My Bad..

Like I have about 5 post that are just laying up in the 'draft' section. 

Shit has been weird as fuck around here lately. Working long hours and not getting any sleep, plus...

I met a 34 year old Bi sexual woman..I don't know why I pointed that out. Suppose to only be FB, Fuck Buddies but she caught feelings. But I'm not taking away from my goals to satisfy her..let's say cravings. Then..

Then an 18 year old, girg5 from head to toe..tall, built kind of Butchy...showing her interest in me like pushing up strong too. What messing with my head though is that she is a virgin and doesn't want to be any more. Introduces me to her MOTHER who I am OLDER than. I was jammin out to some Breatbeat in the isle of a Walmart and she was standing behind me dancing to and with me but she..I know she could have heard the music coming out if my Beats Wireless headphones or could she. Just started kicking it with me. Talked for about an hour standing right there in the isle.

Sorry for being so damn sexual with this post, but it's how it is. 

Then in the same day..two White women younger than me with boyfriends/man/husbands..wanted me as their Side Piece. WTF!?? I said why not to the both of them. They both constantly text me, talking some real shit too.

Had a chance two days ago to buy a Honda, Mint Green two door, perfect condition for $600 dollars... But DMV has a appointment type bullshit going on and wait time is THREE FUCKIG MONTHS. I could risk it driving without a license, but nope, not gonna do it.

And to tope all of it off. The Delta bullshit is deadlining MOTHERFUCKERS here left and right. So far 12 people have been moved to hotels to ride it out. Staff is saying it's not Covid related but I know the deal and can't afford to stay in a hotel for 10 to 14 damn days. I got tested, negative but that doesn't mean shit.

The dudes here who I thought had their shit together..don't, and it's oissib me the fuck off too. Like was all that shit you were saying and doing in the past a front. I came out and asked all three of them. I had to be ause each one if them asked me to wake them up in the morning because I get up at 2:30am fir my 4am shift a quarter mile away..walking there too. Fuck no!! I'm not your alarm clock. And He'll to the NO, not lending or letting you hold shit in the way of money. You can't wake and get up on your own and now you're asking for money? Last I know I did t father any damn kids.

Looking forward to Thursday, going to that young woman's house for dinner, which she is going to cook.

Oh yeah... This White woman I know.. She likes me...ask for my number and.. That's right, sending me nudes and shit. Claims she never been with a Black Man before and want me to be her first. Thinking about her too.

Funny thing is that fir almost two whole years I couldn't even find sex..and now it's all over the place and in my face. Issue with me is that I don't know how to go in relaxation mode, all I think about is work. Not forget hours and money, but for the..I don't know, the act of doin someth5 I like doing? Not like Love.

I been having dinner time deep thoughts with this one White dude. Think about this...

He said that our dreams in the average last 3 minutes..but when we dream, then wake up, it seems like hours. That is why when we die or about to, of live 'Fkadhes before our eyes'. But get this though.. How do you know when you are dead, because when we dream for the three minutes, it seems like a long time..and who is to say that like right now..we aren't seeming this very moment. I may be expaling it all wrong.

Gotta go, 10:30pm..lights out.