My Nose is Acting Crazy

Trying to figure out what this crazy shit this woman told me yesterday, She's young, 39 years old. I first mt her when she was 25 years old.

Back then, she was young and very pretty. Her brother was a friend of mine's and every time I would come over to his place, she would some how be there. Back then, I could tell she would turn out to be a real head turner. Today, a whole total different story. Who knew that she would've turned out like she did now. I mean 2 kids by 2 different men. Living from family homes and apartments months and sometimes weeks at a time. Some one somewhere must have been at the right place at the right time and my name came up. Found out that she did some searching for me. I'm not that hard to find online anyway. Well she found me and started talking shit to me right away.

Said that back then she always thought I was gay...anyway. I don't know why she thru in the 'anyway' part, but I found out why. It's the 2 kids situation. See, when you're younger shit just bounces off of you for a while, but as you get older, REAL shit starts to STICK to you. Somewhere along the line, 2 times in fact. some one told her to keep the babies that she was carrying in her body. Even back then, I can remember that guys didn't want to have anything to do with young women who were single parents, so I don't know why she got pregnant the first time, and then again. She knew that she really messed up. She knew how I would look at her. She herself could tell by looking in the mirror how beat up her body had got, which to me, she really didn't look that bad/ But she knew.

Told me that I don't know how hard it is to take care of 2 children, keep clothes on their backs, food on the table and a roof over their heads. In fact I do know how hard it is and was and STILL is. But I told her things will get better and they did for her. Hence, her talking shit to me. 'I'm hungry' she says, when am going to take me out to dinner. ell, since she was being so straight forward, and I'm not the one to hold my tongue, I asked, when are we going to fuck? We didn't and I didn't take her to dinner and it would've been McDonald's or something anyway.

I feel sorry for the Single Parent Female. The guy promises to at least love her for right then and there, she goes for it and has a child by him. This isn't saying that they guy will or would play a factor in bringing up the child cause, really, he doesn't even care. So for the next 23 years, the mother pulls her hair out trying to bring the kid up the right way alone. Its hard for her, doing this all by herself. Her life is so focus on her children, that she doesn't or can't even have a social life. And...any man she meets now, its not about her happiness, its about what this man can do for her and her child. The single parent will say she doesn't need any help, those are words coming out of her mouth. But her actions, her body language state otherwise.