Conversations...

Over the years I have had some remarkable conversations with people, male & females.I find that speaking, holding conversations with females are WAY better.

Years ago a guy would have to know how to hold a rap, a convo with a female. It can be tricky at times. Its either the male isn't well informed or he can be too much informed. Take me for example, I read a lot. What I mean by a lot? If its in print or digital, at one time or another I have read it. You say, that's a lot of reading, right? Well most of the time I'm just skimming articles. There has to be key words in the headlines to grab my attention.

Had a crazy as convo with my ex today, while sitting on her couch, with 'my' blow up bed propping both out feets up while watching Sunday Morning on Channel 2. She asked me have I seen her wehite t shirt cause she doesn't know where its at, I had it on at one time. I gave it to her and she said keep itcause I might want to smoke another cigarette while standing in her bath tub with the window open. Its kind of chilly outside. I told her no take it cause I can stand there and smoke, its not like I have breast to hide like yours. She said, watch, one morning you're gonna wake up with some. I said, then I won't need you and how would you like to have a penis, its great having one. What she said blew my mind. She said, hell no. With a penis you only can cum once and men don't have G Spots. This is coming from a woman who has had only ONE lover in her life me.

I ask myself over and over again, why do I stay some what attached to her, my ex. She tells me when she doesn't see me every weekend, she wished I were there. And when I'm there, she spends most of her time, her weekends, in her bed. Oh, I don't and have never slept in the same bed with her, even when we were a couple and living together. She has this thing of always having to sleep alone as I have a thing about hugging, cuddling when trying to sleep. In her place, she has a Queen sized, double hight Coleman's inflateable bed for me to sleep on. Mind you, she has a studio apartment so its cramped when my bed is inflated. But we make due.

The conversations I have with her, with me starting them, range from music to religion. I try and stay away from religion with her, but she waks the line and is on the fence of becoming or once was a Jehovah Witness. Not sure though, but I did ask her about it and the look that came over her face was that of one reliving a bad nightmare while awake. Her views on God and serving God are way different from mines. She gets so angry with me some times. Like I said, what if there isnta God. What if we were placed her on this planet as an experiment and there are forces, aliens for more advance than we are,h looking at us as humans like some science project. Shouldn't have said that to her cause it set off a great big Shit Storm. She refuses to think outside the box on many issues. Issues like, the Bible was written by man, men who didn't actually lived during those times, but wrote down was was passed down to them from other men. Just like now, many years from now, people will write, recors what is happening now, in THEIR present time, what they THINK, not KNOW what happened. They will assume cause there will be no one alive to stae the actual fact. History is only what is written, it doesn't make it fact. That's what my conversations are like.

I refuse to think how the 'masses' think on certain things & issues. Its not that I'm being rebellious, its not the way I am thinking at the time. True, it may change, my way of thinking.  Like Gay Marriage. I believe everyone should be with the one they choose to be with, even marry. But some people are making a big thing out of it. Like what, you want to be able tomarry for what reasons? So you can have that rent stable apartment, to collect on the insurance when one passes on? For what? Its shit like that where my way of thinking flip flops. I mean love is love, but for waht reason on a grander level?

Cynthia..she told me she wants some one, a man, who can be completely honest with her.I asked her to ask me what ever questions she wanted answers to, she told me there are a lot. First one was on marriage...I don't believe in it for the simple fact that sex stops after a while and woman hold it as a Whole Card in their hand. She countered, it sint aout sex. Well what the fuck is it about? I was attracted to you by the way you looked without you even opening up your mouth and the first thing you ask is about marriage? Fuck outta here. So I'm suppose to put a ring on your finger, support the hosuehold and its not about sex? So you don't mind me stepping out else where? Sex equals love and love equals sex. You stop having sex with me, I can easily stop loving you. Guess she didn't and don't want to hear that. Meeting her in person later today, she probably cancel too.