One Thing My Mother Told Me...

...'that people, and even you and me, are full of shit. So what you do is wipe your ass, and flush that tissue down the toilet.'

I understood what she meant, and I tried that, but being the person I am...I can't flush. For example...

This woman whom I am paying rent to living in her house. Regardless of what she wants from me, I am a tenant, and I don't want to be involved with her. Though, I have thought about her being 'there' anytime I want 'some', no, I don't want to cross that line. Last night she said she wants to take me to breakfast, okay. This morning, she asked me did I feed her fish. Do I ever feed your fish? I ask myself that question, out loud I said 'nope'. She exhaled deeply and told me that isn't what I asked you. She then said, 'what I said will you PLEASE feed the fish'. One, they are your fish and your responsibility. Two, it's not like that between you and me. And three.

I see how when people...White people come to your door, you get this Uncle Tom sort of way of speaking. I can tell when you're on the phone with someone who is Black, or if it's someone who is White you're talking to. It seems you're inflexion, your voice changes by the color of the skin of the person you are talking to. Hey, but that is just you. My tone, my way of speaking is for every human. If you talk to me real shitty, I will talk to you real shitty in return. I am not fake with anything I do, I don't have time for being fake and being fake is a waste of time.

I didn't go to breakfast with her, she left and got into her car.

Sooooo..Let's See...

I have a Breakfast Buddy, she is 42 years old, mother of 5..nice looking pleasing on the eyes. Breakfast si twice a week with her on me. I don't ask her to pay because she is on P.A. and I know times can be hard. But she just fucked my head all up. Okay, she knows the place where she wants to eat, but doesn't want to get out of the car. We been there before to sit down and eat. She wants grits, but this place doesn't serve grits..she starts yelling at me. Says it's not at me...mind you we are in her car, says it;s about the place. She REALLY loses it in the car. So, I say, forget it, breakfast is over. She says but she is really hungry. I told her, she can eat mayo sandwiches for breakfast for all I car, I get out the car and start walking...all the way home. All the while she is following me asking, begging me to get in the car. I ignore her all the way home. She goes home and calls me, saying her computer isn't working. Told her that her free days are over, it's gonna cost her money to get it fix. She starts crying on the phone, I hang up.

When some one treats you nice, you should really appreciate it no matter what the FUCK else is going on inside of you fucked up head. I didn't cause whatever fucking trouble you have in your life. It's those fucked up boys, guys, men you're dealing with who aren't doing nothing in their lives who treat you like a trick. If that's what you're use to, you won't get that from me, I can and will move on.

I work with a company who operates within another company. They came to me with some extra work for one day. Operate a cash register at an Air Show. I had fun. The Manager came to me and said he wants me in Pennsylvania with them for a week, big event going on. He needs 2 other people who I can choose who I will be accountable for. What he is paying in CASH alone is CRAZY, plus..hotel room by yourself with room service, and a minimum of $100 a day in tips. One weeks of work, 8 to 9 hours a day..stand to make $1,500 CASH!! I ask to female friends who aren't working do they want to give it a shot, you know what they said? Asked all these questions about this and that. What the deal is..it's the weekend after the checks arrive..disability, retirements, P.A., and they want to catch that cash flow and I CALLED them on it. They waiting around for pennies, when there are TRUE DOLLARS to be made!! So I told them, the both of them..if you don't do this, I won't answer you calls when you call, nor texts. If we pass in the street, I WILL always have something to do and be on my way about it.

I'm not trying to make anyone like I am, never that, cause they can't hand. I am a BEAST when it come to work and what I do. I worked 14 and a half hours, when home, stayed up and did another job for a friend cause he was short a worker and did that for another 12 hours. It wasn't about the money. It was about dealing and serving with the public. It;s a good feeling when you're working one venue and a customer sees you at another venue and they say, 'you're all over the place working'.  When I was in New York City working, countless of times I've overheard customers say..' the food MUST be good here, I see THAT guy working EVERYWHERE', then they get in the long line. You have to LOVE dealing with people and food, but a job is a job.

What bothers me most.. I see the good in people, but if you're use to eating bones, you won't know what to do with meat when it's in your face.

Sh*t I've Notice

After a while, no matter what the color of your skin is...enough is enough.

This madness that is happening in Missouri, yes because it IS really madness. It just has to stop. It has to stop before it REALLY gets out of hand. People are just now noticing how our police have been gearing up, in uniform, as if they are invading a small country. But I'm thinking outside the box...

It all starts with our Armed Forces, mainly The Army & The Marines. I had served, and I tell you there is nothing else like EVER in the world. Wait, I think going to war, fighting, a fire fight...well, that is the ultimate feeling. Okay, now take that feeling, put it in a bottle. Serve your time, and then be told that you're no longer needed in The Armed Forces. You are then given a Military Honorable Discharge. If, upon being discharge you just happen to take the Police Officer test in ANY state, most likely you will enter Law Enforcement. NOW...OPEN that BOTTLE. You say, 'how, what?' Your uniform is that of a Army, and your enemy is any American Citizen, whether they are involved in the disturbance or not. Take to mind..'Kill them all, let God sort them out.'

A First

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Stuff Comes To Me In The Shower...

...it's like my mind just opens up to the first shower of the day and all these thoughts come to me.

I met this nice young woman, age 42 online. We decided to meet after 2 days over breakfast. She told me that she was starting a new job in a couple of days. She owns a car, but with money so short, or none at all, she needs $10 a day to travel to and from her job. So I gave her enough for 3 days of travel. We talked over breakfast. She was seeing this guy who owns his own business, a telephone store. He is single and taking care of his teen age children, 2 of them. She is upset because he has no time for her, but... She slept with him on the first day of meeting him. Over breakfast she told me in passing that she might be pregnant. I heard that come out of her mouth, but I didn't really pay it no mind. But I did say, ' so, you slept with him using no protection?', I KNOW I did say this to her. I took it for that she took a risk, and that..hey who hasn't had unprotected sex and just got lucky by not getting any diseases, or pregnant? I know I have, so it was no biggie. I went to her house on Sunday and she told me she was pregnant. I told her that I couldn't see her anymore and she wanted to know why.

It seems that she has no problem with being with me while she is carrying another man's child. In fact when I asked her was she going to tell him, she said no. I took it for that she was going to terminate the pregnancy, which she isn't. She also told me that there are 2 guys who 'want to be' the daddy. WTFF!!???? This woman is VERY good looking, but has the intelligence of a door knob. Told her she should tell him, but she said no. She already has 4 children, one in jail and the youngest is 14 a girl. One, a 17 year old girl I've met... Let's just say she is already FUCKING. How I know? Her ass was propped on her mother's bed, turned to one side in skin tight yoga pants just showing me all of her ass and smiling at me in a way that...well you know. Mother paid it no mind. But that is how she is raising her child, it isn't mine's. Which brings me to...

Not all women are like this. I don't search out for women like this, but I have met them online and in passing in the street, just hello. But once I get them into conversation, it seems like they are all the same. I have no problem with a woman who has multiple sex partners, it's how she manages her business. Being reckless leaves to a lot of children with different fathers and one day catching something there isn't a cure for. Then there are the women that are waiting on God to send them the right man, or that they are waiting on the right man, or..not having sex again until they are married but already have 3 or more children. Who the fuck are they fooling?

So when I...'Hello, my name is Michael, wanna fuck?', when I say that to them, it's because you earned that. Look how your life is. I mean, my life isn't that much better, but I do shower, I do care how I look when I leave the house. I do know how to talk to people when I want something in the store. I know how to talk to a waiter or waitress when I am ordering. It embarasses me when women don't know how to speak when ordering their food. It's like they have no manners at all. The next time that happens, I'm just getting up and walk out and take them to a fast food place because that is just what they type of manners they have calls for.

I don't expect every woman's home to be that of The Lifestyles of The Rich & Famous either. But you could at least clean that pig sty up before I come...well a little bit. I should have known what to expect when there were a swarm of flies...so dark around her house...that I thought that there was dead BODIES, more than one, buried in the back yard. Oh, it;s not, you're not a pretty picture..when you just get out of bed and you KNOW you invited me over and when you answer the door, your breath is kickin like Bruce Lee. Young adult son, 24 years old, giving me Murder One looks..I ask him 'what?', he say nothing. Surprised him that I question what the fuck was he looking at me like that for.

I mentioned all of this because it's not only happens once but MANY of times. Like I said, I meet these women in passing, they sometimes stop me and say hello, or I say hello in passing and it goes on from there.  But like I said, the ones who are waiting on the right man, they have been burned by male bums. No jobs, but on 'their grind'. They want love, but will settle with a man who has too many 'baby momas', like its a stroke of achievement. I honestly think these women think that since these guys have all these kids, there MUST be something GOOD about him. But when he gets caught, the woman wants to be up on the 'side piece'. Hell all of you are Side Pieces. The women, that do have their acts together are so use to being by themselves and are so picky in the man they want, which tells me that they want a man with money cause they just want an extra wallet. They have no problem in being your woman so to speak...so as long you keep them in the style and maintain their ways of looking. Oh yeah, I know the game, see it all the time.

But I'm not hating. I'm observing and stating facts. But one thing for sure about me... I work, I am clean, I have manners...and I CARE about ME!!