Being Black is so hard sometimes.' Title from a Redditor Poster

(M63 Blk) A simple solution to all of what you said. KNOWLEDGE. Know who you are. You can not get that in any school....not even in College.I was born in the year 1960. I was home alone when the TV blasted Dr. King's death, I started crying. My mother came home and asked me what was the problem... I told her...'The King is dead.' Black AND White people walking arm in arm through The South Bronx singing 'We shall overcome'.... someday.

12 years old, 'Fresh Air Fund' took us kids out of the city to Upstate NY for 6 weeks. With 2 nights in, we were rushed into our cabins, a White Couselor lying between our bunks with a rifle. I looked out the window and I saw Ghost. The KKK, this was Summer of 1972.

All my teachers in Public School were White, except for my 4th Grade teacher...Black and a woman. It was in her class I learned to enjoy reading and what it offered. Reading takes you away to places in your mind. Places that make you want to visit them in the future.

Junior High School. My principal was Black, Dr. M. The whole 7th Grade class went to 8th Grade and 9th Grade together. My teacher, a Black man, Mr. F. command of the English language..he has. Tweed coat, and patches on his elbows. Required reading...Jack London's. 'Call of The Wild'. "Dat Spitz fight lak hell, An' dat Buck fight lak two hells," I did not want to go to High School in The Bronx, I didn't. Passed the test to get into Art and Design High School, in Manhattan. Then my eyes open further.

I felt I was being boxed in in HS. All my classes were art because my reading and math scores were college, 4th year. Dropped out and went into the Army at 17. And here is where I learned about LIFE.

1977, in West Germany, 17 years old..and if all hell broke loose... We all the American Soldiers had 72 hours to live. There were over 300,00 Soldiers and American families, with kids. There was no Black against White, we were all one color...OD Green, Military, SOLDIERS. We laughed, we cried and we shed blood all together, not in a War, but accidents do happen. When as a Black man you visit other countries and see how people live compared to the way you live in America, your state, your city...your block!! Then you see why everyone wants to come TO America. It's sad, that you handing out your c-Rations to a family who has nothing to eat. It's also scary as fuck when those people believe that Black Men grow tales at 12 midnight... And they take out a knife and try to scrape your color off your skin because they have never seen a Black American before..in person.

1980... I came back to The United States and came home on leave for 62 days. The family moved from The South Bronx to The West Bronx. I go walking around the neighborhood, at night...and then I hear 2 gunshots, then a large group of Young Black teenagers run past me. then... Then here comes this one White teenager, trying to load a .38. Looks up and sees me. He asked me did they run past you? I nodded. He then asked me 'How am I doing?'. and walks away. Days later a group of White guys jumped out of a van and started swinging on every Black teenager that was sitting in the park. One approached me as I was sitting on the back of the bench. I looked him in the eyes, and he did the same. He went after someone else. I didn't move, I didn't flinch. All I thought was...' he has ONLY one swing with that bat, it will be his last.'

60 Days later... Ft. Jackson, SC. I report in for duty, Assigned to a Transportation Unit, I am a Truck Driver now, and I am also a Spec4. Walk into the motor pool and ask a Staff sergeant..' Hey Sarg, where is 3rd Platoons Trucks located here in this Pool?' He turned around and said..' Listen N8gger, I am a Staff Sargent and you address me as such.' I got tunnel vision, shit went ..it started fading. I said nothing, and I walked away. I got even, him coming from the NCO Club one night...drunk. I didn't hurt him, I embarrassed him. I tied him up somewhere open, where he couldn't;t be missed by seeing naked.

1982... I am Honorably Discharged from The Army. What I learned, they do not teach that in college. I couldn't stay planted in NYC, so I traveled along The East Coast, The Far East, and Hawaii as a Cook. 43 years as a Cook, and every year I worked. The experience I have in Cooking, I've been told is Chef Quality, but I didn't go to Culinary School. I went from job to job learning different functions in the kitchen, different functions in the dining area, and didn't functions to get a Restaurant up and running. I know where to get anything distributed to anywhere along the East Coast. in 5 different States. Again, you can't learn that anywhere in Culinary School, they just teach you the basics.

2022... I'm retired. I don't have to be on time to anywhere. I don't have to put up with anything. I do what I want when I want. I do not live in NYC, I live in a town, that is mostly White people..but I am totally okay with that. I also have been. Because I've seen the world. Been to countries and seen some shit...that would make you cry on how people are treated and the way they are forced to live. Then come back to the United States..and They THINK... I shake my head...NO.

One More Day.

Just one more day.

How Do You Not Sound Crazy...and Make People Believe You Are Totally Serious

Maybe it's because I'm a lot older...wait, more mature(?) But I believe that if a person puts out Good, Great will come back to them. Not when you want it need it, when you least expect it. Things like this has been happening to me, for me in the past 30 to 45 days.

For the past 60ndays or so, I've been meaning to get around to calling my cellphone carrier about unlocking my $59 cellphone. The only thing about it is the price, other than that... I don't know how I got it for $59 13 months ago. I used an A.I. app called Perplexity, it's in the Play Store. I asked the A.I. for the number, and it provided a link. Clicked the link, but I had to sign into my Boost One account to get the number. When I did, I noticed something on my Dashboard. I was due for an upgrade of my phone.

As I'm looking through the phones and their process..$299, $449... $19.99?!! $19.99 for a Moto G Stylus 5G 2023. Hold up. Let me get this phone unlocked first. 5 minutes later...I click back, yep, $19.99.

No, I don't want the $8.00 for two years and I pay $20 in case my screen cracks..click, click... Thank you for your order. $21.02 for a Moto G Stylus 5G 2023 128GB. So I look up how much they are going for. $399. WTF? So how did I get it for $21?

Then I click forward to look at some more phone. They have an iPhone 12 for $149. I wanted a iPhone 12 just to shoot videos. If that phone is there come next Friday...

See, it's things like that. I remember when Howard Stern went to satellite radio, and you had to have a XM Player either in your car or truck. But they did make stand alone players for the home, they were under $150. One day I was at home on my laptop, just clicking away, looking at their gas and anything that came to mind. I saw an ad .'XM player's $1, Click Here. I clicked and clicked, and clicked, copy this code, now click back and paste code, click, click, copy this code, click , paste code...enter information. I looked at that screen for 19 minutes and I couldn't see anything fishy. So I entered my info and card info...click. Thank you for your order.' 5 days later I got  a XM Player for $1. I couldn't believe it. I had to sign up for a subscription to listen to Howard Stern, and that was $16 a month...after 90 because I signed up for a tesil for $1 for 90 days. Turned out I enjoy listening to him when I download his shows instead over that XM Player. It was hard to find his shows. But for $16;a month, I had the complete package, listen to every channel they had. The other day in my Promotional Folder in email, I saw an advert for a subscription again, teail like 5 dollars for 60 days.

I was about to buy a 43 inch TV, since the Veterans Administration checked my hearing out, and now I wear hearing aids, a TV comes along with the hearing device so I can hear the TV. But before that happened, someone in my building out out a 43 inch TV for trash. Nothing wrong with it other than it needs legs or a universal TV stand. It's sitting in my closet. I'm waiting on the TV from the Veterans Administration to come.

There are other 'Things' going on too, but I'm gonna wait a week before I speak on it. 

I Think I Know Why Now.

When I was in The Army and stationed in West Germany, I learned a lot of things besides the job the Army gave me. I learned how to live around in close quarters with people 2ho didn't like the color of my skin. But one thing that I learned back then, I use today.

I learned how to get used to being in a room for extended periods of time. I was in a two man room, but my roommate had a German girlfriend and he lived with her. I had the room all to myself. Though he still had to keep a bed in the barracks, I was still in 5hst room by myself. No one use to come in my room and hang out with me. It was any reason why they didn't, they just didn't. Most of the time I was reading, writing letters, and listening to music. The town was about 2, 3 miles away, and it was all downhill. You could take a cab which we did when we wanted to go to a fastfood place or the supermarket. But most of the time, me and many other soldiers stayed in the barracks and in our rooms...or visiting others in their rooms.

So today, I live in a studio apartment. It's one room and a separate room for the bathroom. It's a large room with a high ceiling, 1 double window, and a single window. I like it because it isn't too small, nor is it too big. I have a female friend, she likes to come over and listen to music and draw. About 2 weeks ago she came over and for some strange reason she was upset. I asked what is the problem. She stated I never take her anywhere. That surprised me. I asked her are we in a relationship, have we slept together? She is 39 years old. He response was why does it have to be all of that just to take me out once in a while. If you want to go out, go. I know she doesn't have any money to do this, so I just look at her. I told her I am not taking you anywhere, get yourself a boyfriend and let him do it.

Of course she got in my case about me being indoors all the time. I explained that when I did go out, you're not around. See I have no issues with staying indoors all the time. Everything I need i have. If I need something I go and get it. I think that is what normal people do, right?

She lives at home with her parents, and they never forced her to go out and get a job. She hasn't worked a day in her life. They give her money every week, but like in less than a day, she spends it up. So to break up of her being home all the time, she comes to my place and try tondrive me crazy. She isn't bad looking, just spoiled and thinks she can have her way any time she wants. This last Tuesday she told me she will be at my home at 7am on Saturday and she is bringing breakfast. It is now 7:21am.

'He Has Something Planned Great For Me....'

...and I have to do is wait, be patient while He whispers in those people's ear, get them to be at the same place at the same time.. Then...

Hold on, I don't want people to think I'm getting all religious and shit, because I'm not. Spirituality...now that's a whole different matter. To me it is. I can't tell you when I started thinking this way, because it just happened. But as the days, months and years go by, I believe in this, it, more and more. I tell people that God has something Great planned for me. I don't know what it is, but I know and I feel it. I just have to be patient. I'm doing that, and every so often, I see 'it' sort of trying to form. When that day comes...I'll be able to make a move. I can't really call it a move, just say I'll be able to act on it.

I know one thing for certain though. I Love where I currently live, but I won't be able to live here...when that day comes. It's because of the people I know, the ones I call my friends. One on one with them, alone just us two, it's okay. But it's when they aren't with me, they talk shit about me. Though I'm not worried about that part. It's just why... Why act that way when you aren't around me? It always gets back to me from ither friends who also do the same thing. Strangely... When I'm with them, I don't think about what I've heard others have said they they have said about me. You would figure I would be cold around them, question them in what I've heard, but I don't. 

Another thing is that my friends ask me when they come over, how come I haven't heard this and that. They are talking about different situations, problems and or issues that certain people are having. I tell them I don't know, I haven't heard anything...and I'm hearing it for the first time from them. Then they ask, what am I still talking with this or that person. I ask why you're asking me that, and then they tell me. Shut isn't true, just bullshit. That's when I tell them that I don't hang out or around with anyone because I trust myaelf. Has nothing to do with the people, it's just I trust myself. Besides, I don't hang out. I go and do things, but I don't hang out. 

It's weird. Because I can stay home and have no issues be home all the time. I go out, do what I want to do, and then come home. You just happened to come by when I'm home. Then they say but you are always here. I tell them no, I'm out of the house every so often. It's just you come by and I'm always here. Some call before they come by, and if I have company, I tell them so. 

Like the other day I saw my Sweetheart. Then 2 days later, she comes by and we talk and she spends the night. She leaves the next day at 11am, then comes back at 2pm and spends the next 2 nights with me. It's not what you think though, but it's sexual. She's a complicated 38 years old woman. She has been hurt so many times in her life...that it shows. She also has a hard way of expressing herself. In her head she hears how she commincates, or wants to communicate with me...but by the nano second it gets to her mouth, she talks around and not actually saying what it is. And me, I'm constantly asking her whamt she means, and what is she saying. I ask her to stop yelling when she speaks and she tells me she isn't yelling. After a while, I don't even bother. I have had enough of her and her ways. So last night..

About 9pm I text her and asked in words what are you up to right now, getting ready to go to work? She replied, 'wyd'. I call her. Didn't you say you have to go to work tonight, you told me you leave the house at about a quarter to 9, so you can relax before you start your shift. Fir 10 straight minutes she rants and raves about everything else but about going to work. I hung up on her ass. Then she texts me, I just flipped my phone and pay her no attention. 4 in the morning she taps on my window, I go to the door and ask her what does she want. She wants in. I tell her no and close the door. She calls and ask why won't I let her in. Apparently you forgot all the bullshit you said and texted to me, go back and read it. 

Like I said, God has a surprise for me.

Tuesday June 27th 2023 01:31am

 Hey guys...

Next month, July 17th I will have been living here in Staunton, VA for 2 years. With me being a New Yorker, I've noticed something about this town I live in. But before I tell you what it is, look at the video below that is on YouTube. It was in Google's newsfeed.

https://youtu.be/qvJXnmfhtvk

I worked in The hospitality/Food Service field for over 43 years. I have worked beside some well-known Chefs, and I have spoken with Chefs of some well-known stars. To say that I know my way around, up and down in a kitchen... I know my stuff. What I don't know, I ask. But when The Pandemic hit New York City, I think I was the last of the Old School Cooks to leave. Believe me, I didn't want to. But it didn't look like it was going back to those days...ever.

My first job less than 24 hours after I arrived was working in a Bakery, Production. By the way, you have to try a hot fresh roll coming out of an oven. It gets smacked out of the pan it's in...right into your mouth. NO butter is needed.

My next job was working in Hardees. I worked there for 10 months and then "Folded My Apron" on May 16th, 2022. I retired. I really didn't want to, but I had to. I was tired, I was having FUN! But I was really tired. I needed to relax and step back and LIVE instead of surviving, like I was so used to.

Staunton, VA is a small quiet..town? I questioned that because the total population is under 30,000 people. It's backward here. I live downtown. All that you see in that video is within 1 to 4 blocks from where I live. The Stonewall Jackson Hotel, which is called '24 South' is right across the street. I live at 27 South Market Street. For real, all of those places are less than 5 minutes walk from my front door.

What caused me to email you guys is that I saw something else on Google's newsfeed. It talks about the great places to eat. Something has been eating away at my brain...dying to chew its way out and I have been trying to hold it in for the longest. 

Please read the next 2 emails, do me that favor.

May 23, 2023

 I went back to the Love Letter 'Thingy', but to another woman. At the end, my take.

As I sit here, pen in hand, I am overwhelmed by the flood of emotions that surge through my heart whenever I think of you. It seems like only yesterday when our journey together began, when our connection blossomed from a beautiful friendship into something extraordinary. From the moment I first laid eyes upon your enchanting land, I knew deep within my soul that I had fallen irrevocably in love with you.

Over the years, my love for you has only grown stronger, intertwining with a profound sense of care and concern. I have witnessed your triumphs and trials, your highs and lows, and with each passing day, my desire to stand by your side has deepened. I have been a witness to your resilience, your vibrant spirit, and your remarkable ability to rise above any challenge that comes your way. It is this strength of character that has captivated my heart and earned my unwavering devotion.

In the depths of my being, I long to create and share special moments with you. I yearn to explore the rich tapestry of your culture, to immerse myself in your traditions, and to traverse the diverse landscapes that adorn your magnificent expanse. From the snow-capped peaks of the Himalayas to the golden sands of your coastal shores, every inch of your land holds the promise of unforgettable memories waiting to be made.

And my love, please know that my dreams for the future remain steadfast. I remember the times when I whispered to you, promising to whisk you away with me, and I still hold true to those words. Together, we will embark on new adventures, embrace the unknown, and forge a path filled with boundless love, joy, and endless possibilities. You are my partner, my confidant, and the love of my life.

I hope you can feel the depths of my affection through these words. You have transformed my world, filling it with an abundance of love and warmth. You have become the very essence of my existence, the beating heart that guides me through each day. With you, every sunrise brings hope, and every sunset whispers the promise of eternal love.

Forever yours,

I've know this woman for such a long time. Met her 4, 5 months after I arrived here. The thing is... She is BAT SHIT, FUCKED UP CRAZY!! But she has a body, an ass...that I bury my face in every chance I can when she does drop by when her crazy is at it's lowest.

I don't get the wrong impression about her, though she denies she is that way. But one night, she did something to me, something I KNOW for a fact she has NEVER ever down to and with anyone else. Just 3 days ago, she stopped by again, and she should me a little more about herself... Then the day after, back to BAT SHIT CRAZY again. But this time I told her something... She asked me why I say that, and how do I know it's true. I told her, just now with what you said I know it's true.

May 20, 2023

 Another A.I., but this one caters to writing the perfect profile on a Dating Website.

Catchy headline: "Creating Harmonious Rhythms with a Touch of Techno"

Lifestyle: As an aficionado of A.I., DJ control, and music production, I find joy in crafting immersive auditory experiences. When I'm not lost in the realm of beats and melodies, you'll often find me immersed in the world of graphic art, translating my creative vision onto digital canvases. Engaging in stimulating conversations about current events and exploring the depth of knowledge found in books are among my favorite pastimes.

Ideal match: I'm seeking a partner who shares my passion for embracing life's possibilities. Someone who is open-minded, willing to step outside their comfort zone, and eager to embark on new adventures. Safety is paramount, but within those boundaries, I yearn for a companion who is willing to try new things, explore novel experiences, and uncover exciting opportunities together.

May 20, 2023

 ...another A.I. program. But this one is 'Text to Art'.

Title: "Solitary Reflection"

Description:

In the misty, foggy morning, the sun valiantly attempts to break through the clouds, casting ethereal rays upon the scene. Standing a few yards from the edge of a cliff, overlooking the vast ocean, a black man in his 60s becomes the focal point of this grayscale composition. His attire reflects a laid-back style with dark grey 401 jeans and a loosely tucked-in white tee shirt. His left hand rests comfortably in his left pocket, while his right hand remains concealed behind his back. Adorning his head is a black and grey checkered skull cap, accentuating his unique individuality.

The setting resonates with a sense of tranquility and isolation, as the only person present at this early hour. The grainy texture adds an artistic touch, enhancing the timeless quality of the image. Seagulls can be seen in the distance, adding a subtle touch of movement to the otherwise still atmosphere.

Although the man generally dislikes having his picture taken, there is someone special to him who has convinced him to pause for a moment, capturing this intimate scene. The relaxed writing style and tone further invite the viewer to experience this serene moment of solitary reflection.

Photographic Style: 15% grainy, black and white Tone: Artistic, lazy Object: The only person standing by the cliffs at 6 AM Action: Doesn't really like getting his picture taken, but will for her because she is so special Writing Style and Tone: Relaxed, English (United Kingdom)

May 20, 2023

 ...the same A.I. program

Welcome to MJChappell, the adventurous YouTube channel that will take you on a journey through music, captivating videos, interesting facts, fiction, news headlines, and thought-provoking opinions. Get ready to dive into a world where curiosity knows no bounds!

With MJChappell, you can expect a vibrant mix of content. Join me as I explore the music that resonates with my soul and share the videos that captivate my imagination. Discover intriguing facts that will expand your knowledge and transport you to new realms of fascination. Delve into thought-provoking fiction that will ignite your imagination and transport you to extraordinary worlds.

Stay up to date with the latest news headlines and engage in lively discussions where my unique perspective and opinion will challenge your thinking. Get ready to explore topics such as relationships, the journey of aging, retirement, exercise, and fitness. Through informative and entertaining videos, I will provide insights and tips to help you navigate these aspects of life.

MJChappell goes live every Sunday from 5:30 PM to 6:30 PM, where you can join me in real-time for an interactive experience. If you miss the live stream, don't worry! I will also have a rebroadcast and follow-up every Monday at 5 PM, so you won't miss out on any exciting content.

What sets MJChappell apart is its ability to make you think deeply and leave you craving for more knowledge. Each video is designed to not only entertain but also inspire curiosity and ignite your desire to explore further. Prepare yourself for an adventurous journey that will leave you wanting to know everything all the time.

So, if you're an avid explorer, a lover of music and videos, a seeker of knowledge, or someone who enjoys engaging discussions, MJChappell is the YouTube channel for you. Join the adventure, expand your horizons, and let's embark on an unforgettable journey together.

May 20, 2022

 I w using an A.I. app on my laptop. I forget what Chatgpt it's called. But this AI will create letters, Love Letters for you. And since I wanted to get with her... I sent it to her. Here it is, and afterwards, I will tell you what the outcome was.

Dear ********,

I hope this letter finds you well and brings a smile to your face. It's a bit unusual to be writing a love letter to a friend, but there's something I've been meaning to tell you for a while now. You see, that night you messaged me out of the blue and then came over, it caught me completely by surprise. Little did I know, that unexpected encounter would leave an indelible mark on my heart.

As I recall that evening, the memories flood my mind with a mix of love and excitement. The way your laughter filled the room, the warmth of your touch, and the genuine connection we shared—everything about that night felt extraordinary. It was as if the stars aligned just for us, guiding our paths to cross in that serendipitous moment.

Since then, my feelings for you have grown deeper. The more time we spend together, the more I realize just how much you mean to me. Your presence brings a certain lightness to my world, and your friendship has become an invaluable part of my life. We share laughter, inside jokes, and deep conversations that leave me wanting to know more about the person you are beneath the surface.

I write this letter with a glimmer of hope, ********. I can't help but wonder if you feel a little bit of what I feel. Sometimes, there are subtle hints that make me believe you might feel the same way, but perhaps you're just as shy as I am about expressing those emotions. It's a delicate dance we find ourselves in, uncertain of where our friendship could lead.

But I'm willing to take that leap of faith, to embrace the unknown, because you're worth it. Our journey together has already been filled with beautiful moments, and I can't help but dream of what the future might hold for us. Whether it's deepening our friendship or exploring the potential for something more, I'm eager to embark on this path with you.

Please know that regardless of your feelings, our friendship is something I deeply cherish. You are a remarkable person, Shavonda, and I feel incredibly grateful to have you in my life. Your presence brings me joy, and the bond we share is truly special.

So, as I pen down these words, I hope they find a way to your heart, gently nudging you to consider the possibilities that lie ahead. I'm here, ready to walk this journey with you, wherever it may lead us. Until then, my dear friend, know that you are loved and admired more than words can express.

With all my love and excitement, [Your Name]

What caused me to write this letter... Well, I did see the possibilities with her. Some things did happen that night., but not the way I wanted them to. Reason being I knew why she had came over. She was hurting emotionally.

What happen after... She went back and told the guy that she said, and he said there was no emotional connection to each other.... A bunch of bullshit. I still see them, but I don't 'fuck with them'. If I was there Fire Department, and they were on fire... I wouldn't even answer the call.

Cleaning Out My Drafts Folder in Email

 Since I use my cellphone to make entries...and some if not most times, use my email to make drafts for later posting. It seems that I have 24 drafts in my email. Draft Folder

So... I'm going to empty my Draft Folder. And with that, I'm going to make a notation of the date of the draft.

Just now, I thought..I'm going to be surprised about what I started, and for some reason otr another, didn't finish.

Thinking Back

When I first came to Virginia... 

This young lady was sitting at the table I was sitting at and out of nowhere she said...'Im opening up an Only Fans Page.' Okaaaay. 

She's short, mixed, White and Latin, curvey, pretty eyes, nice smile and perfect complexion. I told her I'll get a subscription just to see what you look like with no clothes on. She paid no attention to that, but mention who she said who was going to manage her. This guy, I know him..well sort of. I see him around. I told her that doing that is a big bad mistake. It's your body, learn to manage your site yourself 

I was at the store getting cigarettes and some sodas, when I went to pay, my card wasn't in my pocket. I thought..phone was in same pocket, I pulled out my phone behind a car at a red light. So I retraced my scooter ride and there it was in the middle of the street upside down.

I rode back to the store and went to pay and a voice behind me said something..

 I turned and it was her, The Only Fans Page young lady. She said, I hope you are staying out of trouble. I told her I was  and I needed to talk to her. I asked her when she was finshed paying for her things..about her Only Fans Page, she said she doesn't know how to do it. I told her I live 5 minutes walk away, come over and I will show you something. She said let's go now.

She was always a healthy young lady, and she still was. I asked her what did she want 5i do really, and she told me. I told her that it's up to her, and that if she wants to make money of of doing this, that it was going to take a lot of her time, and she has to be into it. For about an hour I explained it all to her. I asked her was she shy in showing me her body right now completely naked...she took her clothes off. Laid in my bed and showed me all of her, all that she was and is willing to show online.

I walked her to the door and told her come by next Saturday and we can take some pictures, and you show me the ones you like. She said she has some outfits that she wants to wear too. Then she said something that blew my mind.

She likes to be tied up, spanked and choked...when it comes to sex. That is what she wants her page to be about. So I asked who is the guy you want to do this with. She said me, but first let's take a day or two to get use to each other.  I agreed.

Again, I will see what happens. We exchanged numbers. So far she has sent me 14 pictures.

Every Now and Then...

The other day I noticed I haven't left the house in like 3 or 4 days. But that isn't anything new. I've spent 8 days without even going to check my mailbox or emptying the trash. Thank God for scented plastic garbage bags.

A woman, a friend..who would Love for me to lay her out in my bed every single night...stopped by and brought me a watermelon. It was huge and weighed a ton. I wanted to cut it up, but first I placed it in the frig to get cold. The next day I took it out only to find out... I don't have a large knife and I have nothing to store it in once I do cut it up. Time to get out of the house.

I could e went online and found ways to store it when a person doesn't have a container, but I needed to get out of the house. I rode my scooter...my means of transportation nowadays. 

I saw another female friend of mines in a parking lot getting out of her car. I approached honking my scooter horn. This woman...what can I say... When I first meet her, her eyes said all you have to do is ask me, go ahead, ask me. A couple of weeks later I did..and we did. She's married 2 kids, but they didn't stop her from wanting what she wanted. Afterwards she told me that she wanted a piece of me from that day inside of Walmart. When we saw each other, I just came out and asked her for her number...just in case I wanted to talk with her. And she gave it to me. I texted her while I was in Walmart and she was too. Her first response was ..'Yiu sure you can handle it of this?' My response was..'Thwts why they make ropes, toes and handcuffs.' 'Dont play with me if you don't plan on getting dirty ' 5 hours later...she is SO nasty!.

I asked her about the watermelon I had, yeah, the watermelon. She told me zip lock bags, and that she has a lot of them at home she isn't using and that she can bring them by if I wanted them. I said okay. That was 5 days ago, watermelon still isn't cut up. 

She texted me and told me that she had something to tell me, and for me to call her. When she answered, she whispered..'I'm pregnant.' I was speechless, I didn't know what to say. But before I could say anything she told me...'Dint worry, it is t yours, because I knew I was pregnant before we got together, and yes...you made Love to a married and pregnant woman. Cross THAT off your Bucket List.' ...and hung up.

She texted me...'But this is t stopping me from wanting you. My husband 2ill not touch me and I'm surprised that I got pregnant by him because sext is once a month if anything. Oh yeah, all the way up to 2 weeks before I deliver...that is if it's okay by you...but I know it is and will be.'

Virginia!!

Chinese Food..Ya Can't Go wrong With It

From no where...wait, I was taking a shower... I decided I wanted some Chinese Food for the weekend. Roast Pork Egg Fu Young, Large White Rice, Boneless Spare Ribs... I would have got a quart of Pork Fried Rice with 2 eggs added in it but... I'm not gonna lie, funds are mighty low. But the meal I did order is enough to last me 2, 3 days believe it or not.

In my town they have the 4 whoe blocks that consists of 'Downtown' sectioned off. They do it every weekend from Friday early evening to Monday morning. Something is always happening and going on from people who own shops, bringing their wares outside to..well just about anything. There is a schedule of events, but I have yet to find out where it's written or online. 

This time when I tried to ride my electric scooter thru right at the bottom of the hill in my block where I live, they had something sort of a stage set up. So I creeped my way thru... The shop where I purchased my hat from a couple of weeks ago, I saw the owner...she's a beautiful looking woman. Her talk with me during my purchase that day wasn't fake, not strained. Well, I saw her, she saw me..something if a spark in her eyes, but she had customers to tend to. The street though roped off was more crowded that usual with booths, I wonder what's going on.

The next block I took a short cut to the Chinese Restaurant. I'm getting well used to manuvering my scooter around. As I went up one block past the movie theater, I ride into the oncoming traffic lane to turn left...and that's when I seen her.

I haven't seen India in almost 2 months I think. I had my earbuds in, but I pressed the horn on my scooter just the same. She turned, saw me and the cutest smile came across her face. I said hello and the first thing she said was how come you don't call or text me any more. I told her it was her that reaches out to me, and she said I know, you were expecting that huh. Well she told me she has an interview and this place a half a block from my home, and she wanted to know how does she look. I told her that she could be in rags and anyone will hire her. I told her I was going to pick up some Chinese Food and to stop by after the interview. She just couldn't stop smiling at me, towards me, to me...with me. She said. I promise you I will, for real I will. As she turned to leave, I counted to 5, and then turned to watch her. She has curves all in the right places... A little chubby, but I LOVE Chubby on a woman, especially HER. She knew I was going to look and she turned, stopped and out her hands on her hips and poosed for me.

10 minutes after I got home she called and told me to open the door. As she walked thru the back door, I caught her scent. I don't know 2hwt it was she was wearing...but it makes me speak total truth to her, and I did. As she was eating I told her that after all this time I EARNED the chance, the right to make Love to her. Surpriseling she agreed, but she said that she has too many errands to still get to today. So I said, next Friday, I'll reach out to you and I want you to come by. She said if I did ahead of time to remind her, that she would diffintly come spend the night..well, until at least Sunday mid morning with me. 20 minutes later....she was out the door.

Seeing her made my weekend, she just doesn't know.

CaNaDa..eh?

When I lived in Rochester, NY for 2 years, I would ask people that I met have they been to Canada. Almost everyone I asked said no. I asked why not? They responded for what reason? I responded back.. Because it's a different Country.

The guys I've met and became friends with, I would offer to pay for gas, meals, and if we met 2 available women..the hotel room also. One guy told me that we didn't have to go to Canada to do all that, he knows if two women right here in Rochester. I told him... So, you want me to still pay for all of that, and we don't even leave town? He looked at me with a dead ass serious look. I told him no, but I'm going to find me a woman who is willing to take that trip, and I did find one.

I was 53 I think at the time, and she was 27 years old. I swiped right in her on the Tagged app. We were texting back and forth in the app, and the texted her number. I called, and first thing she asked was did I want to come over. I asked for her address and told her I would call her back. Put her address in Google Maps, 19 minute bike ride away. I called her and told her I don't have a car, but I can ride my mountain bike over. She said cool and she would leave the front door unlocked, she knock, come in and say your name.

I thought it was strange...I mean we only had interaction for like half an hour total. But here she was telling me to not only come over, but she is leaving the door unlocked. I wasn't expecting to just put right have sex with her, though she was fine as fuck. But I like her attitude, she was trusting, she trusted me.

I arrived at her house and drove up the short drive way and laid my bike in the ground. Knocked on the door turned the handle and walked inside saying...'Hey, it's me, hello...where are you, answer back.' I heard her voice saying she was upstairs, and to come up. As I'm walking up the stairs, i asked where are you? She resoonded that she was in the bathroom. As I got to the top of the stairs, she was just coming out of the bathroom...towel wrapped around her waist, breast exposed. She just came out of the shower.

I said 'Oh my God' at least 3 times, and she smiled, telling me to flow her into her bedroom. I sat down in a chair,and she took her towel off, facing me. I do t know what made me say it, but I did. I asked her, 'Are we fucking?' She sat in the bed with a bottle of lotion and started applying it. Never have I ever seen a woman apply lotion so damn sexy. She told me she had every intention of having sex with me, but she has to be somewhere. By the time I left where I was at to her house she got a phone call, and she had to go to work.

Work wasn't a regular 9 to 5, she sold weed. They guy who shift it was had an emergency and they asked her to come in. Then I thought, what kind of spit is she working in? Then she said, but I could do this. I. An out my bike in the garage, drive her to her shift, then take the car, and she will call me when the shift is over,and spend the night at her place. I told her she was going to Heaven, and that works for me. 

Dropped her off... When. I pulled up,be sure she gave me directions to where we had to go... Dropping her off, there was a crowd standing about. Everyone was giving me the eye, asking her who I was. I told them, ask me who I am. One guy asked who I was, and I said nobody, a friend she met online. She kissed me in my cheek and told me she would call when she is ready to go home. I told her okay, and I wanted to ask you something too later in. She said ask now. I asked her did she wanted to take a drive to Canada. She yes, when? I said whenever you want to go. She said when you come and pick me up, we can leave right then and there. And we did, when I came back 

She drove, and she asked me questions for the whole 3 hour drive. When she asked me my age, I told her it was on my profile page. She told me I didn't look it, and I better be knowing what I'm doing. She had never been to Canada and has lived in Rochester, NY all her life, but always wanted to go, but didn't want to go by herself. No one wanted to take that trip with her, not even her cousins. Her mother mad father both passed away, car accident. That is why she has the house. It's paid for, and money was left to her, she is the only child. 

We soent 2 and a half days in Canada, and drive over 300 miles into around and about. She dropped me off and then went home. Less than an hour later she called me and asked me did I want to come over, and I said i do. And that's when there was a problem.

Since my bike was in her garage, she came and got me. When we pulled up in front of her place, she parked on the street right in front of her house. Across the street was her neighbor, some guy who started talking to her way before she got out of the car. When I got out, his conversation stopped, and he said what's up, I said what's up, and we walked inside. The next morning I left, and dude was in his front yard, but this time he did not speak. I rode off in my bike headed home. When I walked in the door, the room I was renting, PAYING for, the oman who house it was, started going off in me.

All I heard was ..'A ma has a good woman at home, why does he have to go out there and cheat on her, when he has all of this at home. That is t right, you aren't right, why you treat me like this?' Okay, yeah we are sleeping with each other, but I never| set in her bed. I would have sex with her in her bed, but never fall asleep with her,always I went back to my room. I met her say her so, then asked her... If we are in a relationship, which I didn't know we were, how come I'm paying you $500 a month to RENT out a room from you. Do you boyfriends pay rent? That shit her up. But I asked the most important question. How did you know, how did you find out whe= I was and what I was doing. She said her cousin told her.

Okay, so I'm thinking this you g woman is her cousin, nope. The guy across the street, who is about my same age, he told her. The only reason why he told her, because he was trying and have been trying for YEARS to get with this you g woman , but she always told him no, she wasn't interested in him. So, when he seen me, he knew where he seen me at, which actually he never actually seen me in person until that day I should up across the street from him. His cousin, my landlord has showed him a picture of me when. He came over the house, I wasn't home at the time, I was at work.THIS Motherfucker!!

So the young one stayed in touch with me, and a out 3 days later came and picked me up. I told her what happened, and she screamed, asking me why would he do something like that. I told her because you live across the street and don't pay him any attention, told him no a million times..and then he recognized me as his cousins boyfriend, which I am not. She told me like it was nothing...'But you are t even my boyfriend, you're just someone who I am fucking.'  I was speechless. She asked was I still going to keep coming over when she asks me. Duh?!

That's what I don't understand. When I was younger than her,I use to drive to Paris France. It was a 10 hour round trip, and I was 17 years old when I went. I told her that. She asked was I scared and it afraid? I was nervous, but not afraid. I mean, 5 hours is close by. It's another country. I was stationed in West Germany and drove to France, no biggie. It's like driving from New York City, The Bronx, to Pittsburgh, PA. About the same driving time.

I kept on seeing her and made about 3, 4 more trips to Canada with her. She got off on the whole idea smthat she was in another country.

I Am Trying...I Think.

Never in my life had I said I hated White People. I also never thought that I couldn't do what White People do because I lack the money to do so.

When I lived in Charlotte, NC I was about a 7 minute or less ride away from the South Carolina border. I used someone car quite a bit at one time, and they told me to always fill up at the gas station that was just over the border in SC. I asked why, and they said the gas is much cheaper. That made me think.

Okay, I borrow you car quite often. So whem I go to put gas in it, you want me to use only that gas station? Because the gas is cheaper? Are you paying for the gas, or am I? I will out my money into your tank if your car where I see fit to do so. I mean, I'm paying right? But they wanted to know why won't I get it there. Main reason because everyone else does... The gas station that I go to, the store is better stocked, cleaner, and it's a different Class of people who fill up their cars with gas. Gas is gas really...I think. 

I'm not driving in the opp8 direction, only to double back to where I have to really go. That doesn't make sense to me going to that gas station.

Trump. 

No, I haven't been Busy. I...

I'm in Love with 2 different women.

There I said it. But that isn't true though. One is 59 years old, married..and had the body of a 40 year old. Throw in some tiger stripes all in the right places on her ass. She's a liar, scandalous... Has a gambling addiction... Bipolar, a diabetic, and has arthritis. The good thing about her besides the sex... She isn't sleeping with anyone else, not even her husband. The worst thing...and I'm trying to figure this out too... If I don't make Love to her everyday, which I have no issues in doing. It's not even about me orgasming anymore... If I don't, the text messages I get are hurtful. Not only that... When she leaves in the morning, her husband comes and picks her up at my house... By the time she gets home about 15 miles away, her thoughts are that I'm having sex with Trucks, Hoes, which I'm not. Well sort of 

The second woman, I always wanted her from day one, 4he first day, the first morning I seen her. She's 38 years old, a mother of 5 , dark skinned, pretty Chocolate complexion. Her ass, no...her hips are STOOPID. Her thighs are out of this world. She wears nothing but leggings ONLY. I haven't had sex sex with her as of yet, but all I give her is head. She's a Squirter, Bless her Soul. She comes by once a week, calls me and asks me what am I doing. 5hats her way of saying she wants to come over. She has NEVER had a penis in her mouth...until I asked her while she was.. She stuck her hand down in my shorts and started playing with me. Asked could she see, and pulled me out. She actually was looking...amazed, like my manhood was the first she ever seen. I'm harder than a jeep steering wheel, and what does she do? She lets the spit from her mouth drool down on it...rubs it with her finger tips. Gets her mouth very Very VERY close, but when I ask her to..she just looks at me with this look of I want to, but I dont know how to. So I told her what to do. That isn't the strange part though.

She came over one day and asked my what does my cum taste like? How the fuck should I know. Then she said she wants to taste it. So now I lay up against the headboard, she takes me out...and she does her thing. Right before I'm about to..she stops and asked me can she swallow it, she said I want to swallow it. When I release, she goes and brushes her teeth, comes back and takes out her phone and watches porn while I go down on her. She told me one time in Dollar General... 'Like I want to have sex with you, I really do..and I know I'm going to enjoy it because I really like you, but... But doing that is going to change her and she is going to want to be my girlfriend/woman...which she said that she has no problem in doing, but...But she enjoys and like the way things are now.

Her too...when she leaves and gets to where she is going, the endless text messages begin. She doesn't type the message, she uses the voice to text function. She goes on a tear. Messages so big that I have to tap to download them. And you know the voice to text isn't as accurate as you think it would be. Reading the messages after downloading them don't make sense. To top it all off... When talking to her face to face, she hints around what she is saying. Also if in a conversation from like 5 months ago..I shit you not, she will bring it up. Something I told her over a year ago, I hear it from her at least once a month. But get this.. At one time I was seeing both of them at the same time and each of them knew of the other too.

The married one use to get the 40 year old to hang out with her husband. When I say hang out, she would walk around in their house in just her panties and bra for an hour for $150.. sometimes 2, 3 times a month. The young one was at my house one day and the married one wanted me to just give her head. I told her that I had company. She said to ask her...She wanted to watch me make Love to her, to the young one, or...She wanted me to ask will she be okay if I went down on them at the same time. 5he younger one told me much later that she would have done it, but the older one was going around spreading rumors that her, the younger one was pregnant with her, the older ones boyfriend. Yep, the married one also had a boyfriend that was living under the same roof with her and her husband.

The older one even went on FB and posted.. 'Im sitting up here with my husband  in the hospital and the two of them are sleeping. (Me and the younger one), are sleeping because we have been on a smoking spree, smoking meth. Doctor thought it was me and my husband who came to get HIV tested. Doctor told me and my husband that we are infected. I corrected him and pointed to the two of them. I told the doctor that my husband drove us all here, because the both of them are nasty and infected with something.' She posted that on her FB page.

August... Oh Shit Happened Alright But...

 Plenty of things did happen in Auggie, August,, And I started writing about it... But... All were saved to draft. Oh, I still have them too. Fuck it, I'm gonna post what I didn't finish. Then come back to what I really wanted to say. Be right back.

?? Huh, what?

So... My boy was on his way to my place, when he met this woman/girl...it was around 2am.

I told him later that he just can't bring just any old body tinmy place without checking with me first. He looked at me like I was crazy, but there was a reason for me saying this.

He said he saw he dumpster diving at a store and he asked her to come along with him. She did and they both showed up at my door. For her to be homeless as he claimed, she sure did look pretty damn clean AND cute as fuck. So I let them both in.

I'm not the one to double team a woman and I told him this in the past. Only one penis in the room. So she came in and sat down and asked can she use my laptop. I signed out and then signed in as a Guest and handed it to her. I heard my laptop dialing and then ringing. No one picked up.

After awhile , she left and he did too. But he came back. That was when I schooled him about just having anyone just tag along with hime to my place. Fast-forward a couple of days.

So this woman, I'm trying to get with called me after 12 am and told me that she heard some shit about me. It would take a couple of more days for her to actually come to my house. She told me do I know a woman by a certain name. I said I didn't, but the. She told me what the deal was.

That girl my boy he brought along to my house...called a friend and told her she was at my house and she felt unsafe. The woman who told me this also said that she was with her and another guy I know at a hotel, hanging out. You just don' hang out at a hotel. She said she was trying to get rid of her, and she did. So the only way shebcoukd get back to the hotel, was to make up some excuse...that she was at my house and I was up to no good. It's a good thing that this woman who told me all of this, she sort of likes me, but her 'dance card' is sort of full, if you know what I mean.

The guy she was at the hotel with, well he has other things that he should have been more busy with. Because when he came to pick the woman up who was feeling unsafe, which was right outside my house in a parking lot, the police also arrested him for charges he had pending.

Turns around the woman who told me all of this about this girl, she is sort of messing with him and since he was locked up and no one else but to contact her. She has been to my house always after 1 am and I have been a complete gentleman with her. But she did some crazy shit.

So I texted her thru an app and told her to come over and fall asleep with me. Her response was one that I knew straight away wasn't her. It could only be one person, the guy who was locked up, who she sometimes messes with...who she claimed they are just friends. He went on to say some other stupid shit in a text thinking I didn't know it was him. Then he went on to say who it was, like I did t know, them to boast 'Big Dog's is out. 

But what I don't understand is this. Why did she show him the text from the app in the first place. Her being her...she has nothing to hide for one, and I think he wanted to know who she was texting so she handed him the phone. It is going to be what it is with them two for a short while, I know this for a fact. The way things will play out for him isn't too good, his future looks...not that quite bright. But after that, I will question her, she knows it's going to come to that and more.

I just don't understand some people way of thinking and doing things.