Now I know

...a lot of things and they are nuch clearer now.

Dating...why do I even bother sometimes. Maybbe because I'm searching for something, some one who isn't really out there that is my match. I compromise. But it seems I'm not the only one.

Found out what 'complicated' means for the most part. Only occurs in women, me don't state as their status 'complicated'. Found out this. Complicated to some, not most women is that they want a certain man, but he is with some one else. 3 women online, I peeled them back like an onion, and found out. Seems the man is their 'best friend' also, but with another woman. All 3 women says the feeling are mutal, the man wants them too, but they are with these woman. You know what I say.

Get OUT of that man's life, don't even have him as a friend more or less a best friend. Are these woman fucking nuts!! You knwo what they say...you hang out ina barbershop, sooner or later ya gonna get a haircut. You know he is with another woman, if he wanted you he would be with you. All he wants from you is sex...and he still wants to keep his present woman. True, you put up with it for a while. You're not sleeping with anyone else, you're waiting on him, and he's waiting on you to drop your pants, hike your dress up. Once the deed is done, the little speech. 'You know I can't leave her right now, they are issues involved'. Now you feel like shit and all types of emotions kick in. You refuse to become that 'side chick', why did I give him me? You knew all along what was going to happen. Look at it this way. If he did that with his present girl/woman, imagin what he will do with you.

One woman got so angry, she ask for my telephone number and I had a 2 hour conversation. I basically found out a lot about. Same old same old, 2 kids from 2 different guys. Why do women do this shit? Kids by different guys, no birth control. They get pissed off and then start saying WHAT they want in the man they are going to settle down with. When all along, they should've been making demands on themselves. Oh, she says she wants to meet me too. I told her I would, but I'm busy for the next couple of days. Wants to know with what...none of your business I said. Ask was she working...no. has her won place...no. said case I told her. All I would want her for is sex. I'm not taking care of her. But all of this cause you want this other guy, who has a woman. Life is rough.