some things. Valentine's Day for one. I have one person who I gave, give
my heart to, she's an ex girlfriend. I don't care what goes on in my
life, she has my heart. Try to understand what I mean about this.
Take a person who knows nothing of the world, city, other than what she
reads in the newspaper. This same woman, has never has had a boyfriend
before. Never until she met me. Yes, she was a virgin. We grew up
together so to speak. I met her in 1995 I think. We know each other
inside out.
We both know that a card or a gift could never represent the friendship
that we have, so there is no use in even trying to buy one for one
another. A simple phone call is all that is needed. We both live our
lives, but at least one, twice a week, we hear each others voices. If
not a phone call, I try at least once a week to go and see her, but
haven't in about 2 months. Emails fly back and forth between both of us
each and EVERY DAY.
She decided to cut her hair, emailed me a picture hoping that I would
like it. I did, but I want it even shorter. She said she will think
about it next yearabout this time. She told me she loved the way that I
love, loved her, it feels good, and she has, had something to look
forward to when she wakes up in the morning. Misses me so much, she is
willing to come to me on friday after work and stay to sunday mid day,
even though I work on weekends. But we are not a couple.
She wants more than just a boyfriend, she wants a husband, a mate for
life and I'm the one. I told her I'm not ready for marriage and never
will be, she says its okay that I don't want her, but I do. I'm selfish,
I just have to look out for myself only, I'm use to doing just that.
Another person might be stressful, and I might just 'disappear', you
know how men do. But I don't want to hurt her.
Soon, I'm getting a 2 bedroom basement apartment, cheap 600 a month
brand new. She will get a key, to come and go as she pleases. She
already has the key to my heart.
--michaelchappell
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