Sometimes..I Even Questioned Myself

...yep I do. Sometimes I think maybe its just me, and am I thinking wrong about situations. Maybe my opinions; the way I see things, view them, maybe I've been wrong all along. Then again, Hey I'm entitled to my own say so.

I don't drink, well only on New Years Eve and 1 glass of wine on my birthday. But I use to when I was younger. As I grew older, I didn't like the way drinking made me feel the next morning... hell, the next afternoon, so I gave it up. All to say, you won't find me going into a bar to drink. Oh I would, but I'm spending about 15 minutes, or there to meet some on. Most of the time I would call and tell them that I am standing outside. I don't understand that whole scene though. Go into a place where drinks are way overpriced, standing so close to one another...and the smell along with the noise. I know people don't only go to bars and pubs just to drink, they go to socialize, meet new people. My say so. There is nothing like throwing back a couple to get up enough nerve to ask that pretty drunk woman out on a date. Don't tell me that you would and never go to bars to pick up guys or girls, everyone does it, even me at one time. Not any more.

So I move on and try to find a 'soulmate'...my ass. No, I do want to meet some one that is just right for me, and me for her, but its a process. These online social networking sites, these women... Okay, what they want is..'yeah we can go out, you can take me someplace nice to eat'. Thats all they are thinking of is a meal, a date out eating. Listen if we are going to get together, a meal comes along with the date. After we do what we do out in public, lets see how we are in a close intimate setting. See, if we both can hold a conversation. But no, you want to full up your stomach.

I was told this by one woman, and I explained this to her. You know what she said, and I quote. ' I don't hand out personal information, I let no one cook in my kitchen more or less in my house. You don't need to know where I live, what I do for a living. And, you work hours are crazy, when do you find the time to go out at night ?'.  Oh, but I can take out to eat. She is looking for a serious relationship mind you, but you have to 'earn the right' to know anything about her. So when I told her that I was going out on other dates with other women, she then says she doesn't want to be part of a 'line up' I say one thing to myself...selfish bitch.

Online dating is okay, you click on the person you first see 'looks good', you them email them. from there is gets tricky. Most people keep it very vanilla, I like this, I like that, not me. I write about what attracted me to them in more or less words. Keeping it clean, it one sitting, can exchange 10 to 20 emails. Okay another thing is when you as a female have 300 to 1500 'friends'.  You don't meet that many people as friends in your whole lifetime. ..and tell me you are in touch with them on a constant..no wait... a semi constant level. Its not even semi.

It's Complicated'..what that means is that I'm tired of this man, but he pays the bills and he cheats on me too, and I cheat on him, but you have to have your shit together, meaning a car, and you have to have a place where we can get together, and I'm not talking about some cheap motel, and you have to love my children, who have different fathers and pay my cell phone bill. EXCUSE ME ? Or the ones that put down that they are married and what a serious relationship. Or, they have no intention of EVER meeting you in person, nothing personal though. ts that what they perceive online they really aren't in real life face to face.

I gotta say this though. White women in general could care less than a fuck about your income, long as you as a man HAVE a job, look good, they will attached themselves to you and let you be you. They will ask no questions because they know as White Women they are making way more money than you and they want so excitement in their lives. They have no problem with staying home, enjoying a evening with you just being themselves. They know how to keep you separate from the work. Its not like they are hiding you, but its like they found a secret and its you and for as long as its gonna last we are going to make a best of it. You see a Black Man walking with a White Woman or the oppiste, you know its a special relationship.

I'm searching for that Special Someone, and then again I'm not.

Happy Turkey Day !!

Lately, I have been thinking about a lot of things. And, they have been weighing heavly on my mind too. Nothing that I can't handle, but I just question things and people. Like...

I hope you aren't the type of person who likes having control over others. You know what I mean right? The type of power that can break a person soul. It can drive them over the edge and sometimes that person might not be able to recover. I dislike people who are like that. I work in the Food Service Industry and I see a lot of that going on. I try, and I try very hard to keep my mouth shut and stay out of it. But I can't.

..if you trade phone numbers with the opposite sex, it doesn't mean that they want to just dig your back out. But you have to admit something and this is the basic knowledge of things. There was something about that person that you felt that you wanted further contact with even if it's only just to be friends. Don't get me started on that 'friends' bit either. I'm saying this... Answer back, or even text back and not with a one word answer either cause you exchanging your number with that person...there were more than one worded exchanged that happened. I use to work for her, she was my manager. She got laid off, and I continued on. I eventually left too cause how could you fire the person that hired me. She called me for a position that she was presently at. This place hired, laid me off, hired, laid me off, hired, laid me off, hired and laid me off for the last time. She was cut loose before me PERIOD !!. So, I text her for a reference, straight to voice mail. I text her, no answer. Went to fer Facebook page, contacted her thru there and she answered in less than 5 minutes. I text her back telling her what I would like for her to do, she said okay. Now this woman is young & VERY attractive, she is Mexican and she KNOWS I had a thing for her. She text me & called me at 1am in the morning, but my phone is always on vibrate...to me it was a booty call. Text her back and she returned with, 'you blew it, I wanted you right then and there'. Oh well.

Four More Years ?

.So, The President has made it for another 4 years. It wasn't because of my vote...cause I didn't vote. I had and still have my reasons.

Here's to all the people present & future, who will have something to say when they ask me and I tell them I didn't cast a ballot.

I gave all my votes for ALL the up coming elections back in 1977 at the age of 17 years old. May 31st, 1977 to be excat. That was the day, month and year I joined the Army. While all those males qnd females of my age bracket were either planning on their 1st year in college or in the work force... I served my Country. Matter of fact, dropped out of High School to go and serve.

Two years after the war in Vietnam ended, I enlisted. People say that the War was over, but no, it was just beginning. People forget about The Cold War, the one that damned nearvhappened over in Europe. The one where men & women of my age were being sent as a duty station...West Germany. But I'm not goning to get into that, nope. Something different.

I know some what; more than others how this country is runned. All the people who make up our Government..who are 'suppose to be', for the people, aren't really for the people, but for themselves. That's understandable, its everyhman for himself nowadays. But this people, our local Government officials, Congressman are milking us dry. While the average person, the 99% are starving, they are just raking in the bennies as we say in the military. And, don't get me start on Lobbiest. They are the true ones who are raking it up.

I didn't vote really cause I didn't want to. Don't tell me either..'well don't complain when...' I damn will complain whenever I feel like it, its one of my rights too, to voice my opinion. I know the President doeant run the Country, he just signs the checks. If shit hits the fan, its him who takes all the blame. But if he can, he will focus it on to some one else. His job is a hard one, and you don't hear kids growing up wanting to be President any more either.

Like I said be President, Head Motherfucker In Charge, has its perks AFTER you leave office. Ask Bill Clinton. Have you ever wonder what happens to all that donated money, the money given to his re election campain? Oh, its his. His to bank and cfreate intrest on, his to do whatever he chooses fit to do. Remember this..it takes money to make money.

All in all I'm not hating on our President. In fact I'm glad for him. He is history in the making. Something and someone for the history books...until our next President. Michelle Obama in 2024 !!