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Today is my younger sister's Wedding Day. 4pm, and I am so damn Happy for her too  Don't even ask me why I'm happy for her because I don't even know why. It's in Westchester County, New Rochelle. It took ME some doing to be back up here in New York City too. I mean I HAD/HAVE to be here. My mother and father past away years ago and I'm the oldest of 5. Though extended family members may think there are only 4 Chappell's, no there are 5 and I'm the oldest. Today will be a rare occurrence, all 5 Chappell's together in one place. It's me that's not there are the time. It's me who doesn't stay in touch, visit or reach out. I don't know why I'm like that. I think it's because I think I embarrass my younger brothers and sisters. I think because of my past with...with everything. All I can say is that sure I regret some things, but not all. It made me who I am today..ALIVE and not in prison. But this is wh...

The world famous Block Button. The ONLY tool that some have. I'm trying to understand it's power, but it's not there. First off. You block someone online and you think it has some sort of power. The only person that it means something to..is the person doing the blocking. You think my life is just going to stop because you blocked me..online blocked me...internet block me?! Hold up. You probably thought that that shit gets to me, nope it doesn't. Know why? Cause you can't do shit to me in real life. You hide behind a keyboard..no, not even a keyboard. A FUCKING CELLPHONE!  See, in REAL life, I'm still there, out there walking around, probably listening to my music in my earbuds..and yes..BLOCKING THE REAL WORLD OUT!! You also might have passed me by on the street and said to yourself that I probably, no..most definitely could 'gey it'. Yes, I passed you by also, and know who you are. Looked at your face, your breast and your hips, back to your face. You ...

Around this time last year I checked into this shelter here in Virginia. I wasn't nervous or anything like that, I just wanted to get this whole process started, meaning paperwork and meeting with my Case Managers.  I was busy taking in Virginia, looking at what was all around and..the women.  Ah, the women. See I know that where every I go in life, there are always beautiful women around. Most times they are hidden...hidden on some back road deep in the woods off the beaten trail. Well, none of that here. Just like anywhere else, if you stay out for 10 minutes they will walk right by you. ...and this one did. Straight off, it was here shape if her body, then her face. She had on bright orange yoga pants that for real showed her every curve if her ass. There are asses and then there are asses. This one had nice shape, thick and very curvy. But what was connected to her ass was these two beautiful thighs that were in perportion to her ass. Nice complexion, pretty smile when she...

Last post was April 1st. I'm sorry. I just wasn't in the mood to be posting like I've should of. But a lot of things have changed. So let me get started. On Good Friday a Lyft Driver came and picked me up at the shelter I was in. Took me to Roanoke to sign for my Housing Voucher and brought me back. One way $165. All on the dime of the Veterans Administration. I got a HUD VASH Housing Voucher. Who would know that the next couple of months would be a living Hell for me.  Had to do all the foot work myself. Spent what I did save up from working on applications to only be told NO or rejected because of my bad credit. Some one did help me, allowed me to use a Cosigner.  I quit my job of 8 months because..well, I was being appreciated. Like I didn't exist. Though I was the only one besides the Shift Manager who did show up for shift. Everyone else came when they wanted to. The fire went out in my eyes for Food Service. Those fuckers..General Manager, she wasn't being upf...