The New Year

I have to say this, I will be 50 years old this year. I hate thinking
about it too. Said I was gonna give some things up, and start some
things new...Aww what da fuck...PARTY !!!

I was so use to not having a Sidekick and all. But some people hollored
at me and asked why I don't call. I couldn't call cause all my phone and
emails were on my SIMS card, in my Sidekick. Couldn't access the info.
See how we, I, became so attached to this little piece of technology. Oh
I write the numbers down sometimes, but then I throw them away once I
enter them in my SK. For now on, I will have them in a address book that
I can write in.

There are some people I want to stay in touch with, and others, out of
touch. Sometimes having friends suck the energy right out of you. But
then again when you're use to doing the same thing all the time, change
can and will become hard.

I bought the New Year in with my ex, I have to. If I don't, I know I
will have a bad year. Drunk 2 bottle of champane and some other stuff,
feel asleep. With every New Year, it seems like it takes more energy to
make it fun, when it should be a time for reflection. We sat down a
talked about what we want to do different this year, well at least try
to. We both know, shit happens, things change, so we aren't holding it
against each other or ourselves if things don't go as we both projected
them to be. I told her that I'm greatful that I'm still alive to see
this year. To me its all new and exciting, everyday is like that for
me.

My co workers asked me, and some customers asked also, what did I do. I
told them, it was quiet and relaxing. I just hope my whole year stays
like this.
--michaelchappell