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So almost at the end of 2010, and I'm ready to start 2011. I'm ready to see what the new year brings. I'm gonna give qa short run down of this year 2010, ready? Well, I made more money than I did last year. I also owe more than I did last year too. 400 dollars, plus intrest, oh yeah, throw in blowing off the IRS, comes to over 7K dollars. Then throw in another 1500 I back rent. What, me worry? Hells no. That's what I owe in 2010. But I'm alive BITCHES !! Made some new friends, both online and in person. The ones in person, females, I keep forgetting their names so I told them this. It would be a lot easier if you just sleep with me, that way I won't forget your name. That didn't go over so well with the ones I really wanted to sleep with, but the others, ok. Met some guy friends,but I can meet those type in my dreams/ the ones that really matter thou, I don't know their names, I call them dude. They know mine though. Father passed away 1st of December. I...

..cause I'm a lazy bastard who has no time for a relationship, just work. That's what it all boils down to really. I met a nice young lady with a 15 year old son, we are feeling each other out right now. One thing I keep doing is forgetting her name. I told her that in the past, the way learned to remember someone's name, female of course, was to sleep with her. She gave me that look, a look of, 'so we ARE going to sleep together huh, cool'. She works across the street from where I work at, and she lives in the neighborhood, I think. She a really nice person, love her accent. Well I like everything about her really. She has a sense of humor and see mine as really weird. Today I'm asking her for her phone number. Even thou I'm not a phone person, I can see myself talking to her on the phone for hours. I have majicjack, so that's no problem with a bill. Can't wait til she comes in today. --michaelchappell

Last night I went to sleep and a had a decent nights sleep too. Out of the blue, I decided to text a certain female friend of mine. The more I tapped on the keys, the more I wanted to tap on her. She is now a good as walk from me. I mean I could walk it, but with all this snow... I notice something as I was texting her about relationships. Nothing world shattering, just how I see my relationships with women. I love being in one...that's if I can find the time. Job security comes first in the times we are living right now. Hate to say it, but a piece of ass, isn't worth losing your job over. Well, nothing is worth losing your job over. Like I said, the more I tapped, the more I wanted to be with her, right then and there/ I wonder if women feel the same as men do when it comes down to sex? See, a guy will just call a woman up, and talk their way into, ya know, their bed. But I wonder if there are any women who do the same thing. I know of some that will beat around the bush, and...

I can remember the times I spent on Christmas, the where. One was on Border Patrol, Berlin, never will forget that one. It wasn't depressing at all, just strange. Yesterdays's Christmas...was also strange. I was suppose to go spend Christmas Eve and Day with my ex and her mother. Friday, after work, was taking Metro North, upstate, White Plains, NY. Then for some strange reason, I didn't feel like going anywhere, just wanted to go home. I went home to a cold ass apartment, no heat. That's what I got for changing my plans. I just didn't feel like traveling, doing anything but nothing. I had enough food for the day, so why not do what I enjoy most..NOTHING. I didn't even feel like being around family. I just wanted to be relaxed, chilled, decompressed. All I did was download a lot of movies and tv shows, then watched them. Then, I thought about having some company over. But there seems to be a problem with that also. I was ready for female company right then and t...

It seems as the years go by, Christmas becomes less and less important of a holiday to me. I know its the birth of Christ and all, but its all commericalism if you ask me. That is if you want a lot of regular tv. I don't. I download all the tv shows that I live to watch from different torrent sites. The one I use mostly, eztv.it . The great thing about downloading any tv from a torrent site is that ALL commericals are not part of the downloads. Since my wireless connection doesn't reach to my bedroom, which is at the back of the apartment, I watch tv in the livingroom. This will change when I get a wireless N router. So, for the pass 2 weeks I have been watching regular tv, mostly the news, which is STILL depressing as hell. The only way I can tell its Christmas is because of the commericals, which are still the same type of commericals from when I was growing up as a kid. Mostly car commericals too. Do people actually buy others cars for Christmas. Hell, a new car at that. I m...

Just fill it in. That's right, remember the first time you fell in love, first kiss, first time you had sex. For me, the first time I caught a sexual transmitted, well you know. I was stationed at Ft. Jackson, SC, a training post. I was Permnant Party, a Truck Driver, hauling Basic Trainees around post. A homegirl, from .Brooklyn, was a employee, was working in the dentist office. We hooked up. Three days later, while I was in morning formation, my Company Commander, pulled me to the side said I had an appointment at Preventive Medicine Office. I didn't know what that was. Here I was at 20 years old, with already 3 years under my belt in the Army, I was in Germany for the first 3 years f my tour. Went to the doctors office. Took a qtip and stuck it in the head of my..ya know. Wipe it on a slide, looked at it under a microscope, and said yeah ok. Okay what ? Pull ya pants down an bend over, he gave me a shot in the ass. If ya never had one of these shots, it hurts like all HELL....

For me, being in a relationship is all good. But when I'm not in one, and I'm just being a whore, fucking, when I get a chance, and, even feel like having sex, that's all good too. So tell me, why do guys & gals lie about being either in a relationship, or have people that you're, lets just say are fucking. I think I know why, allow me to break it sown. Bear with me. Guys, guys are sluts, but the male version. If a female was to approach a guy..wait females do this but be serious, meaning have a serious face on. See what happens. Aprroach a good looking guy, or any guy. Say to him, I've been checking you out and I was wonsering if you would like to... Ok, just rap to the guy, as if a guy was rapping to you. Lay it on him heavy and thick, but be serious about it. Just as a guy would ask you, you as the same questions, but put a female swing to it. Then ask the guy is he married, seeing anyone girlfriend, and they say, 'are, or you just fucking'. See what ...

I'm calling my friend Joanne once I get to The Bronx, at my mothers house. We are suppose to see each other this weekend. She's not my girlfriend or anything, but I like being around her, with her. But for some strange reason, and its been a while since we have seen each other, some reason I don't want to see her this weekend as planned. It has nothing to do with her, its me. No, for real, its me. Here is the thing. I get off at 2pm, going to my mothers house 2 and a half hours away. After visiting my mother, I 'suppose' to go pick up Joanne. This means traveling another 2 and a half hours to go pick her up, and THEN another hour and a nd half back to my place. All this with, she has no money and me very little. Again all of this travling just for sex, and from what she said, that it isn't ALL about sex. Oh yes tha fuck it is. It seems like the older I get, things it more complicated when it comes to satisfying the flesh..having sex. Me, I have no problem otherw...

A female friend of mines is having a hard time at home. So she wants to get away for a while with me, I have no problems with that. My off time from work is my time to re group and take care of me. What I'm saying is this. If you want to spend time in my world, so to speak, be ready when I say I'm making a move to come pick you up. I dislike waiting on anyone, including family as well. If I say I'm going to be here or anywhere at a certain time, you should try and be there at that time. I don't care, drop everything you're doing and be there. If you tell me to meet you somewhere, me knowing me, I'm there before you are, waiting on you. That's how I am. I can see that this isn't going to happen cause some people feel like 'when I get there, I get there' attitude. Oh yeah, really? Well, my grace/waiting period is 15, 20 minutes to an half an hour tops. I dislike waiting around for some one to show up. It shows me that your attitude towards me is no...

I have said in the past, that I have a constant yearning for and of information. I don't care idf its in print or on the radio. When it ccomes to tv, its doc like on PBS, mainly the show Nove. I heard something on XM radio last night. Channel 165, The Janson Lweis Show, here is what I heard. In China, each person is alocated 1,700 square feet, ok. I think I heard something like that, but I'm not show, that's the only thing I didn't hear clearing. Here's the rest. There roughly 6.5 billion people on the face of the earth. If we took all those people and gave them 1,700 square feet, we all can fit in the state of Texas. Yep Texas, 6.5 billion people. You may think that the world is over popualted, no, its not that. Its just that we havea lot of people in small places, like India. If ETls were to land, lets say in any one of our desert, say the Mohave Desert. The would think that there wasn't any life forms on this planet. The Mohave Desert is barren, no people for...

You know how you think about some of the good experinces you have had in life, and it brings a smile across your face. So, imagine the GREAT experinces, and you can't get to sleep, cause they keep playing over and over in your head. That's happening to me, me and this certain woman. I thought, and I continue to think its me. I mean, I like her and 'stuff', but I think its cause I'm set in my ways. My ways are nothing like, ' want to be alone', or, ' I like sleeping by myself and in my own bed'. Its just when things happen that way and you get use to doing it that way, that's the way it is. I guess I'm just turning into an old man with an active mind, which is way too active. I make plans to do things, things that I know I will enjoy after a days work. But when the work ends, its like I'm on auto, home, relax for 15 minutes, shower, tv and in bed by 8:30pm. I don't think there's nothing wrong with me. I have no problem expressing e...

You see it on those crime shows, or on The Lifetime Channel. Young girl gets assaulted by her moms bf. She tells her mother, she doesn't believe her, and gets the daughter out of the house. Well, yesterday before I left from work, a customer daughter came crying and told me this. Her mother comes to the deli counter almost every day. Watch when she comes in today or some time this week, watch what I do. The daughter, 22 years old, pretty, no kids and no job. The mothers bf, works, supplies the food for the household. He thinks that the daughter is part of the package, you have mom AND the daughter? I don't think so. See, most people would look the other way, I CAN'T and WON'T !! I've seen the bf a couple of times, a real dirt bag if you ask me, but hey, to each its own. The daughter, I told her if she was a little older... she said that she's old enough, but she isn't. I see why now, she wanted to get out of the house. She told her mother what th...

I was just thinking about something, and this was after I spent a cold ass night in my room with NO FREAKIN' HEAT !! Living in the Projects isn't / wasn't all that bad. I never lived in one. My parents , well I did, but it wasn't called a Project, Condos. Good thing about living in them in the winter time, there is ALWAYS heat and hot water. I had rooms in private houses and it seems the owners don't know what heat is. Always tardy on the heat when its freezin' outside. Like now. Just moved into this 4 bedroom apartment. Landlord comes up yesterdy afternoon after I got home from work, he wants to put plastic on the windows. I thought, oh, how nice of him. THE BASTARD !!! I see why now.my bedroom and the one next to me, isn't getting any heat thru the radiators. All other parts of the apartment are. I wake up this morning, run to the bathroom to take a shower to WARM UP !! Then I nade a cup of tea. Some one in the hbouse went into the bathroom, turns out it w...

My mother has a cat..well, not a cat or a kitten. Its at that stage where she is in between. She plays with you and comes when you call. Cats don't come when you call them, they just look at you. The cats name is 'V', because my sister found the kitten on the Van Wyk Expressway. She actually pulled over and stopped, went back and got it before it got hit by a car. This kitten is crazy. I'm sleeping, dead asleep, and she jumps up and down on my chest. Almost gave me a heart attack. I love cats !! --michaelchappell

Both of these women pictured are sisters, I currently share an apartment with, along with their aunt and uncle. Everyone on the 17th of December, with the exception of me, are traveling to DR for a month. I was invited to go, but the job won't give me that much time off from work, maybe 2 weeks. Thats not enough for me though.

I haven't read Essence in over, lets say about 5 years. Now, I know why I refused to read this magazine. I stand behind what I'm about to say too. Why is it that all the people in this mag, why are all of them so pretty? Not all black people are attractive you know, but they are beautiful. See, some people don't know the difference between the two so I'm going to expalin the difference. Being atrractive, you don't have time for the beautiful people. Beautiful people won't get caught with being with attractive people, understand. There are plenty of beautiful people in our urban cities, they are the single parents who take the time to care for their children. They are there for their kids no matter what. Attractive people, those mostly in entertainment and films, music, have 'handlers' who, handle their kids. Since they are making the money, they have to continue to make in order to live in that life style. Attractive people would rather have that pe...

That's my farthers name, and the veiwing of his body was this evening from 2pm to 7pm. I haven't seen certain family members since I was about 12 or 13 years old. Their faces, some of them are still the same. It was uncomfortable, because of his death, is what bought them back into my life. I'm not the one for family gathering, reunions and things of that nature. The last funeral I've been to was that of my father's father. It shooked me because that's not how how remembered my grandfather. So I had nightmares for months. But I don't think that will happen because of my father's death. It was like a calm came over me, I was relaxed. My cousin, who is a Preacher got up and said some amazing words plus read from The Bible. I'm paraphrasing what he read, but what he said is true. We should not be sad, but be joyous because believe it or not this is a day of joy. I didn't understand, but I do now. Who wouldn't want to go to a place where there i...

So, you left him, moved out to your own place. Your son spent 3 to 4 days a week with you, then... Your husband moved in WITH you. WTF ?!! See, I know what the deal is/was, and you confirmed it. Even though you say that you don't love him anymore, its a money thing. After you moved out, he started giving you more money and you thought that once he moved in, that say rate of flow of money will continue. Well, did it ? NO !! Now you talk with me and ask me what you should do, and I told you to tell him to move out. But that's hard to do this second time around, huh ? Kim, I love holding you and all that comes with us getting together when we DO get..when I get a chance to get with you. We have known each other for 5 whole years or more. But what bothers me is the traveling to see you. Once I'm with you I don't want to leave, so that means traveling back to my place and to work. Today, after work, I'm coming to you and will explain this so just listen, ok. Armita, swee...

My sister texted me 911 last night, I was sleep, and I woke up and saw the text. I called her, she told me that our father had passed away. I was speechless, didn't know what to say other than what happened. My mother and him were sitting in the living room, he got up and went to the kitchen, she saw him walk in. After some time, she wondered where he was at, so she got up and went to the kitchen, she didn't see him. The kitchen is like a 2 parter kitchen, no doors thou, kitchen table, then it, the room breaks to the left to where the store and sink are. Since she didn't see him in the kitchen, she went to the bedroom, passing the bathroom, which he wasn't in, on the way. At the bedroom, he wasn't in there either. So she goes all the way into the kitchen, and he is on the floor. She calls 911, ambulance come, he's still alive, and they take him to the hospital. My sisters show up there. Donna looks at him and see that he isn't going to be around much long, s...

You know what makes me angry as fuck? Well, a lot of things do, but this is one of them. A guy meets a woman, and the guy is from another country, right. He goes back, and the guy leads the woman to believe that he is coming back for her to be with her. Now, this 'said' woman, is lying all over the place, well not lying. Cause the guy tells her one thing, and she believes it. Now this woman is going to his country to amrry him. That makes no sense to me at all. I'm not 'hating' or anything like that, but I don't want to see her get hurt. He's been gone for almost a whole year now. She said he said, that he is coming for Christmas. That's not gonna happen, and she is gonna be all in a funk now. See, I'm not like that, I say what I want and mean, straight forward like that. --michaelchappell

Ok, what am I'm thankful for, a whole hell of a lot really. Ilm thankful...That I got all body parts that are working, in good health, a loving and forgiving family, friends that understand, and enemies that understand also. Thankful for...I can wake up every morning, that I have the will the yearning to do better, or at least I try. That I have a job, that I have co workers who understand that I'm not yelling at them, but to them. Thankful for..I can walk down the street and chew bubble gum at the same time. That I love myself FIRST. Well that's all that come right to mind. --michaelchappell

A woman came to my counter yesterday and told me something that has me thinking. She said that she wish I had as many friends as I do. What made her think that I have a lot of friends. She said because everytime she comes to my counter, I'm always talking with the customers. Hey, but that's part of my job I tell her. She says that she is single, aged about 45 years or so, no childeren and wants to be in a relationship. I asked her was it because she wants to have sex on a regular basis, or does she miss talking with some one. She said both. I explained to her what she can do. Guys know straight off if you're intrested in just sleeping with them, if that's what you want. She claims that she doesn't want one night stands, and I told her she doesn't have to have many one night stands. Just find one that you feel comfortable with. Then it got around to talking about me. She stood there for about 2 hours, between customers we talked. She said that she feels at ease t...

This email is from a female friend I have know for over 6 years. We use to date, then we were only sleeping buddies if ya know what I mean. Then, its almost a whole year now, I haven't seen her face to face, no contact at all. Then I receive an email stating the following. She is/was/is seeing aguy now for almost a whole year now, but put off sleeping with bim cause she doesn't know where her and I stand at. She actually asked permission to sleep with this guy. What am I suppose to say? If I say, go ahead, it might show that I don't care about her. If I say no, wait on me, that's being selfish as hell, right ? She lives almost 2 hours from me by train and bus, and I don't get up her way that much. I could make a trip to her house before I go and see my mother, but she expects me to spend the night. Or, I can go see my mother, then spend the night at her house. Either way, its putting stress on me and what I do at my job. After working 6 days straight, I just want to...

I was walking home from work, and that song, 'Learn to Swim' by Tool came to mind. So, I search for the lyrics, and downlaoded the song once again just to play it and sing the lyrics to the song. This song is excatly how I feel. 'Fret for your figure and, Fret for your latte and, Fret for your lawsuit and, Fret for your hairpiece and, Fret for your prozac and, Fret for your polit and, Fret for your cable and, Fret for your car and. Its a 3 ring circus sideshow of freaks.' I worry about way too much shit sometimes...but only for a second. Cause, I keep in mind that thers is A Higher Power who knew 2000 years ago just what I was going to, am going to face on this day or any given day, then... All the worry dissappears as quickly as it came. There are certain things iisues that I have control over, and then there are some that I don't. My thoughts...let shit happen the way it suppose to happen, then worry about changing what doesn't go my way. Its hard to explain, ...

It bothers me when I read about people who put down our Armed Forces. Saying things like they would never serve and shit like that. They need to think about it some. Where would this country be if we didn't have those brave male and female soldiers proctecting everything that we stand for. With all the hurt that's going on in this world, the USA has the strongest fighting machine there is. Its not only the soldiers out there on the war front protecting our rights. Its those people that come up with the technology that helps us to become the strong war machine that we are. Jobs are created for the protection of what we hold true. If I could, I would re enlist and do it all over again. The bond you create with those who you serve with is a strong as bond, something that can never be broken. True, some of us while serving don't always come out at the end with our wits, metally and physically sane. I'm sorrowed by that, but with the support of the family, some of us can and...

I look forward to Christmas every year for a number of reasons. One, it puts me in a good mood, and two, well I will explain. Every year I come across all types of females due to my job. Some I become good friends with, and others I dread they coming to my counter. This year there isabout 5 to 8 of them that are special. So one of them will get a present from me. Every year, I pick out something from Victoria Secrets and send it as a gift, no strings attached. Last year when I presented the gift to her, and she opened it, she didn't know what to say. But she did say it was the nicest gift she got from a non boyfriend, even a boyfriend. She asked why did I did this. I told her it was something that I thought she would look nice in. I never got the chance and wasn't expecting to, see her in it either. She did say she would take a picture in it, but never showed me. We are still in contact with each other. --michaelchappell

Subject: DNA - Tunnel for Obama near Mani Bhavan Date: Sat, 06 Nov 2010 05:12:31 +0530 Tunnel for Obama near Mani Bhavan It could give a sense of superior American organisation, or be an indicator of a deep-set persecution complex. It could also be a manifestation of Uncle Sam's penchant for a show of strength. The matter pertains to US president Barack Obama's planned visit to Mani Bhavan —the Gandhi museum — on November 6, soon after he reaches Mumbai. On Monday, US secret agents visited the museum to plan Obama's security detail. They were accompanied by officers of Mumbai Police and civic officials of the D ward (where Mani Bhavan is located). While inspecting the route and the buildings lining up the route to the museum, the Americans detected a skyscraper near Peddar road and also found the area to be highly populated. Since it is difficult to monitor such a congested area, they came up with a quick solution which left the Indians accompanying them amazed: A bomb-proo...

There are some issues that are involing family members, close family members. There is nothing..well there is one thing I could do. My mother doesn't want my father to live in the same house with her any longer. Its not what you think. They both are elderly, him more than her. He can hardly see, and you know how people get once they start getting on in years. Its also not that she doesn't care about him, she doesn't want to worry about him when he goes out in the street for whatever. The last time, yesterday, he got confused, and couldn't find his way back home in the neighborhood. Some one bought him home, and this upsetted my mother greatly. I suggested that they find a 2 bedroom apartment in one of the many homes that's in my area to rent for me and him. I can't afford..no, I don't have the funds for the 1 months rent or whatever they want to move in. I can afford to pay up to 700 dollars a month in rent. This was mentioned to my mother thru my brothers a...

Some movies are meant to be seen on the big screen, and some should have gone straight to dvd. This movie should have gone straight to dvd, cause its content is lost on the big screen. This movie is about...well, that's kind of hard to explain. Its about a single parent household which could be in the mountains of some poor white cultured people, trash. This movie is about drugs, but only two scene in the entire movie, less than 7 seconds, 20 tops is shown, but its not about drugs. This movie covers so much and says so much which makes it hard to explain. One thing I do know, this is a must see movie. Its about the strength of adaughter who wants the best for her family, brothers, sisters and mother. --michaelchappell

Yeah, I have an account on twitter, and I follow people. Some people follow me, but that's not what I open anaccount for. I could care less if you follow me, but I am intrested in what other people are saying and doing in their lives. Some people, and me too, say the same thing over and over again. But that goes to show you that things are almost the same everyday. I rarely tweet on my day off, cause nothing intresting is happening, but sometimes I do. This morning, one of the people I follow said something about the college student who was secretly film having a gay encounter. From what I gathered, he is also gay, but haven't yet came to terms with saying it out loud. But then again, he could've just been stating how he feels or felt about the matter. He then retweeted something from some one he follows or follows him. It went like this..'in other nigger news...' Now I didn't take offense to what ws said, cause frankly I don't know the person(s) who said i...

Yes, there are still some rules to dating. The first being age limit. So, I'm 50 yrs old, and by the rules, the youngest I can date/sleep with a female is 32 years old. How did I come by this number, let me show you. Half of 50 is 25, then add 7 years, equals 32 years old. That's what I go by..well as of lately that is. But this brings me to this 22 year old. She carrysa herself much more maturely than her actual age. She has all the curves in ALL the right places. Cute face, bright smile and her atitude is like, like, I can even discribe it. BUT, she is 22 years old. To be honest, all I want to do is take her to bed, and continue to take her to bed as long as she lets me. Again, but she is 22 yrs old. There are other things too that is setting her apart from all the rest, she is married, about to get a divorce. The flashing red lights, sirens and bright yellow signs should be flashing, but they aren't. I should know better, but I don't. This is also to say, I know she ...

Now, I don't get sick that often. But when I do, it really bothers me. That's the thing, since I work around customers, their sickness sooner or later becomes mine. It started as just throwing up one morning, thought I might be pregnant, so there was no chance of that. As the day went along, runny nose, sneezing, eyes watering. By the time I clocked out from work, I had a bad cough. Went home and went straight to be. Awoke at 1am to a scratchy feeling in my chest and bring up 'Aliens' from deep in my throat. But the show must go on. Since I spend all day on my feet, just getting out of bed was the hardest part. Made it in to work, and the day just got worse and worse. Customers sneezing and coughing without covering up, and my co sowrkers too. To make matters worst, yesterday my manager left early, wife was takien to the hospital, so I came in early cause I didn't know if he was coming in. The store manager opened up at 6am. Then my deli manager shows up and says he...

A dream of an abandon building, gutted really. People with eastern apparel on, hats and all. View from above, them burying 95 pound projectiles in an empty lot right next dor. I'm in the dream, but I feel like I'm not one of them, like on the outside, new. --michaelchappell

It was June 18th, 1980 and I was stationed at Ft. Jackson, SC Prior to getting here, let me see... I just came off a 12 day leave, prior to that, I went thru truck driver school at Ft Dix, NJ for a month and a half. Prior to that, I was on 62 days leave cause I just had re enlisted for the truck driver school,AND I spent 3 whole years, without seeing the United States in GERMANY !! Ft Jackson is a training post, basic training and advance idividual school. 50,000 basic trainess. Was assigned to The 342nd Transportation Company, combat ready, 5ton and 2 1/2 ton trucks. In the messhall is where I met her, Elaine. Elaine was one year younger than me, and she was a civilian working cleaning up the messhall. When I saw her, all I did was stare. To this day, I don't know how I introduced myself to her, but after 3 days she was my girlfriend. I'm 20 years old right, and I got all this energy. Here I was on the post with so many females all around...I thought I would go crazy. But El...

..why the hiring process is so hard for my employer. We need a deli worker for the deli and they don't have to be experince either. We can train who ever shows up. But what they did was wrong. This young lady came in about 2 months ago looking for a job. We told her to apply for the deli, and she was willing to give it a try. So, when we tried to call her, the number went straight to voice mail and we left a message. When black turned to blue we called her back about a week agao and some one picked up the phone. Told her to come in, the deli manager spoke with her. The store manager went to the owner and the owner said that he doesn't want some one from the neighborhood to work in the store. He also said this about relatives working together. But we have a mother & daughter working, aunt and nephew working and 2 sisters working here. So what they did was this. They are trying to fire this guy that stock the shelves in one of the isles, but since he is in The Union, its har...

Last April, my family threw me a 50th birthday party. A lot of my cousins, aunts and uncles were present. Most of my cousins I didn't even know cause that's how far removed I am at family gatherings. It all has something to do with my past. My family, they all have moved on from it, but I haven't. It shames me to even be around them, cause I know they know about my past. Even though that's behind me, it still bothers me. I had promised to be more into family gatherings, but I have yet kept my promises, its just me. At my party, my Uncle Lawrence was there, he was suffering from cancer. He is no longer with us. About 3 months ago he passed away and I didn't even go to the services. So now my conscious is bothering me, and this is why. My mother called me at work and told me that my Uncle left me 2 watches. I said okay, but I don't know when I will be able to come to her house, cause my work is tight right now, working on my days off, vacation too. Sh...

Just had a convo with a customer. She has a 18 month old child, and she said she left the baby's father cause she said she was in a dead end relationship. Now, I don't understand that. Is it because I dontr have any children, nor a girlfriend? I asked her, what did she expect from him once she told him that she wqas with his child. She said during the months that lead up to the birth, she knew that he wasn't going to be around once the child was born. This conversation we had, she told me, was a release for her. Even though the attitude that I got from her was that 'all' men aren't shit, I listened and gave some advice. First thing I asked her was why did she think that having a bay by him would keep him around. She, like many others answered, cause she thought it would bring them closer together. No, he drew the both of you further apart. Since you weren't living together, he found many of wxcuses to stay away from you, and you found many ways to try to ge...

So today is the first day of school, the rest of the week, noschool. Wht type of madness is that? When I was coming up, school, first day was the whole week. Guess times have changed. I was wondering also, do these parents look at what their daughters are wearing to school these days. Like today, she couldn't have been older than 15 years old, but she dressed as if she was going to a club. I guess again the parents bought the clothes for her, but then again. Kids nowadays have a source of income which you wouldn't believe. It may have come from that guy who was selling drugs during the summer and giving her some of the money to carry packages for him. So she saved it up and bought her own clothes. I don't know. Some of the teachers came into the store yesterday. Most of them I didn't recognize, because, I hate to say this, they gained weight. Some even told me that they gained weight, but they all looked good. So what you eat, you gain weight, what's the problem ? ...

Looks like the new tv shows coming on this Fall, will be decent. All I know that it they make a movie of True Blood, the HBO series will go downhill from there. So far, its good, decent story line(s). A lot of things going on in one episode. NICE !! Amother show, The Big C, is a funny show about Cancer. Go figure that one out. Downloaded a good movie too, well a couple of them really. One, My 5 Last Girlfriends..very funny. Another one, The Killer Inside Me. This one VERY good. --michaelchappell

Smacking my head... a lot of people on Twitter are using this expression. I wonder why. I mean I know what it means and all, but this expression is getting really fuckin' boring. A LOT of people are SMH. If I were to use that, it would be this..SMFH. Don't see that expression much. On my 8 minute walk to work, I was thinking about something. If some one was to lend me 1 million dollars, I could open my own business. Sure, everyone would say the same thing too. But I would open it AFTER I treated myself to some nice things...say about 100k worth of nice things. Received an email from Las Vegas, a job interview, with the possibility of being hired right on the stop. All I have to do, if things don't work out is pay my way back to NY. Really thinking about this one. I have til September 15th to make up my mind. Funny thing is, I will be on vacay during that time, so taking that trip jsut might happen. To the woman who gave me her number yesterday. She told me she had change it...

What it all boils down to? Our bodies are a machine. I don't know if I stated that right, so let me try that again. What's your limit? Do you know that your mind will do things that your body says you can't? Most people don't even get a chance to put this thru a test. I did, and it freaked me out. I did something that I knew would and could hurt my body, but my mind..my thinking told me to go ahead and do it. This happened a while ago, but to this day, it still happens. I've been working for like almost a month and a half without a day off. At the end of the day I relax. I get home and my body just collaspes, I fall asleep. After 2 hours I wake up and its like I slept for 8 hours. I then go to bed at my normal, 9pm. I get some sleep, waking up at 1am to go to the bathroom, and then go back to sleep. I then wake up again at about 3am and that's when my day starts. At work, by 12 noon, I start dragging my feet. But as soon as 2pm comes a round cause I'm about ...

So this airline attendant lost it, no he completely lost it. But I know how he feels, and most of us in the customer service field should too. For those who don't know what I mean, picture this. A customer comes to your county, and you have your back turned cause you're working on smething else. Lets say that you're cytting vegetabkes. The customer says, 'hey you', while snapping his fingers. Also he moitioning with his hand like come here, very quickly. He tells you that he is in a hurry, so don't get his sandwich order wrong. Happened to me. First off, I'm pissed cause he snapped his fingers to get my attention. What am I to you a dog? Then he states that I am about to get his order wrong, which I don't. See, customers do this and this shit pisses me tha fuck off. Its not his fault or yours, its the owner of the business. Let me explain. Since we are in hard times, and everyone is hungry for that dollar, all businesses are trying to attract the most bu...

Yesterday morning, while walking in the store, Produce isle, found 5 dollars. The store was crowded too, but no one was in Produce Department section. Not bad. I heard some shit yesterday also. The cute co worker of mine, had a baby shower, I was invited. But I didn't go because I'm working on almost a whole month with out a day off. I wqsnt taking a chance on going, and then over sleeping. That's just me, how I am. At work people were sayig, asking how come I wasn't there. Well I have a rule that I go by, and will continue to always go by. The woman is pretty who is pregnant, she's all that, Dominican have you. I would have loved to have 'gotten' with her so to speak. But as always, I'm not that attractive I guest, or I don't have that look she is looking for in a man, so she turn me down and away. But we are friends. So when she got pregnant, I was shocked, even more so when I found out by who. This guy, also a co worker, with whom I'm very co...

...way back then, I got into...lets just say thingd that were happening then. The whole scene. Drugs. I'm not ashame, and I'm not boasting either, I sold and used...used more than I sold. This one Dominican guy, I sold for, it was after a night of spending about 1,100 dollars No hookers or any guys, just me alone. After spending my last 50, he made me an offer. He said 'you work for me?', and I said sure. For every 5 dollars, I made 1 dollar. I know that now that doesn't seem like a lot, but back then it was. The color was purple tops. What was different than any other colors that was out there, cause there was about 7 others, Black, Orange, Red, Yellow, Pink, Grey, theose were ran by the Dominicans. And Blue and White by the pueto Ricans..they all had a crew. Lookouts, steerers, Captains, Luetinants and sellers, all were on a salary, except for the seller he got a dollar a cap. Like I said, what was different was that it was just me, no one else. So the guy I was...

People come and go in our life every single day. Some die, and some just move away.There are times when a special some one enters your life, and then there gone. Gone on to another state, country, or they just pass away. When these people just decide to just up and leave, you question why? You do and say anything and everything to keep them in your life, your exsistence, but they want to move. This is one of those times. She started as a cashier, and just been in this country for about 8 months or so. I can pronounce her name, but she is from the Phillipines. Cute, pretty, nice complexion, friendly and she knows how to ride a skateboard. When we first talked, I asked her her age, and did she have a boyfriend. She told me that he broke up with her right before she came to this country. She also stated that she wanted to meet people, she wanted a boyfriend. Now, even though she is 22 years old, and that's too young for me, I thought about it. It wouldn't be fair to her, so I neve...

All I need is for a certain 'special' some one to give me a call, and I will come running. No, she has to come pick me up, LOL. I promise I will have on nothing but shorts a shirt, and flip flops. Lights out, nice and cool. I wanna hear that special sound you make. I wanna feel that special move you make. For me, its been a looong time, no lie. I'm off Saturday, hook a brudda up, text, don't call........waitin'

On onw of the hotttest days so far this summer, I come home ro a blazing, steamy hot ass apartment. I looked, and the key word here is 'looked'. I looked forwatd to jumoping in the shower, washing the sweat from the 8 minute walk from work off. The, with only my towel wrapped around me, and still half way dried off, turn on my fan, turn on tv, turn on dvd, and last episode 8 of the final season of lost. But nooooooo, 15 minutes into the show, the tv flickered off, and then back on in less than a second. Oh shit, this isn't a good sign. I marked it off as a power surge cause its hot, but into the 9 episode, the tv flick again..off, and STAYED THAT FUCKIN' WAY!!! WHAT THE FLYING FUCK is going on? I wasn't going downstairs to talk to the owner of the house about this shit, not my responsibility, nope its not. My house mate, she did. The son came upstairs, looked at the breaker box, and told us, he has to get the tools will be out of power for an hour. But he did come b...

About a week ago, I sent out my resume to about 15 different companies. I want to help clean up this mess on our beaches...but get paid for it. Received 5 emails, and 3 phone calls from some of the companies. I think 2 of them, I didn't even apply for, but here is how this job works. Pay is anywhere from 300 to 400 a day, yep, that's right, A DAY. First there is a weeks worth of training, you have to have your certificates in order. If you don't have any, that's what the training is for. There are 3 different locations you can work. One, on the beach. 2, collecting what you clean up from on the beach. 3, processing what you pick up. From what I gather, turnover rate is crazy high, meaning, people work for about 4 to 6 weeks, get a little bit of pocket money, and then quit. I was told that I could make supervisor in about 2 months and then the pay is about 700 a week. 110 dollars out of your check a week goes towards you room, which you share in a 2 bed hotel room, all ...

In the 1960's, the remaining service of the Third Ave El was renamed the 8 (or #8). The final portion of the line that ran from East 149th Street in the Bronx to Gun Hill Road closed in April, 1973. On April 29, 1973, the Bx 55 Limited bus route replaced the Bronx's Third Avenue El. It only made the stops of the former rail line. The Bx 55 was one of the first bus routes in the city to have free transfers with the subway at the Third Ave-149th Street and Gun Hill Road White Plains Road IRT stations.

Today at work, I thought about some things. Mainly, I wanted to just get up and go. Don't know where, but just go. Sometimes, when you are stuck in a rut, the only way to get out of it without any help, is own your own. I have felt like this before, and I did nothing about it. The feeling pasted after about 2 or 3 days, so it was no biggie. But this time its different, feels different. I want to go somewhere, start over, fresh. I know, I know. I'm 50 years old, forget about that starting over fresh madness. But that's what I feel. I mean, go some where where no one knows me. I was thinking about the mid west, but haven't picked a city or a state. Gonna think about it some more, stay tuned. --michaelchappell

Another co worker, we call her Yummy. --michaelchappell

What the fuck, do I look spanish or something. But even if I do, what's make you think I speak spanish? Customers come to the counter, trying to order in spanish and I hush them up right away. Black people in the counrty went through hell, and I be damned if I'm gonna let you lower my people, my ittlengience to that of an illegal alien. One who snuck his ass into this country and have to pay off a person some stupid ass price. How dare you 'think' I'm spanish, you stupid motherfucker !!! --michaelchappell

I know some men of today, can be really fucked uped. I mean, some of you guys out there aren't stepping up to the plate. You're giving like all guys no matter what, a bad name. Not owning up to your responsbilities, taking care of you children. I don't hold it against you, cause its not all your fault, and I will address that later on too. But back to you so called fathers...NOT. At best, you're daddies, and at least sperm donors, a quote, good fuck, unquote gone wrong. A 'too fucked up on whatever I had to drink at the club, gave you some ass without a condom, gonna make you a man, a baby father', type fuck. Guys, when you were out there 'grinding', no wait...'scrambling'. Cause guys with REAL jobs grind motherfucker!! When you were out there scrambling, and thought you were making some real money, dick always got that itch, somewhere on some one to spend some money on. But when your ass got busted and sent to jail, you figure you could just mov...

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Lets just say...you want to retire early, so what do you do. First get a good paying job, like working for the state. Buy that paper, The Chief, plenty of state jobs, test in there. Or, any good paying city job. After your probation period is over, move back in with family, save on rent and food. Work CRAZY overtime, and bank all of it. I said ALL of it. After 6 months, apply for a loan at bank, nothing big. Better yet, have your money saved in a Crdeit Union. When you receive the loan, it will be payrolled deducted, so you won't miss it, plus you're still doing crazy overtime. After loan is paid back, apply for another loan, this time bigger. Furst laon will be about 1k, so, second can go up to 5k. Pay that back as soon as you can with your overtime to present week or bi weekly, plus its being payrolled deducted too. When loan is all paid off, look to invest in a company that just coming out, IPO, intial Public Offering. On your principle, keep that in, and every 90 tp 100 d...

Oh God, tomorrow is the big day...5-0 !!! That day will be okay, its the one after I'm worried about. I always felt comfortable with the way I am. No matter what I've been through, I've accepted it as fate, dealt with it and moved on. So why am I getting so concerned with the way that my family sees me now. Is it because damned near all my cousins will be there? I think that's what it is. It never concerned me before, until now. Or, maybe, its because of what I think I have not yet accomplished. I take my days one at a time. Any day above ground and not in jail is a good day to me. But others don't see it as I do, or do they. To be honest, I never expected to lived this long. I mean the average age for the Black man to live is to the age of 28. Either dead or in jail, as they say. So, I'm grateful as all hell for neither of the two. But this party/get together has me really bugging out. One thing is that I was so happy that I posted it on Facebook. I then receiv...