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It started off with not being able to get the Sunday local newspaper like I wanted to. The lady behind the counter told me she don't know 2hy they stopped delivering the paper, they just did. So that was that. Then..against everything i stand for, I decided to go shopping JUST for food for that day. I wasn't hungry or anything but I wanted a meal, lunch and dinner that I could cook. See, I haven't been eating the food at the shelter because most of not all the food is donated. And do ared food is either expired or something that's meant to be thrown out and the end of the day. I've been to two of the main, well these two supermarkets, Food Lion and Krogers...to me they are and seem ghetto. Overpriced and from what I say some if not all off brand names that I haven't seen before. Besides, I don't trust a supermarket that doesn't have a fresh seafood department. I went to a supermarket that some.people told me that I was more accustomed to..' Martins...

I know right? This fucking guy, he post and then..WTF?!! I kept telling myself in the part that having sex with a woman who is nearly half my age isn't it wasn't good for me. I had my health to think about..so I thought. Kept telling myself that and young woman would have far too much energy and would probably put me in the hospital. Or, that I wouldn't live up to her or even my own expectations. Cough, cough BULLSHIT. FELLAS, get yourself a nice young woman who hasn't been out there and who has a decent head in her shoulders. Yeah, some mornings after may be rough in you/me..but it's worth those sore and aching bones. Some if the things that's been going on the past couple of days, maybe a week and a half. Work..my job. I Love it! It's fast paced, always something to do and it's different every single day. But what throws me off is..the different 'things' and what people go thru when they are not at work but bring that shit to the job. Work is s...

I remember lugging mines on the 4 or the 5 train to go to High School, High School of Art & Design. 59th Street train station... Walking past the McDonald's and seeing that 'Fab Five' grafitt ''Throw Up', small but powerful, it made a statement.

See... I never thought about her in that way until he mentioned it. Put that thought in my head, and I could see already that he was at the end of whatever he thought was the beginning. And it wasn't me who made the first move either. Like I said, there was a thought...but the move she made towards me...well, I couldn't back away from.  Don't believe that shit that men don't think and if they do think, they think with their other head. I thought..and I thought some more...and I asked her does she know what she's doing. The language on her, straight to the point. Told me what he wanted and expected of me. When I got back home, she started texting me, telling me her true feelings. I guess it's easier for her to express herself when not face to face with me. All that crap about women not asking for penis pics is just that, crap. Because she wanted 'some', but I couldn't send any, wasn't in the mood. Wants me over for dinner next week. Told her don...

I think my cell phone is alive and is listening in on me on the down low. Laugh if you want to, but some star he things have been happening and it affects my day starting early in the morning. I check Google News every morning around 5, 5:30. Well this morning...it said 'Somethings Not Working'. Okay, it wasn't my fault, not in my end. I didn't want to dig through my backpack and find my other phone that doesn't have a data plan AND my portable wifi hotspot...bullshit Google, you're suppose to BE working. I shouldn't have to do anything.

The other night one if the guys here left his phone in his 'cousin' car. He use my phone to call his girl who lives next door to tell her to come back with his phone. This guy last night told me that his cousin 1ho is a female is throwing her boyfriend out of the house, and she lives with her brother. I asked why and he told me he can't speak on it. I let it go. I'm sitting in my bed and my phone rings. I don't know the number so I don't answer. I get a text... It's from this guy here who used my phone, it's his girl. In the text he asked was her boyfriend around, texted back he's right here. I told the dude that his girl is texting me. He told me to block her because he did the same thing. Something isn't right, I don't block a damn thing. Her next text..was explosive. That he, slept with his cousin, she walked in in them and stood there for a couple of seconds watching. I don't relay to this dude what she text to me but he gets angry be...

When I first arrived here in Virginia a friend introduced me to this woman... This woman from what my friend told me, was and is his girlfriend. She told me that he was her side piece. I thought she was joking, but it was true. Weeks go by, he does something fucked up and she cuts him off. I see her every now and then and then one day she honks her car horn and tells me to get in. We talk as friends for a while and then she drops a bomb. She wants something with me. I tell her I have to think about it. We continue every now and then to chat face to face, but text more and more. Yesterday we go to this park, we gwt out and walk around, then we sit in these benches and she tells me details of  what she wants with me. I told her okay I'm in. It's been three weeks and still THAT hasn't happen. I think she Friend Zone me. No biggie, she fun to be around.