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...dislike dating. And it isn't even a so-called date, we are suppose to be just friends. But it's mostly my fault also. I had a 2 hr phone chat with her, found out quite a bit about her. First, she is spoiled and she wants her way ALL the time. She has been on the face of the earth longer than me...which means nothing. 2nd, she has learned nothing of her last past relationship. I saw this because when you text me at 2am telling me you're having a nervous breakdown, and I text you back words of support... Don't tell me in a text that sometimes you just want some one to listen & NOT give advice. What kind of shit is that to say. 20 minutes into our convo yesterday, I've come to the conclusion that she will get everything she deserves if she is still seeing this guy. Not hating or anything...but in fact.. fuck this. Was suppose to meet her for the movies & lunch, I'm going home. Called her 3 times went straight to voice mail. One last time, she don't...

I am trying to understand this whole biblical thing that relates to Easter...and its hard, even confusing. And don't tell me that I need to go to church today because I did early this morning. I took a shower at 4am and I spoke with God. ...and when He answered me, He told me all kinds of things that I should deal with today. In fact, He told me just how to go about doing them too. But I have to first see what the person I am going to meet today, see how her attitude is FIRST. I truly believe that we as people are placed on this planet for a reason. Some of us have the same reason and some are here for all other reasons. But I am not talking about that, I'm talking of something completely different. People come into our lives for a reason also. One of my rules are that if we meet at any time in my life and we hold a decent conversation, we exchange contact information. Doesn't me we have to stay in touch, but at least 3 times a year is good. In between those times we can ...

Just found out, after ALL these years I've been riding Metro North heading up to White Plains, NY.... I have been paying Peak Fares, instead of Off Peak Fares. So, do you think I deserve a refund? Hell, Peak Fares are $11.75 one way.

Listen, I'm not perfect and I certainly don't try to be.I have quite a few faults about me, one is my teeth. I don't harbor on it much, but its one thing I wish I could change about me. I don't want a lot of money, I don't need a good paying job, I want to have nice teeth. The out come of my teeth are and is my fault. I own up to that, as with much of everything I do, I own up to it. Be it good or bad and I did it, I will own up to it. Simple like that. If something goes wrong and I played a major role in it, 'I did it". What? You can't kill me over it, it isn't THAT deep...or is it? In that line of thinking, I know I can be an asshole. Rephrase that, a 'complete' asshole. It doesn't happen that much or even all the time, but I have been know to be assholish. Spell check wanted to change that word to 'abolish', go figure. I subscribe online to The Huntington something something, which they, the company owns AOL, it comes in my ...

Since T-Mobile is, and I wasn't aware of this, since they are trying to merge with MetroPCS, it seems T-Mobile is changing their whole structure. Next month new phones inluding the Iphone 5. Big deal right? Hell no. See TheT disappoint me when they discontinued carrying the SideKick. The only way was to get their data plan which I felt cost Gazillions of dollars. I was likingthe 1 dollar a day all access. I purchased an Iphone...now don't get excited, its a 3gs. Got it for 100 dollars and it was unlocked. What I wanted to do was jail break it. Only got it to use as another mp3 player and to install Cydia for the apps to use at home or on any free wifi. But I splurged. The T now doesn't hold you to a contract, so I went with the 2 dollar a data access plan. If I don't turn the phone on, I won't be charged. Sweet right? Let's see. 2 dollars a day times 30 comes to 60 fucking dollars a month. And what makes it so bad.. you turn the phone on, any app that talks wit...

It just came to me. With Google doing so much and everything they do is incorporated into ONE, that's right ONE log in password and email address...how secure is/are thweir servers? With China hacking into United States servers country wide, how easy would it be for some one to get into Google's servers. Today, NOTHING is secured. Google has a 2 tier sign in option, sends a text or phone call to your cell phone with a number you enter to cfontinue to sign in. I tried it for a day...why must I always go to my cell phone? That too isn't always that secured either. Bio metrics? A thumb scanner, better yet a 2 finger scanner? I don't know, but now that I think about it... Everything we do daily depends on computers, banking be the far most thing. And you can't hide from itand say you want no parts of it. Just try to be safe.

Just now came to me. I thought it was all about fun, true it is most of the time. But what I need.... is a person who causes me to use my mind, my thinking process. At work there iks only one person who does this and its The Head Chef. But at times...let's just say, he focuses on doing his job. With me I can work and hold a conversation at the same time. Like the Chef will go into talking with me about something and when I go to respond, he like...his eyes glaze over. Itshnot my responce, its his train of thought just drifts. Okay, when a woman wants to be just friendsI can go along with that. But, if as friends, she wants to go another step ahead, does she tell you? Hell no she doesn't. She expects you to know. WTF? I was told I should know. Her words...you have my home number & cell phone. You know where I live & been there late at night...how come you don't pick up on the signs? Answer...because I am a man, not a woman. So I laid it out all on the table for her...

I knew Google was a 'Power' to recon with when they came out with Gmail. Its unlimited storage on their email. For those who STILL are using ay other email clients....like Yahoo, STOP, get Gmail. Oh I have a yahoo email address, always had and always will. Its a throwaway email. Its used for only 3rdclient software that I test out and need a registration. Also, my Brackets for Marchh Madness & Fantasy Football is on their website. Just use Gmail, okay? Here is the deal, gmail has google voice. Voice use to be called something elase before Google bought the software or the company. But Voice gives you a number that you can call from straight from the email. Now its complicated, there is also a program within the email where you can call & text too, but that's a diffewrent number aslo. So you can call from the email program straight from your laptop if your laptop has a mic, otherwise use a plug in headset. Google also has Android, and Android is also powerful. Wait...

It snowed again last night. I have to say it looked great coming down. This morning, wasn't cold outside either. Weather is perfect so far. Short day at work, 5 hours. Funny though. I get the same amount of work done in 5 hours, like I do in 8. Note to self...slow down on those 5 hour days. Looking at reviews of something you are going to buy is okay. But, after you click that 'submit' button, end all searching of that product. Because if you don't, 9 times out 10 you're going to come across more bad reviews than good. Then, like how I feel now, I say to myself I should have NOT purchased it. I should have done a better search of the item and really paid attention to those reviews. I purchased an Android Tablet, 10 inch for under $150. Gonna use it mostly to remote access my laptop at home while I'm on the go and installa shit load of games. I saw a post on my Time Line on Facebook. It was by some famous NY DJ. Title I think is called Bad Bitches. What he expr...

See, I think I know what my problem is when it comes to dating or even having a girlfriend. The ones I wat to be with and want a lasting relationship with, don't know how to manage their time. I've spoke with them. Its that they keep the same pattern, doing the same thing week in week out. I really think they are afraid of change, but they want something different. Take Evelyn for example. She lives. A good 2 hrs from where I live by public transportation. I have no problem going to her home. I did on our fiirst meet face to face. Nice home..nice everything. But to keep up with what she is doing to maintain her style of living, she has to work 6 days a week. That one day off is take care of personal business. I told her, she has no time for me. I said if you just want a sexual relationship, I can give you that, but that becomes boring to me after a while, I want to show you off in public. She said no one ever told her that. Her too, a man fucked up her life at one time or anot...

Maybe its just me, but isn't it hard to come by good music. If there was no such thing as downloading music...guess the world would be a lot different. To me the only good music coming out today are 2 hr DJ sets of either Dance, Trance or and Breakbeat. I'm exploring though. Since I work withand around all types of people from different countries, I've taken to asking them what they like. Most of the names they are mentioning, I can't even pronounce more less write it out..neither can they. Found out about some female DJ from Russia, Lady Waks. She is playing live insome radio station. She talented, only thing is that she cuts in and speaks in her language, which I don't understand, but she has a good ear. Let me say this, and again this is my opinon. Some women, not all, have the intelligence of a broken door knob. So, we establish some sort of connection online, traded emails first. Then wanted to take it further, exchanged phone numbers. I sent her a text, when ...

In Brooklyn, NY a 16 year old was shot and killed by NYC's NYPD. This 16 year old was know as a Blood Gang member, and Police say he pulled a gun out on them. So, they shot and killed him. My feelings on the whole matter is this.... I could care less that he was shot and killed for one reason only... He was KNOWN as a GANG MEMBER!! On the news for the last couple of days, in Brooklyn thathave been protests, marches to the Police Station. Notice I didn't say peaceful marches. Groups of THUGSvwent into a local store chain and trashed the place. Plus, caught on camera, betting up on a customer. But no, the community says he was a good kid and he didn't have a gun a witness who say the whole thing. He probably did have a gun and or, the Police 'thought' and had every reason to believe he DID have a gun. Okay, so if the Police made a terrible mistake and shot him and killed him, it was just that, a mistake. But I don't think they did it on purpose. Listen, he was a...

You knew something was up when... The powers that Be, kept raising the prices of stamps. It use to be before you knew excatly when something was coming in the mail by your regular Post Office. Times have changed, let me explain further. Okay, I'm no Rocket Scientist, but I do know what I know. I do know that it was a matter of time before The Post Office as we all know it will fail to exsist. DHL, Fed Express and UPS will take over...eventually. some how they have, UPS being one of them. Ordering anything online, you, I always waited for that Brown Truck to show up. We made arrangements to try and be they, better yet, the driver would drop the package off with a next door neighbor. I order a lot online and I see this...this change is happening. Okay, you get a UPS Tracking number, track the package online. Lately what has been happening for me, UPS has been handing the package off to The Post Office for delivery. That's okay if you item is being sent shipping charges free, bu...

A person can search his or her entire life and never find what they are looking for. I am that person. Disturbing news. A friend of mine just text me and told me that she is going back to where she came from, Chicago. She left there in 1996. Oh, she doesn't live here in the 5 boroughs, she lives out on Long Island. She has 2 jobs, one she is about to be cut loose from...I think. So she won't be able to afford where she is living at on one paycheck. I called her and told her over the phone what the deal was, but first I asked did she want to hear my opinion. She said yes. She has 2 grown children living with her, a man, 25 years old and a woman, 33 I think. He works, she doesn't. It was her choice to live out there on Long Island, when living here in the city would have been a better option. But she I think is afraid of big city living. Rents are affordable, compared to what she is paying for a one bedroom now, $1,400 a month...and that's in a house, where the owners...

...I figuring it out more and more each day. That is what women want in a man, in their men. Sorry, Icant give them any of that, I'm no robot. Not saying that men that do ar2e robots, but.... Hell, half the time I don't know what I'm going to do until the last possible moment. Don't know why it works out that way, but it suits me just fine. Strange text conversation yesterday. It went from, can't wait to. See you again, to, will you look after my kids when I'm gone, dead. Hold da fuck up, what are you saying? What's going on.  Find out its nothing life threatening, but she thinks so. Where she lives at, the home owners are taking advantage of her with the rent, so she feels lost. People feel like being homeless is the end of the world, its not. Its a time for regrouping. Its a time to say to yourself, never again will I fall victim to another person's greediness. Moving on. Woke up this morning, 2am or so, checked email and found a coworker as me to fr...

I don't know what my fixation is with Vampires & Zombies. I guess its the who idea that the both just don't give a flying fuck about anything. Well they do care about some things. 1, Vampires, about blood. 2, Zombies about eating flesh. I thought it was brains, but I guess they have envolved. If I was a Vampire, there are certain people I would difinitly turn...all females, no males.

I know I repeat myself. Its not for others, its for me. And sometimes I continue to make the same mistakes over & over. Please, please be patient with me, God isn't finish with me yet. This morning, while standing on the platform, I noticed something about myself. A woman was walking down the stairs toward me. Pretty face, long hair and about the same age as I am. As she walked past, I noticed her butt, yeah I am man and human. She turnes around and looked me in the face. Asked did I like what I see. Told her yes and got her name and number. I will call her this afternoon. While riding the train, too many people & people be all up in ya face, so a conversation would be stressful for the both of us. Only proves one thing for me though. It proves that one she is single and takes very good care of herself. Isn't afraid to meet new people, comfortable with who she is. I don't know if she goes online, but from those few seconds, I can guess she doesn't...but maybe ...

Since I had to take The Long Island Railroad to get to where I had to get to, leaving the same way, I've notice some things. Neighborhoods. I can see the difference where Queens turns into Long Island. There are a number of differences, one being the obvious, the homes. Mainly its the backyards that come into vision. Mind you, the homes in Queens aren't shabby at all, but you can tell a lot about the people who live in these homes, by their backyards. Long Island backyards, they seem part of the house, where as Queens backyards, the owners seem to not really carevabout them. Its like they are being used just for storage of all types of things. Long Island backyards...clean, neat, like you can eat of the grounds. Nothing stored, everything in its place. Another thing, are the streets. Long Island, clean, I mean REALLY clean. Queens, they belong to the city, let the city clean them up. I guess home owners have different views on appearances when it comes to their homes. Pride,...