I would rid...

I had installed it a while ago..and now I know why I took it off my phone. If anyone who uses SnapChat, let's say in their phone because I don't even know if you use it on your PC or laptop but..  SnapChat is like Selfies...it makes you too self esorbed. It focuses or .ays you focus only in yourself. I tried the second time around, and there are too many bells and whistles for me. I only tried it because this pretty young lady told me that I was 'dumb' and not smart enough to figure it out. Okay, she's right. But for now, it will stay installed on my phone.

Even here in VA... Everyone lives fir Friday, The Weekend. I dislike the weekends. I rather work Saturdays and Sundays and be off two week days. In New York City...everyone parties, go shopping for food and handle their business in the weekends, which makes doing things harder because if the crowds. During the week, when I'm off and everyone is at work, I get to do my business. Wash clothes, food shopping...or just do nothing. Met this woman online. Became friends and then she hit me with the..click here to see my... But there was and is something different about her and I can't place my finger on it. She's from Norfolk, VA...34 years old. I didn't ask her about her status because I can guess..at least one kid, no man, child's father not in their lives. Typical and basic but I understand. But something happened with us communicating. She is becoming..she wants to actually know more about me, the things I like in a woman. ..and no, she isn't 'playing' me....

I've always said that if you can't make up your own mind and have to depend on someone else to do it for you.. It started with her getting a phone call, I was sitting right besides her. Only heard the conversation on my end, and I knew it was not going to be a good one. She said hold up, I'm putting you on speakerphone. I know she had no control over who she said was her best friend on the other side. But really, I think she should really REALLY choose who she calls her best friend more wisely. The woman on the line came straight out and asked me what was my contentions concerning her friend. I told her that is none of your business and how dare you ask me something like that. She then said..'See, those other motherfuckers took advantage of her and I'm not going to let that happen again to her.' Instead of me going back and forth with her, I gathered my things and left this woman's apartment. I get back to where I'm staying at and see my cell had 4 calls...

So people think just because they are allowed to do certain things that other aren't allowed to do...they think they are special. But.. Today, I spoke with the person who deals with me. I asked him when I get off from work and come back there, take a shower..why can't I take a nap. He said he has to ask his supervisor..who approved of me just doing that, take a nap.  So this guy who works at night, he gets off in the morning he can come and go as he pleases doing the day time, lay up, get rest and sleep all day. After I took my shower, while sitting on my bed...he tells me that he will talk with me later. He thought I was leaving, I laid down and went to sleep. This fucker walks by and bumps my bed hard and it woke me up. What happened next...all I can say was the last thing I said to him was fuck you. But this is what I wanted to say... Motherfucker we are the same age and in a shelter and all you have yin your head a dreams. While you making pennies selling so called weed...a...

Like I have about 5 post that are just laying up in the 'draft' section.  Shit has been weird as fuck around here lately. Working long hours and not getting any sleep, plus... I met a 34 year old Bi sexual woman..I don't know why I pointed that out. Suppose to only be FB, Fuck Buddies but she caught feelings. But I'm not taking away from my goals to satisfy her..let's say cravings. Then.. Then an 18 year old, girg5 from head to toe..tall, built kind of Butchy...showing her interest in me like pushing up strong too. What messing with my head though is that she is a virgin and doesn't want to be any more. Introduces me to her MOTHER who I am OLDER than. I was jammin out to some Breatbeat in the isle of a Walmart and she was standing behind me dancing to and with me but she..I know she could have heard the music coming out if my Beats Wireless headphones or could she. Just started kicking it with me. Talked for about an hour standing right there in the isle. Sorry ...

Over the years...they we 'date' has changed, but.. I don't bet around the bush nor hold back my words. If you as a woman seem attractive to me and you are somewhat interested in me..sure, I'm pushing up on you.  It I'm coming at you in the nicest possible way there is, but you will KNOW what I mean and what my plans are concerning you. Take into consideration, I'm single with no women and excuse my French..I'm not fucking anyone or any woman at the time. But what I've seen in the past 2, 3 years..some of these women have it all twisted. They are a ring like they are the ones with the balls in their pants. Dictating what a man should and it how they should be approached by him. I just can't be that way, it's not in my nature.  She gave me her number when I asked for it. We talked for about half an hour but she was in her way someplace and told me to call her, so I did later on. What fucked me up was 1hat she said next. She asked fir my password to...

Now... Now I know. My best friend is on some real bullshit. Yesterday as I was at my female's friends house, my cellphone rang, it was a 646 number and I figured it was a span call so I didn't answer. My phone stays on silent all the time. It's aet fie vibrate only. It was my friends brother calling from New York City. When I left her place I saw it was a text from him also. My friend has been calling his brothers in NYC asking for money. From what his brother(s) told me, it's been now for the last 4, 5 days. So they asked me if he's working like he said he was, why is he asking for money. I had no answer for them. We are considered like family because we go way back..as far back as the mid 1960's. His family was dating someone in my family, shit like that. From what I got from his brothers.. I've been getting my ass kicked and handed to me ever since I've arrived here in this part of Virginia. And that as of yesterday, my friend had to smack the shit ou...

 I don't consider myself special in no way fashion or form... But I DO KNOW what works for me and ME ONLY. I can not feel sorry for a motherfucker who doesn't even try and do something with their own lives. I don't care if they are male or female, I don't feel sorry for your ass. You can walk around like you're an old ass man all the fuck you want. When just the other day your ass was popping around here talking all that mad ass shit. Now look at you. And what the sad part is, you're like 5 years younger than me.

Sunday morning..my day off...and this ONE asshole here...man!! I remember when I was very young that not only did my school teacher but also my mother told me that I can BE anything I wanted to be. Not only that, that I can go almost where we unwanted to go too. Going places she said...she said you have to be prepared for whatever might cross your path. Keeping all that my parents told me, mostly my mother...I've sent out in journeys that took me to places where people dreamed of. I've been to quite a bit of places on this planet of ours. I e experienced quite of bit if things also.  It what messes with my head...with all these places I've been to...it's the mentality if the way some people think. I've come to understand that it's not that other people hold you back from doing something, anything..it's the person, they hold their selves back. Each place you go to have rules, rules that you have to go by. Go against those rules and sometimes you're breaki...

For Mature Minds ONLY...I warned you, don't say I didn't. It was strange.. I mean once we both saw that we were interested in each other.. It took like maybe 30 seconds, and we both came to the conclusion that we need to get together...and fast. I planned for a Sunday, but that look in her eye said 'Oh man, why not within the next couple.of hours.' So I did. The hard part was waiting for her mother to come and get her son. But I have a serious issue now. Not an issue, more or less a question. I don't consider myself having the biggest penis, though I've been told it was way more than they expected. What is bother me with the last 3 women I've slept with is...me being inside of her and I don't fit. Let me explain. Foreplay on both parts is great. But when it comes to insertion... I know where the entry point is, it's just that I don't fit in like I want it/me to fit in.  I don't know if it's the lack of the woman not having sex, all three ...

If you want to know how quiet it gets here... You know how in the movies, you have a person out in the middle of nowhere and they hear a car or truck approaching from at least a quarter mile away... And you ask yourself, if that's true. Well, it's true alright. I can hear a truck bir car coming at least a quarter mile away. Not only that... But if the wind is blowing just right, I can also smell a person coming without seeing them too. It's that damn quiet and lonely here. I'm not complaining but old age and it getting old is real. Last night every hour or two this elderly guy coming to the bed besides me and wakes up his son. The son says..'Daddy it's too early, go back to sleep.' This is the same man who a couple of weeks ago try to get in my bed with me. I informed staff back then and I informed them this morning before I headed out to work this morning. Something has to be done about this because I understand, but someone else here just might not. I don...

All these guys here, to me they are full of shit. Here they are giving the opportunity to do something with their lives, to start over again. But no, they want to continue to do the same old shit that they have been doing thru all of their adult life. Like his dude was suppose to go on an interview with a major store chain. This store chain is hiring for the holidays. For the past 2 weeks he's been telling me how he is going to do this, going to do that... Telling me I should get down 2ith what he is getting down with and 'make this money'. I told him, the money is trying to make you. Well that job is out of the window. All this time too, he's been talking about them checking his urine. He's taking some stuff that's suppose to clear his urine up. That stuff somehow or another messed with his body. Now he can barley walk. Hegells me he wants some Chinese Food, but doesn't have the money..askes me to get him some. I told him what do I look like giving you, a g...

I'm in my lunch break, minding my business. A woman comes up to me and introduced herself. It seems her daughter, who is 25 years old saw me earlier today and wanted  to ask me to their home for dinner. I ask this woman is she sure it's me her daughter is talking about. She says yes and will I be able to come. I tell her no because I don't even know who her daughter is.  She then tells me tomorrow her daughter will meet me.  Virginia is a strange place. Where I'm at..Mountain Lions, Bobcats and bears. There are deers everywhere you look. And now, some woman wants me to date her damn daughter.

Yesterday my day started at 2:15am when I opened my eyes. I have to be at work at 4am, Biscuit Maker for the day. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, my day I'm talking about. Doing 'The Dough Thing's as I call it. I made 276 biscuts or 31 trays of 12 biscuits. All were sold except for 31 biscuts. All I said to myself was wow. But what throws me off is.. All my job is fir those 7 hours is to bake and wash the dishes when they switch over from breakfast to lunch, which there isn't much of anything to wash up. I wanted to help in the line but I was told to fall back, don't worry about it. At one time things were crazy, getting orders mixed up. As I stood there I saw what the issue was but said nothing because I was told to fall back. Shift ended quickly and I was in my way out the door. When I got back to the shelter, tired, sleepy...I was told that I couldn't wash up or even lay down. I had to wait from 11:35am to 6pm until the dorms opened back up. Wh...

Oh my God... Waking up at 1:45am to be at work at 4am. Right now my eyes are so damn heavy. Ever feel so damn tired AND sleepy that you get dizzy. One hour and 24 more minutes. The sad thing about it... I can't even crawl back into bed. I'm going to go down in the dayroom and kick back in a recliner. I told him so. That young kid... He said that even though he didn't get the vaccine, he isn't going to catch the virus. Well how come they have your ass quarantine in a hotel now. Blowing up my cellphone asking ME to bring him something to eat. Yeah right.

That shit sounds good until... Until your ass is out there in the cold and then what? Tried telling my friend that he shit is all out there and that certain people are aware of what you're doing. That they couldn't actually confirm it but.. But going by how you've been looking lately, it's not hard for them to tell.  I've been calling and texting his ass for the last 3, 4 days..calls go straight to voicemail and he doesn't answer my texts. Then all if a sundden I get a 'wya' and telling me he is at the hospital getting his second shot. Like I give a Fuck. Tells me he will be by at 3pm and he needs a shirt and a pair of pants. Who's shirt and pants are you asking about? Not what I own and wear, you're not getting none of that from me. Then he comes by and asked me about some 8 man tent that he claims he slid up under my bed before the Police arrested his ass. Knowing damn well he didn't, he knows where it's at. The staff collected his shit...

This new job I started last week..  My start times vary from day to day. Not only that, their work week ends on. Monday.  Two days a week I start at 4am. That's not a typo either. It's a fast food place Hardee's. Reason why I start at 4am is I have to make the biscuits. This morning was the first time I made them on my own, not hard at all. Just time consuming. 14 trays of 12 biscuits each..or something like that. The 'par' varies from day to day. The only thing is.. I don't get to go back on the line when I doing the biscut station. I have to clean up and wash the station and when breakfast switches over to lunch, I have to wash the breakfast items that were used. The other issue I see I'm going to have is getting my proper sleep. Where my bed is at is very close to the TV...where the young ones are always playing Xbox. When I say young ones, they are under the age of 22. I'm requesting to change my bed to the other side of the dorm where it's dark ...

I know, like what happened and shit right?. Well.... Shit started happening all at once after the 31st of August. I should have seen it coming but I didn't. And even if I did, I would have left it ALL played out any damn way. I started working at a fast food Hamburger Joint. I am The New Guy. Co workers don't or didn't know I was coming. The District Manager has been trying to get me to work there for thee last 2, 3 weeks. I didn't get the email which was the application to fill out before the interview. I thinking I mentioned this before in one of my past post. She asked me about 5 basic questions and then she left her Windows laptop and told me to fill out of the 'stuff' and watch the videos. Interview was at 4pm so she basically knew I could do the job, so why did she have to hang around, she bounced. See that's where the issues came about. The first full day on the job I got to see the crew I'm working with. I'm The Cook. I'm not the person w...