Some More Stuff

It's nothing like getting that phone call...when you're about to turn in for the night. ...then, 2 hours later... Hold up, I have to work in the morning. Okaybye.

I actually met her a few months back...went to her home. Planned something for the holiday, but I didn't hear back from her until last night. I saw shit happens, don't worry about it, but you did call me now. LONG conversation....talked about a lot of things.... One thing I don't understand and it seems to be a trend...well sort of. How can a woman be shy, still shy..after having children who are of adult age.

I thought about it...nope, isn't anyway possible. Is it just a 'thing' to prove to a man that she is a certain type of woman, or... Is it proving that she isn't a certain type of woman that acts a certain type of way. Either way I say 'shy' isn't the word you should use.

I had another conversation earlier in the day with a 25 year old mother of 2. We meet up at the same place 5 days a week so we had no other choice but to have a conversation...that and to keep these other 2 guys from bothering her every waking morning. But yesterday, the conversation went a bit further, continued on the bus. We didn't speak out loud. She ask for my phone and put in her cell phone number and we continued by text. She texted that it has been almost 5 months since she has had sex and it's driving her crazy. Not from this area, moved here from another state to get away from her child's father. Shelter, job and now she has her own place...but she misses THAT part of her life. Doesn't want a relationship, just want a sex partner who is clean, working and has his shit together. I joked and text back, how about me. She texted, 'DUH!'. But she warned me, she is fertile for  mofo, her words and doesn't approve of condom usage. PRETTY dark skinned woman, a runners body.  I told her we can talk through out the week...she said it's happening THIS Saturday at my place, and asked for my address. But texted, it's ONLY a sexual thing...for now, okay?

Day before yesterday, another friend on a Dating Site made a post that there is something about younger men, their energy. I told her it's not the energy that you speak of, it's the staying power, the rawness of a man younger than you. It's like you are thinking to yourself that you are the envy of every man younger than you...that they want you. I also told her that men of your age see thru your bullshit and don't and won't have anything to do with you and men WAY younger than you are quick to say that they are sleeping with an older woman. But the 2 of you are both living out your own fantasy. He gets and older woman where as he can boast and brag to his male friends. As for you...the impression that you think you are giving him is that you have your shit together and that he is the luckiest man because you chose him to lay in your bed. She then went on to say that men her age are lazy, over weighted and don't want to do anything. I'm suppose to meet her for breakfast this coming Sunday, but I know she won't show up. Oh well.

I've been told that I am dating material but I don't own a car. A man should at my age own a car so he can get around. Again, I don't want that responsibility, and if I do have to go some where, I plan my trips. I don't want that burden of a car not, maintenance..and God forbid, an accident. The people I do know who own cars...seems that their car is always in the shop and our conversations are around how much they have to pay for repairs and the such. Makes me glad that I don't own a car and if I wanted or have to go some where, I can always rent one. One person missed a whole week of work because of her car in the shop being worked on. The bill just caused my heartache and terror to her. ...took from one bill to pay off the repair shop, which is somewhere along the way is going to put her in a hole. Back in the days, a car represented a sense of independence. Today...I say its a luxury.