Almost a Whole Month Ago...

...I was sane, I had my wits about me. I also knew right from wrong. I wasn't stressed out and I kept to myself. Then I woke the fuck up.

I'm going to try and get thru this post.. Meaning I will hit 'Send' instead of leaving it for later and getting back to..which I never do. So for now on I'm just going to hit 'Send, Publish' or what the fuck ever. It's not that I don't care, no not that. It's just there isn't enough hours in my FUCKING DAY!

I should have never gave her any penis. For real though, I should have listen to that little voice. But I thought being that she is 53 years old..she would have some kind, type of sense about herself. But noooo, I gave it to her two times and that second time sealed my fate.

I have to admit, both encounters were enjoyable, surprised the hell out of me too. But when you don't have any friends, no family..kids don't want to have anything to do with you.. When a person shows you some attention and that person, me..tells you it's ONLY going nd has to be a sexual thing, and you agree to it. NO!! You can't just catch feelings. We both agreed to it as it being what it is..something to release some tension. I do know what to do and it isn't going to be pretty.

I haven't met this one in person yet. I say yet because I'm for real are going to. Can't remember where online I met her, probably Tagged. As soon as I saw her profile picture I wanted her, so I reached out and she answered. Yeah I know, she answers everyone...don't care. So far I've spend about $140 on her. Not through a website, but directly TO her..her checking account. She's a complicated mother of 2 small ones. Mommy by day, Online Sex Worker by night. She says she doesn't do P2P, they all say that though. I'm not going to go to her, already established she is coming to me, when 2honthe fuck knows.

My 'Main Stay'...just turned 35 years old..and has the energy of 2, 3 women. It's strange and different with her. I mean if you look at her she looks like a boy, dresses like one too. Baggy clothes hiding ALL thise curves. What I don't know..she Bi but only has been with two guys sexually. What I don't know about her 'lifestye' I ask, question afer question  She just spoke out..'Ive never sucked a dick before, I want to learn.' Hmmm, interesting. And me who doesn't even like that part if sex let's her practice her sweet heart out as much as she wants to. I know it sound cruel, really it isn't. Told me I have the best looking dick she has ever seen..coming from her after only seeing two others before me. A compliment, yes sir!! She had a delivery of a 'Muscle Relaxer' yesterday...so naturally I tested it out in her. Took our 'Sessions' to a whole different level. ...and yes, I know where your clit is located at. It and I are friends on a separate level from the rest of your being. It calls out to me, whispers to me in my sleep but Nevers enters my dreams.  I...