Thursday, Agust 25th, 5:09am

I can't and I don't understand some people. I mean I don't try to understand people at all. There are only a handful of people that I really do care about, the rest can kiss my ass..and family is included in this too. But for the most, I don't understand people, and I give up on trying to. Take work for an example, just think about this for a minute.

For the most,you spend about 40 to 50 hours with the people you work with every week. And, work isn't the only thing you do with them. Some times you go and hang out, go to events. Sometimes you go out and get fucked up, drinking, drugging. Then there are times when you go out with the opposite sex, and now even the same sex, to get your groove on, nothing wrong with that. But ask yourself, what about that new person that just came on your team, that who is now a teammate of yours, huh, what about them?

Do you bring that new person into your new circle, or do you keep them on the outside and treat them like they are new. If you know what I know, you would make that person feel like part of your work family. Yesterday, I told them at work that being that this is my second week and I will be getting paid, that I am coming up short on train fare, could some one please lend me a dollar. I heard I don't have a dollar, to I don't come out of the house with money. Then one guy had the nerve to say that is he the only one that has money so close to payday? But do you think he offered, after I asked to borrow a dollar? Hell no. But here is what happened.

Customer who had came in at lunch time and I made her sandwiches for her, wanted 2 to take home for dinner. I had already clocked out, and I told her I did, but I also told her that I had no problem making them for her. I went behind the counter and she changed her order to 5 sandwiches. The guy that was working the stationed told me that he would handle it, and the woman said no he wasn't she wanted me to do it. After I finished, she gave me a 50 dollar tip.

I went and washed my hands and told everyone that would listen, what just happened and you should have seen the look on their faces. What I plan on doing later on this morning is taking 30 dollars and buying some Dunkin Dounuts for my co workers, to show that I appreciate working with them.

New.....

Some people, mostly females, they have been hurt throughout their lives. When all they want is to be loved and cared for by any one, but mainly they want a realtionship with a man. Don't you females tell me that bullshit, I don't need no man either. Cause you know that just what you want. Well, I know what I want too, and its not to be tied down in a relationship, so to speak. I will come over when you want me to, but I want to have the means to say, no, I'm staying home, or that I'm going to stay at a friends house this weekend. If you don't understand that and this, there is nothing in the world that can make you understand.

We all have lives to lives, with things to do, and some of those things I like to do by myself. Things like just spending time with people I want to spend time with. This woman that I'm seeing now, she falls somewhat into some of these categories. I have to explain things to her later on though.