Thursday, October 12...2:53am

....thats my wake up an get at 'em time now. New job, new location and new time to wake up. Things have got worse for me, but there was a shining light at the end of the tunnel...family is everything !!

Since I was... I wasn't fired in April, I resigned, and this is my fourth job since then. Times are hard in my line of work, owners aren't making the money they are use to making, so I get cut loose and have to move on. This present job is off of Canal street, hence my early wake up time. From what the manager is telling me, I'm a great relief to him, now he is able to have a day off...this is coming after working for a while with out a day off. So far, and it hasn't been a week yet, things look good.

I have to get a cell phone with a decent plan that has everything, I've been out of the loop for a while. Gonna stop by the Sprint store after work, also... Since the weather i changing, already ordered my winter gear from LL Bean, coat, gloves, sweaters, boots and hat. Next week, gonna order my winter clothes and such.

As for the women in my life, there is still my ex, but she has to understand now. I only get one day off from work, Fridays, the day she has to work. And, my work days time starts at 6:30 am. There is no way I can be where she lives at and at work at 6:30am, but we will work something out. Another woman that I am seeing, she wants me as her 'husband', but I don't know about that. I told her what my living arrangements are now for the winter months, hope she understands. With her, she isn't the aggressive type like I am. And at times I hold back from her cause I know how she is. She told me how she is too. I spent a whole weekend with her and I had to tell her that sleeping in a bed with her makes me want to pounce on her, she says just do it then. Her body language says another thing though. Like some but now all women, she is a shame of her body, her stomach. No matter what I say, she covers it up. She admits its from the beer she drinks everyday, at least 2 22oz bottles. But I love her for who she is, not what she looks like.

I have to be careful of what I say, and how I think, it comes true sooner or later.