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It's the last day of the year, and I've learned that eventually everything on your body will and can begin to hurt. Okay, I can understand my back, and my arms... But my balls, hold on a minute. Are my balls suppose to hurt? Yeah sure, if I'm I kicked or punched there, yeah okay.. But to hurt for no reason at all? Some may say that this issue needs to be looked further into by paid professional medical people, but I'll be damned if I walk my ass into any damn hospital right about now. Okay speaking of..this new virus.. Like I'm not really getting any info.. for the simple fact there are no newspapers in this areas. And, since this place doesn't have cable, no news channel to see it on tv. I visited some of my friends homes and they don't have cable, so I'm not seeing any news. Sure the internet. But can you really believe what you read and see on the internet? That one is up for debate. As this year closes out... I think for the last 2, 3 months or this ...

I did something this Christmas that I have never in my entire life had done. I GAVE money as a Christmas gift. Ain't that some shit. Well, I gave money in total $250 to three different people/persons. One who I am sleeping with, and to her child. And the other who I want to sleep with..who I have never met in person..who I have already sent in total $300 here and there for pictures and videos. Don't EVEN ask, okay. Like right now I am at the one whom I am sleeping with apartment. She spent the night with her child at her mother's home. I've been here alone since 11:17pm last night...hoping she could get out of spending the night at her mom's house. She couldn't and I was sort of disappointed because two days ago she got a powerful vibrator in the mail and I used it on her. Right now I have :Buddy's, it's the name I'm calling it..I have it plugged in and charging up. This thing is amazing and you women have it good when it comes to..to.. How I I call ...

...I was sane, I had my wits about me. I also knew right from wrong. I wasn't stressed out and I kept to myself. Then I woke the fuck up. I'm going to try and get thru this post.. Meaning I will hit 'Send' instead of leaving it for later and getting back to..which I never do. So for now on I'm just going to hit 'Send, Publish' or what the fuck ever. It's not that I don't care, no not that. It's just there isn't enough hours in my FUCKING DAY! I should have never gave her any penis. For real though, I should have listen to that little voice. But I thought being that she is 53 years old..she would have some kind, type of sense about herself. But noooo, I gave it to her two times and that second time sealed my fate. I have to admit, both encounters were enjoyable, surprised the hell out of me too. But when you don't have any friends, no family..kids don't want to have anything to do with you.. When a person shows you some attention and t...