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So almost at the end of 2010, and I'm ready to start 2011. I'm ready to see what the new year brings. I'm gonna give qa short run down of this year 2010, ready? Well, I made more money than I did last year. I also owe more than I did last year too. 400 dollars, plus intrest, oh yeah, throw in blowing off the IRS, comes to over 7K dollars. Then throw in another 1500 I back rent. What, me worry? Hells no. That's what I owe in 2010. But I'm alive BITCHES !! Made some new friends, both online and in person. The ones in person, females, I keep forgetting their names so I told them this. It would be a lot easier if you just sleep with me, that way I won't forget your name. That didn't go over so well with the ones I really wanted to sleep with, but the others, ok. Met some guy friends,but I can meet those type in my dreams/ the ones that really matter thou, I don't know their names, I call them dude. They know mine though. Father passed away 1st of December. I...

..cause I'm a lazy bastard who has no time for a relationship, just work. That's what it all boils down to really. I met a nice young lady with a 15 year old son, we are feeling each other out right now. One thing I keep doing is forgetting her name. I told her that in the past, the way learned to remember someone's name, female of course, was to sleep with her. She gave me that look, a look of, 'so we ARE going to sleep together huh, cool'. She works across the street from where I work at, and she lives in the neighborhood, I think. She a really nice person, love her accent. Well I like everything about her really. She has a sense of humor and see mine as really weird. Today I'm asking her for her phone number. Even thou I'm not a phone person, I can see myself talking to her on the phone for hours. I have majicjack, so that's no problem with a bill. Can't wait til she comes in today. --michaelchappell

Last night I went to sleep and a had a decent nights sleep too. Out of the blue, I decided to text a certain female friend of mine. The more I tapped on the keys, the more I wanted to tap on her. She is now a good as walk from me. I mean I could walk it, but with all this snow... I notice something as I was texting her about relationships. Nothing world shattering, just how I see my relationships with women. I love being in one...that's if I can find the time. Job security comes first in the times we are living right now. Hate to say it, but a piece of ass, isn't worth losing your job over. Well, nothing is worth losing your job over. Like I said, the more I tapped, the more I wanted to be with her, right then and there/ I wonder if women feel the same as men do when it comes down to sex? See, a guy will just call a woman up, and talk their way into, ya know, their bed. But I wonder if there are any women who do the same thing. I know of some that will beat around the bush, and...

I can remember the times I spent on Christmas, the where. One was on Border Patrol, Berlin, never will forget that one. It wasn't depressing at all, just strange. Yesterdays's Christmas...was also strange. I was suppose to go spend Christmas Eve and Day with my ex and her mother. Friday, after work, was taking Metro North, upstate, White Plains, NY. Then for some strange reason, I didn't feel like going anywhere, just wanted to go home. I went home to a cold ass apartment, no heat. That's what I got for changing my plans. I just didn't feel like traveling, doing anything but nothing. I had enough food for the day, so why not do what I enjoy most..NOTHING. I didn't even feel like being around family. I just wanted to be relaxed, chilled, decompressed. All I did was download a lot of movies and tv shows, then watched them. Then, I thought about having some company over. But there seems to be a problem with that also. I was ready for female company right then and t...

It seems as the years go by, Christmas becomes less and less important of a holiday to me. I know its the birth of Christ and all, but its all commericalism if you ask me. That is if you want a lot of regular tv. I don't. I download all the tv shows that I live to watch from different torrent sites. The one I use mostly, eztv.it . The great thing about downloading any tv from a torrent site is that ALL commericals are not part of the downloads. Since my wireless connection doesn't reach to my bedroom, which is at the back of the apartment, I watch tv in the livingroom. This will change when I get a wireless N router. So, for the pass 2 weeks I have been watching regular tv, mostly the news, which is STILL depressing as hell. The only way I can tell its Christmas is because of the commericals, which are still the same type of commericals from when I was growing up as a kid. Mostly car commericals too. Do people actually buy others cars for Christmas. Hell, a new car at that. I m...

Just fill it in. That's right, remember the first time you fell in love, first kiss, first time you had sex. For me, the first time I caught a sexual transmitted, well you know. I was stationed at Ft. Jackson, SC, a training post. I was Permnant Party, a Truck Driver, hauling Basic Trainees around post. A homegirl, from .Brooklyn, was a employee, was working in the dentist office. We hooked up. Three days later, while I was in morning formation, my Company Commander, pulled me to the side said I had an appointment at Preventive Medicine Office. I didn't know what that was. Here I was at 20 years old, with already 3 years under my belt in the Army, I was in Germany for the first 3 years f my tour. Went to the doctors office. Took a qtip and stuck it in the head of my..ya know. Wipe it on a slide, looked at it under a microscope, and said yeah ok. Okay what ? Pull ya pants down an bend over, he gave me a shot in the ass. If ya never had one of these shots, it hurts like all HELL....

For me, being in a relationship is all good. But when I'm not in one, and I'm just being a whore, fucking, when I get a chance, and, even feel like having sex, that's all good too. So tell me, why do guys & gals lie about being either in a relationship, or have people that you're, lets just say are fucking. I think I know why, allow me to break it sown. Bear with me. Guys, guys are sluts, but the male version. If a female was to approach a guy..wait females do this but be serious, meaning have a serious face on. See what happens. Aprroach a good looking guy, or any guy. Say to him, I've been checking you out and I was wonsering if you would like to... Ok, just rap to the guy, as if a guy was rapping to you. Lay it on him heavy and thick, but be serious about it. Just as a guy would ask you, you as the same questions, but put a female swing to it. Then ask the guy is he married, seeing anyone girlfriend, and they say, 'are, or you just fucking'. See what ...

I'm calling my friend Joanne once I get to The Bronx, at my mothers house. We are suppose to see each other this weekend. She's not my girlfriend or anything, but I like being around her, with her. But for some strange reason, and its been a while since we have seen each other, some reason I don't want to see her this weekend as planned. It has nothing to do with her, its me. No, for real, its me. Here is the thing. I get off at 2pm, going to my mothers house 2 and a half hours away. After visiting my mother, I 'suppose' to go pick up Joanne. This means traveling another 2 and a half hours to go pick her up, and THEN another hour and a nd half back to my place. All this with, she has no money and me very little. Again all of this travling just for sex, and from what she said, that it isn't ALL about sex. Oh yes tha fuck it is. It seems like the older I get, things it more complicated when it comes to satisfying the flesh..having sex. Me, I have no problem otherw...

A female friend of mines is having a hard time at home. So she wants to get away for a while with me, I have no problems with that. My off time from work is my time to re group and take care of me. What I'm saying is this. If you want to spend time in my world, so to speak, be ready when I say I'm making a move to come pick you up. I dislike waiting on anyone, including family as well. If I say I'm going to be here or anywhere at a certain time, you should try and be there at that time. I don't care, drop everything you're doing and be there. If you tell me to meet you somewhere, me knowing me, I'm there before you are, waiting on you. That's how I am. I can see that this isn't going to happen cause some people feel like 'when I get there, I get there' attitude. Oh yeah, really? Well, my grace/waiting period is 15, 20 minutes to an half an hour tops. I dislike waiting around for some one to show up. It shows me that your attitude towards me is no...

I have said in the past, that I have a constant yearning for and of information. I don't care idf its in print or on the radio. When it ccomes to tv, its doc like on PBS, mainly the show Nove. I heard something on XM radio last night. Channel 165, The Janson Lweis Show, here is what I heard. In China, each person is alocated 1,700 square feet, ok. I think I heard something like that, but I'm not show, that's the only thing I didn't hear clearing. Here's the rest. There roughly 6.5 billion people on the face of the earth. If we took all those people and gave them 1,700 square feet, we all can fit in the state of Texas. Yep Texas, 6.5 billion people. You may think that the world is over popualted, no, its not that. Its just that we havea lot of people in small places, like India. If ETls were to land, lets say in any one of our desert, say the Mohave Desert. The would think that there wasn't any life forms on this planet. The Mohave Desert is barren, no people for...

You know how you think about some of the good experinces you have had in life, and it brings a smile across your face. So, imagine the GREAT experinces, and you can't get to sleep, cause they keep playing over and over in your head. That's happening to me, me and this certain woman. I thought, and I continue to think its me. I mean, I like her and 'stuff', but I think its cause I'm set in my ways. My ways are nothing like, ' want to be alone', or, ' I like sleeping by myself and in my own bed'. Its just when things happen that way and you get use to doing it that way, that's the way it is. I guess I'm just turning into an old man with an active mind, which is way too active. I make plans to do things, things that I know I will enjoy after a days work. But when the work ends, its like I'm on auto, home, relax for 15 minutes, shower, tv and in bed by 8:30pm. I don't think there's nothing wrong with me. I have no problem expressing e...

You see it on those crime shows, or on The Lifetime Channel. Young girl gets assaulted by her moms bf. She tells her mother, she doesn't believe her, and gets the daughter out of the house. Well, yesterday before I left from work, a customer daughter came crying and told me this. Her mother comes to the deli counter almost every day. Watch when she comes in today or some time this week, watch what I do. The daughter, 22 years old, pretty, no kids and no job. The mothers bf, works, supplies the food for the household. He thinks that the daughter is part of the package, you have mom AND the daughter? I don't think so. See, most people would look the other way, I CAN'T and WON'T !! I've seen the bf a couple of times, a real dirt bag if you ask me, but hey, to each its own. The daughter, I told her if she was a little older... she said that she's old enough, but she isn't. I see why now, she wanted to get out of the house. She told her mother what th...

I was just thinking about something, and this was after I spent a cold ass night in my room with NO FREAKIN' HEAT !! Living in the Projects isn't / wasn't all that bad. I never lived in one. My parents , well I did, but it wasn't called a Project, Condos. Good thing about living in them in the winter time, there is ALWAYS heat and hot water. I had rooms in private houses and it seems the owners don't know what heat is. Always tardy on the heat when its freezin' outside. Like now. Just moved into this 4 bedroom apartment. Landlord comes up yesterdy afternoon after I got home from work, he wants to put plastic on the windows. I thought, oh, how nice of him. THE BASTARD !!! I see why now.my bedroom and the one next to me, isn't getting any heat thru the radiators. All other parts of the apartment are. I wake up this morning, run to the bathroom to take a shower to WARM UP !! Then I nade a cup of tea. Some one in the hbouse went into the bathroom, turns out it w...

My mother has a cat..well, not a cat or a kitten. Its at that stage where she is in between. She plays with you and comes when you call. Cats don't come when you call them, they just look at you. The cats name is 'V', because my sister found the kitten on the Van Wyk Expressway. She actually pulled over and stopped, went back and got it before it got hit by a car. This kitten is crazy. I'm sleeping, dead asleep, and she jumps up and down on my chest. Almost gave me a heart attack. I love cats !! --michaelchappell

Both of these women pictured are sisters, I currently share an apartment with, along with their aunt and uncle. Everyone on the 17th of December, with the exception of me, are traveling to DR for a month. I was invited to go, but the job won't give me that much time off from work, maybe 2 weeks. Thats not enough for me though.

I haven't read Essence in over, lets say about 5 years. Now, I know why I refused to read this magazine. I stand behind what I'm about to say too. Why is it that all the people in this mag, why are all of them so pretty? Not all black people are attractive you know, but they are beautiful. See, some people don't know the difference between the two so I'm going to expalin the difference. Being atrractive, you don't have time for the beautiful people. Beautiful people won't get caught with being with attractive people, understand. There are plenty of beautiful people in our urban cities, they are the single parents who take the time to care for their children. They are there for their kids no matter what. Attractive people, those mostly in entertainment and films, music, have 'handlers' who, handle their kids. Since they are making the money, they have to continue to make in order to live in that life style. Attractive people would rather have that pe...

That's my farthers name, and the veiwing of his body was this evening from 2pm to 7pm. I haven't seen certain family members since I was about 12 or 13 years old. Their faces, some of them are still the same. It was uncomfortable, because of his death, is what bought them back into my life. I'm not the one for family gathering, reunions and things of that nature. The last funeral I've been to was that of my father's father. It shooked me because that's not how how remembered my grandfather. So I had nightmares for months. But I don't think that will happen because of my father's death. It was like a calm came over me, I was relaxed. My cousin, who is a Preacher got up and said some amazing words plus read from The Bible. I'm paraphrasing what he read, but what he said is true. We should not be sad, but be joyous because believe it or not this is a day of joy. I didn't understand, but I do now. Who wouldn't want to go to a place where there i...

So, you left him, moved out to your own place. Your son spent 3 to 4 days a week with you, then... Your husband moved in WITH you. WTF ?!! See, I know what the deal is/was, and you confirmed it. Even though you say that you don't love him anymore, its a money thing. After you moved out, he started giving you more money and you thought that once he moved in, that say rate of flow of money will continue. Well, did it ? NO !! Now you talk with me and ask me what you should do, and I told you to tell him to move out. But that's hard to do this second time around, huh ? Kim, I love holding you and all that comes with us getting together when we DO get..when I get a chance to get with you. We have known each other for 5 whole years or more. But what bothers me is the traveling to see you. Once I'm with you I don't want to leave, so that means traveling back to my place and to work. Today, after work, I'm coming to you and will explain this so just listen, ok. Armita, swee...

My sister texted me 911 last night, I was sleep, and I woke up and saw the text. I called her, she told me that our father had passed away. I was speechless, didn't know what to say other than what happened. My mother and him were sitting in the living room, he got up and went to the kitchen, she saw him walk in. After some time, she wondered where he was at, so she got up and went to the kitchen, she didn't see him. The kitchen is like a 2 parter kitchen, no doors thou, kitchen table, then it, the room breaks to the left to where the store and sink are. Since she didn't see him in the kitchen, she went to the bedroom, passing the bathroom, which he wasn't in, on the way. At the bedroom, he wasn't in there either. So she goes all the way into the kitchen, and he is on the floor. She calls 911, ambulance come, he's still alive, and they take him to the hospital. My sisters show up there. Donna looks at him and see that he isn't going to be around much long, s...