I Think I Know Why Now.

When I was in The Army and stationed in West Germany, I learned a lot of things besides the job the Army gave me. I learned how to live around in close quarters with people 2ho didn't like the color of my skin. But one thing that I learned back then, I use today.

I learned how to get used to being in a room for extended periods of time. I was in a two man room, but my roommate had a German girlfriend and he lived with her. I had the room all to myself. Though he still had to keep a bed in the barracks, I was still in 5hst room by myself. No one use to come in my room and hang out with me. It was any reason why they didn't, they just didn't. Most of the time I was reading, writing letters, and listening to music. The town was about 2, 3 miles away, and it was all downhill. You could take a cab which we did when we wanted to go to a fastfood place or the supermarket. But most of the time, me and many other soldiers stayed in the barracks and in our rooms...or visiting others in their rooms.

So today, I live in a studio apartment. It's one room and a separate room for the bathroom. It's a large room with a high ceiling, 1 double window, and a single window. I like it because it isn't too small, nor is it too big. I have a female friend, she likes to come over and listen to music and draw. About 2 weeks ago she came over and for some strange reason she was upset. I asked what is the problem. She stated I never take her anywhere. That surprised me. I asked her are we in a relationship, have we slept together? She is 39 years old. He response was why does it have to be all of that just to take me out once in a while. If you want to go out, go. I know she doesn't have any money to do this, so I just look at her. I told her I am not taking you anywhere, get yourself a boyfriend and let him do it.

Of course she got in my case about me being indoors all the time. I explained that when I did go out, you're not around. See I have no issues with staying indoors all the time. Everything I need i have. If I need something I go and get it. I think that is what normal people do, right?

She lives at home with her parents, and they never forced her to go out and get a job. She hasn't worked a day in her life. They give her money every week, but like in less than a day, she spends it up. So to break up of her being home all the time, she comes to my place and try tondrive me crazy. She isn't bad looking, just spoiled and thinks she can have her way any time she wants. This last Tuesday she told me she will be at my home at 7am on Saturday and she is bringing breakfast. It is now 7:21am.