Sometimes..I wonder why....

First off, I don't understand some things at some times. So, what I dot
understand, I question.I can't help that the answers a person or persons
gives me causes me to answer more and more questions. This happens when
it comes to religion.

Yesterday at work I was telling one of the guys in the meat department
what I heard on the radio. That the end of times is near. Earthquakes, 3
wars, nuclear reactors melting down and floods. What's left is that
aliens invade the earth. Then I receive a text that another earthquake,
registering 7.0 happened somewhere in the world. We both laughed. A
customer, who was shopping pulled out a religious tract, she is a
Jehovah Witness, so her and I got into a conversation. I told er to come
over to the deli department cause I have to go back, which she did. We
talked some more.

Somewhere along the way she said she wanted to talk to me more about
what I had questions on. And if I wasn't doing anything after work she
could meet me, I said ok. She then said well you can just come to my
house, she lived very close by. I went over after work to her house. The
convo went to marriage and divorce, she wasn't married or divorce, no
children either. She asked me too about a wife, girlfriend kids, I said
no to all. Then things got personal. So, I just came out and asked her
did she want to have sex. I was expecting to be told I could leave now.
All the while I was thinking, you know where I work at, you entered a
conversation I was having, you came and talked to me and then invited me
to your home, questioned me about my personal life.... she's
attractive.

She tells me she doesn't do things or have done anything like this
before, but.... afterwards, she empty her heart to me. I was surprised
to hear just what she had to say. She's lonely, very lonely. She has her
religion I tell her, but she says she wanted more than that. I know how
she feels.

Why is it when it comes to religion, that people don't be themselves?
How come people who attend church, but not all, act like they are better
than the ones who don't? Like they have an inside word with God. To me,
I think God wants us to be ourselves, but for that one day, keep it
Holy. See, I think its like this, and I'm gonna use myself as an
example. Say when I was young, my parents 'made' me go to church. So
when I got to the legal age of being on my own, I stopped going, but as
I got older, 20 years later, I return to the church, start attending.
But I know just what the world is like out there without God in my
life, and that what I over looked for 30 years. So I went back to the
church. I know the difference between righthand wrong, what I have been
missing and what the world is really like. Try to incorporate what I
know from the past and what I'm learning from now being in the church, I
try to be righteous cause I know what I've been doing wrong before. To
me, I think that I had and have worked out a balance, but some people
never find that balance.

Now this woman, I think she has finally found her balance. I think that
although she has found God, there was something else missing in her
life. I'm not all that holy, I'm far from that. But I true, honest to
myself first then others. I'm gonna be me no matter or who I'm in front
of. I think I'm being what God wants me to be...myself. Last night,
before I went to bed, she text me good night, she wrote this...

Good nite Lover.
--michaelchappell