I've Notice....

...some people and including myself at times, we/I don't know what I want. I am getting tired of feeling this way, but its my fault. What I've been doing lately is giving people what they want, saying what they want to hear. No more.

At times I hold back from what I want to say when some one questions me, or wants my opinion. In a matter of seconds I can sized that person up and come to a decision that they aren't ready for what I have ro say. So I sugar coat it. Vinalla with sugar on it. But not any more.

One woman has been looking at me strangely for a couple of days now. I figured out plus I asked her. 10 years ago she forged something, and now its coming back at her. She feels I had something to do with it. I told her what I felt cause what she did made me angry. Told her... back when you were hired, they figured they couldn't find anyone who would want to do the job you hold. They now found out that there are quailfied people out there, and now they want you out. Don't think you will collect unemployment, even after 10 years of service to them. You were and are a fraud in their eyes.  But she continues to think I had something to do with it.

Trying to figure out with women who say they are searching for their Kings cause they are Queens. The more I hear that shit, themore I laugh at their asses. Looking for your King huh? With your Mirror Ass Shot, huh? At least have some one take the picture for you. They don't know self taken shots of yourself says a lot about you, and it depends on what you're doing in the picture too.

No one will speak to you when you're the 'new guy'. All the women are playing it cool. So when one does come up to me and speaks with me, all others are breaking their fucking necks to hear what's being said. I went back and told her that I had my eye on her from the first time I entered the dining room. Wanted to know, what I wanted to do with her. Yep, that's what she asked and I told her. But first, I told her since she asked, and I don't think you 'really' wanted to know. Told her. She says that that sounds just about right and nice too, maybe later on. Surprised me, but I know she's waiting to see what I will do next. She, no man, no kids..living with her mother not too far from me. Gave me her number, told her I wll text her.

I'm not changing a damn thing for 2013...except for one thing. Those who I am dying to meet, I will do whatever it takes to meet them. Those who I have been chatting, texting with online and thru my phone...its time for a face to face. Be it 2 minutes or a life time...2013, its time to place a face.