My Nose is Acting Crazy

Trying to figure out what this crazy shit this woman told me yesterday, She's young, 39 years old. I first mt her when she was 25 years old.

Back then, she was young and very pretty. Her brother was a friend of mine's and every time I would come over to his place, she would some how be there. Back then, I could tell she would turn out to be a real head turner. Today, a whole total different story. Who knew that she would've turned out like she did now. I mean 2 kids by 2 different men. Living from family homes and apartments months and sometimes weeks at a time. Some one somewhere must have been at the right place at the right time and my name came up. Found out that she did some searching for me. I'm not that hard to find online anyway. Well she found me and started talking shit to me right away.

Said that back then she always thought I was gay...anyway. I don't know why she thru in the 'anyway' part, but I found out why. It's the 2 kids situation. See, when you're younger shit just bounces off of you for a while, but as you get older, REAL shit starts to STICK to you. Somewhere along the line, 2 times in fact. some one told her to keep the babies that she was carrying in her body. Even back then, I can remember that guys didn't want to have anything to do with young women who were single parents, so I don't know why she got pregnant the first time, and then again. She knew that she really messed up. She knew how I would look at her. She herself could tell by looking in the mirror how beat up her body had got, which to me, she really didn't look that bad/ But she knew.

Told me that I don't know how hard it is to take care of 2 children, keep clothes on their backs, food on the table and a roof over their heads. In fact I do know how hard it is and was and STILL is. But I told her things will get better and they did for her. Hence, her talking shit to me. 'I'm hungry' she says, when am going to take me out to dinner. ell, since she was being so straight forward, and I'm not the one to hold my tongue, I asked, when are we going to fuck? We didn't and I didn't take her to dinner and it would've been McDonald's or something anyway.

I feel sorry for the Single Parent Female. The guy promises to at least love her for right then and there, she goes for it and has a child by him. This isn't saying that they guy will or would play a factor in bringing up the child cause, really, he doesn't even care. So for the next 23 years, the mother pulls her hair out trying to bring the kid up the right way alone. Its hard for her, doing this all by herself. Her life is so focus on her children, that she doesn't or can't even have a social life. And...any man she meets now, its not about her happiness, its about what this man can do for her and her child. The single parent will say she doesn't need any help, those are words coming out of her mouth. But her actions, her body language state otherwise.

A Bunch of Finales..

I met her online about a year ago, and finally got to meet her in person yesterday.

We have emailed, text and talked on the phone maybe one time. She wanted to hear my voice. A single mother of 2 girls, who has been going through a rough period in her life. The father's of her children have just cut of all contact with her. She had no way to support herself, so she lived with family. There, they stole what little money she did have saved up. So she was at her breaking point...but she didn't give up. She text me and told me to call her, I did.

Just moved int her new apartment and the job made her a full time employee. Being that everything was all coming together, she said that it was about time that we met face to face. Met at a Barnes & Noble in my area and I knew it was her when she walked in. BIG smile across her face, pep in her step. She kissed me on my cheek, then said that she was hungry, her treat. We went to McDonald's right down the block. She did most of the talking but surprised me. Walking back to her car she told me she never does anything like this, but would I like to spend some 'good' time with her. I did, we did.

The only reason she said why she did what she did with me, was because I have been there for her, and that I am leaving NYC this Friday. That when she waled in the book store, she said she knew she wanted to sleep with me, and that this time, she was doing what she wants to do for now on.

The picture above was on my timeline on Facebook. attached or below it was an article about a White woman who responded to an article from some magazine. Keeping it short, it was in response to why Black women look at her and make snide remarks cause she is with her Black husband. I don't think the picture is the woman, but it goes to prove a point that I knew all along.

It was a strange article, but who ever that White woman was, she made her point and I agree with her. She said that Black women are too mean to their Black men. That Black women always have their hands out wanting this and that. And, that when they can't get things their way, that they are the first to hold out from having sex with their man. That Black women are always expecting that a Black man HAS to do everything for them. I agree with her on that point.

Of course a Black man 'tried' to prove her wrong. He said that the only reason why Black men are with White women is because they are easy and easy to control. I don't think its that way though. The Black man in the article went on to say years ago, Black women taught White women, how to season their food and to control their kids. Of course this was during the times of slavery. But we aren't living in the times of slavery any more. Today, you take your average Black woman. She has 2.5 kids, out of wedlock, and the kids father has no say so in the upbringing of their children. Not all, but some. I said my say about this. Black women want things their way because of what they see other Black women are having, or even doing. Take your average Black magazine...the models, some of them can't even afford the clothes they are modeling on their backs and aren't making the money some of the White models are making. But its not about the money mind you. Its all about a state of mind. Do you think the average White woman is going to purchase the clothes that the Black model is wearing, no. Its all aimed at the Black consumer.

As for how some of the average White woman look. I always said that there is something in the water for them to have a body like they do, but I was wrong. They take care of themselves, they tone their bodies to get that great looking shape. Take your average Black woman..extra curves, NOTHING is wrong with that at all either, I LOVE THAT SHIT!!  So now take another look at that picture above, what does it tell the average MAN?

1, 2, 3...

1... She is 61 years old. Met her when she just turned 60. Nice smooth face, not saying for her age she should be all wrinkles, but her face is smooth as silk. Our first meet, when spent the night together, but nothing happened. I wanted it to, but she said she wanted too, but lets wait. I did, and I was in for a shock. As like her face, the rest of her body is smoother, softer and the color...caramel. What she wanted was a long term relationship, some one to come home to at night. I was ready, but there aren't any jobs in her area. Since I couldn't give her what she wants, she decided to move on, be by herself. She text me after a month, because I told her I was leaving NYC and moving further North. Heard the, 'men always come and go out of her life', routine. Its not that, you don't want me to be home with you after a while when I can't find a job. Said, it didn't matter. Trying to see her one last time before I leave...just to SEE her, that's all.

2... She 49 years old, and a pain in the ass, but I enjoy being with her. I know some women can and will have issues with having sex. What her problem is..that she reads too many of those 'Ghetto Books'. She thinks thats what's written in those books are for real. Some times it is. I say this, you can't drive aroud in a Mercedes, when all you have is Volkswagen money. She makes good money, but when ever she tells me to come over, she tells me to bring some food and something to drink. Also, she is so use to men doing shit for her. I told her she is whoring herself out for the small things.

3...She is my age, a Big and Beautiful Woman. Her husband died a year ago. We met online, I went and visit for a weekend, then she came for a week, then I went and stayed with her for 2 weeks. She told me she likes what we have going on and wants more of it. Nice 4 bedroom house with just her by herself living in it. End of the month, I'm going to go and live with her. New town, new surroundings and a new beginning.

Being Mary Jane...

....on BET Channel, and Also, Real Husbands of Hollywood. I don't normanlly watch the BET Channel, but some one first put me on to Real Husbands of Hollywood, so I downloaded Being Mary Jane.

Okay, let me see if I have this straight...meaning, the rules to be a sucessful Black Woman. Of course I'm talking about the show, Being Mary Jane.

One, you have to look good. Not too darkskinned , nor too lightskinned. Have great hair. Hair that you don't even have to wrap at night, hair that you just wake up, shower and get dress. On the body..let's say...you have to look good in boy shorts. Oh, you are sleeping with 2 guys at the same time, with one of them being married. Gabriel Union plays the part of Mary Jane. She purchased a house for her mother and father, which her brother lives there with his daughter, who has children of her own, and just gave birth to another child. For this woman to be so sucessful, her life is all messed up. Already I'm tired of writing about her.

Kevin Hart's new show, which isn't new, cause its in its 2nd season is funny. No, really funny. I mean he isn't trying to be funny, its like he is just being himself and all the shit that goes on in Hollywood, he just...he just is it. Enough said.