Tuesday, September 28, 2021

Seasonal Jobs...

I can't believe what some if the people who are working are doing. They are quitting their jobs for these jobs that are $21 to $23 dollars an hour. I tried to tell them what the deal is, but they won't listen.

These jobs that are now offering this good pay are only doing it for 90 days, The Christmas Season. Though it's good money..don't be expected to be with that company come the first of the year. In fact, around the 15th if December they are going to start cutting loose all those people they hired.

Like I said, I tried to tell them, but they won't listen. I also told them that finding a job after New Years..well, you might not get anything until maybe around the 15th of April. It's a pattern, and if you have worked like you're suppose to be working damn near all your life you would see it.

Another thing is with these jobs, those Seasonal Workers are thinking they are going to work 40 hour weeks. It's more or less 3, maybe 4 days a week. Or even 3 days a week at a 12 hour shift. True, no matter how you look at it it's good money but I would want something ongoing.

I've seen it so many times that I even stop telling people about what these companies do. They work you hard, and then cut you loose. It's another thing that might. Ause depression. Not having money around Christmas time and to bring in The New Year.

I just hope that those who signed up for those jobs get to stay with the company they work with.

Monday, September 27, 2021

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I don't take advice from just anyone. I know youre not suppose to bw weary of the messenger, it's the message that counts. But no, I look at the messenger first then listen to what they have to say..and then process everything.

See... I want to tell this Messenger what I think he should hear coming from me, since he thinks that he has a message for me. I keep trying to tell people who think they know me..you don't know me. You only see what I allow you to see.

But I don't hide anything though. I don't pretend to be anything or anyone I'm not. People think they get their stripes because they are 'Street' and people 'respect' them. It's not respect, it's fear, they fear you.

Like I said, I'm going to be me. I enjoy listening to music, that's onw thing that keeps me going and motivated. I also enjoy surfing the internet and reading
 Although I haven't been doing too much reading lately. In New York City, Pre Pandemic, I would ride the subways and always had my Kindle open. Here, I walk to work and where I sleep...too much distractions for me to read. I tried, just too much going on all at once.

But come October 1st, making a slight change...or at least I. Going to try to.

Sunday, September 26, 2021

SnapChat...

I had installed it a while ago..and now I know why I took it off my phone.

If anyone who uses SnapChat, let's say in their phone because I don't even know if you use it on your PC or laptop but..  SnapChat is like Selfies...it makes you too self esorbed. It focuses or .ays you focus only in yourself.

I tried the second time around, and there are too many bells and whistles for me. I only tried it because this pretty young lady told me that I was 'dumb' and not smart enough to figure it out. Okay, she's right. But for now, it will stay installed on my phone.

Friday, September 24, 2021

Friday,.

Even here in VA... Everyone lives fir Friday, The Weekend. I dislike the weekends.

I rather work Saturdays and Sundays and be off two week days. In New York City...everyone parties, go shopping for food and handle their business in the weekends, which makes doing things harder because if the crowds. During the week, when I'm off and everyone is at work, I get to do my business. Wash clothes, food shopping...or just do nothing.

Met this woman online. Became friends and then she hit me with the..click here to see my... But there was and is something different about her and I can't place my finger on it. She's from Norfolk, VA...34 years old. I didn't ask her about her status because I can guess..at least one kid, no man, child's father not in their lives. Typical and basic but I understand. But something happened with us communicating. She is becoming..she wants to actually know more about me, the things I like in a woman.

..and no, she isn't 'playing' me. I know when a woman is. See, she told me straight up that she isn't sleeping with me for money. She said IF we were to meet it's because she wants to sleep with me. And no me coming to her, but her coming here to me. I ask when and she said she doesn't know yet because..well because she has to trust me.

I asked her her real name and she text me her driver's license with her address tape over. I asked is she dating/sleeping with anyone..and ahe asked me too. She said no, ans I said yes I am. This woman is asking all the right questions which makes her somewhat different.

Wants to know why do I want her if I have someo5 already. I asked her soes5 she eat the same thing everyday, she said no, and she gets what I mean. 

It's sad though. A woman has a child with a guy and expects the guy to be there and do the right thing. I'm not saying it's the guys fault because it could be that she is just hard to get along with after she had the baby by him. Maybe she is too demanding and he had enough. Or, maybe the guy is an asshole and wasn't even going to be there from the beginning. Who knows.

I know one thing for sure. A man has to be strong in the mind to live in any Shelter. There are rules to be followed. I'm following them and I ask for everything. Like can I wash my clothes, can I go up to take a shower after work. I just recently asked that after my shower, can I relax and take a nap. I requested it in writing and got a yes. So yesterday I slept for 4 hour after work and my shower. I think that's why I woke up at 3:30am, not doing that again. 

My best friend got kicked out of this shelter a couple of weeks ago and I'm afraid and worry of his safety out there. He texted me asking about a piece of property I was holding for him. While I was at work he came by to pick it up. Everyone asked me did I see him. Staff here told me that he looks bad, very very bad. I told them I tried to help him while he was here, it's the only reason I came to VA was to help him get right. But he didn't and still doesn't want to. Oh he will sooner or later.

Thursday, September 23, 2021

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I've always said that if you can't make up your own mind and have to depend on someone else to do it for you..

It started with her getting a phone call, I was sitting right besides her. Only heard the conversation on my end, and I knew it was not going to be a good one. She said hold up, I'm putting you on speakerphone.

I know she had no control over who she said was her best friend on the other side. But really, I think she should really REALLY choose who she calls her best friend more wisely.

The woman on the line came straight out and asked me what was my contentions concerning her friend. I told her that is none of your business and how dare you ask me something like that. She then said..'See, those other motherfuckers took advantage of her and I'm not going to let that happen again to her.' Instead of me going back and forth with her, I gathered my things and left this woman's apartment.

I get back to where I'm staying at and see my cell had 4 calls and four voicemails. I deleted them all. I called her and told her that her so called beat friend was out of line and that she doesn't know me..and how did you let it get to that point that she cursed me out.

I asked her did she sleep with this woman and she said all she did was kiss and they sucked each other's breast. That was all I needed to know. I told her that your best friend still wants you and wants to take your friendship with her further. End of story.

Then she tells me that her friend apologized...to who, it wasn't me. Things are now different between the both of us. 

Tuesday, September 21, 2021

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So people think just because they are allowed to do certain things that other aren't allowed to do...they think they are special. But..

Today, I spoke with the person who deals with me. I asked him when I get off from work and come back there, take a shower..why can't I take a nap. He said he has to ask his supervisor..who approved of me just doing that, take a nap. 

So this guy who works at night, he gets off in the morning he can come and go as he pleases doing the day time, lay up, get rest and sleep all day. After I took my shower, while sitting on my bed...he tells me that he will talk with me later. He thought I was leaving, I laid down and went to sleep. This fucker walks by and bumps my bed hard and it woke me up.

What happened next...all I can say was the last thing I said to him was fuck you. But this is what I wanted to say...

Motherfucker we are the same age and in a shelter and all you have yin your head a dreams. While you making pennies selling so called weed...and talking about what you're going to do, you haven't done shit. You use your so called medical problems as a fucking crutch, nothing wrong with your ass. At 61 years of age, 2 felonies, 2 Baby Momma's..you're a cliche. Because I won't sit out there on the benches with your ass smoking that shit,, you think its a fucking joke. All you look at at a job is how much youre getting paid an hour and not..you don't have a career, you have jobs.

Now his ass is laying in his bed right now when he was suppose to be at work at 6pm today. He's the type of person who will rise another man's success and then tell him what to do. He's a fucking joke. Them try to tell me he's from NYC. No the fuck you're not, you're from here Virginia and it shows. I've never seen him take a shower, I've checked all three showers one time for a week, none dry. Never seen him wash his clothes, I was clothes every damn day.

Enough is enough.

Monday, September 20, 2021

My Bad..

Like I have about 5 post that are just laying up in the 'draft' section. 

Shit has been weird as fuck around here lately. Working long hours and not getting any sleep, plus...

I met a 34 year old Bi sexual woman..I don't know why I pointed that out. Suppose to only be FB, Fuck Buddies but she caught feelings. But I'm not taking away from my goals to satisfy her..let's say cravings. Then..

Then an 18 year old, girg5 from head to toe..tall, built kind of Butchy...showing her interest in me like pushing up strong too. What messing with my head though is that she is a virgin and doesn't want to be any more. Introduces me to her MOTHER who I am OLDER than. I was jammin out to some Breatbeat in the isle of a Walmart and she was standing behind me dancing to and with me but she..I know she could have heard the music coming out if my Beats Wireless headphones or could she. Just started kicking it with me. Talked for about an hour standing right there in the isle.

Sorry for being so damn sexual with this post, but it's how it is. 

Then in the same day..two White women younger than me with boyfriends/man/husbands..wanted me as their Side Piece. WTF!?? I said why not to the both of them. They both constantly text me, talking some real shit too.

Had a chance two days ago to buy a Honda, Mint Green two door, perfect condition for $600 dollars... But DMV has a appointment type bullshit going on and wait time is THREE FUCKIG MONTHS. I could risk it driving without a license, but nope, not gonna do it.

And to tope all of it off. The Delta bullshit is deadlining MOTHERFUCKERS here left and right. So far 12 people have been moved to hotels to ride it out. Staff is saying it's not Covid related but I know the deal and can't afford to stay in a hotel for 10 to 14 damn days. I got tested, negative but that doesn't mean shit.

The dudes here who I thought had their shit together..don't, and it's oissib me the fuck off too. Like was all that shit you were saying and doing in the past a front. I came out and asked all three of them. I had to be ause each one if them asked me to wake them up in the morning because I get up at 2:30am fir my 4am shift a quarter mile away..walking there too. Fuck no!! I'm not your alarm clock. And He'll to the NO, not lending or letting you hold shit in the way of money. You can't wake and get up on your own and now you're asking for money? Last I know I did t father any damn kids.

Looking forward to Thursday, going to that young woman's house for dinner, which she is going to cook.

Oh yeah... This White woman I know.. She likes me...ask for my number and.. That's right, sending me nudes and shit. Claims she never been with a Black Man before and want me to be her first. Thinking about her too.

Funny thing is that fir almost two whole years I couldn't even find sex..and now it's all over the place and in my face. Issue with me is that I don't know how to go in relaxation mode, all I think about is work. Not forget hours and money, but for the..I don't know, the act of doin someth5 I like doing? Not like Love.

I been having dinner time deep thoughts with this one White dude. Think about this...

He said that our dreams in the average last 3 minutes..but when we dream, then wake up, it seems like hours. That is why when we die or about to, of live 'Fkadhes before our eyes'. But get this though.. How do you know when you are dead, because when we dream for the three minutes, it seems like a long time..and who is to say that like right now..we aren't seeming this very moment. I may be expaling it all wrong.

Gotta go, 10:30pm..lights out.

Thursday, September 16, 2021

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Over the years...they we 'date' has changed, but..

I don't bet around the bush nor hold back my words. If you as a woman seem attractive to me and you are somewhat interested in me..sure, I'm pushing up on you.

 It I'm coming at you in the nicest possible way there is, but you will KNOW what I mean and what my plans are concerning you. Take into consideration, I'm single with no women and excuse my French..I'm not fucking anyone or any woman at the time.

But what I've seen in the past 2, 3 years..some of these women have it all twisted. They are a ring like they are the ones with the balls in their pants. Dictating what a man should and it how they should be approached by him. I just can't be that way, it's not in my nature. 

She gave me her number when I asked for it. We talked for about half an hour but she was in her way someplace and told me to call her, so I did later on. What fucked me up was 1hat she said next. She asked fir my password to my IG to make sure that I wasn't a Player and that ibdidnt have all these women in my In Box. My PASSWORD? Is that what the younger ones are using to clarify that the men they are interested in aren't Players or.. Or are you some kind of present day walking the street scammer? I want to know.

So, she did agree to meet with me and she did. After a out an hour she asked 2hat was I doing now, like I'm sitting here talking with you. She asked me to go half and half on a room. Told her I can't right now, I work in the morning and I have a curfew..which with me saying that, meant I had to explain my living arrangements. But she was cool with it.

Then she told me.. 'Oh, so that's what you do, get young women all hot in the pants amd turn them down? Is that how you get your shit off?' I told her no, that I don't want to spend a couple of hours with her..I want to go to sleep with her and THEN wake up to you in the morning. She understood that.

Soooo. Let's see what happens on Sunday then.

Wednesday...

Now... Now I know.

My best friend is on some real bullshit. Yesterday as I was at my female's friends house, my cellphone rang, it was a 646 number and I figured it was a span call so I didn't answer. My phone stays on silent all the time. It's aet fie vibrate only. It was my friends brother calling from New York City. When I left her place I saw it was a text from him also.

My friend has been calling his brothers in NYC asking for money. From what his brother(s) told me, it's been now for the last 4, 5 days. So they asked me if he's working like he said he was, why is he asking for money. I had no answer for them.

We are considered like family because we go way back..as far back as the mid 1960's. His family was dating someone in my family, shit like that. From what I got from his brothers.. I've been getting my ass kicked and handed to me ever since I've arrived here in this part of Virginia. And that as of yesterday, my friend had to smack the shit out of me because I was getting out of hand, out if control. All are lies.

This was first started on Wednesday, been a busy 24 hours.)

Monday, September 13, 2021

I Am What I Am.

 I don't consider myself special in no way fashion or form... But I DO KNOW what works for me and ME ONLY.

I can not feel sorry for a motherfucker who doesn't even try and do something with their own lives. I don't care if they are male or female, I don't feel sorry for your ass. You can walk around like you're an old ass man all the fuck you want. When just the other day your ass was popping around here talking all that mad ass shit. Now look at you. And what the sad part is, you're like 5 years younger than me.




Sunday, September 12, 2021

Sunday Morning..

Sunday morning..my day off...and this ONE asshole here...man!!

I remember when I was very young that not only did my school teacher but also my mother told me that I can BE anything I wanted to be. Not only that, that I can go almost where we unwanted to go too. Going places she said...she said you have to be prepared for whatever might cross your path.

Keeping all that my parents told me, mostly my mother...I've sent out in journeys that took me to places where people dreamed of. I've been to quite a bit of places on this planet of ours. I e experienced quite of bit if things also.  It what messes with my head...with all these places I've been to...it's the mentality if the way some people think. I've come to understand that it's not that other people hold you back from doing something, anything..it's the person, they hold their selves back.

Each place you go to have rules, rules that you have to go by. Go against those rules and sometimes you're breaking the law. What I've seen most times it's people themselves, they hold their own selves back. They do this by saying that 'they' won't allow me to do this or that. Not true. You can't be a doctor if you don't go to school first and pass all the test. You can't be a police officer if you're unstable in your way if thinking, have me tal issues. Though in the pass I would beg to differ but it's true. Some people are bought up by their parents way of thinking and living and these same people as young adults don't ever adjust to the present day and way if thinking and living. Take this case..

This guy here... Be goes to a public park and uses the park grill and cooks his own food. It's a White people park..keep that in mind. So yesterday the local police told him that he can't cook out like he's doing and has to stop. The smell if his cooking is disturbing the other people. So this guy makes a big stink if it, he was telling me a little while ago about it. I told him that if people call the police and make a complaint, that the police are just doing their job and he has to stop. Me saying that opened a can of worms.

He says all this madness that it's a free country. This may be true, but there are rules and laws. For one, why are you cooking out every day. He says because he can't it the food they serve here. I told him... Since you have a car, which you do have a large cooler in it, do this.. Get you a room for three days, one if those rooms that has a working stove and cook your food there and store it in your cooler. He says he doesn't have the money for that because he didn't working right now. I said well get a note from your doctor saying that you have to have a special diet and maybe this place will allow you to cook in their kitchen every three days or so. He tells me he isn't going through all of that and that he should be able to cook his food in the park. No, police say you can't, end of story.

So, he is t working now and he works in the same firms I do. He told me the reason why he isn't working is because the people he works for are professional in the work place, his last job was a Deli Clerk. I told him I started off as a Deli Clerk and I enjoyed it so much because it was actually fun. He says the people he works with all they do is talk about people. So fucking what. Do they do their job? He says yes, I said so fucking what. It's a Deli Clerk position, the entry way to working in a real kitchen in a restaurant. He says he can't work around people like that.

Last week he went in an interview for a job at a private school. Said the person interviewing him was asking him questions that had nothing to do with the job. Was asking him about the type of foods he enjoys cooking, and the person interviewing him was telling him about what he enjoys cooking also. But Thai guy said that that conversation has nothing to do with the job and that he thinks he was just being nosey. I told him no, that conversation was to see how you related to people with people, if you can hold a conversation. He says no, he was just trying to find out about him.

I had enough of the 'Kid Gloves' talk with him and told him how I felt. I told him this food service industry is t about being professional all he time, it's about working well with others as a team. If you can't work as part if the team in a Deli, you should get out if the field and try something else. It all came down to how he was brought up by his parents..and a lot of other thungs and issues too.

I told him that you honestly, from just taking with you...you think you're better than everyone else. You're young, but you're living as your parents, how your parents are raised. You have to adjust to this present day and age, you have to adjust your way if thinking because what and how you're thinking now isn't working for you. He tells me to shut up and he's tired if hearing my voice. I laugh.

20 minutes later, he comes back and tells me that the staff here told him to see me about a job, where I work at. I tell him that you won't be a good fit but apply anyway but don't say I sent you, I can't and won't vouch for you, tire on your own. Well me saying that opened another cans of worms, so I got real REAL with him. 

Listen do what you want to but don't use my name. Be sure if you do and they ask me about you, I'm going to tell them in a professional way what I think about you. One, you're not a team player, you want to do things in your own. And two, your don't care about this field of work, all you care about is the money. He walks away and says, Black pwoe won't and don't help each other out. I said fuck that and fuck you..and I chewed him a new asshole too. Won't go into want I said, but he wanted to fight. Told him the truth hurts huh? Hurst so much that you want to out your hands in me..go and and do it and you'll be going to jail. 

I'm not letting any person run me out or away from what I have to do.

Saturday...

For Mature Minds ONLY...I warned you, don't say I didn't.

It was strange.. I mean once we both saw that we were interested in each other..

It took like maybe 30 seconds, and we both came to the conclusion that we need to get together...and fast. I planned for a Sunday, but that look in her eye said 'Oh man, why not within the next couple.of hours.' So I did.

The hard part was waiting for her mother to come and get her son. But I have a serious issue now. Not an issue, more or less a question.

I don't consider myself having the biggest penis, though I've been told it was way more than they expected. What is bother me with the last 3 women I've slept with is...me being inside of her and I don't fit. Let me explain.

Foreplay on both parts is great. But when it comes to insertion... I know where the entry point is, it's just that I don't fit in like I want it/me to fit in. 

I don't know if it's the lack of the woman not having sex, all three in this case.. They are so damn tight, on the edge of me damaging myself trying to fit in so to speak. I had serious conversation with this woman about this and what she told me blew my mind.

Let's call this woman Cathy. Cathy said that most women don't even know about their own bodies until much later in in their lives. I heard about this, I've read it somewhere and it's true. Cathy said things would be different with your second sexual encounter with her. Maybe the second time her body even though it responded the first time, the second time .at e she will loosen up a bit more. She asked about the positions I used and that if I entered her from the rear... No, I didn't do that but something strange happened though.

It was like that part of her body was more welcoming so to speak. That by a pure accident I almost...and she jumped and said no, not there. Cathy said...yeah, that part if her body was loose and wasn't expecting you to enter, so it was relaxed.

Hey, what do I know about any woman's body. And to be honest, she should know more about it than me...right?

Friday, September 10, 2021

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If you want to know how quiet it gets here...

You know how in the movies, you have a person out in the middle of nowhere and they hear a car or truck approaching from at least a quarter mile away... And you ask yourself, if that's true. Well, it's true alright. I can hear a truck bir car coming at least a quarter mile away. Not only that... But if the wind is blowing just right, I can also smell a person coming without seeing them too. It's that damn quiet and lonely here.

I'm not complaining but old age and it getting old is real. Last night every hour or two this elderly guy coming to the bed besides me and wakes up his son. The son says..'Daddy it's too early, go back to sleep.' This is the same man who a couple of weeks ago try to get in my bed with me. I informed staff back then and I informed them this morning before I headed out to work this morning. Something has to be done about this because I understand, but someone else here just might not.

I don't understand why women 2ho were in a relationship with a man, gets pregnant and have the child by the man. And then call him a Sperm Donor. If the same women were to really take a look at what they called that man...well what does that say about you. What do I classify you as? A Sperm Recipient? How can you blame that all on the man, how is it his fault. Not only that, how come it's always the man's fault in these situations. Can't the women also take part or even some of the blame also. But no, it's always the man's fault.

I guess since this Pandemic is picking back up again from where it left off, things are beginning to get crazy again. I told myself that if going into lock down again is going to happen, this time around I will not spend it by myself. I would prefer in being in the company if a woman, any woman I don't care. Just not by myself this time around. I have my eye on someone too, a Black woman. Though she is 35 years of age and I said that I won't date or sleep with anyone below the age of 37...her I will make an acception. She seems.. co-operative so far, though we haven't worked out or really talked about it. But so far we do see what we like of each other so far..

Well, gotta head on our to the J.O.B. 6am to 1pm. Quick shift? Who knows.


Thursday, September 9, 2021

....

All these guys here, to me they are full of shit.

Here they are giving the opportunity to do something with their lives, to start over again. But no, they want to continue to do the same old shit that they have been doing thru all of their adult life.

Like his dude was suppose to go on an interview with a major store chain. This store chain is hiring for the holidays. For the past 2 weeks he's been telling me how he is going to do this, going to do that... Telling me I should get down 2ith what he is getting down with and 'make this money'. I told him, the money is trying to make you. Well that job is out of the window. All this time too, he's been talking about them checking his urine. He's taking some stuff that's suppose to clear his urine up. That stuff somehow or another messed with his body. Now he can barley walk. Hegells me he wants some Chinese Food, but doesn't have the money..askes me to get him some. I told him what do I look like giving you, a grown ass man money to but some food. You know he gets an attitude. Tells me that I should lose that New York City attitude too. I just walked away from him.

I have nothing against people here in this part of Virginia but..they are about the slickers, non working backwards ass MOTHERFUCKERS!! Always trying to get over on the smallest of shit. Then wanna know why greon people are always telling them no...or are walking away from them. It's not only here, but anywhere you go really.

...

I'm in my lunch break, minding my business. A woman comes up to me and introduced herself. It seems her daughter, who is 25 years old saw me earlier today and wanted  to ask me to their home for dinner. I ask this woman is she sure it's me her daughter is talking about. She says yes and will I be able to come. I tell her no because I don't even know who her daughter is.  She then tells me tomorrow her daughter will meet me. 

Virginia is a strange place. Where I'm at..Mountain Lions, Bobcats and bears. There are deers everywhere you look. And now, some woman wants me to date her damn daughter.

When You Least Expect...

Yesterday my day started at 2:15am when I opened my eyes. I have to be at work at 4am, Biscuit Maker for the day.

It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, my day I'm talking about. Doing 'The Dough Thing's as I call it. I made 276 biscuts or 31 trays of 12 biscuits. All were sold except for 31 biscuts. All I said to myself was wow. But what throws me off is.. All my job is fir those 7 hours is to bake and wash the dishes when they switch over from breakfast to lunch, which there isn't much of anything to wash up. I wanted to help in the line but I was told to fall back, don't worry about it. At one time things were crazy, getting orders mixed up. As I stood there I saw what the issue was but said nothing because I was told to fall back. Shift ended quickly and I was in my way out the door.

When I got back to the shelter, tired, sleepy...I was told that I couldn't wash up or even lay down. I had to wait from 11:35am to 6pm until the dorms opened back up. When I said I was sleepy, what I meant to say was exhausted.

As I was sitting out back with my head resting on one of the tables, this woman who resides here sat down. She said hello. A few seconds later she hands me a paper with her name and number on it and told me to text her. I did later on. She responded by first saying that she had her eyes on me from the first day I arrived. I was thrown off a little, but not much.

This morning she was up when I was up and we went outside to talk. She said what she had to say and I listened. I'll see what happens next.

Wednesday, September 8, 2021

OMG!!

Oh my God... Waking up at 1:45am to be at work at 4am. Right now my eyes are so damn heavy. Ever feel so damn tired AND sleepy that you get dizzy. One hour and 24 more minutes. The sad thing about it... I can't even crawl back into bed. I'm going to go down in the dayroom and kick back in a recliner.

I told him so. That young kid... He said that even though he didn't get the vaccine, he isn't going to catch the virus. Well how come they have your ass quarantine in a hotel now. Blowing up my cellphone asking ME to bring him something to eat. Yeah right.

Tuesday, September 7, 2021

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That shit sounds good until... Until your ass is out there in the cold and then what?

Tried telling my friend that he shit is all out there and that certain people are aware of what you're doing. That they couldn't actually confirm it but.. But going by how you've been looking lately, it's not hard for them to tell. 

I've been calling and texting his ass for the last 3, 4 days..calls go straight to voicemail and he doesn't answer my texts. Then all if a sundden I get a 'wya' and telling me he is at the hospital getting his second shot. Like I give a Fuck. Tells me he will be by at 3pm and he needs a shirt and a pair of pants. Who's shirt and pants are you asking about? Not what I own and wear, you're not getting none of that from me.

Then he comes by and asked me about some 8 man tent that he claims he slid up under my bed before the Police arrested his ass. Knowing damn well he didn't, he knows where it's at. The staff collected his shit and stored it away until he can come and get it. But he doesn't have the balls to ask staff for his stuff they put in storage and expect me to ask them for him. Not me.

I knew it was coming.. 'Can I borrow some money, like $50?' I tell him no for the simple resin that you told me that your brothers wired you around $500 and for those 3, 4 days I didn't hear from you. So, he ran out of money and the woman's house he was staying at kicked him out because he ran out of money. 

I know he didn't want to hear it, but I told him he fucked up big time. And you think that you're going to live off of me while you running around in these two small ass towns, you better think twice. 

He smells like a wild fucking animal, pants hanging off if his ass. You would think he would be or get humble, but no he has an attitude. A bigger one now because I told him no on the money.

Fucked around and told me fucking lies, lies that made me worry about your ass while I was in New York City. Tells me he 'got me', and I get down here all I got was fucking problems from his ass.

I know I will be hearing from his brother up in NYC about what's going on with him. All I'm going to tell him is tomask him, he's your brother not mines.

Monday, September 6, 2021

Monday...

This new job I started last week.. 

My start times vary from day to day. Not only that, their work week ends on. Monday. 

Two days a week I start at 4am. That's not a typo either. It's a fast food place Hardee's. Reason why I start at 4am is I have to make the biscuits. This morning was the first time I made them on my own, not hard at all. Just time consuming. 14 trays of 12 biscuits each..or something like that. The 'par' varies from day to day. The only thing is.. I don't get to go back on the line when I doing the biscut station. I have to clean up and wash the station and when breakfast switches over to lunch, I have to wash the breakfast items that were used.

The other issue I see I'm going to have is getting my proper sleep. Where my bed is at is very close to the TV...where the young ones are always playing Xbox. When I say young ones, they are under the age of 22. I'm requesting to change my bed to the other side of the dorm where it's dark and not much of any foot traffic.

I know that I can't expect the people here to think like I do, but it's getting stupid. You would think that some of the people who are around my age would have some kind of common sense, but no. They always are scheming and trying to get over and away with things. 

Right now I'm sleepy and toes at the same time. But I have something to look forward to in about three months from now. I thought I would be able to keep it quiet, a secret. But someone in the office went and ran their mouths about my business. This one guy comes and tell me that mad soon as he gets a job or gets hired for his second job... He says that we can be roommates. I stopped him right there. I told him I never seen your ass in the shower room since I've been here and why would I want you as a roommate in the first place.

I put in a request to speak to the director sometime this week.

Friday, September 3, 2021

Mean What You Say.

I know, like what happened and shit right?. Well....

Shit started happening all at once after the 31st of August. I should have seen it coming but I didn't. And even if I did, I would have left it ALL played out any damn way.

I started working at a fast food Hamburger Joint. I am The New Guy. Co workers don't or didn't know I was coming. The District Manager has been trying to get me to work there for thee last 2, 3 weeks. I didn't get the email which was the application to fill out before the interview. I thinking I mentioned this before in one of my past post. She asked me about 5 basic questions and then she left her Windows laptop and told me to fill out of the 'stuff' and watch the videos. Interview was at 4pm so she basically knew I could do the job, so why did she have to hang around, she bounced. See that's where the issues came about.

The first full day on the job I got to see the crew I'm working with. I'm The Cook. I'm not the person who act5 puts your burger or chicken sandwich together. I'm the one who COOKZ the food. Fir some atarnge reason since I'm the new guy, everyone is my boss and tells me to assemble food. I do, but I remind them I'm The Cook. This pisses a lot of them off. The ones and it's two women..they don't get psisswd off, they are wondering what is the deal with me. Want to know all there is to know about me.

One of them, she loves to cook at home. She has a boyfriend and going by what she was saying...listen, his ass it out this weekend. No job and she said the sex isn't great. She's a great looking woman too. Nice shape..no, nice looking ass and I told her so. I'm invited over Saturday afternoon for lunch AND dinner. Let's just say.. I know her favorite color and the style and cut of panties she likes to wear. Yeah, it was one of those type of conversations.

There is a Black woman, 35 years old with a 9 year old boy. Single..frustrated because she isn't getting any Dick. Her words not mines. I'm talking to her. She's pissed off because the White Girl talked to me first. I guess there is some sort of code going on, feels like it but the Black woman more or less almost said out loud she will wait. Sunday Brunch is with her. Job is good and that's why I like working Food Service and I'm a Cook.

I'm back in this popular dating website, I need to get laid. With two possibilities...I want to see what I can do online. I came across a White woman's profile. She wants FWB, if it turns into a relationship, cool with her but she wants to have so fun. A special way to get in touch with her they email. After about 6 days she does. Tells me exactly what she wants and hopes for. Enclosed 6 pictures. Nice looking, nice shape and...there is something about her breast. They aren't small and they aren't large. They are pear shaped, perfect. She wants to know where I live, what I'm expecting and enclose a recent picture of myself. No sooner than I hit send, 20 minutes later an email with he number...call NOW!!

I called her and she is professional all about it. I cut her off and ask this involves no money right? She says of of course no money. After 10 minutes she says she wants to meet me and where should she drive to to come and get me. I tell her. She is so damn close by too. Gets out of the car, hugs and kisses me on the cheek. Asked me was I hungry, let's get some coffee. We drive off. She pulls over and tells me to drive her car. Hives me directions to a nice little coffee place, no one there, we are all alone. Them she opens up to me.

She has never had sex with a Black man but always wanted to. No children, parents are filthy rich, she doesn't work and she is bored. She tells me she wants to be with me for at least a month and maybe even longer. I'd she enjoys sex with me the first time, I will get a key to her house and I will be able to drive her car. I am to at least text her once a day, no problem for me. I am to see her, which she means sleep with her nomless than 3 times a week. Sounds crazy but this is what she wants. I let her speak and them it's my turn to talk. 

All I say is let's go back to your place now, she agrees. Her house is clean, neat and shows me the bedroom. I tell her we aren't having sex, I just want to see her house where she lives. We sit on the bed and talk for 3 hours. I down to my underwear and she is too. I have to leave to go back to the shelter, but she made me promise that I'm all hers this weekend.

So, three women, 2 possibles and one for sure. All while I started a a new job and have to change the way my days and nights are played out. I know what's probably going to happen too. I won't be with neither of the three. Just hang around the shelter in my day off doing nothing but relaxing. Sex involves a lot of muscles and energy. I want to relax and get my strength back for the up coming work week. 

But some other shit went down too and it has me all fucked up.