I Have Prada Taste & Style, But....

...my wallet says Eddie Bauer. Serious, I like the style of clothing, but can not afford the prices, sooooo....

My mother, she gets all kinds of sale books from almost everyone in the mail. This one, Sportman's Guide, I went off on. Ordered like $300 worth of clothes. Mostly Carhartt, which I didn't know made shirts, jeans and slacks. I want to get the old timers Army Field Jacket, but not until I can find the Field Jacket Liner. Last week ordered something from Eddie Bauer too. Waiting for it to come in.

I'm giving it my all with the dating scene, but its not working out. One reason is...people, don't know how just to be themselves when meeting people for the first time. Fuck that, 'first impression' bs. Just be yourself. Because sooner or later it WILL all come out. Take the woman who says she has no children, she hides them. That's just so wrong and there is no explanation that she can give when you find out that she does have kids. Why hide? Or, the woman who says they have no drama or what no drama in their lives, but... Has so much of it, enoght for 3 people. Try to give advice that works for me, but they aren't hearing none of it. But quick to tell me, I know nothing about her and who am I to give advice. Listen, I come and go as I please, because in the long run, no one takes care of me but me.

That seems to be the issue with some people,  male & female. They, we..we all want someone to take care of us when we should at least make the effort to do so ourselfs. Some claim to be 'doing themselves'. Doing me, as they say. What the fuck does that means? Are you saying you're doing what you're doing glooming off of others cause that's what you do best? Sometimes its the ones with 3 kids, or 2 baby's mommies. What's strange is...that if there wasn't a market for shit like this, it wouldn't exsist. Its the older guy, who has nothing but money & time and nothing else to do. So when she bleeds him dry or he comes to his senses and cuts her loose, she moves on to the next one. Or the guy, no job, glomes off a woman wo is doing what she has to do to support herself, working a 9 to 5. She meets up with this deadbeat, bleeds her dry, leaves her with a bad taste in her mouth AND pregnant, and then she kicks him out or whatever. What's left of her to do and feel? That all guys are the same. Having HIS baby nowadays doesn't make your relationship pernament...new have and never will.

I meet and woman for the first time...its about having a lasting experince in the mind, something you can fall back on. Doing something on our first date that's fun if its left up to me to choose. Something I want to do WITH her.