Sweet Dreams Are Made of These

Yeah.. yeah I admitted it and I told a couple of people about it too.

I was on a dating website and a young woman caught my eye. So,I reached out to her and she responded. We chatted in app and then she gave me her FB page. Then she gave me her Amazon Wish List.. And I purchased some things for her. Then she told me that she has pictures and videos for sale also. I purchased those too. I began to ask for poses that I wanted and certain things I wanted her to wear..bought those too. All together around $250 worth..and I purchased her..well, I have her the money to buy a winter coat. All along I NEVER met her face to face. 

Crazy? No I'm not crazy. Do I want to have sex with her? You better fucking believe it. But she tells me she doesn't PTP, Pay to Play. Okay, I understand all of that. I just had a dream about her and I told her. She told me that it sound hot as fuck. Yeah okay, no what. Nothing. Do I care? No should I care..no not really.

All I know is that one day I will meet her face to face..and let's see what happens. 

The Friends of Your Enemies...or Some Bullshit Like That.

I forget how that saying goes, but I'll make it to the point... Fuck you and anyone who associates with you. Understand me now? Good!

Being the type of environment I'm presently in you hear quite a bit of people talking low. It's not considered whispering, but it's on the boarder line. I couldn't help but hear a Convo from a motherfucker I can't stand to even look at. Though our disagreements are long in the past, anytime he talks to me, my response is 'Fuck you'. It's not with anger, it's a calm and to the point response to let him know where I stand and will always continue to stand with or about him. But this time today, he said some shit to an employee here that... That I had to say something.

The employee asked him how his job interview went. I was listening and hoping he got hired for some strange reason. Even though I can't stand his ass,I want him to be working. Well, his response to this employee made me want to just pick him in his fucking throat. 'I don't have a car for nothing...I mean you have to have money to have a car but.. But I'm going through a depression and as soon as I am over it, I will start working again.' It took everything inside of me to not scream out bullshit. This is the same guy gets up early every morning..not to wash, but to act like he's going to work. Same guy who 5hinks he knows it all..same guy who.. I could go on and on, but I won't. He isn't the only one who here has a fucked up way of thinking.

I had ask The Director here can I give a Life Skills Class, he told me no. No, not because I won't know what I'm saying or doing...but no, don't teach these people anything. It's sad as fuck..to be so damn young and not know anything. And don't hand me that bullshit excuse that it's about how you were raised. You're in a different environment, everything, the tools are here for you to use. But you won't use them, you want someone to feel sorry for you. To take pity on you. They won't listen, refuse to listen.

I told them 5 years from now, if and when I see you again..you will 04oba KY be on disability because not only have you given up on yourself, society as well.

Well, It's Official

It's official. I am now a Virginian. Is that how it's spelled. Anyway, I got my ID in the mail yesterday. I Feel a lot better about it too. Because if I were to be stopped, the only ID I had was an expired one from upstate NY, which is an Ehanced one for crossing into Canada...which is still good because if tha Pandemic and shit. My next goal is my drivers license. I told myself I would never get one again, but 2ho knew 8 would be living in a place where one is needed.

Also accomplished another goal, which was a Long Term Goal. I'm Officially Semi-Retired. That's right, applied and approved for Social Security. Besides having money in my pocket, that's why I worked as hard as I do all these years. When I first heard about collecting it at 62 years old and you don't have to wait until 65, then 67... I added it, that as a long term goal. But I put applying and collecting it out of my mind and just worked..and STAY alive. To some it's not much, but to me it's a lot. I don't have any children, so that's a bonus. To me the good thing about collecting early is that I can continue to work, but will be forced to cut back on how many hours I do work. So when I DO hit the age of 67.. 8 guess there will be an increase from 2hat I get from collecting early ? I don't know, I guess that's the reason why Social Security wants you to come in and actually sign the paperwork if you applied online... If I have any questions then that will be the time to ask them.

I will need a car though, no mistakes about that either. I have in mind what I want. Something that can carry 'stuff' and enough room I can sleep comfortably in. Oh, and a trailer hitch will be a must. I was looking at PT Cruisers or one of those 'Boxy' cars/vans. Of course nothing showroom new, om35hing user that was only driven 2, 3 Sundays a month. But I'm not looking now... Because the way things go for me, someone is JUST going to GIVE me what I want.

I said give me what I want because lately I have been giving things and stuff away too. I haven't been doing it just so I can receive, no. I've been doing it because something inside of me tells me to do so. Believe it or not, but doing this when it happens is hard. One being is 5hwt I don't want to draw attention. But the person on the receiving end always seem to do, draw attention to me doing it. It feels awkward as fuck and it makes me nervous. They always question why am I doing it, and I have no answer. But I say someone did it for me, so I'm doing it for someone else. 

You know it's coming, so...

Getting sex..making Love, fucking and hooking up and never been a problem or an issue for me. But as 5h3 years go by..hotels ar3 dangerous. Going to her house is arkward after we both releases our..let's say.. joy. In the past...having her come over...I dislike entertaining at home. So, what a person to do, What does/can a man do? I have one solution. If the 'act' doesn't happen in the next 24 hours, I move the fuck on. Because we all know..when we want 'it', we want 8t right now and fast. All that..'..5ge day after tomorrow at 2pm' bullshit is a waste or yours and my time. I will take into consideration if she is married, 2 days.. I'm giving her 2 days. If it doesn't happen in those 2 days, I'm moving on. I say this because...

This woman approached me about 4 months ago. Told me to just worry or focus on myself. Three days ago she asked me what time do I wake up in the morning. Then asked me do I eat breakfast..what kind of soap do I use and what time  do I go to sleep at night. Yesterday she asked me do I use condoms. That made me stop and want to ask her questions, but I didn't. Four questions later...8 was straight out asked dis I want to spend the night with her. This woman.. I don't know, I would never have expected anything like this coming from her, and I asked her why me. She said she has had her eyes on me from day one when she first say me. She wanted to wait and see what I'm going to do and who I'm doing it with. She said as far as she can see, I do have a woman, but it isn't serious because if it were, I wouldn't be seeing her as often as I do. Tomorrow she is taking me sight seeing out of town.

I'm off today and I have a shit load of things to do. Nothing major, just go thru nthe tiny pieces of papers I wrote notes on to do. Play some video games, maybe watch some TV and movies I downloaded over the last...since July 17th.

Just do nothing in my frie da apartment she lets me chill I  while she is at work. Oh yeah,one last thing.

Speaking of my friend. I told her that she has a Pretty Pussy. Hey, I know, it sounds raw as fuck, but it's true. She does have a pretty pussy, it's  the best looking one I've seen up close and personal in my whole entire life. It's amazing!! It looks 'Supermodelish', should be on the cover of...

Man oh Man

I don't go around acting like I know every damn thing. Butghere are some things I DO know about. I know that people will use the fuck out of you until you're all used up.

Today of all days. I was 8n a good ass mood at work. Then the  bullshit happened... Four hours later, it hit me. I then knew what it was all about. MOTHERFUCKERS!!

Like I said, people will use and use and use..until 6iu are all used up.

She Has The Prettiest...

I have seen quite a few in my days, but this one is perfect.

I guess it's because of certain factors that come into play. All of them together makes her the perfect package. I tell her this all the time and she tells me that no one ever made her feel or even said anything about the way she looks.  I told her please, whatever you do, don't change. But she will. She has already.

I tried in the past to reach to this other one, and I failed in doing so. She just texted me asking my number. She called... Says she misses me. I don't know