'Now...Don't You Be Getting Into Cars With Strangers.'

Yesterday I went to see my Doctor..Doctor, can't you see I'm burning burning. About my leg, the left leg...in a cast up to my knee. Filled out paperwork, saw him for a hot 10, 15 minutes and I was out of there.

I sat in the waiting area and called my Lyft Ride, it was set up for a roundtrip. But I knew as soon as I touch the app, some funky shit was going to happen. When a Car Ride app says 'Searching for Driver...' Fuck!! It didn't say 'Searching for YOUR driver.' it said it was looking for some lazy fucker who needed to make some extra cash, some him/she along withnoroba my hundreds of others all sign up and joined in. Then they thought about it...all at the same time too. What they thought is..'Hey, damn near everyone in this town and surrounding area have cars, I mean who would be calling a Lyft if everyone has cars?' True that but did ALL of you decided at the same time Not drive people around for money? No? But it sure feels like it cause I can't get a ride back home.

After two times the app just stop saying searching and just went to the home screen. Was about to look again and my phone vibrates. Normally I just it the screen button, but something told me to answer, it was Lyft. He told me that there aren't any drivers available, so he is going to call Uber and a car will be there shortly. In my head 'shirtly' has a different meaning because it depends on where you're at on this planet. Shortly in The Bronx is like ordering Chinese Food..5 minutes. Here.. My cellphone vibrated with a message telling me what my Uber car looks like, color and plate number...and 25 minutes for it to arrive. Fuck this I'm going outside.

I go thru the door and step outside. It's hotter than hot. No trees,meant no shade right in front of the building but.. To the left is a tree, shade, but it's about the length of 15 cars away. I'm on crutches and I hop my way towards the tree. I get there and I light up a cigarette. I'm tired so I sit in the ground, open my bag and take out my Beats and Kindle and... And right there sitting on the ground I'm jamming and dancing sitting in the ground. Happier than a fuck too.

This beat up truck pulls up behind me. I didn't hear it or saw it. I smelt it. Turned around and this woman had blonde hair and the prettiest set of white teeth I've ever seen. She gets hot..has in shorts and a t shirt. Asked me if I needed a ride. I thought about it..yes. I'm going into Staunton.

Told her my address and she she singing along to something and turns the volume down. Tells me she never did it with a Black guy before and wondered what it feels like. From out of nowhere she says this and I just thought to myself...did I look in the back seat before I got in. 29 years old, no children, live by herself, father left he a shitload of money, her words. And most days all she does is just drive around if she is r in the house getting her friends drunk and high.

Got home, got her number and I gave her mines. Today she came over with some KFC and about 7 large containers of coke slaw. She lives their Cole aw and so do I. She wants to come and hang  out with me Saturday, Told her I got a cast on my leg and she said so what. I'm not letting her in, then again...if she brings food.

MAN!!

I knew I should've left it alone but... I had to put 2 P's in. Damnit!!

Wow!!

First...

Okay, I have only told 2 people about what happened to my leg. Yeah, I lied. Fuck, everyone lies. I lied for a very good reason and reasonable.

Foremost, I lied to family and friends. I lied to them because I don't want them worried about me. To tell them the truth would expose them to too much about me and my life and life style. Am I ashamed of it, no I am not. It's just that there are certain things, issues, bullshit..call it what you want.. Certain things they need not know about period. Do I care what they think and how they might judge me? Duh?! Fuck right I do, and I think that's one of my main concerns and only concerns when it come to family.

Okay I lied to friends..sort of. Correction, I told 3 people. 2 makes and 1 female. One of them, I don't expect him to do anything because the fucker threaten me TWICE. The other male, and I will tell you more about him... He isn't from here, but lives here no and he is a Veteran. I respect him because he is 'My Brother in Arms'. I respect him because he is one of many and of few 'who gave their lives that that nation may live'. (Gettysburg Address). So I told him and he was trying to figure out just who this person is, I think he did, but he won't let me know. It's how SOME of US DO.

The female I told. She lies and starts shit everywhere. And when I say everywhere.. I mean in 2, 3 other towns. But she knows who is who and what is what about anything and everyone. I also respect her and her ways, know how she is, and will correct her on shit she tries to put out there in the street about me. I told her what really happened and in her eyes I saw 'things' being formed. But out of her mouth..she was..'oh, okay', and that was it. Again, I saw what was in her eyes, I'll leave it at that.

Tomorrow will be a week since all this shit with me happened. And so far today.. Let's just say I am aware of everything that's happening. What I don't understand is why did his girl called me twice in Monday morning, midday or whatever. It's stores in my phone that she called too. Leaving it there. Then something else went down 2 days ago.

Another friend that I know reached out to me thru text. Told me where he is staying at, I know the address and I know the people that live there..and I KNOW he was told what happened. What is fucking me up and I'm not THAT fucked up about it.. Why hasn't he ask where do I live, I want to come and talk to you about this. But then again I THINK I know why too. It's all about self preservation. I can understand that also. Today, I hope he reaches out to me, probably will. Have to see.

Hot a lot of things to do today. Haven't been doing them because I had someone, a woman who says she wants to help take care of me. Hell, she can barely walk her damn self, she walks with a cane. She stayed over 4 nights and I told her a lie that I was doing this or that, because I needed alone time to take care of some business all across the board. She wants to come back on Wednesday, I'll see.

I have a project I'm working on and haven't since Monday. Gonna try and do catch up today NOW.

You Put Your Left Foot In, You Put Your...

So I turned a round quickly and stiff armed her with two arms and she went backwards and tried to turn at the same time...which cause her to fall flat on her face. The guy with the cane started swinging at me, I run up the stairs and the guy with the bike gets off of it and he comes at me but stops because I go back down the stairs and shorten the distance from the guy with the cane. As I was doing so..

I miss stepped and my foot turned to the left and I went down hard. He is still swinging at me with the cane, I get up and I go right back down in pain. I caught a glimpse of my foot..leg is straight, but my foot is turn almost all the way to the left and the bone hasn't broken the skin, but it might any second.

On my ass, I scoot to the middle of the street and he  come at me with the cane and pulls out a knife telling me I hit his wife? Tells her to come over and take a swing at me and she does. She walks away because when she hit the ground her face shattered. All the while this guy is telling me he should stab me for hitting his wife, but I didn't..but he won't because he doesn't want to go to jail. After about 5 minutes they all leave. I call the ambulance and the take me to the ER..

Dislocated ankle, and a fractured leg... Something going on with me knee, but it's too swollen to tell. Dr. tells me I'm going to need 3 operations. He sets my leg statugjt after he knocks me out. I took a Uber home and I have not been outside the house since Monday morning at 7:07am.

It gets even better, taking a break.

Edit: I thought I published this two days ago, WTF?!!

'Go Ahead Kid... Go Out There and Break a Leg.

On Sunday night... No, it was early Monday morning and 1:30am. I was sitting outside the house of the house where I have an apaetment, smoking a cigarette when a friend came walking along.

No, that wasn't it. It was around 8pm Sunday night and I was sitting outside smoking a cigarette when she came walking along. I thought she was either in jail, cause she is in probation and the last time I saw her she ask me about clean urine. Also, I thought about the 2nd week of August she had to be out of the place where she lived. I asked her where is she going and she said she was trying to go and 'get some money's, which means begging for it. I hit her high one time before and she got hot and horny and I told her no and she had to leave.  She told me she will be back they here and she still had my number, but her number changed. Have it to me and then left. Now.. Now around 1:30am she shows up and she called me first told me to come outside.

I went and all she had was $6, so I took that and gave her $30, she told me it might take her half and hour to 45 minutes to get back.. Right then, I should have taken my money back. She said she will be right back and said over and over, I am not running Off with your money..she did, sort of.

Call me and told me to come outside. When I went out, it was about 3:15am. I saw 2 black males, one on a bike. She came up to me and handed me something that.. It was worth $30, not even $5. And the shit went kind of blank on me.

I asked her for my money, she said something to the guy on the bike and he handed me which I counted later was $8. The other Black guy, he wasn't in sight but her boyfriend came limping down the hill with his cane. I asked her where is the rest of my money, and she said something, so I turned around and went up the stairs to my house. Out of the corner of my eyes she was coming up behind me. I turned around and..

Mountain Bike Part 2

The tracking alert means that my bike is less than a mile away. I called the bike shop and then the bullshit started.

The guy who is suppose to put 5his bike together quit. Just up and quit. I asked for the next best guy. He says other than the money he is being paid by the shop, he things I should pay him on the side...$400. I told him and I quote:' Fuck NO'.The store manager said I'd anything he will do it. Okay.

The bike came in 3 large and heat long flat boxes. It's not a drop off and leave like UPS or FedEx, no. I checklist is for each box and me and the driver both have to expect each price before signing off on it. 45 fucking minutes. So each box is open and the boxes are numbered. I asked for duxt tape some I can tape up the 2 other boxes and..in walks the guy who is supposed to put it together in the first place. Tells me 5hatbhe thought it over and he was wrong. He's here to dona job, let's do it.

It took 3 and a half weeks to put this bike together. Then he added the other upgraded parts which took another 3 days. The bike was together. 

It's cold outside by this time, and I'm still living in a shelter. I don't want to leave it chained outside, and I'm not leaving it in the basement if the shelter because someone might come along and think it's a donation and I'll be fucking pissed. So $25 every two weeks until I come and pick it up. When I wrote the first part of this, I went to pick up my bike. It wasn't in the shop when I got there. I asked where is my bike. I was told I have to speak to the manager. He came in 2 hours later. Told me that my bike was stolen out of the shop back in March. But the bike was chained to a concrete pole in the basement, and I had the only key. I was told that they just noticed it was gone 7 days ago, no one called me.i was...okay.

I got my money back plus 30% within 9 days.I don't have a bike, but I have all my money back and then some. It would be stupid of me if I did t have insurance on an item values at and over $5,000.  I wish I could have rode it when it was all out together, but it was nasty outside and I said I'll wait. Doesn't matter now because....

3:08am Pt 2

Some things came up, I'll get to that later.

Well, they both told me that they don't care what it is they have to do, as long as its self promoting involved, both are with it.

I talked with him for an additional 4 hours, and I took notes. I rewrote everything. And placed all in order. I even wrote out what each of them would be untitled to. I also thru in, you don't put in the work, you don't get paid.

One thing I made very clear about too. I am a man. I don't represent all men, but know this... You are a woman, women, ladies...girls. You have no idea what a man likes, you think you do, but you don't. Just like woke , men take in every inch of you with in and under 20 seconds. We, me as a man, I know what I like in woman.i told them you have to prepared to work your ass off and stay focused.

To be honest, I don't know in my 'Present Condition' now if I want the problems.

The Right Kind & Size Mountain Bike

Last year around right when it started getting chilly, I went online and searched within a 50 miles radis for a decent Mountain Bike.

Most Bike Shops didn't have websites so I knew what I wanted, and when I called I asked to speak to the most experienced person in the shop. After 4 calls, I found my Bike Shop.

I spoke with a guy who he said he was the most experienced all around. Knows his bikes and parts. He said he doesn't follow the circuit, meaning he does keep knowledge of races and riders, he likes what he likes and said he can just about ride just anything and get a good workout. I told him he is going to be my go to man and I will email him what I wanted. He said sure.and gave me his personal email. I had already typed up the email and saved it as a draft. I went to the exit door, he looked at me, I had already was in my email app... I hit send and walked out the door. I waited in the parking lot. He comes running out the door.

He tells me...'The Mountain Bike you want has to be ordered, then it has to ship, then WHEN it does and IF it does get here, it has to be out together. THEN I have to take it apart again and add what you want replaced. I don't even know how much all of that is going to cost and where I'm going to get those parts you want added to it from.' I stopped him and took out my cellphone, went to the other drafted email and sent that to him. He then says all shitty..'All that work..you have to pay for shipping, labor, the parts  and me putting it all together again.' Sent him the third email, and asked him can we go inside and talk to The Manager.

He brings me to the manager. I tell the manager I know how much all of that is going to cost down to getting it here in The United States and to your store. I can pay that right now, and with giving the store $150 for getting it shipped here. What I need to know is how much is it going to cost me to have it assembled. He told $300. So I added $450 plus what the bike and the parts I wanted together and...

It comes to $4,371.89..i want to pay it now. The Manager looks at me. He said come to the counter. He goes in the computer and he takes the guys cellphone with him standing there and starts typing away. After 15 minutes, he asked cash or charge? I say debit.and hand him my card, a card I have never used before. He swipes it and says damn. I asked what? He says nothing.  I tell him to hold on, I'm calling that company now. I was calling one of the workers in his cellphone it was a different time zone. I told him I just gave the money to the manager. He tells me to write this all down and gives me a set of numbers, an address and another set of numbers. He asks for the ema address of the bike shop, I give it to him and he says...'Okay, thank you and goodbye.' 

I tell the manager that he is going to get an email and it's in English and he has to follow the directions carefully and right now. He opened the email, see the email that was sent to him. Gets black book from under the counter... An hour later he says done. But he asked when wi it arrive. I told him when the bike is within 200 miles of being delivered I will get an email with a real time tracking code. I will text it to you and you will know when it's like a me away and then it won't be tracked any more. He says okay and I leave.

The Mountains Bike take about 45 days to be out together. I don't know why, but it does. So I wait.

And then I get that email with the tracking..

Get Your Kicks on Route 66

I'll get back to that after this. Sometimes things work out for themselves if you don't panick and you keep a level head. I told myself I'm not going to worry about it, if it happens it happens... If it doesn't, oh well, next time. There isn't going to be a next time so...

While I was in the shelter, I met this 27 year old White dude. DUDE!! This guy could freestyle rap his ass off and I would sit there and listen like I was t listening. One more he asked me to listen to some of his stuff because word was going around I'm from The Bronx. He took out his cell phone and... His flow was 'Stooopid' and his lyrics were... I stopped him twice and told him to rewind and go over that again. I listen to 4 if his... I call them 'Spits'. But what had me all fucked up was his beats. Asked where did he download them from and how much he paid for them. He said he installed an app and made them all up himself. WTF!

I knew that was his best shit, no one shows you their best stuff, they let you hear what they consider their weak shit. I gave him my email address. I then told him give me 2 of his Greatest and put them in Demo form. To me Demo form is what you send out in an email if you're in the go and you want someone to listen to your stuff. Most of the time, people have their cellphones hooked up with all kinds of gadgets to make music on their cells sound good thru the earbuds or headphones they walk around with. He sent it to me and I listen on my phone with some Jabra Elite 3's.  This was his best shit and it sounded Studio Quality. 

Then he has a nervous breakdown 2 weeks later. Was out in the streets after a stay in a mental hospital. Then he all of a sudden was himself. And rhats when someone told me he was looking for me and if they saw me, give him his number. I called. His Aunt has to go to Hempstead, NY for a precedure. The next day, she has to have surgery. One day recovery and then back to Virginia. I asked what days? And believe it or not... But wait, he told his Aunt that he knows someone from the New York City. She doesn't fly, so she wants someone to drive her there and back..she will rent the car, give the person $25 a day spending money, pay for the food and...and get a hotel room for them. I told him I'll do it. 

So early today he introduced me to his Aunt. WOW!! She looked me up and down and smiled and said, so you're going to drive Miss Daisy huh? I said yes, what are the days because I have a JHS First time ever Reunion and I showed her the flyer that was on Facebook. She looked me dead in the eyes and said.. 'Well, on that day I'm suppose to be back here in Virginia...but if you take me as your date and let me sleep in the room I'm getting for you.. I'll guess I can make it a little exciting and you be a part of something special. We exchanged numbers. I get back home and she calls me.

She is whispering on the phone saying she can't believe I'm 62 years old and that I look good for my age and she can't wait for that day to come.. I said that you and she said can I ask you something? Yes.. Can I come over to your place later on tonight and sit and talk with you some. Get a bottle of wine, watch movies, stuff like that. Yes. 

So I'm waiting for her to come around 11pm. If she brings wine, she isn't going to drink and drive. 

3:08am

I'm up this late/early in the morning cancelling subscription that I don't even need or watch anymore. Being on a fixed income you have to do what you have to do.

I went food shopping the other day, but not at a supermarket though. People talked shit about me shopping in Dollar Tree, Family Dollar and Diary General. Like I care or even give a fuck. Those stores have what I need and they are close..except for Dollar Tree. Gotta take a bus to that one. As I'm walking to one of the two stores, I pass another small clothing store and the woman inside saw me as I passed and called out 'Hey Michael, can you help me with something?'

I stopped because she called me by name and I don't know her from anywhere. About 2 inches shorter than me, bright shiny eyes, beautiful smile and...a nice, very nice figure. As she walked in front of me leading me to the back of the store, she said she couldn't reach  something. I asked her where she knows me from and she said where you use to work. Oh, okay. I was stationed close to the drive thru window so everyone would and could see me.

As I was reaching up to grab a big heavy box, she asked where was I working now. Told her I haven't worked since May 15th. Was I looking for work, no not really. Then she said something that started it all off. Plan on going into business for yourself? Something different? Something exciting when you are somewhat in control? And me being me said... 'Yeah, I had an idea but the person I wanted to started it with had other visions in her head ' She said what, Only Fans? And I said..'Yeo, do you know a young lady who is willing to give it a shot, can following directions and have what she wants to do in mind?' She said.. 'I know two women, give me your Facebook, your email and your telephone number and I'll talk to them.' And so it began.

First I got an email with two women pictures. Then I got another email with a shirt Bio on the two of them. Then I got a text message telling me not to answer my phone, they want to leave a voice message. They did leave one each and they both asked when can they start. I already had a letter sort of what I want to do, and how I want to go about doing it, sent to both of them. Next email was..'We want to come over, what's your address.' And in 15 minutes they were both at my house.

Explained to them again what I want and how I'm want to go about doing it. They listened. When I finished I asked were there any questions? And there were. And I was honest and to the point..mostly I was surprised about what I was told.

TBC.

Battlefield 2042 Part Duex.

Okay, now where was I? Oh yeah, Battlefield 2042. Yeah I purchased the game and to me at first it seems complicated as fuck. 

I'm use to sort of kind of playing Campaigns, just me up against the game. Oh they shoot back at me, and they..meaning the game are pretty good at it too. But I started getting better and better because at first I was just dying all the fucking time. I played Battlefiemd 3 and I finished it. Okay, what I call finish. The credits roll and to me that means I completed the Campaign YEAH!! So I started on Battlefield 4. I'm still on Battlefield 4 haven't played it in a when because... I'm at the part where I have to plant a mine on a tank that is driving around and always ses to find me. The machine guns in the torrent, well they find me. Shoot and kill me while I'm in bushes, hiding behind cars, walls AND inside a fucking building in the 2nd floor...MOTHERFUCKER!! I'm about to get back into it again, soon. But Battlefield 2042 is a whole different world and this what lead me to write this post.

I'm gonna call Battlefield 2042, B42. Okay, B42 is Multiplayer. That means I connect thru my PS4 to a server where thousands of other B42 players are waiting to get into an into the servers to play. B42 has many different 'maps' many different types of playing. You can play solo, dueces, with 3 people and even 4 people teams. But where I'm at is like a Battle Royale. 64 other real people who we are all in the same team trying to defeat the other team who are the game, not real people. 

The shit is very fucking complicated to me. Do t believe me? Go to YouTube and put in the search Battlefield 2042. Hold up let me see if I can put on in here.

https://youtu.be/WomAGoEh-Ss

That link above, click on it. What you'll see is basically a small, small, small sample of the one part of many parts to the game. Shit blowing up, shit falling down in you...motherfuckers who you can't see are fucking Snipers pick your dusty ass off from hundreds of feet away. Oh, you can do the same. I got a Sniper rule in my load out, his in a mountain in the bushes and picked of the fuckers like shooting fish in a barrel. I have to forwarn you though, graphics are intense. All I can say is the blood splatter is truly amazing...even from a distance.

So this channel I follow on YouTube talks bad about B42. From what I read, the game to advanced players suck, shit isn't working right. So this guy he talks and about the game and talks about what can or he thinks should be improved. To me, the game is kicking my ass and if it's broke..it's doing a damn good job at whipping my ass BROKE. So I made some suggestive comments on YouTube. One of about 5 that the enemy should be A.I. Artificial Intelligence. So far 3 people told me in general I was fucking nuts and that THAT will never happen. Hmmm?

See, these guys who commented are probably so fucking good at B42 that they can whip my ass with one foot. So my A.I. suggestion probably pissed them off. On the game there are 64 real players fighting against the enemy who are the game. A.I. would mean another whole different ballgame. These guys are running and gunning all over the place, but have an enemy out there that is THINKING, well you have to really know your shit. I also suggested some other things, and those too pissed them off. All they are these guys when commenting back what I commented on are a bit of online bullies, thugs behind a keyboard and needs with attitudes. Fuck em.

There, finished. Now I'm going to go play me some Fortnite. Oh, I downloaded Fornite for Dummies'. Yeah, it's out there in the net. I read it. And now I'm like dying or being killed like the 8th on from being the winner out of 100. Not bad compared to I was dying like 30 seconds after I landed. So imagine if I can find a 'Battlefield 2042 for Dummies'. I will be unstoppable.

Battlefield 2042

If you don't know what Battlefield 2042, ask anyone who plays video games and are really good at playing video games. They will tell you that Battlefield 2042 sucks. But what they won't tell you is that they have NEVER played the game, not know anyone who has played the game. Reason why they will tell you it sucks is because hardcore Gamers played all the previous Battlefields and this one, this new one that came out  months ago.. Gamers say it sucks. I beg to differ and I'm gonna tell you why. But first...

I purchased an Xbox 360 when I was living in Chat, NC. I got it second hand at GameStop. My very first game was Watch Dogs, paid $60 for it. Go ahead and ask me how much I liked the game. I didn't. I wanted a gaming console and I wanted the latest game that was out and all the TALK was about the game Watch Dogs. I didn't know anything about playing video games and I went all in Balls Deep too.i think I popped it in the 360 maybe twice. I had no clue of what the fuck I was doing. A I did know I kept getting killed. I moved on and up to Halo. Do t remember what or which one but this type of game, Shooters..this type I got into. I was into fps, First Person Shooter and Campaigns that when I went to sleep and I dreamed... My dreams, in my dreams I was moving about like the characters in the video game. All in all, I amassed 35 video games...and then I purchased an Xbox One. Can't even remember, and I swear where I purchased it at. So now I had to consoles. I sd the Xbox 360 and 35 titles for..TWO GALLONS OF ICE CREAM. Yep, and I started by more games and got a subscription to Gameplay also. Move to Pittsburgh and the first thing I do was sold my Xbox and about 10 video games. I did t have internet access, so I said fuck you, begone.

So now here it is 2022. I purchased a PlayStation 4, PS4 off a guy who was going away to like a Job Corp type program while I was in the shelter. I think I gave him under $100 for it and about 6 video games. Right now I have about 15 more game titles, did away with the subscription based GameFly because now what they wanted for 2 titles a month, you only get one title game. You keep it as long as you want and you pay monthly for it. Oh but wait, what about XBox, hmmm?

So now you can play Xbox on your laptop if it's robust enough, if not..you can play it in The Cloud. So for $14.99 a month, you can download games from Xbox online and play them in your laptop, but you have to have a big enough hard drive. No worries, you can always buy an external hard drive. I did, got 5 terabytes for $99. That's a bargain and people were telling me I didn't pay that much for it, I paid more. Pulled up BestBuy, click..click and click. There are, $99 in The Bronx on Fordham Road. I shit them the fuck up. But I have a PS4 you may say or are wondering. For under $60 for a YEAR, PlayStation has the same thing, and it's called Playstation Plus. A big yellow Plus sign.  Xbox, I had Ultimate Game Pass for $14.99 a month. And Playstation Plus about $60 a year. Cancelled my subscription to Ultimate Game Pass. Then Playstation changed, they went into a 2 tier thingy. My PlayStation Plus, I subscribed to the next level up on it to get included for free a video game called Stray. About a cat. Google it, check out the game play on YouTube. Which brings me to Battlefield 2042.

Hard core games were complaining how the Devs, The Developers of the game didn't know what they were doing, a lot of glitches in the game, respawns, coming back to life within the game wasn't working right, where were all their guns and shit. A lot of other crazy shit that made me feel that I wasn't even worthing of buying the game with my own damn money, but I did anyways. To me it was okay, though I didn't know what the fuck I was doing. On YouTube I subscribed to a feed where as this guy must have an acorn up his ass, talking about what needs to be fix, where is this and where is that. Come on!! The Devs put the came together the way THEY want it to be played. They didn't want to be like 'Call of Duty'...where all it is is the same old game, with the same old shit in it. Call of Duty is the shit though. Many titles...MANY titles and Add Ons too. I THOUGHT I finished Call of Duty Ghost. Hell no! Upon further inspection, I only finished 17% of the game, WTF!!?

I'm going to continue this in another post.

'It's One, Two Three Strikes You're Out at The Old Ball Game.'

At 3:50am this morning my 'friend' CALLS me and asked me what I am doing. You know how I answered right? I told her I WAS sleeping, but what's up? I already know what's up.10 minutes later, she text, 'open the door'.

I let her in. She is in the same clothes I seen her in yesterday morning. First thing I offer her is a shower. She says okay. Not okay and start stripping down..okay she sits on the sofa, take her shoe off and starts picking at her sock. I jump back in bed for about 3 minutes then I get up and turn on my electric pot to boil some water for coffee. She asked me how come I don't get back in bed, I tell her because you are company, so I'm up. ...then she starts stripping right in front of me.

I wash her back, her hair. Dry her off as she gets out of the shower. She walks back to the sofa..looks at it and then gets in my bed. I'm making my cup of coffee and she is laid out in the bed, but I pay her no attention. She tells me she came by because she starts her first day at work at this hotel not to far away. So, she has 4 hours of nothing to do..but drive me crazy.

She has a body most women want and will kill for. It's her ass to thigh ratio..that what drives me crazy. It's perfect. We talk and talk then she says.. 'So you're gonna let me just lay here naked with nothing to do?' So... I go down on her. This is her game.. I know how to play it and I play it well. 

She then says..'Tell.me what you want me to do, just tell me and I'll do it.' she orgasms once. She then asks, so you like going down on me, don't you want me the other way also? So I tell her to roll over..she orgasms for the second time and I roll her over on her back again. I have her legs spread wide open, close them really fast and push them up above her head. I then eat her ass, pussy, ass.. pussy and ass..she orgasms for the third time. Again she TELLS me what she wants me to do to her next.

She says please, please stick it in me now. Why won't you give me what I ask for, why am I being so mean to her. I start licking her nipple, the right one..while pinching the left one..she orgasms the fourth time..and I grab her pussy and she has another orgasm. I look at her..brace her legs up..and I stand up and put my lounging pants on and go to the bathroom. She curses me out something bad, real bad. Told me I'm ain't shit. ...that I must be gay or into men. Come out of the bathroom and told her no, I'm not but you have to go to work, get some sleep. She rolls over and falls fast asleep.

I wake up her at 8:35am, she sleeping on her stomach. I wake her up by running my finger slightly down the crack of her ass. As she is waking up, she is arching her ass up. I roll her over and go down on her again. She orgasms something Demon Like, she growling as she is cumming. Her eyes roll up to the top of her head and all I see is the white parts. I go to touch her arm and she orgasms again..and starts to curse me out. Tells me that's why I don't like coming over here. I want to more often, but you don't give me what I want. I just look at her.

On her way out the door I tell her..'The reason why I don't stick my dick in you is because I might turn on that switch that is up inside of you. That switch I will for real turn on, but I don't want to because look how your acting now. Besides, I don't want you one time, I would you three times. The first one is a no brainer. The second time I'm seeing what turns you on and gets you THERE. But that third time. It's about driving you fucking crazy...not leaving you with any energy thinking you can go out and fuck someone else... It's about giving you that memory to last your 8 hour shift, gets you wet as fuck...And as soon as you get off from work, you're heading right back here to fuck my brains out.

Oh she showed up after work too. Went home to do some things. Texted me she is spending the night and will be over at 8:30pm. And you know what? I'm not even going to touch her. It's not to tease her. It's to let her know I'm not some joke, that I'm in this for the long run. If you want it to be anything. It has to be for the long run, a relationship. Let's try that out. 

I will see in a little while what is what.

Brad Pitt

I don't care what anyone says about this man. He's a great actor and person for the matter. 

His latest movie Bullet Train...this man is at his best when he gets roles like this. Is he a comedian, method actor...what? I say he's a comedian because when he gets roles like this, he makes me laugh.

I just read the whole movie. Reading it was confusing. Glad I watched it.

Movie: Nope

Fear Mr. Peele,

Who would have ever thought that...you're sick! Yeah I said it and I said it because there in my creative way if thinking is no other way to describe you thinking when it comes to your movies. Keep up the good work.

Yours truly 

A Fan

I waited and waited.. It was finally online to download. Then I waited some more, another 2 days. I had to clear some things up. Then I sat down to watch this movie. To be honest with you, I ha e to watch it again because... I don't know what the fuck I just watched.

I'm not talking about hidden meanings or Easter eggs throughout the movie... No, I'm talking about I don't know what the fuck I just watched but..it was good. 

It was more than good. This movie had everything I would want in a movie. A little bit of this, a little bit of that..add some more of this..okay, add that in too.

My favorite parts of this movie are the clouds. Watch thisovie again, and pay attention to the clouds. Probably had the same feelings I went thru whenever clouds scenes came up. 

Great movie Mr..Peele, one of your best.

Right Here, Right Now!

So I'm sitting outside of the house where I live smoking a cigarette. A side road that looks like a driveway separates the property a Chrixj next door. A Jeep drives down, makes a left turn. The same Jeep makes it's return and a cute woman is driving it and she says hello.

First time she came a round she made eye contact and spoke.. When she came back again, she said can I give you something. It happened so fast..and that's how it does sometime, well.. She asked me did I know the Book..wait, The Gospel... I can't remember how she said it, but anyways she starts talking about how God died for 'our', your Sins. Right then... How come she did t say 'my Sins', her Sins. Strike one. The Church she attends is right next door where I use to work. I didn't want to get into it with her and I didn't.

But I did tell her I was wondering what that Church was all about and that I would try to attend the next service. Then she took the conversation in a whole different direction. 

Told me she could hear the New York accent, and that I am a very good looking man. Ask did I have a woman I was dating, not married to. I guess she could tell I'm not the marrying type. She said she hope to see me there and that she is single unattached at the time and that maybe after services, we could go out and get something to eat and talk. Told her it depends.. It depends on if you're asking me out to help populate the Church's attendance, or if you're really interested in me as a person and not a body to fill a seat. In a second, that look in her eyes told me everything. It wasn't to fill a seat, it's to sit with her and find out if..I don't know, what..dating material, worth her getting involved with me. Like I said, that look, it's hard to put into words.

If I remember, if I'm not doing nothing, if I feel like leaving the house... She knows where to find me if it's anything else.

Really!!??

I am also on tictok, and I saw something that probably happens a lot more times than most people think 

It starts off with this guy walking into a room, a hotel room with 2 queen size beds and there this 'girl' laying on the bed on her phone. The guy is then pointing at her at her and it begins...

He says that he flew her in from Indiana. She didn't want to take Sprint Airlines, so at the last minute he cah ges her flight to a Delta flight which cost him $700. While he's talking she is talking saying something over him. He then said he paid for a Uber to pick her up. Took her out to dinner..by this time he spent over $2,000. She is still talking over him saying 'But I didn't come out here to fuck you though, you said you wanted to spend some money, right?' He goes on to say he spent over 5 G's bringing her here and setting things up and you know what it 'is' from the beginning before you got here.' He also says to her..'But I have been a complete gentleman the whole time, right?' But she won't acknowledge this fact. He even says..'Im not going to say you name or nothing like that, but you know what this is and was from the beginning, I've spent over 5 G's.' Then the woman. Said let me call MY Uber.' He said okay and I'll help you pack. Then the video ends. 

(Clearing my throat) 

You know what. That woman, no girl is very fucking lucky. Lucky because if it were the type of men that are mostly out there like that, and she did what she did to him, which was not putting out and acting like she wasn't with it... She would have disappeared, never been heard from and of again.

First of all, he flew you out from of all places Indy fucking anda. What the fuck! He mentioned he been talking to you for months, so this was and probably is her first time doing it, or.. Since this guy was a nice guy, she was just waiting until his balls were a deeper shade of blue to drop the bomb in him..'Listen, I'm here,you want me but it's going to cost you. How much money are you willing to spend on me, let's talk about it.' What happened was him spending already $5,000.. hell want the tab went to $1,000, she should have been fucking already. But she wasn't, because none of that money was in HER pocket..yet.

So you know the comments were mad. And I said something too. Didn't some woman replied back to me that $5,000 isn't any money. I replied back..'So you sell your ass and get more? What's your price, how much for a two day sleep over? She didn't even respond back because if she did, every8 would know she a hoe, plain and  simple. Talking about $5,000 isn't no money. So if someone offered it to you, you turn it down, no fucking way.

Just now on Tagged... I don't remember when I did it but I swiped right on some pretty 37 year old light skinned Texan woman. When I did swipe, it said we are a match, meaning she did it first, swiped right on me. Surprised, I sent her a message..'Younswipes right on me, amazing!' My standard message. Well, she sent me a message back..'Youshould be ashamed of myself. I'm 20 years her senior and I'm online stalking out women who are way too young for me.' She went in to say..'Youre so old, what would we have to talk about, or have in common.' I got angry, I got fucking mad. But there was nothing I could do, she blocked me from answering back. I was going to tell her SHE made the first move, fuck you talking about.

See, that's what I mean. Some of these women out here are so damn fast to throw someone under the bus, that they forget the shit that they do. But call them on their bullshit, you get even my shit on your shoes.

It's the damn Internet. And it's only going to get worse.

I Have a Really Cool Looking Bathroom, But...

No for real, my bathroom is cool. But you know what makes it cool, the fucking bathtub. Here look...

Yeah!! Clawed Doored Bathtub BABY!! Oh I'm not the bubble bath taking one, oh no never that. But if 'she' wants to take one..light some small scented candles...throw in whatever oils she wants in the water. I'll sit there and wash her back, even give her a light massage. But that isn't my issue right now. I need some help. Take a look at the next picture.

That's what I'm dealing with. It's how the bathroom looks, still looks 3 weeks after I moved in. I need it to look...something different that this. This looks so...so.., I don't know but so BLAH!!. For one it doesn't look manly, but I don't want a manly look, not a girlie look either. I want it to look like you would enjoy taking a shower..and when you take a bath... You can't wait to take a bath. That is why I am asking for some help where I know I can get it.. Lowe's or Home Depot. Or...

If anyone who reads this blog or whatever it's called... Let me know, email me or something but reach out with an idea that you might have. Heck, I'll listen because I don't know where to start in this project..

Go Go, It's Your Birthday.

No, it's not my birthday. I was watching tictok and something came up with that song and now it's stuck in my head.

So, I've been in Tagged since 2009 or 08. Don't know unless I actually go to my profile. I remember when I first got in Tagged.

I was taken out on a date with a woman who was going to Empire Casino in Yonkers. I was going to meet her there anyways , so she said she is doing something different, asked me out on the date there. I accepted. I don't gamble, but she gave me $100 to play. I tried to refuse, but she wasn't having it. First 20 minutes I just walked around looking at machines. Then I stopped at one, and placed a bet. At the end of the date I had won $1,100...and I still had the $100 she gave me. I gave her the $1,100 and kept the $100 for myself. Took her out to dinner and we laughed our asses off. Then she told me... 'If I didn't have to go to work and be there at 6am, I would take you home and fuck your brains out... But work helps pay the bills and allows me to gamble. You would have thought the extra money I gave her..she could at least called in sick the next day.

One woman I met in there I walked from where I lived to her house and she met me downstairs. She sat down on the benches besides me. The whole 20 minutes she was there she didn't say not one single word. She stood up took my hand and led me to her building, to her door. As she was walking back towards the bedroom, she started undressing. Laid in the bed and we.. Three times we.. Made me something to eat, wash the dishes and walked to her door and opened it. The whole time she never said a single word. Wow!!

Now that Tagged has a Live feature..where mostly all the women do on there is smoke weed. But I like how this Live thing is going. It's like your own radio station or whatever. Only thing I dislike about it..it only works on your cell phone. I'm sure there is a way to make it work with a laptop, but I space out and forget to even try.

Another thing is... Damn near all the women don't even look like what their little square has them to be. I click, look and... Where is the woman in the profile square I want her. 

You can add people as favorites. There one woman who lives in Maryland, she has a shitload of chickens. She is alright, attractive as fuck but she doesn't dress up, wear make up, nope none of that. She has the gift of gab and I think is a little out there. Too much acid. She's a Black woman and when I enter the 'room' she says hi asks me what am I doing, going to do, or want to do. I'm not special. Everyone that enters she says hello to. She keeps her streaming feed going when she gets on the bus, or go to the store. All the when talking to her audience. I found her fucking remarkable. Shes interesting also. Makes me want to know more about her. She suggested I get a small pig as a pet. Told her that there are Swine guidelines her in Virginia. She said fuck em, get it anyway.

Again, most of the women on there are all self promoting themselves. A Live Streaming Feed is suppose to be interesting, entertaining if anything. But what usually happens...women get into beefs with guys watching their feed and the 'Bouncers' she has..which I don't know what that is all about, come in talking mad shit. How they doing this how they doing that and 'they' making money. All it is is today's version of Online Thugs behind a keyboard. Same old news.

There are filters which you can adjust... Men who want women, women who want men, men & men, women & men...women & both then men & both. There's also just one filter for age. 'Close to my age', that's it. That filter has the least people. One day I only saw the same three people as I scrolled across the different categories. Those I'm not really going to get into. But I will tell you this though, I'm 62..so they are all young. Everyone is talking about 'vibing'. You know why? Cause everyone is lighting up a blunt. Fuck, weed is a depressant to me, makes me zone the fuck out. The weed of the last 8 years has gotten stronger and stronger and that's why I don't smoke or like to smoke it any more. But I have came across some interesting feeds though.

One thing that I think is false advertising is... A woman has a little square showcasing themselves. She looks good, pretty face, makeup done really well then you click on her feed.. What the fuck happened, where is THAT woman that's in that little square. I want to see her. It's like she put on her Sunday Best, and the rest of the week she dresses down.

I have a profile picture on my profile that I hand drawn  a sign that says..'Under Construction Fall 2022.' I want my Stream to be interesting, different and fun to watch. So I'm taking my time. But in the mean time starting tomorrow, Sunday August 7th... I'm going to just play some music and have my phone pointed at my ceiling fan. Just for  15 minutes everyday at 7pm...some Breakbeat music.

The Video Game Call Stray

Being that I LOVE cats... I downloaded the game to my PS4 the day after it came out on Playstation's website. Off course I had to upgrade to Extra in order to get it. I think it would be worth the upgrade. So I thought.

So far I'm up to the part where these little bright eyed thingies are chasing this poor cat. I tried 6 times to get away and gave up and switched over to another game. But I think up to that part of the game, I've missed out on something. Like I was doing one thing and it switch to something else, and then switch to sk.ething else again. I wonder if they have a 'Walk Through' on IGN line Call of Duty does. I have to remind myself to check.

???

About 3 years ago, this woman online started talking to me. From out of the blue. I mean, she started chatting with me online, texting. Then she asked for my phone numbernumber and 8 gave it to her.

She calls at lease 5 times a month mind you for 3 years. She is from Virginia, but lives in The Bronx. I'm from The Bronx, but now live in Virginia. She Lives The Bronx, and I was tired of NYC period.

She knew well in advance that I was coming back to The Bronx for my sister's wedding. It was her, who suggested that I stopped by and say hello since we never actually met face to face. I said okay.

Then a little while ago, she told me in a text that she doesn't have a man, and she doesn't let anyone know where she lives at. I said okay. She wished me a safe trip back to VA and I said okay. Then she called me.

She wanted to know what I'm giving her one word answers, so I told her. I told her I wish you would have told me like last night when we talked what you just told me. So now I have 6 hours to...I don't know, find some place to just chill? How do you expect me to feel. I very disappointed in what you told me. And as a so call friend you say you are...well, your not a friend.

She then went on to explain how she feels. I didn't interrupt her, and when she was finished, I didn't say anything. Then she asked me what's wrong. And I told her.

Since you have every right to feel what you feel and go by your standards that you set for yourself, I also have every right to have my standards and I have feelings also. And that if the shoes was on the other foot, I would never do that to a person and certainly not to you after all these years. But that's how you feel and I can't go or say anything about how you feel and you should do or feel the same way when I said you're aren't a friend. Then I told her not to call me any more. But if you do, I will not block you, I won't listen to your voicemail if you do leave a message. Friends don't do what you just did or said to me.

Of course she don't understand why I feel this way, some people never do. They don't think that way, they think only THEIR WAY and that's it. But I not angry or mad at her, just very disappointed in her and people like her who do things like she did. And those people I keep my distance from, I stay far away. In fact, I stay so far away, that I don't even speak to them any more. They don't exist, they stop exsiting to me period.

Hope she does well in life..as the way she sees it.