You know what makes me angry as fuck? Well, a lot of things do, but this
is one of them. A guy meets a woman, and the guy is from another
country, right. He goes back, and the guy leads the woman to believe
that he is coming back for her to be with her. Now, this 'said' woman,
is lying all over the place, well not lying. Cause the guy tells her one
thing, and she believes it. Now this woman is going to his country to
amrry him. That makes no sense to me at all.

I'm not 'hating' or anything like that, but I don't want to see her get
hurt. He's been gone for almost a whole year now. She said he said, that
he is coming for Christmas. That's not gonna happen, and she is gonna be
all in a funk now.

See, I'm not like that, I say what I want and mean, straight forward
like that.
--michaelchappell

Happy Turkey Day

Ok, what am I'm thankful for, a whole hell of a lot really. Ilm
thankful...That I got all body parts that are working, in good health, a
loving and forgiving family, friends that understand, and enemies that
understand also. Thankful for...I can wake up every morning, that I have
the will the yearning to do better, or at least I try. That I have a
job, that I have co workers who understand that I'm not yelling at them,
but to them. Thankful for..I can walk down the street and chew bubble
gum at the same time. That I love myself FIRST. Well that's all that
come right to mind.
--michaelchappell

Thoughts

A woman came to my counter yesterday and told me something that has me
thinking. She said that she wish I had as many friends as I do. What
made her think that I have a lot of friends. She said because everytime
she comes to my counter, I'm always talking with the customers.

Hey, but that's part of my job I tell her. She says that she is single,
aged about 45 years or so, no childeren and wants to be in a
relationship. I asked her was it because she wants to have sex on a
regular basis, or does she miss talking with some one. She said both. I
explained to her what she can do.

Guys know straight off if you're intrested in just sleeping with them,
if that's what you want. She claims that she doesn't want one night
stands, and I told her she doesn't have to have many one night stands.
Just find one that you feel comfortable with. Then it got around to
talking about me. She stood there for about 2 hours, between customers
we talked. She said that she feels at ease talking with me, and invites
me to her home for dinner. She doesn't cook, so it will have to be take
out. When ?

Turns out it was last night. After we ate, she told me to relax, and
that she notices that I'm not as talkative outside of the workplace. I
told her this is a new surrounding to me, so I have to get myself at
ease. She just came straight out and asked me to make love to her, I
corrected her. I told her that I will have sex with her right now if she
wanted me to. But there was a problem.

Now she isn't fat in anyway, but she has a thing about her body being
seen in the light and she wanted to turn the lights off. I told her no,
I want to see her body, that part of the proccess. Like I said she isn't
fat, all the right curves in ALL the right places. The night was
enjoyful as all hell too.

Afterwards we talked. She said she feels sooooo at ease with me, and
that she wants to see and do things with me if I didn't mind. Since we
went no further than her living room, I asked to see the rest of the
apartment. She has an extra bedroom. I asked her does she want a
roommate? She said yes if it was me only. How much for rent, 300 a
month. Wow !!

So I explained something to her. She must have a interent connection,
for one. I don't bring any one to where I live at. And we would be just
be roommates with benifits, so she can bring who ever she wants in,
since its her apartment. She tells me that all she wants is me in her
apartment, and that she has been living here for 3 years, and I was the
first man ever to step foot in her place.

I told her I will let her know by next week. For me, its a move to a
home with just one other person living there. But, I could grow to like
this women, even be in a relationship for the matter. But I think she is
just lonely and once she breaks out of her shell, she will ask me to
move on.
--michaelchappell

Got a Strange Email The Other Day.

This email is from a female friend I have know for over 6 years. We use
to date, then we were only sleeping buddies if ya know what I mean.
Then, its almost a whole year now, I haven't seen her face to face, no
contact at all. Then I receive an email stating the following.

She is/was/is seeing aguy now for almost a whole year now, but put off
sleeping with bim cause she doesn't know where her and I stand at. She
actually asked permission to sleep with this guy. What am I suppose to
say? If I say, go ahead, it might show that I don't care about her. If I
say no, wait on me, that's being selfish as hell, right ?

She lives almost 2 hours from me by train and bus, and I don't get up
her way that much. I could make a trip to her house before I go and see
my mother, but she expects me to spend the night. Or, I can go see my
mother, then spend the night at her house. Either way, its putting
stress on me and what I do at my job.

After working 6 days straight, I just want to layup at home, quiet
without talking to anyone. When I go visit her, she's so happy to see
me, she can stop talking, and that means I have to pay attention, and
not fall asleep after sex. See what I mean.

So her asking me can she see this other guy has put me in a
predicturement.
--michaelchappell
--michaelchappell

Tool: Learn To Swim

I was walking home from work, and that song, 'Learn to Swim' by Tool
came to mind. So, I search for the lyrics, and downlaoded the song once
again just to play it and sing the lyrics to the song. This song is
excatly how I feel.

'Fret for your figure and,
Fret for your latte and,
Fret for your lawsuit and,
Fret for your hairpiece and,
Fret for your prozac and,
Fret for your polit and,
Fret for your cable and,
Fret for your car and.
Its a 3 ring circus sideshow of freaks.'

I worry about way too much shit sometimes...but only for a second.
Cause, I keep in mind that thers is A Higher Power who knew 2000 years
ago just what I was going to, am going to face on this day or any given
day, then... All the worry dissappears as quickly as it came. There are
certain things iisues that I have control over, and then there are some
that I don't. My thoughts...let shit happen the way it suppose to
happen, then worry about changing what doesn't go my way. Its hard to
explain, and I know it doesn't sound right, but...

'Some say a comet will fall from the sky,
Followed by meteor showers and tidal waves.
Followed by fault lines that cannot sit still.
Followed by millions of dumfounded dipshits.

'Some say the end is near.
Some say we'll see armageddon soon.
I certainly hope we will cuz
I could sure use a vacation from this..
Silly shit... stupid shit'

That last paragraph is what it all boils down to. Like sometimes, I wish
this world would just end. I don't want to kill myself in no way. I just
want the world to end...all of us, just be gone. Hence.. 'Silly shit,
stupid shit.

'One great big festering neon distraction
I've a suggestion to keep you all occupied...
Learn to swim
Moms gonna fix it all soon.
Moms comin' around to put it back the way it ought to be.'

Learn to swim

Fuck L Ron Hubbard and
Fuck all his clones.
Fuck all those gun-toting
Hip gangster wannabes.

Learn to swim

Fuck retro anything
Fuck your tattoos
Fuck all you junkies and
Fuck your short term memory.

Learn to swim

Fuck smiley glad-hands
With hidden agendas.
Fuck these dysfuntional
Insecure actresses.

Learn to swim

Cuz I'm praying for rain
And I'm praying for tidal waves.
I wanna see the ground give way
I wanna watch it all go down.
Mom please flush it all away.
I wanna watch it go right in and down.
I wanna watch it go right in.
Watch you flush it all away.

Learn to swim.

I know these lyrics may not make any sense reading them, but listen to
the song, and sing along with it.
--michaelchappell

Veterans Day

It bothers me when I read about people who put down our Armed Forces.
Saying things like they would never serve and shit like that. They need
to think about it some.

Where would this country be if we didn't have those brave male and
female soldiers proctecting everything that we stand for. With all the
hurt that's going on in this world, the USA has the strongest fighting
machine there is. Its not only the soldiers out there on the war front
protecting our rights. Its those people that come up with the technology
that helps us to become the strong war machine that we are. Jobs are
created for the protection of what we hold true.

If I could, I would re enlist and do it all over again. The bond you
create with those who you serve with is a strong as bond, something that
can never be broken. True, some of us while serving don't always come
out at the end with our wits, metally and physically sane. I'm sorrowed
by that, but with the support of the family, some of us can and will
make it threw.

Whenever I see a soldier in uniform, I always try and engaged them in
conversation. Along with thanking them for the jobs that they are doing,
I always ask about what their future plans are, like when they are
discharged. Most have said that they never really have given it a
thought. So, I try and tell them in kinder words that they should really
think about that.

A salute goes out to ALL of those who served and are serving in ALL of
our Armed Forces.
--michaelchappell

Gettin' Close To That Time of Year..Christmas !!

I look forward to Christmas every year for a number of reasons. One, it
puts me in a good mood, and two, well I will explain.

Every year I come across all types of females due to my job. Some I
become good friends with, and others I dread they coming to my counter.
This year there isabout 5 to 8 of them that are special. So one of them
will get a present from me.

Every year, I pick out something from Victoria Secrets and send it as a
gift, no strings attached. Last year when I presented the gift to her,
and she opened it, she didn't know what to say. But she did say it was
the nicest gift she got from a non boyfriend, even a boyfriend. She
asked why did I did this. I told her it was something that I thought she
would look nice in. I never got the chance and wasn't expecting to, see
her in it either. She did say she would take a picture in it, but never
showed me. We are still in contact with each other.
--michaelchappell

Fw: DNA - Tunnel for Obama near Mani Bhavan

Subject: DNA - Tunnel for Obama near Mani Bhavan
Date: Sat, 06 Nov 2010 05:12:31 +0530

Tunnel for Obama near Mani Bhavan

It could give a sense of superior American organisation, or be an
indicator of a deep-set persecution complex. It could also be a
manifestation of Uncle Sam's penchant for a show of strength.

The matter pertains to US president Barack Obama's planned visit to
Mani Bhavan —the Gandhi museum — on November 6, soon after he
reaches Mumbai. On Monday, US secret agents visited the museum to plan
Obama's security detail.

They were accompanied by officers of Mumbai Police and civic officials
of the D ward (where Mani Bhavan is located). While inspecting the route
and the buildings lining up the route to the museum, the Americans
detected a skyscraper near Peddar road and also found the area to be
highly populated.

Since it is difficult to monitor such a congested area, they came up
with a quick solution which left the Indians accompanying them amazed: A
bomb-proof over-ground tunnel — to be installed by US military
engineers in just an hour.

The tunnel would be a kilometre long and measure 12ft by 12ft — enough
to let Obama's cavalcade pass through. The tunnel would be centrally
air-conditioned, fitted with close-circuit television cameras, and will
be heavily guarded at every point, including, of course, its entry and
exit.

Details about when exactly the tunnel would be made were not
forthcoming. But officials said that the structure would be dismantled
immediately after Obama leaves the area.

--michaelchappell

Worries

There are some issues that are involing family members, close family
members. There is nothing..well there is one thing I could do.

My mother doesn't want my father to live in the same house with her any
longer. Its not what you think. They both are elderly, him more than
her. He can hardly see, and you know how people get once they start
getting on in years. Its also not that she doesn't care about him, she
doesn't want to worry about him when he goes out in the street for
whatever. The last time, yesterday, he got confused, and couldn't find
his way back home in the neighborhood. Some one bought him home, and
this upsetted my mother greatly.

I suggested that they find a 2 bedroom apartment in one of the many
homes that's in my area to rent for me and him. I can't afford..no, I
don't have the funds for the 1 months rent or whatever they want to move
in. I can afford to pay up to 700 dollars a month in rent. This was
mentioned to my mother thru my brothers and sisters, but she turned it
down. I guess she doesn't want worry about him being in any other place
except for a nursing home.

See, I've heard about parents being placed in nursing homes, but
wouldn't think that it would be me the one or one of the ones to make
that decision. Its a hard call to make for all the family members. Its
also that I have a bad feeling about him going into any place like this.
Its like he won't be part of the family, and that really bothers me.

My co workers told me that everything will work out for the best. I feel
what they say, but this is heavy on my heart. Its the fact that its come
down to this and I'm am so helpless in the situation. I'm the oldest, I
should lead. But that's not how it is.

My true feelings, day before yesterday, was all selfish. No one cares
about me, I care about me only. Its not like that, aor, I don't feel
that way now. I wish I hit the Mega Millions and ALL these issue woud be
solved on all fronts. But I'm not rushing out and wasting what little I
have. All I want my family to know is that I'm there fpr any choice,
decision they decide to make.
--michaelchappell