My Stomach !!!

On Saturday afternoon, right after work, I went to an ex girlfriends for
dinner. I wasn't really planning on eating anything or that much, just
talk and try to re connect with her. She was the one who called me and
invited me over.

My stomach is very picky, I mean I will almost try anything...but. But
there are some foods that I KNOW I shouldn't eat, so I stay away from
them. Now, I know there are certain foods I shouldn't eat at certain
times of the night. Homemade fishcakes, grits, eggs...are for sure.
Imagine this feeling. Some one takes your heart and just grips it and
squeezes it with all their might. That along with an upset stomach and a
headace.

I wasn't planning on spending the night, didn't have to be at work the
next day til 3pm, but I wasn't in any condition to make a 2 and a half
hour ride on the train. I left at 4am and was home by 7am, feeling even
worst. She called me telling me that she was disappointed, but not in me
though, but I think she was. She said that she was expecting us to get
MORE reaquainted, but she understood, told me I owe her one.

This is coming from a woman that in the past told me that I wasn't the
right type of man for her, that I worked too much, and I don't like to
do anything but stay at home. I guess, now that she is a single person
again, I'm not that bad off as she expected. We discuss this that night.
The guys she dated all wanted to play the field, cheat on her and stuff
while she was always faithful. It happens. Now she wants to start over
agin with me. I told her its worst that ever. My official next day of is
the 30th of this mont, and m going on 3 weeks without any time off. She
siad that she can deal with that and that she can come to me when and
stay over, that's if I will allow her or want her too. I will think
about it.

Lately I have been tired, so tired that when I get home, I sit for an
hour before I really start to unwind. I will really think about it, but
I have already made up my mind.
--michaelchappell