Me as a man, I try to live up to my word. If I say I'm going to do something, I try my best to keep my word. Sometimes my plans change, and I have to change sometimes with a quickness. I's not because I'm being selfish, it's because I just don't feel comfortable doing what I originally had plan. Does that make any sense? We as human beings, we can do that.
Then, sometimes as human beings, we put ourselves in situations when we know we are going to hurt our self and worse, others. I know of a situation like that.
Sje is a beautiful young woman, 22 years old. But her eyes are that of a woman that has seen a lot in her young life. Why is it that I always run across women with these problems. She meets a guy, a coworker, and she knows he is involved with some one who isn't in this country. Fast forward a year and a half, she open his email and reads it. He is leaving in December to go marry this woman, but he hasn't told her this. He told her that he is going back to his country. Oh yeah, he is 35 years old, but age has nothing to do with it.
Knowing what she knows, she feels like she has been used, and that he isn't being honest with her. But he has, he told her there was someone else, e just didn't tell her that he is going to marry this woman. To amke matters wore they are living together and here is where is gets shaky. The soon to be sister in law use to have the apartment that they are living in, she moved to Chicago, but she is coming in December to see him off. She had the apartment and because he is see her sister, rented, sub leased it to him. She is coming December to see him off for 4 days. He told her that she has to give up the bedroom cause by law its still her apartment and that she shouldn't have to sleep on the couch cause all the furniture is her by right. Blah, blah, blah. Here's what I told her.
Pack your clothes up and moved back to your mother's house by the 15th of November, and break off all ties, connection with this guy. I know it will hurt but just do it. He is being an asshole on not telling you the truth and he knows how you feel about him. It's not that he doesn't care, he is focus on starting his new life with this other woman and you knew about this from the beginning. He figured that you were cool with it, but you aren't and you're afraid to tell him. So I say, get out before he leaves.
I admit, as a man, us men can be stupid non caring assholes at times. People are like that no matter what.
Monday, October 31, 2011
Saturday, October 29, 2011
It' Getting Colder
I can deal with almost anything nowadays, but what I have a real problem with is cold weather. Always have ad always will. As the weather turns colder and colder, I learnto deal with it, but first signs of it, drives me over the edge. What makes matters worse now, it's now I have to work outdoors.
Oh, I'm preparing myself for it, buying cold weather clothing, but I'm still gonna be cold. I deal with this as best as I can. Layering up, not too much that I sweat, lookig into the latest in technology in keeping and staying warm. There is a big differece. Keeping warm is when you go from warm to cold and back to warm. Staying warm, warm to cold abd staying in the cold for hours at a time. Enough of thinking of being cold.
Me as a man, I always try and do the right thing for myself. I think of others too, but I come first. I want to be happy, do things and see people that make me happy. If I plan to do something for the future, I like to keep to those plans, unless something comes up better, least expensive...I change them. I can understand that we all like to do things our own way, I really do. But I'm not changing my plans cause you as a female think I should cause my plans don't nesh with yours. I don't do the 'standing in front of your building talking with you', or, ' let's get a hotel room'. Not when we both have places of our own. I don't understand how some people who have a lot for themselves going on, can a stoop to the level of.... being so Ghetto. That's what I call it, sorry. And, not some expensive hotel either, a place where all kinds of shit goes on it. I'm not cheap, thrifty, yes. Wanna do the hotel thing, at least let's travel out of state.
That's the reason why I went into another direction for my one day off. I went and saw my ex, haven't seen her in about a month. She is always happy to see me. We watch Parsnormal Activity 3 and Real Steal. I fell asleep on Real Steal, but. What I saw. Was really good.
News Flash..... I'm interested in this other young lady. She seems interested too. Its more of, ' I'm going to have an extra bedroom in about 2 months, wanna move in' type thing. I will see.
Metro North, White Plains to Grand Central, Grand Central Shuttle to Times Square, then work for 8 to 9 hours. I Love New York City !!!
MichaelChappelli
Friday, October 28, 2011
I'm Not Set in My Ways, But....
Honestly, I like, no I love women. All colors, shapes...whatever. When I meet one, and she catches my eye...It's not like I have to go up and say something to her, most of the time I don't. But there are times when a conversation is much needed. A time when and if this woman caught my eye, I have to find out more about her, I need more info. I admit, once the conversation starts, I don't know where its headed or when it will stop. That could and is a bad thing at times. I'm intrested in people, interested in life cause life is way too short.
I can't help that she is 22 years old, I had nothing to do with that. What I can and do have control over is what I care to share with her. What answers I give to her questions when she ask. She does ask plenty of questions too. Ones like...'when does a guy gets tired of making love to his woman', I told her, me, never. What my issue is that I can't get enough of the woman that I am dealing with and that's when I start distancing myself from her. I can't help that, cause if I don't get what I want, I tend to pull away.
So we are standing close to each other, and she is sending me pictures of herself every so often. I look at my phone and see its from her, and I ask her what she is doing.. " I have pictures of myself in different moods that I have taken with my digital camera, and your conversation is making me want to share them with you.' 7 pictures she sent me, all very pretty, shows her style. It's late, was suppose to be home from work 5 hours ago, but yesterday cause of the weather, was a very long day. So we say our goodbyes. I ask where she is headed? To the gym to work out. I walk to the train station, and I receive one last picture from her, it's of her in her work out uniform, along with a note. "Something to disturb your sleep by"
When I exit the train station at my final destination, there is a voice mail from her. She wanted to ask me back to her place, but she didn't know how to ask me, so I call her. I tell her just ask me next time. So, she ask over the phone, she lives in Brooklyn, I'm in The Bronx, and its 10:30pm. Tell her on Monday when I see her again. As I type this I received 3 text and 2 emails from her already, haven't open them, won't read them to Monday.
Now, as for my other friend(s). 'W' says she thinks that I'm seeing some one else. I ask her, oh, you're not dating any one else besides me. She says, 'no, I'm only fucking you'. See, thats the problem. I don't know whats up with the way dating, hooking up or whatever you want to call in today, I don't know what direction t's heading into. I mean, if you know what you want, why can't you say it and never settle for less. If a woman wants a man to take care of her, so that she doesn't have to work, she should just come right out and say it, This way it gives the man a decision if he wants to be in something like that. But that doesn't happen. A woman isn't just going to come out and say something like that. And, if she does, she doesn't even know how to word it nor say it properly without sounding dumb. And guys, don't think you don't have a say so in it either. Most of us if a woman just came out and said something like that to you, you just would get quiet and not say anything or you might say something stupid, and when you do either, she has you open. It's a game, and we need to stop playing games.
Ladies, if you see this guy every morning on your way to work, dressed nice smelling good, approach him, ask him what his status is. Guys, you see that woman every morning, ask her had she had her coffee/tea yet. Go out of your way, walk her to the front door of her job and the go about your business. Next day, be waiting there for her with breakfast, something small but nutritious.
Me I will tell you I'm interested in you from the beginning, I have no ties to anything or anyone but myself. I can come and go as 'I' choose, I do what 'I' want to do.
I can't help that she is 22 years old, I had nothing to do with that. What I can and do have control over is what I care to share with her. What answers I give to her questions when she ask. She does ask plenty of questions too. Ones like...'when does a guy gets tired of making love to his woman', I told her, me, never. What my issue is that I can't get enough of the woman that I am dealing with and that's when I start distancing myself from her. I can't help that, cause if I don't get what I want, I tend to pull away.
So we are standing close to each other, and she is sending me pictures of herself every so often. I look at my phone and see its from her, and I ask her what she is doing.. " I have pictures of myself in different moods that I have taken with my digital camera, and your conversation is making me want to share them with you.' 7 pictures she sent me, all very pretty, shows her style. It's late, was suppose to be home from work 5 hours ago, but yesterday cause of the weather, was a very long day. So we say our goodbyes. I ask where she is headed? To the gym to work out. I walk to the train station, and I receive one last picture from her, it's of her in her work out uniform, along with a note. "Something to disturb your sleep by"
When I exit the train station at my final destination, there is a voice mail from her. She wanted to ask me back to her place, but she didn't know how to ask me, so I call her. I tell her just ask me next time. So, she ask over the phone, she lives in Brooklyn, I'm in The Bronx, and its 10:30pm. Tell her on Monday when I see her again. As I type this I received 3 text and 2 emails from her already, haven't open them, won't read them to Monday.
Now, as for my other friend(s). 'W' says she thinks that I'm seeing some one else. I ask her, oh, you're not dating any one else besides me. She says, 'no, I'm only fucking you'. See, thats the problem. I don't know whats up with the way dating, hooking up or whatever you want to call in today, I don't know what direction t's heading into. I mean, if you know what you want, why can't you say it and never settle for less. If a woman wants a man to take care of her, so that she doesn't have to work, she should just come right out and say it, This way it gives the man a decision if he wants to be in something like that. But that doesn't happen. A woman isn't just going to come out and say something like that. And, if she does, she doesn't even know how to word it nor say it properly without sounding dumb. And guys, don't think you don't have a say so in it either. Most of us if a woman just came out and said something like that to you, you just would get quiet and not say anything or you might say something stupid, and when you do either, she has you open. It's a game, and we need to stop playing games.
Ladies, if you see this guy every morning on your way to work, dressed nice smelling good, approach him, ask him what his status is. Guys, you see that woman every morning, ask her had she had her coffee/tea yet. Go out of your way, walk her to the front door of her job and the go about your business. Next day, be waiting there for her with breakfast, something small but nutritious.
Me I will tell you I'm interested in you from the beginning, I have no ties to anything or anyone but myself. I can come and go as 'I' choose, I do what 'I' want to do.
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
I Rather Stick To What I Know...
Listen, I am not the beautifulest rose in the dozen. I would consider myself that rose, whose stem is short, but its petals are still together, stills smells as sweet and look as pretty. I'm like a second hand car, it takes you from point A to point B, and it doesn't cost as much to own. You feel where I'm coming from? There is a point to all of this. That is if you care to know what I'm about.
I am a person who choose life, not life choosing me. I make my destiny. Sometimes things don't work out as I plan, but that's how life is sometimes. I have the ability to adjust to such changes and make it seem like it was something that I have planned. I don't like to slam doors, I will help them close quietly as to not to disturb others, But then again, sometimes you have to let doors slam, and move on.
When you meet me for the first time, you may no like what you see, I don't know, but then maybe you will. The impression you may get is of a person who is way out there, not firm grounding, oh, but there is. To look inside of my head at any given time of the day...lets say you will have a field day, wanting to ask questions of me. You will want to be around me all the time, constantly in my presence, go to sleep laying next to me, wake up when I wake up every morning at 3:30 just to be there to see my day start.
I can change your whole out look of life as you see it. You will want to do things that only you have dreamed of, have seen on TV, have heard others say and talk about, and even have read in books and magazines. We all can do what we want to do when we want to do it, but its all about planning. I say all of this cause that's who I am.
So, if you see me on the street, walk up to me and start a conversation about anything you want, anything that is on your mind. ...and we will take it from there.
I am a person who choose life, not life choosing me. I make my destiny. Sometimes things don't work out as I plan, but that's how life is sometimes. I have the ability to adjust to such changes and make it seem like it was something that I have planned. I don't like to slam doors, I will help them close quietly as to not to disturb others, But then again, sometimes you have to let doors slam, and move on.
When you meet me for the first time, you may no like what you see, I don't know, but then maybe you will. The impression you may get is of a person who is way out there, not firm grounding, oh, but there is. To look inside of my head at any given time of the day...lets say you will have a field day, wanting to ask questions of me. You will want to be around me all the time, constantly in my presence, go to sleep laying next to me, wake up when I wake up every morning at 3:30 just to be there to see my day start.
I can change your whole out look of life as you see it. You will want to do things that only you have dreamed of, have seen on TV, have heard others say and talk about, and even have read in books and magazines. We all can do what we want to do when we want to do it, but its all about planning. I say all of this cause that's who I am.
So, if you see me on the street, walk up to me and start a conversation about anything you want, anything that is on your mind. ...and we will take it from there.
Monday, October 24, 2011
So Why Do You Say You Want To Know The Truth
I have gave up on the dating game, I mean I did a long time ago. I'm just stating the fact now. Dating is a waste of time...and money, but nowadays it means a whole completely different thing.
For a woman to say that she is dating, it means to me that she is saying she is shopping around for a guy to be her man. There are a number of guys that I am dating/seeing, nothing permanent right now, but who knows. For guys, and I don't think guys ever use this term...guys, it a who completely different term. Wait, guys do you that term, only if they are an actor and they are in a movie or on a TV show.
Me, I'm not doing anything, but I do as much as I can, no what I mean. Right now there are 2 woman in my life who doesn't and on't know about each other. I can hear it now, 'you're nothing but a dog', no I'm not, and here is why.
Even though I am sleeping with 2, they both know from me, that I am who I say I am. They both want to spend a lot of time with me and around me, and I don't tell one that I can't come around because I'm with some one else, no its not like that. I try to spend as much time with myself, doing things for myself as much as I can, but... With working 8 to 12 hours a day, sleeping for at least 7 to 8 hrs a night, doesn't leave me much time for anything else. On my feet for 12 hours a day, its wear and tear on the body. And besides, my job consists of me now acting with the public. Oh, if you were and wanted to meet me, you would have to do so while I'm working. In fact, thats what I am going to do for now on.
A female coworker of mine has my eye, she's young looks good and really has her act together. Its just that I have to wait a couple of months to see what she is going to do about a certain situation. She knows somewhat, the real important parts about me, and to me she is a great person from what I can see. She has let me borrowed her Ipad, which I was suppose to return yesterday, but she worked the other location.
Gotta go
For a woman to say that she is dating, it means to me that she is saying she is shopping around for a guy to be her man. There are a number of guys that I am dating/seeing, nothing permanent right now, but who knows. For guys, and I don't think guys ever use this term...guys, it a who completely different term. Wait, guys do you that term, only if they are an actor and they are in a movie or on a TV show.
Me, I'm not doing anything, but I do as much as I can, no what I mean. Right now there are 2 woman in my life who doesn't and on't know about each other. I can hear it now, 'you're nothing but a dog', no I'm not, and here is why.
Even though I am sleeping with 2, they both know from me, that I am who I say I am. They both want to spend a lot of time with me and around me, and I don't tell one that I can't come around because I'm with some one else, no its not like that. I try to spend as much time with myself, doing things for myself as much as I can, but... With working 8 to 12 hours a day, sleeping for at least 7 to 8 hrs a night, doesn't leave me much time for anything else. On my feet for 12 hours a day, its wear and tear on the body. And besides, my job consists of me now acting with the public. Oh, if you were and wanted to meet me, you would have to do so while I'm working. In fact, thats what I am going to do for now on.
A female coworker of mine has my eye, she's young looks good and really has her act together. Its just that I have to wait a couple of months to see what she is going to do about a certain situation. She knows somewhat, the real important parts about me, and to me she is a great person from what I can see. She has let me borrowed her Ipad, which I was suppose to return yesterday, but she worked the other location.
Gotta go
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Friday, October 21, 2011
I have a Samsung Intercept Smart phone. I wonder why they call it a smart phone, but... This phone. you can't buy in the stores any more. I went online, read reviews about it and saw that it will do what I need for it to do. Total cost for the phone, $99. I got the unlimited plan, Data, Talk and messaging. Total for all of this $60 a month. One thing the phone didn't come with a manual, so I downloaded one. Its 156 pages long, like where am I going to get that much ink and paper from...maybe the library.
The slide up keyboard is smaller than what I am use to like on the Sidekick. It reminds me when I try to key in an A, but it a S that comes up. The Samsung keyboard is wider. What I really like about it its powered by Andriod, Google. So all my email contacts were imported when I signed into Gmail account...cooler than a fuck.
It came with an electric plug to charge up, but no usb connection for a laptop. I guess I have to but one, no biggie. I'm learning more and more about this phone as I go along.
The slide up keyboard is smaller than what I am use to like on the Sidekick. It reminds me when I try to key in an A, but it a S that comes up. The Samsung keyboard is wider. What I really like about it its powered by Andriod, Google. So all my email contacts were imported when I signed into Gmail account...cooler than a fuck.
It came with an electric plug to charge up, but no usb connection for a laptop. I guess I have to but one, no biggie. I'm learning more and more about this phone as I go along.
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Actually, It's a Smartphone
Bought a new phone, Samsung Intercept. Have to get use to the keyboard, not like the Sidekick. Its okay, a lot of bells and whistles.
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
A number of things has happened that has called for me to think about some things differently. One, and th main one is that my mother who is 77 years old was diagnosed with Stage One Cancer. She lives alone, and is on oxygen constantly, walks around with a long line attached to her machine, and she has to carry a portable tank with her when she leaves the house. Since I have no girlfriend, nor children and I pay 600 a month for a room, I've decided along with her permission to move in with her. I sleep on the living room couch. I pay her for my stay here, but it isn't as much as I was paying for my room. I will be here for the winter months until it starts getting warmer. I do her clothes, the food shopping and anything she needs me to do on my day off and when I get off from work. Come the Spring, I will look for a room closer to her,
Something dofferent. I was told by the 21 year old pretty Mexican young lady that she has a prblem. She is living with her ex BF who is about to break things off with her in December, moving back to Spain. She hacked his email account and found out that her is getting married, already engaged now. he doesn't think she knows. They use to be a couple living together as one, but now they are room mates with benefits. She told me that she loves him very much. I told her to stop sleeping with him cause as the day gets closer and closer to him leaving , you're going to get madder and madder cause you know why and what he is leaving for. Its not going to be good, police might get involved, plus your older brothers too.
what she is also concerned about is that when he leaves, where is she going to find a room mate to cover half the rent which is 600 dollars. She can place an ad on Craigslist and have them come to her job and interview them on her break. Get a woman, or a decent working guy with a girlfriend. I told her I would take the place, but I'm at mom's for the Winter, plus she lives in Brooklyn, a Spanish neighborhood, I have no problem with that at all. If anything, I told her to ask her parents to cover half of the rent until she finds a roommate, better yet, let them do the interviewing, with her being the second and final interview for approval.
Things are getting rougher out there, bit with this Occupy of Wall Street, now is an opportunity for some to get their acts together. Most people thing and see what those folks are doing is a waste of time. This was coming, and now is a good time as any to start. Some may also think that this will eventually just all go away, it won't. People, company's are supplying goods and services for those who are willing to sacrifice their freedom on making a point for those who feel the same way, but who aren't up to the task of participating in the movement. This started in NYC, and is spreading soon worldwide.
I know longer have to be at work at 6:30am which to me was no problem. Manager wants me there at 7:30am now and I don't have to make sandwiches for the other location. They placed an electric slicer at the second local, so they will have to make their on sandwiches. I think I;m going to be at that location some times during these winter months...its an outdoor tent.
Monday, October 17, 2011
New Job, New Adventures
* I ordered a new phone, coming by mail, just one more day and it will be here. But til then, I have to actually sit at my lappie to make entries, oh well.
New job, new adventures. And, it seems that I am meeting the right people...females that is. Not dating them or anything, just friends for now, but they know whats on my mind. I'm not the one to bit or hold my tongue. I will tell you, if you're a female and of age, whats on my mind. So far it looks like I will have a nice winter. They know what they want and what they are looking for. mainly its a man that's going to be honest. I don't know what guys can't be honest and have to lie about themselves and the relationship status they are in. All the ladies what is the truth.
One wants me to take that 7 hour train ride. Another one who has a BF who is about to get married to another woman, wants me to help her forget about him. Still another wants some one, a man who is going to be there for her as in she doesn't want to spend most of the week nights alone. All, a beautiful woman inside and out. I told them I'm not married nor do I have kids, so whats up. I'm not into playing games, so be straight up with me and tell me what you want and we can go from there.
New job, new adventures. And, it seems that I am meeting the right people...females that is. Not dating them or anything, just friends for now, but they know whats on my mind. I'm not the one to bit or hold my tongue. I will tell you, if you're a female and of age, whats on my mind. So far it looks like I will have a nice winter. They know what they want and what they are looking for. mainly its a man that's going to be honest. I don't know what guys can't be honest and have to lie about themselves and the relationship status they are in. All the ladies what is the truth.
One wants me to take that 7 hour train ride. Another one who has a BF who is about to get married to another woman, wants me to help her forget about him. Still another wants some one, a man who is going to be there for her as in she doesn't want to spend most of the week nights alone. All, a beautiful woman inside and out. I told them I'm not married nor do I have kids, so whats up. I'm not into playing games, so be straight up with me and tell me what you want and we can go from there.
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Thursday, October 12...2:53am
....thats my wake up an get at 'em time now. New job, new location and new time to wake up. Things have got worse for me, but there was a shining light at the end of the tunnel...family is everything !!
Since I was... I wasn't fired in April, I resigned, and this is my fourth job since then. Times are hard in my line of work, owners aren't making the money they are use to making, so I get cut loose and have to move on. This present job is off of Canal street, hence my early wake up time. From what the manager is telling me, I'm a great relief to him, now he is able to have a day off...this is coming after working for a while with out a day off. So far, and it hasn't been a week yet, things look good.
I have to get a cell phone with a decent plan that has everything, I've been out of the loop for a while. Gonna stop by the Sprint store after work, also... Since the weather i changing, already ordered my winter gear from LL Bean, coat, gloves, sweaters, boots and hat. Next week, gonna order my winter clothes and such.
As for the women in my life, there is still my ex, but she has to understand now. I only get one day off from work, Fridays, the day she has to work. And, my work days time starts at 6:30 am. There is no way I can be where she lives at and at work at 6:30am, but we will work something out. Another woman that I am seeing, she wants me as her 'husband', but I don't know about that. I told her what my living arrangements are now for the winter months, hope she understands. With her, she isn't the aggressive type like I am. And at times I hold back from her cause I know how she is. She told me how she is too. I spent a whole weekend with her and I had to tell her that sleeping in a bed with her makes me want to pounce on her, she says just do it then. Her body language says another thing though. Like some but now all women, she is a shame of her body, her stomach. No matter what I say, she covers it up. She admits its from the beer she drinks everyday, at least 2 22oz bottles. But I love her for who she is, not what she looks like.
I have to be careful of what I say, and how I think, it comes true sooner or later.
Since I was... I wasn't fired in April, I resigned, and this is my fourth job since then. Times are hard in my line of work, owners aren't making the money they are use to making, so I get cut loose and have to move on. This present job is off of Canal street, hence my early wake up time. From what the manager is telling me, I'm a great relief to him, now he is able to have a day off...this is coming after working for a while with out a day off. So far, and it hasn't been a week yet, things look good.
I have to get a cell phone with a decent plan that has everything, I've been out of the loop for a while. Gonna stop by the Sprint store after work, also... Since the weather i changing, already ordered my winter gear from LL Bean, coat, gloves, sweaters, boots and hat. Next week, gonna order my winter clothes and such.
As for the women in my life, there is still my ex, but she has to understand now. I only get one day off from work, Fridays, the day she has to work. And, my work days time starts at 6:30 am. There is no way I can be where she lives at and at work at 6:30am, but we will work something out. Another woman that I am seeing, she wants me as her 'husband', but I don't know about that. I told her what my living arrangements are now for the winter months, hope she understands. With her, she isn't the aggressive type like I am. And at times I hold back from her cause I know how she is. She told me how she is too. I spent a whole weekend with her and I had to tell her that sleeping in a bed with her makes me want to pounce on her, she says just do it then. Her body language says another thing though. Like some but now all women, she is a shame of her body, her stomach. No matter what I say, she covers it up. She admits its from the beer she drinks everyday, at least 2 22oz bottles. But I love her for who she is, not what she looks like.
I have to be careful of what I say, and how I think, it comes true sooner or later.
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