I Am NOT a Robot, But Though..Sometimes I Act Like One

First to let off some steam. Monday's...people dislike them a whole lot. Me, I just love me some Monday's. Its the time to start the week all new, forget about all the bad things that happened the week before. For me, Monday morning train ride is a breeze...except this past FUCKING MONDAY !!!!!!

A female friend of mine who claims we are in a relationship, but haven't slept with each other over a FUCKIN' YEAR, asked me to meet her on the train. Mind you, I have to get up extra early and transfer for the train that she is going to be on and that means either a 10 to 15 minute wait. No biggie, I have my Kindle, reading this great ass book too. Her train pulls in and something told me as I looked through the window that shit was gonna hit the fan. She is sitting close to this pole and on the other side of the pole is a little space, but this guy is like taking up 3 seats. I 'asked' him, could he please move over. He starts going off on me. Telling me out of all the open seats on the train; which there were none, that I had to sit next to him. About 30 people in the car of the train are looking at me & him. I let him say his thing, trying to ignore him because he DID move over, but he keeps going on and on. My friend knows how I am...I DON'T REALLY GIVE A FUCK, so I told him to shut the fuck up. He then calls me a faggot, and I call him a faggot lover, the train car laughs. There is one thing that you hope NEVER happens in a situation like this, you get people to laugh AT someone you are arguing with. At this point this feeling came over me, let me try to explain cause it was a weird one.

At this point I was just a second or 2 from just elbowing this guy in his throat or facial region. Maybe you know the feeling, its like you're JUST arriving at the point of no return, that you say to yourself, fuck it, go for it. But things happened kind of in slow motion. First thing that came to mind was that in my backpack was this months rent that my mother was expecting me to drop off at the rental office after work today. Second, I thought about having to take a shower with a whole bunch of men, who I really don't want to be around, waking up way too fucking early AND not having access to the internet and nothing to read. Like I said it was a matter of seconds these thoughts came in my head...so I...backed down. The Kraken was almost released.

I met a young lady who lives about 2 blocks from me, met her online, exchanged numbers. Thing is she is married and is very unhappy in her marriage. She claims she is missing out on sex. I can't believe that, but she is a nurse and she works some crazy hours. Me being me I told her what I am about and what I am looking for. What I'm not looking for is to take care of any grown women and she believes that wouldn't happen with her. She just called me and told me she is home, has to do laundry and will call me later on. Again, we will see where this goes.

2 weeks from now I am going to ride from The Bronx, all the way to White Plains NY. Its a 12 mile ride ans should take me about an hour to get there...I hope...alive.