I'm Just Trying To..

...nothing really. Wait, I am, sort of. I'm gonna explain it any ways so hold on 

At first I wanted to do an Only Fans Page, but that didn't work out the way I wanted it to. I think it's because I didn't expand my view of 'things'. I see that now, and it's still in the back of my head...sometimes comes if front and I have to kick it in the ass. So since I now know what my days and nights might be really like, I said well, let me learn something different.

That different was podcasting. I gathered up all the software I needed. I knew what materials I would also need, gathered those also. But what I didn't expect to happen was an external hard drive failure. I mean every damn thing I needed is on that external drive. Sometimes it get seen by my laptop and sometimes it don't. It's going in 6 days now if not being seen. I could have fixed the problem but.. I grabbed my tv by one hand and at the same time a jolt of pain went thru my left foot at the same time which caused me to squeeze my tv which damaged a corner of it. I call it Pixel Burn Out. That meant ordering another 24 inch TV. And then a close friend if mines asked me to get her. Roku Stick because now when has Internet. Couldn't say no. That meant the external drive would have to be purchased sometime in the next 2 ton3 weeks. That's when the hard drive went out. With that on hold..

I moved on to learn something else. DJing. I have a small controller, comes with a lite version of a well know DJing software. I took it another step further. I downloaded the full version. Then there were other 'packs' I would also need, downloaded those also. The. I thought, do I know what I'm doing? Duh, no. So that meant downloading the manuals. Gotta have music right? So I downloaded some more music. There is always something else I need, but I'm quick to jump on it though. Like right now... It's analyzing 70 tracks I placed into the software.

October 5th

Okay I got distracted, and distracted is a gentle word. I got fucked over and out. So my 5TB external hard drive decided to just say FUCK IT! Everything that I was working on is ON that external drive so everything as of right now is at a complete STOP! It lights up, at times. But laptop isn't seeing it. I think it's the cord, don't know for sure though. I don't want to waste $10..+ shipping and handling to find out that it is or it isn't. Fuck my world. I guess on to something else.