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Is it me? I don't think so. Let me see if I have this right. I make millions of dollars and treated like I'm God's gift to the sport of which I enjoy very much to play. Do I choose to get married? HELL NO !! I don't understand why this guy decided to get married with all the opportunities that come across him everyday...women !! If I were making that type of money, marriage would be the furthest thing from my mind. I don't know, maybe its me.

Again...first things first. It doesn't pay to continue to drop your Sidekick on the ground and in water. Cause sooner or later its gonna give out on you...like mine did. I mean it lights up and all, sound works great, its just that I acn't see the words or pictures or ANYTHING on the screen !! I continue to add money to my T-Mobile account, cause I do recieve emails on it. I spoke with the reps at T-Mobile and they said as soon as I get another Sidekick, they will walk me through the process of registering the new device. All that said... I now know how people feel towards their Blackberries. My Sidekick kept me in touch with all my family and friends. Its been about 2 weeks now, and the cravings have all but gone away. I think this Friday I will buy another one. All my telephone numbers are stored in it, so I have no access to them at all. Until then....

My SK went dead on me....finally. I wasn't hopping that it would, it just happened for the best I guess. Problem is that everything, address and telephone numbers, are stored on the sims chip. At first it wasn't.So when it was working at times, and times it wasn't, but when it was, I copy all addresses and emails to the sims chip. Its been rough the last couple of days, about 6 of them really. No way to communicate other than waiting to get home and check my email box. So for all of those who are trying to contact me, reach out through email...

My Sidekick has been acting up, screen doesn't display, trying to get a new one. Really making me VERY angry, VERY ANGRY !!! --michaelchappell

Just thought of something. Busta Rhymes, Lord Have Mercy and Tech Ni9ne should do a colabo. For real. Especially Lord Have Mercy from Busta, they should get 2gether for something wicked. Gonna email T-9 in a bit and suggest it. Probably get cursed out or some shit. I'm listening to T-9's new album, K.O.D., this shit is off the rope chained !! I downloaded ALL of Tech 9's albums, gonna listen to all of them over the next couple of days. Pull the wicked shit, and make a playlist out of it. Ok, Bush, Linkin Park, they are the only groups I know that actually do a remix of their ablum with an actually DJ injected scratchin'. Now that's a real remix. Gonna surf da web for other bands, goroups in the rock area that do the same shit. Linkin Park's Reanimation is great. Bush's Deconstructed is great also, I play the Whole album over and over and ov..... --michaelchappell

And this muthafucker is from Kansas City......Tech Ni9ne...Album...'Sickology', trk...'Ghetto Love'. This track got a Wesr Coast type bounce to it. Found out about Tech Ni9ne about 5 or 6 months ago. Some say he worships the devil. I don't think so, but his beats are RUFF, straight head bopping shit. Baseline is ultra clean. Listen closely and ya hear all types of stuff, as in music stuff. The lyrics are crazy as shit. --michaelchappell

Some people use Twitter for all the wrong reasons. I use it to get sh*t off my chest. Can't yell at some people, so I Twit them. Its strange though. Who follows me. Its mostly spam bots I think. I fioloow some people, quite a bit of people really. Some have some decent stuff to say, others.... They waste their time. Like the up and coming 'so-caled' model. You look good in print, but when you Twitter..... Models should be seen and not heard is what I say, well, not all of them. Just the young ones. I follow this cat called Sockington. This cat has some really strange, real cat-like shit to say. Drives me crazy, has me laughing. I know its not a real cat, but what this person twitters, its what a cat would say if it could. Another young lady, lives in California, I guess. Beatuiful looking, is having men issues. Who would have figured that. I mention before she goes out and drinks almost every weekend, if not every night. She regrets it all the time, this is by what she Twit...

don't you hate it when you really want to do something, but that something..... Well, that something doesn't leave you with enough time to take care of other things you REALLY have to do. I hate saying no sometimes, then there are times when I say no with no problems at all. To me it feels like I've let that person or people down. What comes first to me, as I feel like I'm turning into an old man now, is that I MUST get my rest, my sleep. Especially when I close, then turn around when I have to open in the morning. With no rest, I get cranky, bothered and in my field that can't happen. I hope family and friends understand this. Before I went to sleep last night, 10:23pm, I broke down the hours of my days. 3pm to 10pm I worked, got home went to sleep. Woke up at 5am and have to work from 7am to 3pm. Now today that leaves me with 14 hours before I have to wake up again. I've come to realize that Sunday to Monday is not a good time for me to do anything but work a...

A feamle said that males need, show learn how to show respect to a woman when a pprosching her for the firt time, in conversation. Here are my thoughts on that matter. Take a single guy, in a bar, where if not most of the women are single, are there to have a good time. A good time. What does that envoled? Converstaion, or just there to get drunk? It could be a little bit of both. Who says that women don't want the same thing we want, casual sex. I mention this because I follow this woman on Twitter, she's from LA. Every Sunday night or early Monday morning, she says she's never gonna go out and drink again. Only to end up doing the same thing the next weekend all over again. My thoughts on the matter are simple, do what you feel and have no regrets what's so ever no matter what the out come is. I know some may not understand my way of thinking. But I say this. It it hurts no one else, and it soesnt kill you, what the fuck. Again, we are not suppose to live forever, and...

P.S 99 Walter J. Damrosch JHS 136 HS of Art & Design Dutchess Community College Techinacl Career Institutes Monroe College Westchester Business School Skidmore College Just 65 credits away from my BS. Shhhhh !! Don't tell anybody though, its a secret --michaelchappell

On April 23rd, 2010, I will be 50 FUCKIN' YEARS OLD !! Oh shit, 50 years old. That shit doesn't even sound right, sounds stupid. I don't feel like it, I don't think like it, and I don't smell like it. Let me take a look at what has changed with me. One, when tha fuck or what the fuck is a mid life crisises? Am I to have one....when?? Please tell me, cause I can't really afford to go out and but some exotic car I don't need just because I want or need to feel younger. Ok enough of that, don't want to even think about it. Moving on to women. My taste of women have change drastically. I men now when I see a young woman, and young I mean below the age of say 30, I say to myself, does she think on the same level as me. Don't get me wrong, my level can fall between being up, and being lower. I'm saying I like to have fun, so a 30 year old might be too mature for me, but a 40, late 40 year old may be thinking on my level. But you take a risk, risk is ev...

I don't get depress during the holidays, well I don't think its depr3ession. I just don't like being around family during the holidays. I say an article, ad in the newspaper with symtons for this type of shit. It says that I should be on some type of medication or something. What tha fuck does that mean. Who doesn't like being around a bunch of people acting crazy drinking, fighting getting into arguemnets over bullshit for nothing. Traveling there and back when its cold. Not really wasting my time, but I could be r3esting myself for the up coming week and stuff. Not to say that I'm off on holidays too. Like Thanksgiving. The store is open from 7am to 4pm, my regular hours are from 7am to 3pm. I could take the day off, and get paid 4 hours for the day, or, work ang get time and a half PLUS 4 more hours. I have to work the next day anyway frm 7am to 2pm. I don't plan on eating any turkey either on that day. The beginning of Thanksgiving week, Monday, I'm cook...

In a perfect world...we are all born as adults, no childhood, straight to adulthood. Being that its not so, we have to endure childhood with all the problems and shit, its part of 'growing up'. Why I say this, its because of this, bear with me here. Because we are born as infants and advance to the stages of adulthood, there are a lot of things we grow to know, main things are employment, then marraige and a family. In a perfect world, we are born as adults, then straight to employment and then maybe marriage. Employment. See, if we are employed and don't have to worry about raising children, there would be less stress. That's the way I see it. As an adult, the only person you would have to take care of is yourself, no stress. If you only have to take care of just yourself, as an adult you would only need the basics, food clothing and shelter, nothing else. Being that its just you, do you really need a whole apartment or just one room? To me, just one room that you shar...

I was just thinking, I do that a lot lately...just think. Not use to doing it as much though, don't want to confuse myself, but anyway. Was just thinking..... Why is it that I set myself up to do something, and I never completely finish or do it. I have a reason why. I work with the public, so my alone time is my time. My time to do what ever I want to do. It seems that most of the time its I want to do nothing. I mean I bust my ass at work like all the people do who work, and when I'm finished, I just want to relax and unwind. That's why even the littlw things like going to wash my clothes went from every week to every 2 weeks, then to every 3 weeks. I'm not lazy, its just that sometimes I need to purge all the days work from my head. Its been taking longer and longer to do. Like right now I'm on this watching all these war time movies, color and black and white too. Been downloading them really. Get up in the morning, set 2 or 3 movies for download, when I come ho...

Walking home from work, it came to me. I was thinking again about my time in Germany in The Army, shit stays with me. I wanted to see what the Army Post I was stationed at looked like now, enter Google Earth. Downloaded and installed it, and did a search. GE changed quite a bit from when I first used it. Now it gives quite a bit more info and links. My search took me to Military.com. I had registered there a while ago too, so I logged in and found my unit. People were looking for people. I found one guy D, Crammer, we were in the same section together, he was the brainac back then in FDC, Fire Direction Center. I use to use his urine for Piss Test when my name came up. So I dropped a tag to him with my email address. Hope he gets in touch. Where would we be as humans without computers and the internet. They kinda go hand in hand...computers and internet..ok and humans too. --michaelchappell

Shorts, the movie stars, James Spader of Boston Legal, John Cryer of Two and a Half Men, and William Macy of countless great films and movies he starred in. Its really a kids movie, but with an adult type them, bad is bad, good is good. I downloaded it the other day, and just decided to watch it because Clockwork Orange is WAY too strange for me to watch. Stanley Kurbic is a strange man...really starnge. But Shorts was a good movie. Watch it..er..download it. --michaelchappell

I love listening to musuic, but I don't get enough time to lsiten to it. I could try at night, to go to sleep to, but what I lsiten to gets me way too hyped. That's why I listen to WABC, 770am, talk radio to go to sleep. I also have XM Radio too, 165 or so statons I can listen to too. Less not forget, since I have hi speed, there's internet radio. One of the cashiers at work asked me to make her a mp3 cd, so I did. She came back and ask me, what type of music do I listen to. It vast wide and different is all I can say. I can tell you what I don't listen to, R&B, well old school R&> I do, but not that much., that and this new type of hip hop. Give me old skool stuff. Now the Bookkeeper heard that I did one for her, no she wants one. Problem is that I can't get enough time to lsiten to any music, mostly on my day off if I'm not sleeping. But I will make her a cd, and have it ready for Sunday when I go back in. I have a couple of 2 hour sets by a couple ...

I'm sorry to hear that you are going thru some troubles and are in pain. I don't know what I can do or say to make you feel better. I know...wanna have some sex? Just joking, but for real, try that. See, sex, good sex, tha kind thatmake ya holla at the moon type sex, well it releases chemicals. Ya know about that right? Some one told me about it when I was having a bad tooth ache. I mean this shit would only bother me at night. During the daytime, I would overdose on Advil. This friend told me to try masterbating at night right before I go to sleep. So, I tried it...a couple of nights in a row too. Toothache went away all by itself. Ummmm you may ask. But if your pain is so intense, NOTHING will help it go away. All I can say is that I will continue to say my prayers at night for you. The prayers I say at night are for you to go to sleep without any pain, and to wake up in the morning with less pain so that you can at leats start your day. It all I can do, other thn saying to y...

This woman, Tequlia, I'm following her on Twitter and what not. I have to say, she is a beautiful young woman, but... She can't make up her mind about which sex, and who she wants to be with. Just recently, now she wants a lesbian, she can't be bisexual. She tells about how things will be with her thrru Twitter. Her Twits make me mad as hell too. Don't know why, but they do I'm thinking she gonna grab some young woman, and mess her head all up. Dump her, and then move on. Kind of like a guy would do. So this Officer at Ft. Hood Texas didn't die, huh? Well he is gonna wish that he did when they get finished with him. My job, you know I have to go there, right? Well my job, field, I wouldn't want to work in any other field, well it gettin' to be a pain in the ass for real. People quit, they hire new people and all of a sudden they can't work certain days or certain hours. Fuck that shit. Ya lucky you are getting, having a job. Of course, I could be cut...

What Your Deli Clerk Would Want You To Know. We are on our feet from 6 to 12 hours a day, 6 days a week. If we look tired, most likely we are tired. We do NOT get a lunch break, even though we would probably fall asleep during any break we get. A Deli Clerk is the hardest job in the Supermarket. We are all departments rolled into one. If you treat us like The Help, we are gonna treat you like The Customer. You don't want that? Be friendly towards us and we will return the feeling. Don't know what to eat, ask us, we HAVE TO taste evrything in the deli EVERYDAY !! Out side the store..we are NOT paid to be social with you, but we will and do say hello. Yes, we wash our hands more times a day than you think. We wonder what happened to the days of standing and conversating with us while we sliced your order for you. If you approached the counter talking on your cell phone, we will wait until your conversating is finished, then talk your order. A ham and cheese sandwich is more compl...

Being that I'm off on Saturdays....for now that is, I'm just getting use to the flow of things. Its a pretty good deal. Off on friday at 2pm, and don't have to be back to work until Sunday at 3pm. Then on Monday its 7am to 2pm. Sounds good to me. Sundays is a busy day in the deli, people getting their cold cuts for the school day, stocking up for the next 2 to 3 days. Last minute people coming into the deli, not know what they want. Its a good thing that I'm refreshed and ready to go. If I was working on Saturdays, Sundays would be a killer. I would be ready to kill some people. People don't know what they want when they come to the counter, its amazing, you should see the look on their faces. For these prices, I would know what I want when I leave the house. What's worse than that is, people coming early in the morning. Maybe its just me, but I can't see myself wanting...needing cold cuts that early in the morning, like at 7am !!! These people come to the d...

When I joined The Army, I needed no HS diploma or parents consent, I just turned 17 years old 2 months prior. I learn a lot of shit in the militray, some don't or won't understand the Life Lessons I leraned. Its like this.... You are the protection that all you need. You know the difference between right and wrong. You can get away with wrong for only so long, then it catches up to you. You learn to size up people, you learn how to approach people in certain situations. You learn how to use key words and adhere to body language. You learn to speak your mind, have your say and stand by your convictions. You learn to face up to the truth. Mostly, you learn how to deal with people and life terms. Not all can do that it seems, but those of military train and conditioning do. When shit gets knee deep, we learn to reach out for help. I learned to reach out for help. I also learned that for every action, there is a reaction. You may soumd like its a cliche, it is, but its true. Like t...

See what happens when a person works in customer service/food industry? I asked for Saturday the 12th of December off, it was approved. Its rare that you get a Saturday off in my line and field of work, Saturdays are the busiest day of the week. Well my brothers and sisters changed the date to the next wekend, the 19th. Like, I went to the powers that ne and told them of the weekend date switch, and they told me that no way I can have that Saturday off. I not mad or anything, just a little dissappointed. I haven't seen certain family memebers since I was 17 years old, and was looking forward to seeing them this time. Another reason I'm not mad, cause I know what is, is what it is. Lucky and glad to have a job with the way things are going. My brothers, sisters and my sister inlaw are emailing back and forth with the details about what's going on. Moms knows nothing about it. Its turning out to be a real nice affair so far. I want to be there, and I can, but this is what...

I noticed something again. Since I don't got to the movies, I downlaod them, I've been seeing a lot of movies that I've downlaod months ago, just now coming out. There's one starting this Friday, Pirate Radio. It was good. Another one that got raved reviews, was The Hurt Locker. Now this was a GREAT movie. What are they, leaked to the internet? Smuggled out by an intern, or better yet, its all done on purpose? Makes me wonder. --michaelchappell

I've noticed something over the past 3 to 4 weeks. Its nothing big, but then again....my weight. Since I work with food 6 days a week, I don't each much when I do. Its my time off. I get off from work at 2pm on Friday, off on Saturdays, don't have to be back to work until 3pm on Sunday. From 5pm on Friday, I'm constantly eating, except for Sunday, I don't eat anything at all. I weighed myself on Friday, I weigh 152 pounds. Sunday morning, I weigh between 157 to 162 pounds !! Wow. During this time, I'm not eating any junk food except for maybe 2 bags of potato chips, everything else is a balance meal. But like I said, I don't eat anything Sunday thru Friday. Well I do, its junk food then. Stuff with a lot of sugar, mostly coffee cakes, a honey buns. I think the reason why for the junk food is because I need the energy cause I'm on my feet for 7 to 9 hours a day. Even when I get home, I have a honey bun, then I hit the sack. You would figure that with all ...

Ok, I knew that it was happening in the first couple of days in Nov., but I didn't know it was the 1st of Nov., Sunday, TODAY !!! Got off the Metro North train at Grand Central and ATTEMPTED to walk to the F train station at Bryant Park. I thought my worst fears would be that the train station would be close, this was after coming to 5th ave and ALL the buses...and RUNNERS !! I was wondering why all the buses. Since I NEVER ran in the marathon, it never crossed my mind how the runners got to the starting point. Now I know, they get bused there. At 6am in the morning, there are a lot of people out here who WANT to do the following. Put their bodies thrugh the most pain ever imagin in all the world...no less, in the rain. All the runners, plus all the left over partiers from the Holloween Parade in The Village, makes a strange combination of people walking the streets this early in the am. Last night where I was staying for the night, I saw a Gumby, a Knight in REAL Shiney Armor and ...

I've been hunting 2 times in my whole entire life. First time, West Germany, while in the Army. My unitwent to the field for 3 days. On the 2nd night I was told that ibwas needed for a detail a special one. I had to collect about 20 bayonets. The Mess Sargent called over the radio for our supporting engineer company to come a dig a hole in the ground for him. Right after the dinner mess was serverd, I had to take the slop to the whole that was dug. I went down in the hole and placed all the bayonets points up in the ground. I mad a trail from the woodline to the hole in the ground, and waited. I fell asleep, was woke up and told to report to the messhall, they caught a wild boar. I was lowered into the ground, the thing was still alive, barely, I had to cut its throat. Besides that I had to cut up the pieces and had them up. I was covered from head to toe in blood. Never got the chance to taste it though. Today, I received a package from the meat manager. The owner of the store wen...

A female friend that I have known now for about 5 years is having a problem. She instant messge me through Yahoo, told me to call her, so I did. She has been in this relationship with this guy for 2 years and he treats her like shit. Fighting, cops coming to the house, the whole 9 yards. She asked me what she should do? I told her to end it but she says he won't leave. Told her to start sleeping on the couch, he should get the message then. She says she tried, but..... she horney all the time, and she uses him for sex only. Okaaaaaaay?? So he beats up on you, but you fuck him in the long run? I don't understand that shit. She told me that she wishes he could be like me, in what way I ask. Like, she only wants him around when she feels like having sex. So tell him that. She says she did, but he has no where to go, he would be homeless. Well, in order to make an omlett, you have to break some eggs I say. So she wants to come and see me not this saturday, but the next one. I told ...

I was just thinking about something, thought I would just put it out there too. How come there aren't any REALLY good tech magazines. Good enough with useful shit that the average person can use. Like the best 'free' anti virus to download. I mean there are some nice magazines out there. I use to have a subscription to Wired Magazine, but somewhere along the way they 'jumoped the shark' so to speak. Its probably just me, but I crave..no, I need information. I have the NEED to know...EVERYTHING !! Well not everything, but what most people don't know, or want to know. It soeant even have to be technology drive, jsut things that you would like to know everyday. I was also 'buying' the thursday's NY Times just for the technology section, and then they went achanged up on me. Like I really need to know about the new 800 dollar camera that's on the market or soon to be. Another thing, Vista, what the fuck was that operating system was all about. A fri...

I downloaded the movie, and I watched it last night..alone. It everything that they are talking about, its freakin' scary as hell. At first it gets a littkle slow, but quickly it builds up to speed. For it to be have made with such a little budget, about $15K, and with the total of 6 or 7 on screen actors, add in that they are ALL unknowns. This is the best scary picture of the year. Yeah I know, Blair Witch Project, that to me was a total let down, but that movie grossed ove 245 million dollars world wide. This movie, is going in that direction but further. Watch it at night and alone for the best effect. Which brings me to this..... Paranormal activity has been around for a long time. My first brush with it was in the late 70's, remember the Floating Bible and The Floating Cross, let me bring you back. In certain areas in The South Bronx, one was on the corner of Union ave @7 169th street, the other was on Hoe ave, there was this sighting of crosses and bibles. The one on 169...

She, I don't know her name, wait, I do, but can't pronounce it right now. She asked me did I find her yet. I told her no. In another convo, with a different person, I said...'I work hard, and I play hard' I hope this woman can read between the lines. As stated before, I'm not afraid of a relationship slash commitment, its just that I don't have the time. I'm serious about that too. From my experinces, I would miss out on certain things with a relationship, meaning sex, great sex. Once you move in together, I see, that sex stops. Sex plays a BIG part in a realtionship to me. So, am I always gonna be single, well...... --michaelchappell

First things s first. T-Mobile...enough said. On to other agendas. One of my friends came by work yesterday, and we had a little talk. It seems that she is now single... again after 10 years. Thats what she told me, "again" She didn't get into why, and the what, but I know its bothering her. How I know? She gave me the "I'm gonna do me" talk. Hello, everyday we wake up we are doing ourselves, thats what I said, but not to her. She told me that she has to have 6 months to get herself together. 6 months of NOT dating, or going out with some one. WTF is that all about. Let me see if I have this staright, with what she said. Soooo, if you aren't doing what I ask you to do, and you are making me unhappy... I don't want a relationship with you any more. If you are not giving me what I want, when I want it, I don't want a relationship with you any more. Is that what she is saying. On top of all of that, I'm gonna take 6 months off to do me. In other...

TMobile still actin' funny, no email and 'G' comes and goes. Can't say what I want in 160 characters, so I will say little, but..T-Moble u STILL SUCK !!

Nope not texting, only so many characters allowed, 20th in line with tmobile now

The only problem is, I can't add a title to the blog... wait, the wheels are turning, lets see this. Just Another Test 3 T-Mobile is NOT gettin' a Chr

Ok, now I can text to my Blog, since T-Mobile email is actin like a lil' bitch now

Test again

This weekend that just past, T-Mobile had had some problems. Though most of them are cleared up, they still have a major problem with me. I know you always hear,"always back up your data" You would never think that that also ment your cellphone addresses, contacts. I figured, that if I don't lose my cell phone, or SideKick, that the provider will always be there, be there having my contacts stored. I spoke about this before with friends. I spoke about if you lose your cellphone, all your contacts will be lost forever, caus who ever writes them down, huh ? The, T-Mobile had a GLOBAL BLACOUT !! The whole past weekend, was havoc, I thought I was going to go crazy. I was able to text, but that was just it. Im online now, ad i'm number 83 in line with support Live Chat. Not too bad, yesterday I was number 210.

I received a email from my 1st GF this morning. She's in Georgia, and has ben there for the last 7 years. I'm relieved that she is okay and such, cause I thought she was one of the victims of 9/11 cause she worked in one of the towers, on the 61st floor she said. Her company had moved out when the first bombing happened in the garage. I'm happy about that cause all this time I thought she had died. It bothered the hell out of me because the attacks had hit me personally because of her. Now that she's ok, I feel some type of comfort, hard to explain. But now she is in the south and I want to reach out to her, see her in person, to confirm that she is alive. I know she is cause she wrote, er, emailed me. But this is just to confirm. Sitting outside of the store at 6:05am using a wireless connection on my laptop. Its getting cooler, so I won't be doing this much more. I detest cold weather !!! Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®

This guy comes in the store last week, his wife is having a Baby Shower. She comes to the deli, and she has tasted my cooking. She tells her husband that she wants her Shower catered by me. My deli manager spoke with the guy this week. He wants to know how much it cost, its for this Saturday. My deli manager calls me on my day off to tell me that on Thursday he wants to talk to me. HELLO, you're the manager, find out what he wants cooked, how mnay people and then give him a price. But noooo, he wants to talk with me. Ok So its on a Saturday. Take in mind that I have to set up the deli, cook some chickens, cook food for the steam table...and then cook food for this Shower. When I say I'm not being paid well enough for this position I hold, I'm telling the truth. Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®

It was 9th grade, Walter J. Damrosh JHS 136. My FIRST girlfriend. You never forget your first, right? That year was 1974, or 75 ? Fast forward. I'm living in Westchester County, Mount Vernon. I walk to the Number 2 train station. I worked on 75th street and Broadway, Citeralla's. On the train she asks me my name and tells me who she is. Very pretty looking, its her, my first GF !! She's married with children, we make plans to see each other, but I can't remeber if we exchanged numbers. Me, I'm cooking everywhere, Westchester County, Philly, NYC and CT, all over the place. So we got out of touch. Fast forward a little more. Me working and living in New Rochelle, working for Stop & Shop. The year 2001. And then the untinkable happens, 9/11. I think she said she worked there. I'm heart broken. Every year after that I think of her and the last time I saw her on the train, always pretty, braids in her hair. I search all data bases for her name, but remembered she...

I kind of like that I have Tuesdays off instead of Thursdays. My manager cchanged my day of a couple of months ago. At ffirst I fought for my Thursdays, but now, I find out it better for me accross the board. Not gonna get into why and all, its just is. It never fails, my Fridays, it seems that some customer trys to give me a hard time. This time the store manager was in the deli. Customer says she wants some cheese. Ia sk herw what kind of cheese and she points to the cheese diaplay. There are about 10 different cheeses displayed. I know it nothing to point to each cheese and ask her, but come on people, help me out here. After the fourth pointing, which was swiis cheese, I told swiss cheese, and ask her how much? She has the nerve to tell me to slow down and take it easy. Note... some people shouldn't leave their house after the just have taken their medication. When they are out in the street, medications always kick in. You're not in the confines of your home, and some peop...

Since football season has started, and I have to close the deli on Sunday nights... I a little off about working on Sundays period. But Sunday's are a time and a half day, and I can use the money. Its not like I want to work for free. Now if I had a dvr, there would be no problem. Ah, but there is. One of my housemates, she also works where I work at, she a cashier, she was transfered to another store today. Well today is her last day at my location. I wish I had a picture of her, but I had to formatted my external hard drive, and everything on it was wiped clean. I just wanted to show you what she looks like. She REALLY pretty. Another thing is that she's young, 21 years old. Some may say that old enough. But if you have a consious, you would think otherwise like I do. She knows and my othe housemate know, that I'm really into the both of them. The way things are now, like I said, are nice. I can put up with just looking..and wishing...and HOPING that one night they will B...

See, that's why I love my job and love waiting on the customers that I serve. Woman approached me this morning, ans aked me did I know of anyone wanting to rent an aprtment. In a private house, basement aprtment, private entrance, full use of the backyard, washer & dryer, and get this FREE wireless internet. All for 600 a month, or 150 a week. I might jump on it. But I have a phobia about living in a basement though, guess I can get over it Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®

Three's Company Too. I had lived in Queens before, Kew Gardens. Then I was renting an attic aprtment, back in the early 80's, for 1150 dollars a month. Then about 7 years later, in Kew Gardens again, rented out a room with 2 female housemates. That was interesting cause they were beautiful, breathtaking, and they picked me as a housemate. Problems arised when they took me as in house security. Figuring they can act a nut in the clubs, lead a guy on and take them home, and then attempt to throw them out. The guys were there for one reason only...sex, and these 2 girls led them into thinking that was going to happen. Me, being in my room would hear all this noise, them trying to get these guys out and me, I could only take so much. First time I said nothing. But by the 4th time, I would come out of my room and help throw these guys out. The 10th time, I moved out, they had issues. Now I live in a nice private house, with my own room. The 2 females that are single sleeping in the ...

Since there aren't any coffee trucks by the library I'm at, or at least I don't know where they are at, I went searching. I walked by a DayTop which USE TO BE located at. And yes, I'm a graduate, Springwood House, Rhienbeck, NY. Don't ask, long story. It was when I 'continued' to think I could do what I wanted to do. The good thing about employment, constant employment, is that the courts take into consideration that not all people are bad, they just tend to do bad things...sometimes. You know something, I'm trying to figure out the closing of this location. Has drug use really fallen that below, that facilites are closing. Or is it cause the rent is too high, and they can't afford the rent? DayTop is known world wide, I can't see it being the latter, rent problems. Out on Long Island, Suffolk County. They are having problems with herion use, so maybe a facility opened there. But you would figure they would keep all their city ficilies open, gues...

...my MONEY !!! You can mess with my girlfriend, and even sleep with my wife or girlfriend. You can talk about my family memebers, curse them out and shit. But one thing you don't do..DON'T FUCK WITH MY MONEY !!! Straight cheese people.. I work way too hard for the lousy pay I get. I work long and hard hours too. On my feet from 8 to 9 hours a day, 6 days a week. I know, I know. Well why don't I get a better job you may ask. HELLO !!! We are in a reccession, and 2 years ago a guy like me would apply online for jobs, get interviews and NOT go. I was being lazy. At the time of applying it seemed like a good idea, but when interview day came around..... So, right now jobs are a little bit hard to come by, soooo, I stay where I'm at. But, there's the feeling of one day, just one day, the strings will be cut and I will be out of a job. But I continue to look at the market though. The market is beginning to pick up again, slowly. If I come to work everyday and do what I...

I like the Fall for many reasons. Its not too hot, and its not too cold. The best of both seasons. I mentioned to a customer about her car that I saw her get into, it was a small convertable, a two seater. Driving thru upstate NY, leaves changing their colors and the wind against your face. I can see why dogs hang their faces out of car windows. Its a great, wonderful feeling. Along with the changing of the weather, brings on the changing of Fall tv shows. These networks have it all wrong though. Right when you get used to the story line, they cancel the show because Nelso. Ratings says not that many viewers are viewing it. Ok, make another network and place all the cancel shows on it, and give the viewers what they want I say. Another issue to me is that the two shows I want to watch come on at the sme time, but different channels, so I have to choose one or the other. What I do is watch one, and download the other. But there's an issue with that too, my 'borrowed' interne...

That's how much time is left in my day. Its not bad working the counter, but early in the morning, most people tend to just wake up in front of my counter. They tell me they want a pound of this, when they really are saying to themselves they want a half a pound of that. What wakes the up is the price. Oh yeah, they blame me cause they say I didn't hear what they said in tghe first place. Since school is back, all the teachers from the school are dropping by. This one teacher, we got a thing for each other, but we both love our own alone time. So we went into detail a little about what we both want. Seems we are on the same page. She also wants to know why I don't have a girlfriend. I have friends who are females. Gave her my email address, she asked for it, so I will see where it goes. Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®

WATER !! We, I need it to survive, right? Not only for drinking, but for washing our asses. So why is it my landlord has a problem with supplying it? I mean for taking showers. She said that he water bill each month is too high. This is coming from a woman who washes the front sidewalk and waters her garden every fucking' day !!1 I NEED to take a shower twice a day cause I work with food. This shit really pisses me off. Gonna say something to her today, fuck this. Its about to get cold soon, and if she does this with water, I wonder what the heating will be like. Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®

I haven't been making entries lately. Its not like I have nothing to say, just been tired, lazy. All that's gonna change boys & girls. Starting 2morrow, and every other dy afterwards, I will force myself to make my say. Like stuff, things, issues come up every day with me. Nothing that's gonna make me lose it. But there have been times when I thought I was gonna starting killing again. Some people look inside the box while standing on the outside. They have never been IN the box, but looking on the outside in, makes them think they know what's going on. But, they haveno idea, oh well. Monday, Wednesday and Friday....with more pictures too. Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®

Put this image in your head, its a broad one. Try and figure out where I'm, this is all going. The mid west, open counrty. All of a sudden hundreds, well not hundreds, but a lot of communties spring up from no where. Brand new homes, 2 and 3 bedroom homes with back yards. The back yards measure 7 car lengthd long and 3 car lengths wide. For one community there are about 100 to 250 homes, with in the center of all of this, is a community club house. This club house can hold about 300 to 400 people, that's seated, at ONE feeding. This means the kitchen is large enough to handle this many people, thismany meals per day. But get this, its 4 club houses that look like one. So that's 1600 people that can be fed. This place is in the middle of nowhere, and its just not one community, there are about 100 to 200 of them just sitting there. The homes are your typical family homes, but if you look closer at them, tey aren't what they seem. NONE of the homes have kitchens, but ther...

So, I left Germany, and I had an 8 hour flight back to The US of A. As we were approaching NY, the Captain said that the plane was being re routed to Newart Airport, we were suppose to land at McQuire Air Force Base. I haven't been in The States in 3 years, what did I know. I started thinking, shit now I have to lug my baggage to McQuire AFB, and leave from there. But wait, they had a shuttle bus that would take us there for free, no charge. Got on the bus and started talking with the driver. Told him I was from NY. He asked me why was I going in the other direction. FUCK !! The driver told me he had to reurn to Newart airport, so I could ride back. Once I got back there, it was like everyone had left, it was empty. This guy approached me and pulled out a knife. I carried a Buck knife on my belt, this was way before 9/11, so it was legal. I pulled mine out and he ran. Great, first day back and some one tries to stick me up. Fuck this, I took a cab from the airport to The Bronx, cos...

I left Germany on March 15th, 1980. Mind you now, I spent from September 3, 1977 to March 15th, 1980, all overseas. I never got the chance to come home stateside to see my family. That was due to something I said. Since my unit was an Artillery unit, and a Self Propelled Howizter Unit and we were Nuclear Capable, we had a Special Weapons Team. I was on that team. I had a Top Secret Nuc Clearenace. My job function on this team started out as a Guard. About 3 manuals, 100 to 200 pages thick, plus all the basic Army stuff, I had to memorize. Training was around the clock, this meaning that at any given time, most likely when I'm in bed at 2am, the would assemble the team for training. Me and my teammates would have to be ready to pull out in about 30 minutes from the time we were notified. That didn't help if you just got into bed at 1am or so. But what cause me not to see The United States, was my fault. It was during one of those 2am musters and another instance, that cuased me ...

Lately, I have been watching some good tv. Some of it regular bradcast tv, most of it of what I have been downlaoding. I noticed something though, American broadcasting is different form Acroos the Pond. Meaning, The BBC. I have been downloading some BBC stuff that talking about some interesting topis. Honey bees, world food shortage. I notice about the honey bees a couple of months ago, but what I watched is really scary. Not to mentioned, the food crisis that we are about to be involved in. That's even scairer. We, as Americans don't really see the issue about food. Because, all we do is go to the supermarkets, grocery stores and pick what we want off the shelves. But what if we aren't able to do that any more. What if it became like some of these third world countries, here in The United States. Who would eat better, only the rich? I don't even want to think like that because it becomes frightening all over again. Here, in the good old US of A, broadcasting tv, and c...

I wondered what happened. Was it me? Of course it was, had to be. I don't really know what to say, but this..... I miss you, the special moments, the closeness. The feelings I knew what you were looking for, and it was me if couldn't give you what you wanted. I could say I can change that, but that wouldn't be honest, that's not me. All I can say is that I'm sorry for that, wished it could've been different. But, I still miss you, all of you. Making love to you is different, was different. All that you included. Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®

Because my job brings me in contact with the public, I get to meet all types of people. The one gtoup of people that I'm always happy to hold converstions with are veterans. They come from all branches of the Armed Forces, but mostly I've been running across Army Vets. This one guy yesterday came to my counter and held a nice little conversation with me. It started off with his son, who is only 15 years old and weighs he said, 330 pounds. He told me that its all muscle, and that he in training for next year games. How I found out that he was a Vet was that he led me through the tough times that he's going through. Its not money tough times, its not being able to do things with his son like he wants to. This guy is 59 years old but looks like he is in his early 30's, no shit. He told me he was stationed in Germany and we compared units, he was a MP, Military Police. After what has happened to him, because of his Military choice, I consider him a great person to have met....

I used to read a whole lot. When I mean a whole lot, I'm mean a WHOLE LOT. I always had a couple of books and magazines in my bakpack. That was when I was living in Brooklyn and working in Queens. Now that I live about 10 and a half minutes from work, all I ever read are the newspapers, about 3 to 4 of them a day. Well I started reading this one book. 'Loving Women', by Pete Hamil. Won't tell you what's its about until I get to the end of it, but I read the auther before, I think. One of his books is named, 'Forever'. If you come across this title, pick it up, you won't be able to place it down. The story is about a young kid who joines The Navy, and he's from Brooklyn, NY. Sounds fimilar, huh? He gets stationed in Flordia after coming off of leave staright out of Basic Training. This book in some ways is mocking my life. But one thing its doing is jumping ahead, to his adult years at the beginning of each chapter, then it jumps back to when he was i...

I was putting off seeing this young lady for a good while now, almost a whole year. No, it hasn't been a whole year yet. The last time I saw her it was still cold, so it had to be around January or Febuary, I think. That last time it cost me 100 dollars of my HARD earned money. I said that I would turn her loose, never call her or go to see her. I should've listen to myself. Me and my dumb ass self, went to The Bronx to see her. I mean, I left work, it was slow, and I took 3 buses to go see her. Should've went and stayed home. Without going into detail, she totaly changed. Her looks, and the way she carries herself, all different. I know she doesn't use drugs or drink. But some people who don't do neither of the 2, still can and will have the same motive as a person who does. 10 minutes after seeing her, I went about my business. Didn't make up anexcuse or anything, just cold jumped on the tran. I know she will call, and leave a message on my cell phone. I at le...