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...be it County, City, and State...even Federal. No one FORCED you to work in this field you miserable FUCK !! This isn't going out to those who ENJOY doing what they do. Like the ones who pour your coffee, who slice your deli meats & cheeses, even those who just ring up & bag your groceries. They, we, me...well some of us really like doing it. We enjoy it so much that we are happy to see you and worry when we don't see you on your weekly shopping or picking up your coffee. No, this goes out to those.... ungreatful fucks who think its a burden to serve us. I went to the beach last week and was waiting for the bus to go home. A bus witch wasn't the one I had to catch pulled up. First, since there is a fenced off area for those waiting for the bus..well he pulled up to that and there were no place for the people exiting the bus to go. A lady said something, so he backed the bus up, it seemed like it was a problem for him doing this. After everyone got off, then he w...

...ya just can't have it. Nope, not even one little bit of it. Wanna know why? Cause it never ends...the wanting that it. Its always something else. You get that and this happens. So you take care that, and this happens. Shit never ends. I want a meaningful relationship, I really do. Something always comes up or in between. Its either she is so focus on..as she says it, making that money, stacking her stacks. Working long hours and wants me to cater to HER hours. No mutal agreement, its either this way or no way. Okay its no way cause you don't want to meet me half way. Then the insults come. Hell, you gave me a choice, let me make a decision, and I did. I'm not gonna stand in the way of you making yours. Or, the one who claims that they have their shit all together...but don't. Wants to keep living on that 'front'. They don't have a pot to piss in..as they say. ...and want to control how you see them, when and where. First of all you have little ones to t...

I don't claim that I entirely know how a woman or women think, nobody does. But I ask the women that I know and sleep with, what is it about me they like besides sex. And the answer is weak. My ex is the ONLY one who gave me the answer that I was looking for...for the matter, the only answer. She told me that even though she loves me and knows for a fact that I am sleeping with other women, that when I spend the weekend with her, I am there with her. She enjoys my company, my conversation and sex is only 2nd or 3rd what she loves about our time together. NICE !! These other woman that I see...its only a sexual relationship on my part. See, they want that extra paycheck that I bring along with our sexual romps. They don't like or love me for me, its what I can do for them. I admit, these womanmake more money than me, and my earnings are extra that they think they can spend. Another thing is...my ex doesn't have any children. Not saying that a woman with children is a prob...

I don't claim that I entirely know how a woman or women think, nobody does. But I ask the women that I know and sleep with, what is it about me they like besides sex. And the answer is weak. My ex is the ONLY one who gave me the answer that I was looking for...for the matter, the only answer. She told me that even though she loves me and knows for a fact that I am sleeping with other women, that when I spend the weekend with her, I am there with her. She enjoys my company, my conversation and sex is only 2nd or 3rd what she loves about our time together. NICE !! These other woman that I see...its only a sexual relationship on my part. See, they want that extra paycheck that I bring along with our sexual romps. They don't like or love me for me, its what I can do for them. I admit, these womanmake more money than me, and my earnings are extra that they think they can spend. Another thing is...my ex doesn't have any children. Not saying that a woman with children is a prob...

Friday, the first day of Summer. I read somewhere about a month ago that everyone should take that day off from work, it was 'National Take a Day Off From Work Day'. I swear, I read it somewhere, so the next day I asked The Chef could I have that day off and he gave it to me. I Googled it, but I couldn't find it anywhere on line. Thats what I get for always reading something at one time or another. I had a good day reguardless. I made plans with my ex girlfriend, well she made the plans. She wanted to see Man of Steel, but we were going to go and see it on Friday night. During the day, cause she also took the day off, we were going to the beach. But when we woke up Friday morning, it was chilly and we BOTH had 2nd thoughts about it being a beach weather day. Decided to catch the 12pm show instead. Didn't feel like a Friday cause when we went into the theater a total of 6 people were inside. We both fell asleep at the boring parts and was waken up with all the loud...

Why is it when Man gets use to do the same thing every day, and when things or and people throw a Monkey Wrench into our every day doings, we get all FUCKED UP !!! There is only one person that I change my plans for, and that is for my mother. Its not because presently I am living in her home, nope that's not it. It is for her, without her going thru with her pregancy of me, I wouldn't even be here. I know at times I wish or have wished that I have never been born, but that was when shit was hitting the fan. Now, I imagine myself not even being born, not often, but I do. I imagine not being able to see what all there is I have seen so far in my life. Like when times sometime get hard, I think to myself that I'm lucky to even be present to see these hard times. I admit, I have had some good times more than bad and times where I don't even know what to call it. Good, bad...border line, what the fuck, I'm living them. Some times...I can get stuck. Most times its all ...

100 pages in a book I started reading on my Kindle; mind you THE FIRST KINDLE, the screen went bad on me. My fault really. I stuck it inmy back pocket, got on the train AND SAT THE FUCK DOWN!!  I could shoot myself with an uzi if I had the balls. Now I'm forced to use my 10 inch Tablet. Wait, that last sentence sounded like a line from a bad porn movie, but that what I am force to do. No longer will I be different and have a device that's old school. Gonna go on Amazon and see if they have 2nd hand ones, I know they do. I have over 300 books I plan on reading and adding new ones everyday too. Book I was reading? The Kill Room by Jeffery Deaver. Its freakin' good too!!